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No listening

Daaaang. I was tentatively planning to run the updated True Sell but if it’s going to be a 4-stage title. I’ll just plan for the current version to be the one I’d run.

Or just do a stage 1-4 at regular 21 day cycle. For me that’s how I’d fit in multi-stagers. 30 day listening cycle is much more a commitment for a 4 stage title. whew.

Don’t really have words. But I want to express. Things are still working. Still progressing with how things have been going. Yea, just feeling more alive. I think I’m right where I need to be moving at the right pace.

I’d like to think I could use more manifestation but I still have some hold backs, and as those drop away I open up more manifestation avenues. So it all works out. I guess I wouldn’t really change anything.

I noticed that on marketplace it seems like I get my items most of the time, when I an pick them up immediately and message back immediately. A few instances where I was just busy and told them I’d pick up tomorrow and they ghosted me. They left it up to me to let them know when, and yet they’re impatient. I have one situation on a couple books. Just wild. I know in general people will have no problem not getting back to me. So to me I think that’s normal. People have things to do, yea everybody has their phone with them 24/7 nowadays, but in my world it’s normal to not get instant responses. But if I do it, it’s something you ghost over. So I guess I’m still not enough in the world of others yet.

It’s like we agree that I’m going to buy the item. I tell them I can pick it up tomorrow. So I’ve had them say okay just let me know before you come. And then they delete me from the chat before I ever get a chance to reply. Or they just outright ghost me after that. lol. And then their items stay on for weeks later but I’m like welp, I really don’t need it that bad. lol. Plus I get to keep my money.

But if I ghosted everybody who didn’t instantly reply to me I’d have nobody, which is kind of how it is already, lol. I’m fine with that. I’m more interested in quality, even if it’s like one or two connections rather than being the person who has all these friends. It’s like they say the faker you are the more friends you have, and the more genuine you are, the fewer friends you have. Not that I take that on as set in stone reality, but it is also my experience. I think unfortunately, after dealing with so many negative, drama, toxic types, as I’ve gotten older I’m just more picky. I’ve always been cool with everybody, but I’m not going to just give my trust to anybody and let them in my inner circle.

In appearance news. I shaved my mustache but kept my beard. I actually like it. Just had the idea and did it today. I’m gonna just go with it, lol.

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Day 23: 1m NE Primal & PS

I think Summertime would be a great third slot title in my stack. Primal, PS, and Summertime would be amazing.

Feeling a bit nostalgic today about my younger years. Sort of high school era before I had to work for a living. Just the feeling I guess. Not having to deal with any major bs or anything. Could go hang out with friends. Was still able to be around people, lol. It didn’t seem like they were completely ruined yet.

Got that extra sleep. Saturday has become my sleep catch up day. Then I head to work. Was actually in a good mood. But once again even though I got more sleep I also feel more tired. But it’s been a positive good mood tired, not a cranky one.

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No Listening

The best thing about my stack is it has me back in touch with the feelings of my best times in life. It doesnt have anything to do with the outer either. I guess many people lose that sense when they gotta work and pay bills and all that.

With the updated Ascension and Mogul, i would hope that means the update on ascended mogul would be right around the corner. If I were to switch out Primal, for me it’s be for an updated ascended mogul. Or I’d excited about an updated original Genesis.

Was at work and noticed I was completely neutral on the topic of women. Like normally I might try and fantasize about a pretty lady just to entertain myself at work. None of that. Drove around a bit today. Then I got home to relax. It’s like my mojo for women came back. So I think my attractiveness went up. I have no physical proof, didn’t see many hot ladies. But just energetically it seems like yea, I might’ve gotten a little boost, seemingly out of the blue. When it was the last thing on my mind, lol.

Like some of that sexual energy alignment or whatever from Primal Seduction.

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Day 24 Listening: 2m5s Ne LOTS

Lots of dreams last night. Woke up from one or two. One had friends i used to know.

Had a cool manifestation. My last incandescent lightbulb burned out. I picked up a couple boxes a year or two ago on marketplace. They werent something you could get at stores. I think u can again because it got changed. But i open marketplace today after waking up. And somebody has some for sale. Lol.

Some of the wishing I had friends coming up today now. Also like on the verge of light frustration. I’ll just chalk it up as energy and apply it to my workout.

Did the Monday mirror check. My waist feels and looks cinched up. It always seems like Monday my midsection seems like it has a shrinkwrap effect for some reason. I don’t think I made gains in terms of appearance since I’ve been off keto for two weeks. My shorts are a little snug too. So I wouldn’t think I cut any fat. Probably if anything I have some extra water weight.

Slightly crank today. I got done with work early last night. Thought I was gonna get to bed early. Ended up staying up late. That after work time just got ahead of me. Maybe I can get a short nap later, lol.

Last night I got to work and it was like my vitality was bumped up. So that’s probably why I stayed up late as well. Today seems more like a flush out of the energetic systems or something. A little stirred up, feelings coming up. Nothing major.

Yea I would say today was a lot of very minor frustration. Something that is definitely not a common thing for me, at least not consciously. lol.

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No Listening

Just processing some frustration I guess. I think it’s just a springboard type thing. Once that’s processed then I’ll be leveled up.

Also one of my old friends popped up as a suggestion to add. He wasn’t a main character guy at all so I’d forgotten about him. lol. He seems like a really good dude though. More legit than all my old main character friends now.

So I bet there are a few of those. Just good dudes that weren’t my main character friends but now they’d probably make better friends for me.

A bit of that crying or mourning of the soul recon. lol. I was gonna say I felt sad but it has a flavor that I don’t have words for a more accurate description. Just some recon. Nothing major so far.

I went to the store and was walking out. These two dudes were in a truck looking at me. They got out and started walking into the store. The were dressed like I dunno maybe metalheads or that sort of vibe. Maybe not like a skater but dudes into that sort of heavy music I guess. Like some of the people I used to hang out with. They were looking at me as they were walking in, like I dunno if they were admiring me or what, but it was that sort of vibe. lol. I was not dressed like them. Had an a polo shirt. And my boat shoes. That was a bit odd.

I guess maybe it was almost like they were in awe of me. Which would make sense since they obviously weren’t office workers. At that time they wouldn’t be construction workers. Maybe self employed groundskeeper dudes or something. Or like ranch farm workers or something maybe. So they probably liked that primal vibe.

Got my chores done. Would like to sleep all day but I probably can’t nap. Knees were a little painful yesterday so I didn’t do the full workout. Not sure what that’s about. Once in awhile they kinda hurt, after my work weekends. Was planning to do the leg work today, maybe I still will. Plan for Tuesday and Friday leg days.

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1m5s NE Primal & PS

I’m still looking forward to really getting into PS.

Still slightly reconn-y. Just part of the process yet. But I can keep moving forward 5 seconds at a time. Keeps it to a nice level. Sometimes I still feel like my best times in life, I don’t mean peak experiences. Just that life is good. I feel fun and all that. And that’s sort of the vibe I show up to life with at times.

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No Listening

This week turned into an unplanned week of no working out. Had the knee pain, it’s on the backside. Seems to be that possible baker’s cyst was acting up again. So far it seems once I’m feeling good again I have a setback. This one was the most minor one so far. I also had a possible stomach bug. The lightest one I’ve ever had. A little bit of bubbly guts at times but luckily wasn’t running to the bathroom all day.

I find my sleep improving because the pull to waste time on my phone before bed isn’t so strong. Just not pulling my interest so much. I can take it or leave it kinda thing. I used to wake up and wanna check the social medias which would ruin my extra hour of morning sleep.

Took a drive and took a new route. Finally saw a hot chick. One of those driving and facing each other things again. Stopped at a light and we were surprised to see each other. She liked me and I was surprised to see a hot chick who was into me. Hasnt been a everyday thing. But thats the importance of being around people, lol. She was even i guess exotic for where I live. A different nationality. There were a couple of those kinda chicks years ago. I used to go to a couple stores that have since closed. And recently i was kinda hoping to bump into that type again if not see them again. Lol.

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Day 26:1m10s NE LOTS

I was really hoping to be at my peak by this time. But taking it slow and steady. I’m in this stack for the long haul.

Sometimes I consider taking a 30 day listening cycle for maybe stage 1 of new Ascension. That would be after I get 4 months in on the current stack. A little more inner foundational work, and then get back to my Primal and PS.

I could probably have more outer results if I were around people more. Still not much drive to get out there. Just little moves, like going to new places and taking new routes. I’ve been out of the social realm for so long that I’m not trying to force anything. As those good feelings of being at my best show up more and more, I naturally start doing more of the things I like. Instead of just trying to make things happen, which hasn’t gone well for me in the past.

Went to the big box store today. Felt really at ease so that was my focus. I walked past an aisle and there was this nice looking tan blonde chick. She didnt seem to notice me so I kept on, no change in my energy. Then a bit later I was walking to checkout. We happened to see each other again she was coming down another aisle. As soon as she saw me she smiled to herself, lol.

Then I was just about to my car and these other people were walking to there car in the next lane. This hot black haired chick turned her head to check me out. She had more of a she knows what she wants in the bedroom vibe. The blonde chick had more pure vibes.

Also helps me get into a more social mindset. You can just talk to people. Usually I’m not looking for that. Still a little work to do around talking to people. Still some bad habits and expectations from being around toxic people for so long.

It was supposed to be 2m10s listening today. Oh well.

Had some “small” instances of good luck as well. One was something I had imaged taking the action on. It was just calling someone and letting them know something. But it got taken care of without me even doing that.

My experiences with the ladies who want me seem to be on a theme. And it’s how I live my life anyway. But it’s like the chance encounter theme. So that could be interesting once I start working with it. Since I’m pretty routined but I don’t go many places. And so I’m never a place at the exact same time on the same day or anything. The only people I’d see on a normal basis would be like workers who work the places. The rest of the people it’s just whoever happens to be there at the same time as me lol.

Maybe I’ll read some short chance encounter stories to give myself some material to work with. Lol.

Man. I really dont like having to strategize everything I say. It’s not a big problem but yea thats a hassle to me. I’m talking about somebody who raised me. Like the littlest thing it seems like. I gotta pick and choose so i dont have a hassle later on. I want to talk to my family but yea, not worth the hassle sometimes. I was always a quiet type. Thats probably where it came from. Then people wouldnt like that, it was wrong, right. Then i found they just dont like you. When u talk they dont like that. Lol. So yea, inner circle is kind of a dream title i guess. If i had a slot that mightve been a title i wish id had all my life.

But for me it just comes down to people not dealing with their own stuff. Some people know no other thing but problems. And generally they wont look at themselves its always somebody else.

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No Listening

I’m planning to finally test out Phoenix Reborn for Sept/Oct. that’s the best time period for a healing title, in my schedule.

Then I’d get back to Primal/PS for a long lead up to next summer. Things should be really popping for me by then.

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Day 27: 1m10s NE Primal & PS

Found myself feeling some missing out feelings today. I think it’s good. The holdbacks are still cracking. Aversion and anxiety used to be the main thing. So to me it shows progress. Breaking down some walls I guess. it was nothing major. Just lets me see that yea, things are moving along.

I saw a few hot chicks on social media, local stories things too. With their bf’s or one getting married. And I felt some of that missing out stuff. But the hot chicks were the same caliber as the one who smiled to herself when she saw me at the store the other day. So it’s not like I can’t get hot chicks like that. Still some work to do though. But it’s happening.

On my work breaks I was driving around. Hoping to see some crowds. The only crowds were doing like beach parties at the local water spot. I always wanted a boat. Maybe not seriously. I’d need a truck to tow one. A place to store it. But i’d be okay with all that, lol. I think it’s me starting to open up a bit more. That yea if I had a boat it would require me to be a little more social. So another thing that lets me know there’s progress. My lack of socialness was probably one of my main hold backs. It was always that inner game though. If I had the inner game I’d also have the needed social game. So yea, still happy with my stack.

Maybe ending the night a little reconn-y again. Just tired though. Again, couldn’t get myself into thinking about hot chicks at work today. And I even felt a little bored at work. Then towards the end I just wanted to be done with work and knock it out. Which is not typical for me. I usually just enjoy my work time as there’s not really an hassles. Just do my work and listen to audiobooks and podcasts.

Also in the last few days I got a taste of some of those drama addict types. Showed up my social media. I muted them of course. That kind of stuff just doesn’t feel good. Arguing won’t help. They just love that drama. It’s not for me though.

Lately I’ve finally been experiencing time feeling longer again. Like tonight after work it seems like it’s been a long day. I still gotta wait 2 hours before bedtime, lol.

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No Listening

Kinda wild to see that this chick I liked. All of the sudden starts posting on the social medias again. After going quiet for awhile. It kinda hits on things I talked about. So it’s like a lot of my stuff is mirrored back to me. Not saying it’s a conscious thing. Just really interesting. I have always been a pretty aware person, to the point of hypervigilant I’d say. And the anxiety thing, getting overwhelmed with the knowing the things and not being present enough, lol.

But yea, that’s a thing where people can break things down into microexpressions and stuff. I’d say I’m more general pattern and vibe recognition, more than being aware of all the smallest details. I thought all hope was gone with this chick, haha. Then the other day it’s like it switched to being open to it again. and now this. lol

I would say I’m still not looking for a woman yet. Just enjoying the experience of having options again. It’d be more if I were around people more, I’m pretty sure of that.

Having lots of little synchronicities lately. I don’t get too into it or excited about it. More like, that’s interesting. Noted, lol.

I was having some experience of being really into that chick, and it felt really good.

Now I’m back to a bit of the wringing the rag experience. Seems like a day of just letting go of whatever is coming up.

Things have lightened up already.

Still haven’t gotten my workout mojo back. I just haven’t had that drive after my week off. And plus we still have family randomly showing up since it’s summer time. So I’m just gonna have to get after it whenever I have time.

Ran to the petrol station real quick. There were two really short chicks in there. The glued to their phone types. The one waiting for her friend sort of leaned into me. Body and feet all pointed towards me. Probably was uhh, the type to just go with whatever guy is interested, lol.

Then I got the cashier and she was leaning into me too. Almost as if she was expecting me to be seductive or something like that and she was comfortable with it. She wasn’t hot and I don’t think I’ve seen her before. But she seemed comfortable with me and yea, maybe I was giving off those sexy vibes or something lol.

That reminds me. I tried the original PS or maybe it was Iron Throne. I went to a job interview and i was normal and the interviewer was a lady. She thought i was going to touch her or something like make moves. I didnt get close to her and wasnt even close enough to make physical contact. That kinda weirded me out. Because i was normal as usual and that wasnt my intention at all. She wasnt hot or anything. I still had hangups back then and that’s why it took me so long to get back to a seduction title. Just felt like I needed more of the healing stuff first. Because like yea, just had some mind blowing experiences. Stuff that could almost be glitch in the matrix stories. And just lots of synchronicity stuff. Now I just stay more grounded and don’t get amazed or too carried away with that kind of mind blowing stuff.

So yea the latest PS is way more refined. I still love it even though I havent even scratched the surface.

Primal and PS is a killer combo. I feel like i could use it if I had to work around people. I feel like i’d be in control though and wouldn’t have problems. I would be able to keep it professional. But yea, i would have to be around that environment to see how others respond. But my sense is that i could use it if i had a job where i had coworkers. Men seem to respect me and women are comfortable with me. Not all of them are interested.

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No Listening: Next listen is day 29

Got mixed up and posted my day 28 journal on the no listening day.

Feeling a little cranky today. A little less sleep than I wanted. I’m going to try something new. Instead of doing my relaxing practices to start the day. I’m going to workout first.

I do like the do your 15 mins of inner practice to start the day. But I think I get too relaxed and don’t jump right into the workouts. I end up wanting to rest and lounge instead.

No workout yesterday. So it’s been a week and a half no workouts. Unexpected company yesterday. I was then tired all day. But come work time I was feeling relaxed and enjoyed the work. Got to move my body, but ended up not being able to sleep as early as I wanted. Was running a little late to work as well.

Today slightly cranky. So far. I guess slightly reconn-y.

No workout yet. I ended up not realizing how tired I was. Napped for maybe a couple hours today. Then I thought there was gonna be no workout. Realized it’s my day off so I can still get it in.

I finally noticed people again lately. Like you can see that they’re still running on programs and insecurities and stuff. So that would tell me I’m less involved in my own programs and insecurities, to be able to have that awareness.

Still have it in the back of my mind to do a PS name embedded. But I haven’t even checked out what the new modules are. Not sure I’d even add a module.

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Listening Day 29: 1m15s NE Primal & PS

I got my module in mind for an NE PS. The Fool’s Courage. Looks like all kinds of fun lol.

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No listening

Went to the store. Saw a hot chick walking in but forgot about her by the time I was in there. Didn’t see her in there. Then I was leaving and a hot chick was walking in. Like yea I was into it, but she did not take any notice of me. It was one of those I may as well be invisible moments. She was wearing jeans and a long shirt though, and it’s hot today. A little odd. She also appeared to be on the phone or texting maybe. I was just trying to check her out without being obvious. But with that one being that she had zero interest I could have just been obvious, lol.

But yea, I was also in well I’m open to testing out my skills with the ladies. And got zero interest. It still tends to be when I’m just being and that’s not my goal really. But I’ll have to play with it. I’m sure those times when I’m just having fun it could work. And I don’t even care that they weren’t interested. It’s still rare that I see a chick that I’m like, she’s hot I like that one. And I’d say that was one of those moments today.

I think I am going to do a NE PS. Just a matter of when. I think I’d like to take 2 30 days cycles with it first maybe. So far I’ve done at least four cycles with Primal and LOTS before I went the name embed route.

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Listening day 30: 2m20s NE LOTS

Now for an 8 day washout and back to it.

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Day 1 of 8: Washout

Only got maybe 6 hours of sleep last night. No caffeine before work like I do most days. I think my energy just got clarified or something. So energetically it’s like those past experiences I’ve had. Just not as profound, and since I’ve already been through the major ones, it’s nothing that will send the mind spiraling because it doesn’t have a map of what’s going on.

So yea, I’m still completely at ease with my stack. I think it’s the right one for me. For whatever my life path is for now anyway. I always thought it was more spiritual, and I guess this is just part of it. Working with that sort of primal energy for whatever reason. No concrete stuff like I’m living my purpose or anything. I just feel like yea, life is good and fun, and everything I could ask for. The women and money would be nice for sure. So maybe I’m still on that journey. For whatever reason clearing out the energetic channels and my letting go work is my purpose, lol. Except I don’t know any practices to actually work with the energy beside letting go and surrendering. But in my experience that is energy work.

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Day 2

4 hours of sleep last night. I was only able to manage an hour nap, maybe 2 hours this afternoon.

Yea, seems I got another clear out of energy and having a little fun.

Now that I’m finally up, I kinda want to clean up my whole place. To me it seems connected that if I had an energy clean up in me, I’d feel the need to arrange my home in a cleaner manner. Kinda, yea disheveled because I’m a bachelor and no need to keep a tidy place. But yea, gonna hit a workout and hopefully that will even me out and I’ll be able to sleep a full night tonight.

Just not feeling “normal”. 6 hours of sleep and then 4 hours the next night. Haven’t been cranky so that’s always a bonus. At one point I was like yea, this must kinda be what those hard workers do. When they have a project they’re so passionate about they barely sleep and do the other things. But i"m making sure to rest, mostly and gotta get the nutrition in of course. And a workout.

I definitely think things have picked up and will continue to do so as I get into my next 30 day listening cycle of Name Embedded Primal, Name Embedded Legacy of the Spartan and Primal Seduction.

So I’m about 2 weeks off where I would have wanted to be with my stack. I was of course hoping to be having some peak results for the peak of summer. But close enough I guess. But it seems like all the main summer events are over now. And it’s super hot finally. So not much cruising for me.

Lol. I was pretending to nap since I couldn’t nap. And I got to check in and see that i’m supposed to be surrendering. Seems like some blocks got broken up and now I gotta let that energy flush out. And I was getting caught up in distractions due to the initial energy surge. All part of the process I suppose. Just seeing again that once you realize you’re distracted you just get back to your focus or whatever. And that’s sort of a practice itself.

Some unwanted thoughts coming through, but I’m way less identified with them. It’s more that I don’t like them kind of thing. So I think of it like there’s this sort of ball of junk and it’s just energy. So my only job is to let it dissolve instead of resisting and distracting.

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**Day 3 **

Got my full 7 hours of sleep. Woke up with a slight headache.

Things are pretty interesting. But I’m a little tired and so just staying home. It’s still triple digits outside.

I feel like I’ve been starting to get a taste of seduce life, lol. That’s in WB though, haven’t used that one. Primal and PS are so fun I’d be fine. I mean if those are the only titles I get to use, I think yea life is good. lol.

My sense is that a money title would be great. Just for now it’s not in the cards. I think even money over sales, unless sales was fun and I was enjoying myself. My idea is maybe based on the past yet. It’s like would I really like having to work with people to make my money? I mean in that manner. For now I don’t have to even consider it. But I always though I’d like to try sales for the money mostly. And my concept of that will change over time I’m sure.

As far as the workouts go. I’m back to square one. And my elbow is a little flared up for some reason. Never had an injury just tendons or something. It’s my non-domant side too so yea, not sure why that one would hurt.

Didn’t get a full workout in. Got mobility in on Monday. Today I got a nap in. Still getting back on track with sleep after a couple days of half of what I normally get.

My plan is to try for mobility everyday now. At the very least I would like to get that in daily. It’s actually like a mini-workout. My posture muscles feel stronger and that’s from a couple moves in the mobility routine. Still haven’t found something for the elbows yet.

Seems I’ve had another energetic upgrade. It always has basically the same patterns. This time hasn’t been anything profound. Just way lighter versions of the pattern. Just interesting indeed. The stuff that sent me reeling in the past has lost its power. Able to just have a quieter mind, etc. That was my big challenge with previous upgrades. The pesky mind hassles.

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Day 4

5 hours of sleep. Woke up from a few nightmares.

Still feel pretty good. Will try a nap later.

I’ll just have to keep making sleep and rest a priority. And pulling myself away from any distractions. I’m probably processing a lot again. Still planning for an 8 day washout.

I think Primal would be good for a work environment. Or emperor. PS yea, a little sexual, but that’s what it is. lol. I’m almost considering alchemist to help flush out the energy systems and see what that’s like. But it’s also a thing where I’ve noticed with other titles. That things may taper off after switching titles.

Like the Love Bombs are great, I wish I’d ran them for a full year. Not sure when I’d put them back in my stack. But I wish I had some more of that going on yet. I mean Love is always there, just having it on boost is fun. I probably have some “healing” to do around those titles yet as well.

It seems like it is a big change that these titles can facilitate. So it may take time, but you gotta think about the changes. I know I’ve had to get used to stuff and was jumping titles because I didn’t realize the time and work that needs to be put in to really get things to a dialed in place.

Alchemist seems like a good bet again. I think it was the first version I put in a year back when we would listen all day, lol. Now I’m only increasing 5 seconds each listen.

The idea to just go with NE LOTS for my next round came up as well. With whatever changes I’ve undergone, it’s probably a good idea to let things settle in and dial it back a bit. I know I got some good happenings going on already and can ride those waves for awhile. Lots NE with Divine Self Image is always a good bet. Get me more dialed in on the workouts and self image, and enjoy some Primal and PS bloom.

It would be fun to bring back spartan apex to my stack. But it’s just a bloom cycle to let things settle. So possibly just NE LOTS for my next run.

Lol. So at first i think oh cool and energetic upgrade. Then what could be called recon later on. Now we got the energy moving through. Very pleasurable and whats different about it is that i can feel and sense the spiral nature of its movement. Like the micro-movents of my head and neck. I wont label the energy this time. But i have got a couple of those love bomb blasts from the heart which was nice.

Just sharing here in my journal this really interesting experience and process thats been unfolding over the years. My last major round was last year and its cool yea. But i didnt try for it so maybe thats why i had a few rough times after the novelty wore off and the cleansing process kicked in. I didnt know exactly what it was and still had a lot of undoing to get through.

Man. Seems like my eyes got opened to some things once again. At least it seems so, lol. I need some good sleep. Gotta get grounded again. This part is also part of the pattern that I’ve experienced.

I saw one of those astrology people talk about it’s mercury retrograde in venus or something. It seems to correlate with my experience. A bit of veil lifted experience for me, and yea, still seem to have some inner work cut out for me. Almost a Truman Show vibe. Really wild. Even though I’ve never seen the movie.

One side effect of just this energetic upgrade or whatever is the sensitivity to energy. At first its almost like a fun novelty. I handle it a bit immaturely once i get too carried away. Then its like yea, maybe this isn’t so great. But as with the other times I’ll get my feet back on the ground and get back to the great progress with my stack. To me this is almost just a novel back road. But i have to respect the process and the unfolding and proceed with courage. Some uhh, more temperance in the fire or, however it’s said. A trip through the gauntlet.

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**Day 5 **

House mate was up all night. Since I was a light sleeper last night, I really didn’t get much. Not cranky yet but after awhile it may come with the territory.

Seems I may have some new challenges thanks to new changes. Zero apprehension. I just have to keep showing up and live my life. What else can one do?

I’m primed for some house chores that have been neglected this week.

Very heavy on the synchronicities lately. But again, just keep making my way and doing what I gotta do. Rest and sleep is still my top priority until my sleep returns to normal. I don’t recall any dreams last night but again, not much sleep.

Making it to the top of the head this energy stuff. So far pretty smooth sailing. No words. Really good, nice. Lol.

Had to interrupt it for a quick errand. Came home a little uncomfortable. Just having to be out in public on 3-4 hours of sleep. Not having reintegrated all the stuff yet.

Got back home to hopefully sleep. Then i got another round of the energy passing through. Now it seems to working on the back chakras. Just clearing out and whatever i guess. Seems odd to me that i havent had like the complete dropping of the ego yet or anything like that. Just being in absolute beingness, not yet. Odd that id have this energy awakening thing. Some say they’re the same thing but yea, i was going for the beingness. The energy part makes me wonder how will i be able to just work at a job like a normal person with some of this wild stuff. Like its just doing what it does, not on my schedule or desire.

As much as I dont want to,i might consider just a great grounded being present title. Or possibly dragon reborn regen. Instead of PS.

I thought GLM was a bit boring for me. But it might be just what I want now. Lols.

Initially it seems like my Intuition has gotten a boost. A few people in passing it was almost like i knew their impressions of me. And that part might also be primal and ps, that social calibration thing.

I’d forgotten about something. Somebody tugged on my energy, like they were desiring it or something. I felt it. One time when I was using Alchemist the first version I think it was, I was clocking in to work in the morning. My boss was standing there. And I think that was the first time anything like that happened. It was like this, we’ll say ball just for a descriptor. A tiny ball of energy went from my boss to my solar plexus. Then he started complaining about something. And yea, I did not like that. At that time I was still thinking I was an empath or something like that. Now I just don’t do labels so much.

It was like on the daily at my jobs where I worked around other people, where the public comes and goes. And I would be letting go and meditating, only to get throttled or just get whipped around in other people’s bs. But I was also still caught up in the mental/intellectual level myself. I’d just had a taste of the good side of life and the inner world thing. So lately I’ve been getting a taste of not having to worry about that mental/intellectual junk that I used to have problems with. The bad habits still come up because the ego/mind wants to protect itself, which what it tends to do is make it worse, lol. But that’s also my experience of the people world. lol. So yea, always nice to have positive experiences. The couple experiences of seeming to know how others perceived me was positive.

I find it interesting, there are women you could be really into then you find out they might be a bit shallow and the sexual chemistry falls away.Other women you’re really into you might find that there’s no sexual chemistry. Lol. So yea playing the field is the right move for guys. I wish I had done that but my life had other plans.