No listening
One of the things i gotta do is wait for a deli ery person in the am. Theyre not always exact time. So it could leave me with an hour of just waiting.
Today I have pre-workout vibes. Haven’t had any caffeine yet and wanna get i to the workout. But gotta wait. My workout room is in the basement so I wouldn’t know they’re here.
Also have a really inward directed sense of fulfillment today. Like I didn’t want to do the usual doom scrolling or social media scrolling that I would normally go to. But I can also feel there’s some work to be done yet. Still some of the seeking external stimuli and approval stuff. I think that’s where these sort of sad feelings have been coming from. Very light today though.
I’ll be going over the Primal thread today. With the idea of keeping myself in alignment with the title’s and my goals. teamwork.
Well, I see the benefits of continuing with new Primal. I may need to update my Name Embed and add Sultan. Definitely Doable.
Daaamn. I think I’m working through the bottom of the barrel feelings ever since I settled back to earth from my latest K energy blast through. It’s like sadness and almost tears at times, but no tears. So it’s probably my earliest feelings I guess. That’s why it’s not like I can go it is because of this or this. There’s no story. I can make it about women, or friends, kind lonely vibes. But sitting here and writing this, the sense is it’s that sense of not having true connections. Kind of as I get older and more evolved, it’s that kind of sense of knowing but knowing others don’t know. Seeing but seeing that others can’t see. That kind of vibe.
I think it’d be prime material for Heartsong and Brotherhood to work with. Add in Alchemist, and maybe that’d be my ideal stack for now. But since the stuff is coming up already, my current stack is helping me work through it. Even True Social would probably help out.
Earlier today when I woke up, I was so internal that I was like maybe I don’t want Emperor Reforged. Because it was a big difference. Yet I’m sure it’d be a great title.
I want to add Sultan to a NE PS. But for now I’m wishing I could maybe do Love Without Attachment. I do feel that adding in some kind of money component will definitely expand my opportunities and boost my life for sure. Yet, I’m still sort of drawn to, well I gotta get this internal world shored up since that’s always what it comes back to.
But I keep in mind that since the gunk is surfacing, that my current stack is already helping with it. So if I could just fine tune it, that’s the most important thing. So Sultan or Love Without Attachment. lol. Or even Attachment Destroyer, I haven’t tried that one yet I don’t think.
I just read the Attachment Destroyer module copy…Well, since I’ve had a shift where people are more on my side instead of hating on me. Love Without Attachment might be what I’m after. Haha, that’s probably what I need actually, Love Without Attachment. Even though I feel like I don’t really get attached, there’s probably that deep, buried stuff, and that’s what’s been surfacing lately.
Alright, just ordered a PS name embedded with Love Without Attachment module. So that’s what I’ll be moving forward with.
I had some experience with eye contact play today. I forgot that was in PS. Those recon bouts are worth it. Get new surprises and unlocks.
The experience points rack up though. Lately I tend to focus on who I naturally have chemistry with, rather than trying to make something happen. I think it’s also about energy conservation. I don’t feel I have to chase and waste my time. I get chemistry with hot women, and it’s also not a priority. Just like a fun thing that happens.
I saw a post that said the male body produces the most testosterone in the months of Oct. and Nov. because we head into those survival months of winter. If anyone lived where I live before modern times, it was definitely brutal and almost wonder how they survived in those conditions kind of thing. I dunno if that’s true or not, but I didn’t research more. It just makes sense for me. My winter stack has been Spartan Apex and I’ve even though about Survival Instinct for the winter. My mindset is kind of that those are the toughest months, just dealing with the weather. Temps so cold your car may not start, or if it breaks down when you’re out and about. Always gotta wear that winter gear just to go out.
This year I’ve got Beast Unleashed. So far I do like it. It was nice to have that pre-workout feeling to start the day. That will help keep me on track with workouts. It will probably help me find the ideal times to workout. But that first boost feeling was definitely in the morning, which isn’t always most convenient for me to workout.
And what?! My name embedded PS is already available after a few hours. So I can get my first listen tomorrow.
