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#115

Day 16 no listening.

I think I’m going to go with Heartsong next cycle, in place of Primal, as planned. Heartsong just seems more suited to what comes up as my emotional junk yet. I resist doing Heartsong because I don’t want a soulmate, or have all these limiting beliefs around it. Which is why I’ve decided to just face the music and get started with it, next cycle.

I really want to do Primal but it’ll have to wait. I think Primal was the base I wanted but Heartsong healing is the base I need right now. I’ll stop putting it off and Primal seems like the more fun option but I’m sure Heartsong will do me a lot of good.

End of night update: It came to me that I can keep CWON and still bring Heartsong onboard next cycle. I’ll just drop new LB. I feel like Heartsong healing is more urgent for lack of a better word. I’d like to continue on with CWON. Heartsong and LB have crossover for sure and it still seems like I need to get started with Heartsong already. I’ve definitely done LB in the past and Heartsong is a title I’ve been putting off for at least a year now.

PS. Just finished reading through the threads again. I think I will move forward with Heartsong and CWON and KB 3 next cycle.

CWON and Heartsong might synergize to help me go deeper into discovering what I’m really about and what I really want.

Primal would just top things off and be the ultimate stack for me. But I’m on KB and that one isn’t going anywhere.

#116

Day 17- 15 mins new LB.

I have been making great changes. Sometimes it is so subtle that I’ve gotten caught up in thinking I need more. But luckily a self assessment has proven to me that CWON is still a great title for me. So that’s why I will continue it. I’ve also done the previous version of LB for like at least 4 cycles. So I’m just gonna dive in with Heartsong and benefit from some of that healing finally. I really wanted Primal but in 4 cycles I could once again decide to get on Primal. I think my next step would be like a Primal and EOG.

Evening update:

I came up with a hack for myself. I used to think taking caffeine before workout would get me to workout. Well I’ve since realized that I tend to procrastinate and instead of getting pumped and focused to workout I tended to spend that time scrolling mindless social media. So today I decided to start taking caffeine post work out if I feel like it. That way I can maintain the momentum and use that focus for things I need to get done. Or maybe reading,studying,learning.

End of night update: I think I’ve been going through some more healing effects of new LB. I was trying to come up with a way to stick with it. But after reading through the copy, I just think that Heartsong brings more to the table for me at this time. Focusing on relationships and connection and communication. It still has the self love component also and the much needed relationship healing.

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#117

Day 18 - no listening.

I’m still feeling solid in my decision to go with Heartsong, CWON, KB 3 next cycle. It’s finally a nice day again with great temperature, and I’ve seen some nice looking women wearing the summer clothes. So I think it’s a win either way if I go with Heartsong or Primal. It’ll be a fun summer I’m thinking.

Evening update: Having some thoughts of wanting to keep new LB in the mix. But I decided I’m keeping CWON because I’ve done 4 cycles, why not make it 2 more? LB I can definitely come back to and will. I think Heartsong is still the best course of action. Ideally it would have been new LB for 4 cycles and then Heartsong/Primal. But I still think Heartsong is the way to go, healing and fun in one package and in 2 more cycles I can bring on Primal or regular LB again if I feel the need.

End of night update: I realized I don’t have Love Bomb under my belt yet. I have at least 4 cycles of the previous version of LBFH under my belt! So I’m now bound to keeping my stack the same for 2 more cycles. Only change will be switching to KB 3 next cycle. At the time I was so excited about LBFH because I thought it was the ultimate self love title. I was looking for that self love/healing. That’s what new LB is.

I also came up with a solution for working out. I decided to start the simple and sinister program again. It’s just kettlebell swings and turkish get ups. I won’t be doing the turkish getups. Just the warm ups and swings. I only had 10 minutes until work but I was set on doing something. So I decided to do one set of the 3 warm up exercises. Then 1 set of swings. Then I realized I can do that every single day. It won’t make me sore, it’ll let me adjust slowly at whatever pace I want. I also need to focus on exercises to help my elbow tendon pain. So while I slowly build up my volume on the swings I can get my elbows up to snuff and pain free hopefully.

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#118

Day 19- 15 mins KB 2, 15 mins CWON.

#119

Day 20- No Listening.

I was having some insight yesterday. I’ve been feeling like I want to get back into the people world. But then I started realizing kind of why I left it and why I’m happy not being in it. I was seeing how maybe I didn’t want that after all, I mean, with all the social pressures and programming and resulting conflict and disharmony. I guess I do want a people world with more authenticity and free from the social programming and pressures. So I realized that yea, Primal is going to be a good title for me definitely. Just could be awhile. I do want to do stack new LB and Heartsong together.

I was doing some more reading on the forums. I decided to switch out CWON. I only have one of the updated titles in my stack now, new LB. So I think I will take Phoenix for a spin finally. I think there is some crossover with what CWON does in terms of emotions, but it probably expands on it. Even more, I want to be on the newest tech subs. So I’ll still get the bloom from my time off CWON. I’ll also get more of the NSE with Phoenix and that’s just going to clear my path for Heartsong or Primal in two more cycles.

But actually I will probably take my LBFH/DRLD custom for a 2 cycle run.

Evening update: Nope. I think Primal is the best choice. Primal will get me ready for Heartsong best. What really got me thinking Primal again is a post where somebody said they ran Primal and Phoenix for a few months and then the seduction titles worked better for them. But I’m going with LB and Primal and KB 3.

It just came to mind that I’ve had great periods in life. Before subliminals. So I may task my mind with reminding me what books, audios and things I was into during those times. That was before I had it in me that reading books multiple times is the way to really master the information and make it your own.

#120

Day 21- 15 mins KB 2, 15 mins CWON.

I’m leaning towards CWON, Primal, with KB 3. That stack of CWON and Primal is more attractive to me than Primal, LB. I think new LB might be the better title, but since I am on a 4 cycle streak with CWON, I’m going to keep it going.

#121

Day 1 of 5- No listening.

I don’t think I remembered this until now. I wanted to mention that the CWON gratitude scripting is showing lately. Not a lot but I do releasing as my inner work practice. Whenever I think about my job I’m starting to feel gratitude now and appreciating that I have a job. So that’s a shift in that dept. Opening the door to some financial manifestations even though I’m not running any titles focused on that. I did listen to the audiobook of The Science of Getting Rich like 30 times, so some of that helped to change my mindset as well.

End of Night Update:

I’m really looking forward to the sexy women manifestations from Primal. They’ve been almost non-existent since I dropped SSX out of my stack.

#122

DAY 3 No Listening

Nothing really to report. A pretty uneventful 3 days of no listening so far. No figuring out my stack. It’s still going to be CWON,New Primal, and KB 3. I will probably go to new LB in 2 cycles if CWON hasn’t been updated by then. I also could be tempted to try out Stark Black without fame experimental verison.

#123

Last day of 5 days no listening

Tomorrow will be the first day of my new 21 day listening cycle. I’m going to go with 15 mins of new Primal. I will only listen to it 1x per week. CWON stays and I move to KB 3.

Been feeling like it’s natural to take more action. I can see I still have improvements to make. I’m talking on the dating/social front. I will definitely be running Heartsong this year. Since I got into action more junk has come to the surface, nothing major but still has me eyeing Heartsong as soon as I can fit it in my stack. I want a few cycles of Primal under my belt first and in the mean time I’m sticking with CWON since I consider it kind of foundational for me.

#124

Day 1 15 mins New Primal.

Initial impressions: 15 mins of Primal 1x weekly will be sustainable. It doesn’t seem like it’s going to be a super heavy dense title yet. My first round of new LB was pretty smooth, so that tells me that I’ve laid a lot of the ground work as far as the deeper healing goes.

Evening Update:

Mostly just been feeling good today since listening.

#125

Day 2 - no listening.

Tomorrow will be my first loop of KB 3.

End of Night Update:

Last minute change. I’ve decided on going forward with new LB. So I’ll be dropping CWON. So tomorrow it’ll be 15 mins KB 3, and 30 seconds of new LB. I’ll stick with 30 seconds of new LB for this next cycle.

#126

Day 3: 15 mins KB 3, 30 sec. new LB.

I had lots of dreams last night. Definitely working through some things already.

I just listened maybe half an hour ago. I’m already feeling some of that new LB goodness from my 30 second listen.

Afternoon Update:

Had some anxiety come up when I went to the store today. Still feeling it. It’s not overwhelming and once again I’m reminded that it’s been awhile since I’ve felt anxious like this. So I chalk it up to my first loop of KB 3. To me it seems normal that I’d have some anxiety from diving into KB 3. Seems like it has some grand goals and objectives and it’s just part of the process. I feel like things are going to get interesting in terms of how people respond to me on KB3.

I’ve already started seeing some increased attention from the ladies today. I saw this nice looking woman drive by and she saw me looking and she just felt good and was smiling to herself. Then a little further down I passed a bar. I was looking the opposite direction at this park area. All of the sudden I picked up on her checking me out. She was sitting outside on the patio with her friends. As soon as I looked at her she just started talking to her friends.

The anxiety from earlier didn’t last long and didn’t hold me back from doing what I wanted.

Oh, and I don’t know how many younger blonde women I saw driving around today. I drive every day and I don’t even remember seeing this many blondes around.

End of Night Update:

I got to work and I was in the flow. It’s been awhile since I had a day where I was just locked in at work like that. It tends to happen when I first get back into keto after a layoff. That’s one of the things many people report when they get on the keto diet, increased energy and focus. I’ve been on keto for 4 days again. I’m doing my summer cut for 6 weeks and then I’ll see where I’m at.

#127

Day 4: No listening.

Went to the store again. The old cashier lady was having fun with me. I showed up on a cute chick’s radar, she was looking at flowers. So I’m already seeing more positive attention and attraction signals.

I also didn’t realize until I was almost home that I’ve had this song playing in my head. Kind of on a subliminal level. It’s some cheesy fun quirky song from like jr. high. Pretty Fly For A White Guy- The Offspring.

#128

Day 5: 30 seconds of KB 3, 30 seconds of new LB.

#129

Day 6: No listening.

End of night update: I’ve noticed at times my mind is a lot quieter again. Having some insights but haven’t sprung forth into anything I’ve wanted to journal about. Maybe keeping more for myself and less needing to be vulnerable or open for the sake of others. Seeing a bit more of the social game I guess. But maybe don’t have the words to describe it yet. Like when I was running SSX or maybe it was when I first started KB (around the same time), like I could just see and innately understand more from the sexual/energy perspective. Just maybe wouldn’t be able to put it into words.

This is right around the time recon would hit with zp v2. But since I’m microlooping new LB and keeping new Primal at 1x per week, I don’t think I’ll hit that recon.

On the workout front: I just started doing 2 sets of kettlebell swings. Not everyday but at least 4-5 times a week. Tonight was the first time for 2 sets. Going slow and consistent is great for me. It’s also helping me build up the habit again. After doing just 2 sets for the first time it kind of put a pep in my step. Like my body likes it and it’s going to actually improve my daily activity performance. I’m going to build up to 5 sets (each side) of 1 arm kettlebell swings (10 reps) but for now I’m going slow with adding 1 set per week of two handed swings until maybe 5 sets then I’ll start adding one arm swings.

I guess I did have some very slight signs of recon though. Today I was thinking of what to run after new LB. But it’s not really important since after this cycle I still have 2 more cycles with it in my stack.

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#130

Day 7: 15 mins KB 3, 30 seconds of New LB.

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#131

Day 8: No listening.

Been waking up from dreams a lot lately. Nothing too intense.

No recon so far. It was easy for me to forget about trying to come up with what to run next. I’ve also been noticing there’s more of the fun starting to bubble up from the unconscious. Like today I noticed oh I’m feeling a bit of that fun/positive stuff, and it was almost at a subliminal level, I almost didn’t notice it until I did.

I definitely feel like positive attention is once again rising. Also getting more interest from the ladies so I’m looking forward to things really getting good. Tomorrow is my second loop of new Primal.

#132

Day 9: 15 mins new Primal.

End of night update: Earlier in the day I felt a little raw. Very slight as though I was in some healing. I wasn’t even going to mention it.

Then I got to work and my favorite hot topic came up- an old breakup situation. It didn’t last long. Then I felt like I was in dark mode. Where it wasn’t dating bs coming up, it was just crappy people I’ve been around and dealt with in the past. I haven’t gotten into I don’t give an F mode yet, I got into don’t f with me mode.

But it was more grounded and solid- not like in the past where I’d end up having some sort of catharsis. This was more, even though I don’t use the terms, shadow integration. Like that protector of me kind of got integrated. Then after a few minutes I’d completely forgotten about it and was lighter, but not in bliss or happiness, more like it was just integration. Which is kind of new in my experience so far.

#133

Day 10: No Listening.

More dreams, I would chalk them up to more of the integration theme from last night’s update.

afternoon update: I think I’ll be on new Primal for the rest of the year for sure.

Evening Update: I’m kind of wishing I was in a place to use Inner Circle or have a custom with You Are Not Alone. I don’t have any genuine connections anymore. Where I live it’s kind of meet a woman and start a family and work all the time so just having friends to hang out with isn’t a thing the older you get. I don’t want a massive social life but just some true connections that I can call whenever, people who at least have time for me. I’m definitely open to trying out Daredevil in the future. I’ll probably want to go with Heartsong first. I still think that Heartsong healing is definitely next in line.

So yea I’d say some light healing going on. I would say it’s whatever is in opposition to new LB’s scripting being dealt with.

#134

Day 11: 30 seconds KB 3, 30 seconds New LB.

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