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Day 6

Like four hours of sleep. Feeling alright. I definitely got energetically ugraded. Just have to deal with some weirdness until it’s fully integrated and grounded again.

I want to continue PS. I really like this stack. First stack that I have no desire to switch off from.

It’s just that now I might get some wild results. I think if I can learn boundaries and whatever to keep the wildness under control, i’d like to keep at it. I think i still have some hangups and ps can help to clear that up.

I looked in the mirror today, and my physique has improved. Just a few days ago id noticed how my arm definition was dwindling. Ive taken a month off keto but haven’t had a huge appetite this week. And i havent even gotten back in the groove with my workouts. Just 20 mins of daily weight vest walking. and working and i think i only got one day of mobility work and thats it.

Another round today. Kinda bored with it and would like get some sleep. Haven’t gotten the second nap in yet. I gotta say when the second round of e flow came on yesterday, when it got the tip of the head it was actually a sort of heavenly experience. I know after i get a nap in it seems to settle and get back to normal for a bit. Now after i type this feels very pleasant on top of my head. But still, id like that nap lol.

Had a little fear come earlier. Mind wanted to try me again. So i think thats why im kind of over it now lol.

Alright now we got some love and joy and really great cooling sensations going on. Lol at me doing a play by play since i cant sleep and social media is a bit overstimulating.

Havent tried inner spa yet. But yea id call this experience an inner spa. Just good stuff.

Ended up falling asleep. Now I’m just cranky. Sometimes it gets a bit tiring for sure. It is what it is I guess.

Now to check off those chores that i been putting off all week.

I would say I’ve been a bit irresponsible. Maybe Ive been the fool card, lol. Perhaps I oughta consider trying out that new Ascension. GLM would be a great choice also. Maybe I need to set PS down for now. 🤷🏻

I was telling somebody that this thing I’ve been going through is really like a rebirth. I don’t think I had a choice in the matter though. It’ll just keep at it until it is done with me.

My past experiences in life make so much more sense. Now that I’ve seemingly pinpointed what has been happening to me. Basically being destroyed. I’ve always been the caterpillar in the cocoon.

I also think Khan Black would be a safe bet. I ended up basically abstaining from “release” for, not even sure how long. It was months and months and pretty effortless. I’ve been like a kid in a candy store on PS. I guess I have some maturing to do there. Being about one woman and that tru love thing… which does leave Heartsong as a possibility.

Welp. Finishing off the night with another round of this energy traveling up the spine. This one feels more full and definitely pleasurable. Moving through the heart right now. Its actually nice but yea, all the purification or you could say recon can be a bit challenging at times. Plus i hear some people might have the thing in one go, and others it may just be a lifetime process. I think this is my third time. First two were rough. I think this one i’ll get through without major issues. It is what it is man. It wasn’t something I ever tried for. So yea first one was new years 2020. Then had one in 2025. Now just a year later im getting another round. This one going way better.

Above the top of the head again. Not so much heavenly feeling this time just feels good man. Still working its way up and through. I could get used to this. And its funny because i may have to go help a housemate as this happening. Lol just as i type that the love is hitting the heart again as well.

Yea, not convenient this thing that’s happening. I don’t wanna be around people. Was experiencing aversion to being focused on too much. Which is understandable since I’m so tired and this is still new to me as far as what is taking place and what it’s gonna be.

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Day 7

6hrs of sleep. Nothing profound to speak of yet.

But i do have the sense that any of the crazy stuff will blow over if it hadn’t already.

I do have a sense that I had to move through a lot of lust. But now my connections might be more focused on authenticity, rather than just led by lust. I like that.

Seem to have gotten my inner love bomb back also.

I feel like maybe PS is too much fun for now. Summer is winding down. Maybe I’ll take longer of a washout and perhaps go for Alchemist. Seems like that’d be best. Just with some of the things I’ve found to be challenging. Got a taste of fun again and all that. So maybe try to get at what it is that I think will benefit me the most on a more practical, every day level. Which is funny that it might be Alchemist.

After reading the alchemist description, i feel like thats the journey im already on.

Also wish I had a place I could be in solitude as this process is unfolding. Makes things a little uncomfortable.

Having another round of the e flow. At least i know when i head to work it’ll settle down. If i gotta do stuff it settles down until i get back to resting. Still kind of tiring just because i only got 6 hours of sleep and 4 the night before. But i get short naps here and there.

For now its like a big thing for me is learning to keep my energy grounded. But since this thing was happening it seemed to have a mind of its own. It was like before i didnt have to try to do anything. Thats what was so cool about Primal. I suppose its just matter of riding out the waves and i’ll be back to normal or better.

For now i’ll just keep at the washout. Could be a two week washout.

Just seems like a bit of a hassle u til it runs its course and im back to normal. The base of the spine energy is a bit sexual and yea, i dont think its a normal thing. Most people probably wont have to go through it. Its so challenging because its just not part of western culture. So if it does happen people can have hard times because their mind maybe cant make sense of it.

Definitely seems to be a good thing its just that as it flushes the junk out, it just can be a tough recon experience.

Im kind of struggling with having to drop PS from my stack. With this latest round of energy rising in me. Just seems like it causes me some hassles. Like I said, it’s too fun. I gotta look for something more tame or at least gentle and grounding lol.

Learning to stay calm and grounded is my main goal now. So thats the sort of just being beingness lol. Not that I necessarily want to. Its like i almost have to relearn how to be in the world again. But it hasnt settled yet so yea, still unfolding.

Had some clarity and effortlessness come through. Now i have some anger coming through lol. Anger still hasnt been a big one for me. Mostly has been that fear anxiety stuff, my biggest struggle.

So with this latest rising experience. I looked up some stuff. And i guess lack of energetic boundaries can be a thing while also having increased energy sensitivity. Seems to be my main issue this time. Didnt have it previously.

Previously the mental fear and anxiety got the best of me. But that hasnt happened this time. Its more of a just being over it and lets get the show on the road vibe. But i know its not something i get to just turn off. Plus they seem to go on for a few days. Prolly lucky i didnt have the full blast through the first time. So this latest one, i refer to it as one even though the energy flows through like multiple times a day at least from what i perceive.

More head pressure now. So id guess that was the headached id had when i woke up the other day. Before i knew the rising was started up again.

Just funny again be ause now i gotta order food for the housemates and i get to see the delivery person. But maybe it’ll be settled again by then.

Found some info i hadnt had before of symptoms. Overstimulation and some light mood swings. Even got spontaneous sexual stimulation which is also a new one this time. Might not even be PS related.

And now i have diarrhea. Hows that for a good time. My stomach felt like that was brewing since this all started so havent had much of an appetite. Surprising benefit, seems to be keeping my energy grounded since now i have that to focus on. Lols

And the kicker, the delivery guy was from one of those shitty jobs I worked about 5-6 years back. Wait. more than that it was pre lockdown era.

Decided to just get back letting go. Seems I’m back to normal pending some good sleep. I don’t care if I have another one of the energy risings. It’s not complete though. So that tells me there are more down the road. For me it was like a concentrated ride with alchemist from reading the description. Learned some new things just from experience. So tentatively I’m saying it’s over. But the sort of high pitched frequencies just started in the ears again. And when i lay down at bedtime it could kick in again. Seems when im at rest is when it starts moving up and through again. Just really cool but tiring experience overall. Do not recommend trying to make it happen tho. I think purifying and letting go is more important. Plus if it does happen it’ll make it go smoother.

I will say as i get to bed, im noticing a really nice sensation in my heart. Maybe this is what it feels like after the junk is all cleared out. Sort of a softness. im sure after sleep i may notice more new things. Lol its almost like a buoyancy id say. Wild.

One more note. Heart and root got the deepest clearings this time around. So far from what i can sense anyway.

Well she started back up again. So maybe i’ll be up late again. This one was almost feeling creepy. Starting at the base of the spine, where it starts and its powerful but id say slow and deliberate uncoiling and rising. Just not something im used to as a straight man having pleasure in that area. Just saying. Lol.

Guess the channel had to be cleared or something now the energy is picking up steam. Lol. And now im pretty much wide awake again.

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Day 8

6 hours of sleep. A lil tired yet. First thing I notice is how much more quiet my mind is. Still some junk but yea. I can definitely work with this.

Now that things seem back to normal. I will continue my stack as is. Just going to take maybe 2 weeks off. After all that I just wanna give things a little extra time to settle.

Well, still have some energy stirring going on. So mebbe not done quite yet. Its been like oh it must be done for awhile again. Then i feel slightly upgraded. When im ready to just be normal again another pass comes through.

Boring sundays are the best. Had a bit of an energy surge to knock out my work with no breaks. Then some leisurely driving to relax and get some wide open spaces and nature.

I dont know what that is, when i went through these things theres like a point where reality seems to shift. So i dunno if thats cuz all this energy is flowing through or what. But it’s a trip. ive never done psychedelics but maybe its that kind of thing.

anyone wanna trade spots? i mean i could use a little break. lol.

After getting settled in and eating some dinner. I felt pretty good finally. I was able to sit and visit with one of the housemates with a pretty quiet mind and at ease in myself. That was really nice. So possibly we’re finally finished up for a bit. But it is bedtime now, so who knows.

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Day 9

Like 3 hours of sleep and i actually feel alright. Having the energy flowing and cleared out must have done something. I would prefer to get normal sleep but i should be alright for today. Maybe I can catch a nap or two later. Just feeling a lot more clear. Prolly need a few days to
Really settle back down into the whatever just happened.

Whew. Was able to get like 2 more hours of sleep.

Just up from another nap. Still have movement happening. A bit cranky and over it again. Yea. So hopefully it’ll finish up soon. Kinda would like to be able to get back to a little doomscrolling. Been staying off socials mostly. Thought this would be wrapped up until next time already. So more allowing i guess. It is what it is, lol.

Ok so there seems to be a heat channel and a cool channel. I woke up from the nap and the heat channel was doing its thing. Now the cooling channel is active. Thats the inner spa channel id call it. Definitely feels nice. Umm yea. Still just riding the waves i guess. Lol.

Well there are actually 3 channels. The main spinal one then u got a hot channel and a cold one. For whatever reason everything is still cycling through for me.

If i had a choice, i’d be like i’ll just keep the inner love bomb and i dont think i need whatever the heck the rest of it is. But it seems to have decided nope, we gonna keep at it.

That reminds me I have not done any physical activity today. Well i got it in at work yesterday. But like my workouts, i was hoping to be back on track there. Ive just been walking 10-20 minutes a day and my work gig for the past couple weeks.

I might run KB after i start up a run again. I feel like after all this experience, I could use some help mastering the new boost in energy. Especially the sexual. I think it would help me transmute it and ground it out. But it was kind of a getting a deep flush out and now my energies are cleaned and upgraded. Now just have to settle in to a bit of a new existence i guess.

Or maybe I continue on my current stack as is. Still havent gotten the point where things have been normal for a few days. I think if i get a week of “normal” then id start back up a cycle.

I feel like the most valuable stage of kb, for me, is stage 1. Just to clean up on the more mental side of things. At this point i dont think i need the further stages.

What’s crazy is there probably is a bit of guilt, shame, and fear in my mental about sex and sexuality. It was just kind the culture i grew up in. Poor programming and yea. What else is new? Lol.

I guess I’m just feeling a bit raw after the past few days. Lots of good stuff though. So I hope I’m moving on to the integration phase.

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Day 10

Processing some fear overnight it seems. Was woken up from a few nightmares. Think one or two of my friends who passed may have been there, possibly. Good sleep, not yet. Certainly not as much as i’d like. Could another new day in store.

Started the day doing some small chores. Just had the urge to do some cleaning around the house. Then I walked for 20 mins with the weight vest. Really got a great sweat from that, lol. Now I’ll get some mobility on. Feeling a bit better.

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Day 11

Got some sleep in. Having the stomach issue once again. It’ll pass.

Yea, not sure when I’ll start up another cycle. I could maybe start up just for fun. But yea, also toying with the idea that I reached the point where I don’t need subs anymore. Never thought I’d be one to say that.

I was really in the flow today while out driving. My mind was starting to get the best of me. Had me in fear. So I had to het out of the house for a drive. Felt too connected to others and just in a nice zone or flow state.

Then awhile ago this energy started up again. This is its most powerful push so far. I really thought it was done. But it seems to be going for a full rise this time. And my mind just almost got the best of me with fear. I didnt’t realize this process was still ongoing. I dont recommend trying to raise it. Mine just seems to rise a bit do some house cleaning and seem to remain dormant again until next time. But heavily working the head area now. Yea its just such an experience that you might not even know what is happening and end up in crisis mode.