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Day 6

Like four hours of sleep. Feeling alright. I definitely got energetically ugraded. Just have to deal with some weirdness until it’s fully integrated and grounded again.

I want to continue PS. I really like this stack. First stack that I have no desire to switch off from.

It’s just that now I might get some wild results. I think if I can learn boundaries and whatever to keep the wildness under control, i’d like to keep at it. I think i still have some hangups and ps can help to clear that up.

I looked in the mirror today, and my physique has improved. Just a few days ago id noticed how my arm definition was dwindling. Ive taken a month off keto but haven’t had a huge appetite this week. And i havent even gotten back in the groove with my workouts. Just 20 mins of daily weight vest walking. and working and i think i only got one day of mobility work and thats it.

Another round today. Kinda bored with it and would like get some sleep. Haven’t gotten the second nap in yet. I gotta say when the second round of e flow came on yesterday, when it got the tip of the head it was actually a sort of heavenly experience. I know after i get a nap in it seems to settle and get back to normal for a bit. Now after i type this feels very pleasant on top of my head. But still, id like that nap lol.

Had a little fear come earlier. Mind wanted to try me again. So i think thats why im kind of over it now lol.

Alright now we got some love and joy and really great cooling sensations going on. Lol at me doing a play by play since i cant sleep and social media is a bit overstimulating.

Havent tried inner spa yet. But yea id call this experience an inner spa. Just good stuff.

Ended up falling asleep. Now I’m just cranky. Sometimes it gets a bit tiring for sure. It is what it is I guess.

Now to check off those chores that i been putting off all week.

I would say I’ve been a bit irresponsible. Maybe Ive been the fool card, lol. Perhaps I oughta consider trying out that new Ascension. GLM would be a great choice also. Maybe I need to set PS down for now. 🤷🏻

I was telling somebody that this thing I’ve been going through is really like a rebirth. I don’t think I had a choice in the matter though. It’ll just keep at it until it is done with me.

My past experiences in life make so much more sense. Now that I’ve seemingly pinpointed what has been happening to me. Basically being destroyed. I’ve always been the caterpillar in the cocoon.

I also think Khan Black would be a safe bet. I ended up basically abstaining from “release” for, not even sure how long. It was months and months and pretty effortless. I’ve been like a kid in a candy store on PS. I guess I have some maturing to do there. Being about one woman and that tru love thing… which does leave Heartsong as a possibility.

Welp. Finishing off the night with another round of this energy traveling up the spine. This one feels more full and definitely pleasurable. Moving through the heart right now. Its actually nice but yea, all the purification or you could say recon can be a bit challenging at times. Plus i hear some people might have the thing in one go, and others it may just be a lifetime process. I think this is my third time. First two were rough. I think this one i’ll get through without major issues. It is what it is man. It wasn’t something I ever tried for. So yea first one was new years 2020. Then had one in 2025. Now just a year later im getting another round. This one going way better.

Above the top of the head again. Not so much heavenly feeling this time just feels good man. Still working its way up and through. I could get used to this. And its funny because i may have to go help a housemate as this happening. Lol just as i type that the love is hitting the heart again as well.

Yea, not convenient this thing that’s happening. I don’t wanna be around people. Was experiencing aversion to being focused on too much. Which is understandable since I’m so tired and this is still new to me as far as what is taking place and what it’s gonna be.

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Day 7

6hrs of sleep. Nothing profound to speak of yet.

But i do have the sense that any of the crazy stuff will blow over if it hadn’t already.

I do have a sense that I had to move through a lot of lust. But now my connections might be more focused on authenticity, rather than just led by lust. I like that.

Seem to have gotten my inner love bomb back also.

I feel like maybe PS is too much fun for now. Summer is winding down. Maybe I’ll take longer of a washout and perhaps go for Alchemist. Seems like that’d be best. Just with some of the things I’ve found to be challenging. Got a taste of fun again and all that. So maybe try to get at what it is that I think will benefit me the most on a more practical, every day level. Which is funny that it might be Alchemist.

After reading the alchemist description, i feel like thats the journey im already on.

Also wish I had a place I could be in solitude as this process is unfolding. Makes things a little uncomfortable.

Having another round of the e flow. At least i know when i head to work it’ll settle down. If i gotta do stuff it settles down until i get back to resting. Still kind of tiring just because i only got 6 hours of sleep and 4 the night before. But i get short naps here and there.

For now its like a big thing for me is learning to keep my energy grounded. But since this thing was happening it seemed to have a mind of its own. It was like before i didnt have to try to do anything. Thats what was so cool about Primal. I suppose its just matter of riding out the waves and i’ll be back to normal or better.

For now i’ll just keep at the washout. Could be a two week washout.

Just seems like a bit of a hassle u til it runs its course and im back to normal. The base of the spine energy is a bit sexual and yea, i dont think its a normal thing. Most people probably wont have to go through it. Its so challenging because its just not part of western culture. So if it does happen people can have hard times because their mind maybe cant make sense of it.

Definitely seems to be a good thing its just that as it flushes the junk out, it just can be a tough recon experience.

Im kind of struggling with having to drop PS from my stack. With this latest round of energy rising in me. Just seems like it causes me some hassles. Like I said, it’s too fun. I gotta look for something more tame or at least gentle and grounding lol.

Learning to stay calm and grounded is my main goal now. So thats the sort of just being beingness lol. Not that I necessarily want to. Its like i almost have to relearn how to be in the world again. But it hasnt settled yet so yea, still unfolding.

Had some clarity and effortlessness come through. Now i have some anger coming through lol. Anger still hasnt been a big one for me. Mostly has been that fear anxiety stuff, my biggest struggle.

So with this latest rising experience. I looked up some stuff. And i guess lack of energetic boundaries can be a thing while also having increased energy sensitivity. Seems to be my main issue this time. Didnt have it previously.

Previously the mental fear and anxiety got the best of me. But that hasnt happened this time. Its more of a just being over it and lets get the show on the road vibe. But i know its not something i get to just turn off. Plus they seem to go on for a few days. Prolly lucky i didnt have the full blast through the first time. So this latest one, i refer to it as one even though the energy flows through like multiple times a day at least from what i perceive.

More head pressure now. So id guess that was the headached id had when i woke up the other day. Before i knew the rising was started up again.

Just funny again be ause now i gotta order food for the housemates and i get to see the delivery person. But maybe it’ll be settled again by then.

Found some info i hadnt had before of symptoms. Overstimulation and some light mood swings. Even got spontaneous sexual stimulation which is also a new one this time. Might not even be PS related.

And now i have diarrhea. Hows that for a good time. My stomach felt like that was brewing since this all started so havent had much of an appetite. Surprising benefit, seems to be keeping my energy grounded since now i have that to focus on. Lols

And the kicker, the delivery guy was from one of those shitty jobs I worked about 5-6 years back. Wait. more than that it was pre lockdown era.

Decided to just get back letting go. Seems I’m back to normal pending some good sleep. I don’t care if I have another one of the energy risings. It’s not complete though. So that tells me there are more down the road. For me it was like a concentrated ride with alchemist from reading the description. Learned some new things just from experience. So tentatively I’m saying it’s over. But the sort of high pitched frequencies just started in the ears again. And when i lay down at bedtime it could kick in again. Seems when im at rest is when it starts moving up and through again. Just really cool but tiring experience overall. Do not recommend trying to make it happen tho. I think purifying and letting go is more important. Plus if it does happen it’ll make it go smoother.

I will say as i get to bed, im noticing a really nice sensation in my heart. Maybe this is what it feels like after the junk is all cleared out. Sort of a softness. im sure after sleep i may notice more new things. Lol its almost like a buoyancy id say. Wild.

One more note. Heart and root got the deepest clearings this time around. So far from what i can sense anyway.

Well she started back up again. So maybe i’ll be up late again. This one was almost feeling creepy. Starting at the base of the spine, where it starts and its powerful but id say slow and deliberate uncoiling and rising. Just not something im used to as a straight man having pleasure in that area. Just saying. Lol.

Guess the channel had to be cleared or something now the energy is picking up steam. Lol. And now im pretty much wide awake again.

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Day 8

6 hours of sleep. A lil tired yet. First thing I notice is how much more quiet my mind is. Still some junk but yea. I can definitely work with this.

Now that things seem back to normal. I will continue my stack as is. Just going to take maybe 2 weeks off. After all that I just wanna give things a little extra time to settle.

Well, still have some energy stirring going on. So mebbe not done quite yet. Its been like oh it must be done for awhile again. Then i feel slightly upgraded. When im ready to just be normal again another pass comes through.

Boring sundays are the best. Had a bit of an energy surge to knock out my work with no breaks. Then some leisurely driving to relax and get some wide open spaces and nature.

I dont know what that is, when i went through these things theres like a point where reality seems to shift. So i dunno if thats cuz all this energy is flowing through or what. But it’s a trip. ive never done psychedelics but maybe its that kind of thing.

anyone wanna trade spots? i mean i could use a little break. lol.

After getting settled in and eating some dinner. I felt pretty good finally. I was able to sit and visit with one of the housemates with a pretty quiet mind and at ease in myself. That was really nice. So possibly we’re finally finished up for a bit. But it is bedtime now, so who knows.

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Day 9

Like 3 hours of sleep and i actually feel alright. Having the energy flowing and cleared out must have done something. I would prefer to get normal sleep but i should be alright for today. Maybe I can catch a nap or two later. Just feeling a lot more clear. Prolly need a few days to
Really settle back down into the whatever just happened.

Whew. Was able to get like 2 more hours of sleep.

Just up from another nap. Still have movement happening. A bit cranky and over it again. Yea. So hopefully it’ll finish up soon. Kinda would like to be able to get back to a little doomscrolling. Been staying off socials mostly. Thought this would be wrapped up until next time already. So more allowing i guess. It is what it is, lol.

Ok so there seems to be a heat channel and a cool channel. I woke up from the nap and the heat channel was doing its thing. Now the cooling channel is active. Thats the inner spa channel id call it. Definitely feels nice. Umm yea. Still just riding the waves i guess. Lol.

Well there are actually 3 channels. The main spinal one then u got a hot channel and a cold one. For whatever reason everything is still cycling through for me.

If i had a choice, i’d be like i’ll just keep the inner love bomb and i dont think i need whatever the heck the rest of it is. But it seems to have decided nope, we gonna keep at it.

That reminds me I have not done any physical activity today. Well i got it in at work yesterday. But like my workouts, i was hoping to be back on track there. Ive just been walking 10-20 minutes a day and my work gig for the past couple weeks.

I might run KB after i start up a run again. I feel like after all this experience, I could use some help mastering the new boost in energy. Especially the sexual. I think it would help me transmute it and ground it out. But it was kind of a getting a deep flush out and now my energies are cleaned and upgraded. Now just have to settle in to a bit of a new existence i guess.

Or maybe I continue on my current stack as is. Still havent gotten the point where things have been normal for a few days. I think if i get a week of “normal” then id start back up a cycle.

I feel like the most valuable stage of kb, for me, is stage 1. Just to clean up on the more mental side of things. At this point i dont think i need the further stages.

What’s crazy is there probably is a bit of guilt, shame, and fear in my mental about sex and sexuality. It was just kind the culture i grew up in. Poor programming and yea. What else is new? Lol.

I guess I’m just feeling a bit raw after the past few days. Lots of good stuff though. So I hope I’m moving on to the integration phase.

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Day 10

Processing some fear overnight it seems. Was woken up from a few nightmares. Think one or two of my friends who passed may have been there, possibly. Good sleep, not yet. Certainly not as much as i’d like. Could another new day in store.

Started the day doing some small chores. Just had the urge to do some cleaning around the house. Then I walked for 20 mins with the weight vest. Really got a great sweat from that, lol. Now I’ll get some mobility on. Feeling a bit better.

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Day 11

Got some sleep in. Having the stomach issue once again. It’ll pass.

Yea, not sure when I’ll start up another cycle. I could maybe start up just for fun. But yea, also toying with the idea that I reached the point where I don’t need subs anymore. Never thought I’d be one to say that.

I was really in the flow today while out driving. My mind was starting to get the best of me. Had me in fear. So I had to het out of the house for a drive. Felt too connected to others and just in a nice zone or flow state.

Then awhile ago this energy started up again. This is its most powerful push so far. I really thought it was done. But it seems to be going for a full rise this time. And my mind just almost got the best of me with fear. I didnt’t realize this process was still ongoing. I dont recommend trying to raise it. Mine just seems to rise a bit do some house cleaning and seem to remain dormant again until next time. But heavily working the head area now. Yea its just such an experience that you might not even know what is happening and end up in crisis mode.

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I’m gonna say day 30 off, close enough.

Welp, that uhh Dark night of the soul aspect is mind blowing. That purification of the psyche is brutal man. So yea I wouldn’t recommend you awaken your kundalini, you might think you’re ready but it can turn your whole world upside down. I mean losing jobs, friends all that kind of stuff.

Anyway mine hasn’t quite been completed but it reached the crown finally. I did not choose the kundalini, the kundalini chose me. So with that I think I’m ending this journal and doing one for Primal, PS, and LOTS. That’s what I plan to continue.

I really should use DRR because if I have another energy rising round, my goodness. The smart move would be to drop everything and hope that DRR would be enough prep for my potentially final round.

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One thing that’s new this time. With the k energy. Is that during the times it becomes active i dont sleep much. This time it seems to be sticking where im only sleeping 4-6 hours of sleep, even after it has run its course for the time being. It could stay “dormant” for a year or more. That’s just my individual case though.Not feeling worse for the wear. I’d expect that to go back to normal eventually. Which is 7-8 hrs sleep.

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Listening Day 1 of 30: 1m20s NE Primal & PS

Getting back to it. Fell completely off the workout wagon. Back to square one. Basically my whole life fell off the rails for two weeks. No blaming subs at all. Got this other process that’s been ongoing since new year’s 2020 for me.

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No Listening

Decided to keep this journal going. For the sake of continuity.

4 hours of sleep again. Seems to be my new normal. I will probably be able to get a very short nap in most afternoons. I guess it’s fine as long as I’m no worse for the wear.

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Listening Day 2: 2m25s NE LOTS

5 hours of sleep. Really felt like I turned a corner and got a full night’s sleep, finally. Haha!

Napped for a couple hours. So indications are that my sleep may be returning to my normal 7-8 hrs finally. It’s been like a month. I was just getting used to the idea of not needing much sleep anymore.

My energy healing type abilities don’t seem to be there anymore. But the love bomb effect remains. Others can feel it too. So that’s kind of the main upgrade that has stuck after my latest energy rising experience.

I would guess I’m more in integration phase now and returning to more baseline existence. Just upgraded. I do think it’d be easier to learn things like energy healing though. Might take practice instead of it just being there like during those energetic peaks.

There is still an interesting quality to my heart after that amazing heart clearing I received. I think it’s potentially healing even for others. I’ve yet to fully integrate and get back into the swing of normal life. And it’s not like I have to try to send love. Just is kind of effortless. So whatever that heart clearing was during the energy rising seems to be the main upgrade. I’m hoping I can tolerate any future energy risings. I mean without the dark night of the soul, intense psyche purification.

I have yet to get paid from my job. I missed 2 weeks of work, luckily kept my job. But now they’re not answering emails about my check. lol. Kinda funny because they’re like psychology degree types. They seem to be no different than anybody else. Still have their own bullshit and egos still intact. lol. I know a few times over the years, I get some attitude out of nowhere in emails. Oh well, I will get paid. Luckily got myself taken care of in that dept for now. Could have been very bad but things worked out there. Like that money safety net still seems to be there to save me from any disasters. I would of course like to get into the abundance of not having to worry about that kind of thing. Like, a 6 month emergency fund would be a start.

My body temp is high lately, I mean my perceived sense. So my metabolism is in high gear. To me that’s always something I want, especially with a few pounds to lose. I wasn’t able to work out for 2 weeks at all. My first work out today. My muscle tone is back already. Thought I’d gotten a little skinny and lost my muscle tone. But a few days of the creatine and my supplements has me looking good. I do wanna trim up the torso though. Kind of my pet peeve area, always has been. Like dang, I gotta wear a compression shirt with certain shirts, only because I get that nipple action. That bugs me with certain shirts, not a good look in my book. lol.

I just don’t have the motivation to get back to keto yet. I did find that I can drop weight on just reduced calories. But after about 2 weeks I just don’t like it. I get hungry. With keto I can eat more and feel full, even though I don’t get to eat everything, no carbs.

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No Listening

4.5 hrs sleep. So not quite back to normal sleep. I will either go back to sleep or get a long nap later in the day. But i stay up for a couple hours after I wake up.

I feel like a lot has been cleaned up for me. I must have purged a lot of lust. Haha. Now I just love being surprised when there’s chemistry with a woman. Not looking for it just sort of happens.

Hibernation mode may have started for me. Got my 7 hours plus a nap later. Feel like I now have some sleep to catch up on.

I got a full work out in yesterday. No soreness at all today. Sometimes the soreness doesn’t hit until 2 days later for some reason. Been running errands and waiting for someone at their appointments today. Really just tired out finally. Will still try for some kind of a workout. Maybe just cardio.

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Listening Day 3: 1m25s NE Primal and PS

Just had a thought. It doesn’t make sense for me to want the stress of calorie cutting and being on a cut right now. Especially after the month I just had. It’s more about rest and recuperating and just getting back to the basics of daily life. So I can’t get down on myself for not having the discipline or whatever to get back to keto and try to drop a few lbs.

Did not sleep well last night. A few nightmares and I was wide awake after. But I slept in today. Seems I’m gonna get back to a normal 7-8 hours nightly after all. Still not quite there yet but getting that amount of sleep between night and naps.

I really want to get my sleep back to normal. And so I’m not cranky. Then I can see what my new baseline is. I’m in the catch up on sleep, so I can be cranky at times phase now. lol.

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No Listening

Finally got back to my normal sleep. I haven’t even bothered to try and calculate the hours. I feel alright from whatever sleep I got.

That Monday workout felt great. But since then I’ve only gotten my steps in. Just really in hibernation mode. So I’ll try for 2 workouts this week. I’ll hit that Friday workout.

Still feeling hot very easily. I’m not claiming sub recon or anything. I’m still not even talking about subs. Just my unfolding experience after this latest energy rising.

I’m finding that I’m having to transmute all this sexual energy that I sometimes get. It’s definitely from the energetic awakening stuff more than the subs. It’s not all the time, but definitely I have some transmuting to do. It’ll just become my new habit I guess. Perhaps, that is what gave me such challenges during the active phases of this awakening process. I wasn’t doing that because quite frankly, I didn’t know how. It’s still almost an intuitive thing for me.

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Listening Day 4: 2m30s NE LOTS

Haven’t bounced back yet. Still in hibernation mode without all the extra sleep.

Gonna try for that workout anyway. Caffeine isn’t helping the cause either. I was really hoping to be at my new baseline. I would expect maybe next week I’ll be good to go.

Feeling a little bit of that lonely vibe tonight. lolol. Been at least a month. It’s just that all the people I’d be friends with don’t live in my state. I don’t know how I’d be able to travel and live since I don’t have lots of money. So still some stuff to work through there. However, it does give me some energy to channel into a workout. I can overpower the lethargy and tiredness now.

To me it’s kinda funny. I just had this crazy experience. Basically flipped my world upside down for 30 days. Now I’m finally getting back to normal life. And still have some of the same things to deal with, lol. That heightened energy state really made life interesting during the first half, which was all good, spreading the love and stuff, and then it went dark night of the soul, intense psyche purification which pulled the rug from under me. But it still wasn’t boring or lonely. lol.

Gas is so high again, I can’t do my normal thing which would be just to take more long drives. I have to conserve there. But really time to get back to the workouts and my letting go practice. My bread and butter. Since I know the potential for amazing experiences is there, and it just seems to be a matter of removing the junk in the way.`

lol. Went to the office to check if my check was ready. Nope. Still haven’t replied to my emails. So I have to plan for them not even paying me until this month is over now.

Tried talking to my family member, and just completely blew me off. Not even interested in anything I had to say. Just asked me to get something for them. ahaha. I dont’ take it personal. But man. lol. If anything it’s just humorous to me. Like the old cosmic joke. ahaha. After all I’ve been through, and it’s the same old bs. It just doesn’t hit me very hard. Just makes me laugh if anything. So yea, I guess I still have some groundwork to do. Not sure what to do. I’m not exactly interested in putting in the long hours and stuff to make that money. I’ll just keep trudging at it with my stack and I’m sure things will continue to progress for me in one way or another.

All of the sudden my algorithm is showing me things about good luck. So that’s really out of the blue. Just taking note…

Just interesting. In the same day I have great chemistry with a hot exotic woman, and the very same day some random okay chick I wanted to check out just blows me off as I’m driving by. lolol. No reaction from me, I just kind of see the playing field. I don’t take that thing personal, just another thing that entertains me and makes me laugh.

Had to put my auntie on mute for 30 days. After I posted some stuff, I’m all about raising the consciousness and frequency. Sort of breaking the matrix vibes. I know I don’t get to change others. I can just plant the seeds. But she goes on with NPC type emotional and fear content. I don’t argue, just hit that mute button. lols.

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No Listening

Ahahaha. It gets me everytime! Whenever I hear a woman say under her breath, “I love him.” Lololol referring to me.

Decided to pick up my copy of Reframing. To read as my latest bathroom reader. I think reframing fits my style. Since I’ve kinda been a one liner humorous guy at times. It seems like it will be a great addition to my knowledge base and reference points for dealing with people. Without having to overstrategize. It seems more how I operate, in the moment, spontaneous.

Feel like my creativity is still there. Where I can channel my feelings from experiences into the written word. I always did find that to be a more natural mode of expression. At least for my creative expression. I just haven’t crafted anything in so long. It’s just this journal, and there’s really no art to it, lol.

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Listening Day 5: 1m30s NE Primal & PS

I wish I was in the prime of Primal and PS days. No updates and all I have is my own experience. Which is fine because it will be different experiences for each individual.

I was depressed at work today. Basically for my entire life I’ve been easily overstimulated. I hadn’t realized the profound transformation I was embarked on. Now I’m considering that maybe I actually require more stimulus. Perhaps, the super hermit, solitude phase is potentially over.

My k seems to be active again. Feels pleasurable. So maybe that depression today triggered some clearing activity. I was kinda hoping I’d get maybe a year break. But this last run seemed to almost fully awaken it. So it may be close to a completion. All 3 channels were definitely active a few weeks back and it reached the crown. I’m just hoping I don’t get another life disruption. Just felt like I was settling back into normal life and my job again. So I’m a bit cautious if it gets active again. I guess all I can do is take it easy.

Ok. After a few mins of pleasure in the root. It seems to have a clear path to the crown. Got some sensations in my crown now. Almost the cooling type stuff. So yea. I’m a bit cautious. Gonna try for a nap but the post work iced coffee might have something to say. Lols.

Alright. Whatever that was was pretty gentle and uneventful. Research says the cooling at the crown is just working on the crown. Maybe a little touch up and i dont have to worry about the trauma master blaster marathons anymore. Thankfully. Whew.

It seems i should be working the who or what am i? But im still feeling the regular letting go stuff. Havent felt that pull for the who am i? Self inquiry stuff yet. Im feeling grateful tho. All indications are that im final phase. And to me that means i’m done with the worst of it. So yea. Kinda just want to enjoy life again for now.

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No Listening

No get up and go. Yet I feel good. Still just tired and don’t want to do anything.

Gonna have to willpower the workout today. And then keep doing it just to rebuild the exercise habit.

I dunno. Maybe it’s time to experiment and try out the beast unleashed. Could be the ticket to smash this lethargy wall.

I think that’s the plan. Beast Unleashed will replace NE LOTS. Plus maybe the physical shifting isn’t appropriate for a month or two.

Well. After doing my mobility work. It does seem as though it’s just a practice of will power again. Just getting into action and doing it, more than the tiredness is stopping me…

A test of beast unleashed is still quite attractive. Would also get one of the upgraded titles back in my stack.

I was looking in the mirror. And I am looking slightly more muscular already again. This from zero weight lifting or resistance training. Besides a couple band exercises I do as joint mobility. lol. So I gotta decide do I wanna switch or just stick with it. I think I will switch tho. That energy stuff and will power boost is definitely needed. Gotta get back on the horse after a month off.

A wee bit deconditioned. But the workout felt good. It really is a matter of will power for the time being. Caffeine doesn’t seem to be helping. So that’s why switching over to Beast Unleashed for a test run is happening tomorrow. I’ll start with a micro loop of 30s of course.

I’m a bit weary in that Love is my primary thing. So it’ll be interesting to see how, or if, Beast Unleashed has any effect on that aspect. I wouldn’t expect it to since I would say Love is one of the most, if not, primal, primary “energies.”

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Day 6 listening: 30s Spartan: Beast Unleashed

Finally got around to trying Beast Unleashed. Only got 6.5 hrs of sleep. A little headache. Tired but ran some errands after some morning caffeine. Hopefully a nap will happen later today.

Still very much happy with Primal and PS. Just adds that extra whatever to my experience. I still think I require more time to really unlock the potential yet. But still fun nonetheless.

Moving to Beast Unleashed seems like the right move. I just need to get my go power back. Was just really tired today. No workout. Got a long nap. Going to bed early.

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No Listening

Felt pretty spiffy to start the day. Got enough sleep. Still hit the wall at 3pm. That used to be normal for me. A 3pm wall. Which is weird because that’s typically when I’m doing my workout. And I also had procrastination probs with working out. Still working out some kinks I guess. Maybe it is a do it first thing to start the day. But, typically, I run my errands first thing in the day and have some other responsibilities which mean that’s not actually possible. To workout first thing after waking.

On first impression I’m not excited about new True Sell. So no FOMO for me. If I actually had a job in sales, then I’m sure it’d be more useful for me. The previous version is still attractive though to me.

It’s just a matter of how long do I want to run Primal and PS. lol. So far I’m planning to finish out the year for sure. And the longer out the trajectory goes, the closer to the updates for Primal and PS are. lol. I could see running all of next year on Primal and PS. Unless I get some sort of “normal” job where I’d have to be around people.

I did notice that spotlight effect yesterday. But I was also cranky and really tired. But yea just very aware of a lot of attention on me. Even had one chick with her kid at the store, get really into me upon first seeing me. Kinda felt awkward for me. Just due to me not being at my best at that time. But normally any extra attention doesn’t bother me and everything feels natural.

I feel like I"m really embracing being me more. Which also means being more polarizing. So there’s a chance that other people will be off put and offended. But to me it comes down to it not being about me. If somebody gets offended that’s more to do with them than anybody else. But of course nobody knows that. So we get kind of forced to play that game. That oh I offended you and so I have to change my behavior. Rather than become unoffendable or actually understanding where that source truly is. But that kind of inner insight is again, not welcomed, understood, or accepted by the masses.

For me it comes down to this. There may be people who just aren’t going to like me no matter what. There’s also people that I’m not going to have anything to do with as well. From my perspective that’s not personal at all. If I don’t like drama, and gossip, and that sort of thing, then I just keep those people out of my life where and when I can. Like turning off the tv, changing the channel.