Day 17: 2m ne primal & ne ps
It seems I may have broken the attachment to this one woman.
Also feeling pretty good. Starting the day off feeling good. I’d forgotten about that. So for now I feel like I may have leveled up and broken the recon. Though more to come! Lol.
I think it was yesterday. I was feeling like I had more status than the woman i was stuck on. Even though she has more real world successes and network. I still had this internal sense and knowing that my status was higher. Which is where i need to be anyway. Not overconfidence but just kind of being in my masculine power. I am somebody who historically hasnt always had that sense, in my version i always had the anxiety.
Back still sore. Did the back pain workout yesterday. So will keep doing that. Have been doing the self traction thing daily. I can tell I’ll want to build that back and core strength for the stability. By the weekend I should be pain free I’m thinking.
Have some slight anxiety today. Yesterday as well. I think it’s the kind from getting rid of the old. A part is used to having the old junk and also a slight anxiety about success. Lol. We don’t know what it’s like to be free of the old yet. Lol.
Anxiety didn’t last. No signs of recon at all today. If anything I’ve had boredom come up. My social media scrolling doesn’t have anything to distract me from. So I feel bored at times. Which is good. There is space. So maybe I’ll start reading more or something.
Well. I seemed to have inadvertently unlocked some energy again. Nothing major so far. I do have the frequency sounds in my ears. And that has been an indicator when the energy starts flowing again. Gotta work on that crown yet. So I’m hoping it’s just a minor thing. It’s a good thing but it’s been so rough when it has gotten really active that I’m a bit apprehensive at the thought of having to go through some major stuff again. It’s been disruptive to my life. But I never was able to have a normal life anyway. Lol.
Didn’t get to finish my workout today. Did walking and mobility. Had half sleep. I slept four hours and stayed up about an hour and got three more hours. So that wasn’t ideal. Today would have been a day to just do it all at once. Usually I do walking and mobility. Then I do the main workout a few hours later.
My arms are looking good again though. Triceps especially popping again. Still not back on keto. I’m planning to start next week, lol. Looking forward to that energy boost that I get when I start keto after a break.
So i just played oblivious. Haven’t seen many hot women lately. Like i said, i probably need to go after normal work hours to see all the people nowadays. Or on weekends.