No Listening
I was so tired yesterday that I can’t really say it was a recon day. But yea, kinda reconny. I was just super tired, got a short nap. Got over it pretty quickly. I had some chores to do and was going to nap first. But I remembered that last time I got a nap, I was kinda cranky and didn’t do my workout after that. So I did my chores and things cleared up.
So far I’m deeper into a cycle than I’ve ever been. Over the 21 day mark. Just being really conservative on the listening times. I might just try the increase by 5 seconds every listening day from here on out. Instead of doing the 30 second jumps each cycle.
I think not wanting to drop down listening times made for more recon. And I never thought I could go past a 21 day cycle. So far yea, it’s been a light cycle. Perhaps I could try the 30 listening day cycle. I am just planning for a 30 day cycle which is like 15 listening days. The 5 second increments could let me get a 30 listening day cycle though.
Lol I’m still a bit on that style upgrade phase. Now I need a new belt. I just have a basic black stretch belt. But now I’m like I need a belt to match my shoes, lol.
Still have a pet peeve of when you encounter un-self aware people. They completely bypass themselves and want to focus on you. Like the violator stuff. Like they’re so unaware of their own thoughts and feelings that they start this thing where they focus on your feelings. They’ll even say it outloud, sometimes I don’t think they realize they’re doing it because they’re so unaware. Just bugs me. Luckily I don’t encounter that very much anymore. It’s actually pretty rare that I do. It’s like there’s no problem man. Awareness isn’t even about words. But it’s a lost cause trying to explain it to them. They’re still in the matrix as they say, completely identified with anything but their true selves.
It’s like there was a baba or guru who would kind of get angry and at his wits end sometimes with people. He knew what people were thinking and that kind of thing. But sometimes he’d get so upset and cuss out the people but they didn’t speak the language so they didn’t know any better. He would get so mad they were basically stuck in the program. Like all they want to do is have sex and get money or that kind of thing.lol. He would say it was like I guess like a woodpecker at wood, but like he was the wood kind of thing. ahaha.
Me I have no such thing. I always say I am so glad I don’t know other people’s thoughts. I have my own. So I don’t care to know what kind of junk is going on in other people’s minds.
But I also identified as an empath or hsp type. Where I get overwhelmed and overstimulated around people. Like I always say every person is basically an individual universe unto themselves, it gets a bit overwhelming walking through crowds.
I guess I’ll go back to 30s on my Primal and PS loops tomorrow. Been feeling a little cranky at times. I would say I’m just sensitive to it. To me it’s not anything any “normal” person wouldn’t experience. But I have been around a lot of toxic people. Those kind who are allowed to feel and say and do whatever they want but made me out to be the problem.
But yea, cranky isn’t my style. I’m aware and present enough to not let it boil over. But when I look at my goals, it’s not what I"m after right now. I’m not after the push through it. I’m after the easy going, light fun, summer vibes. I’ve spent plenty of time pushing it. For me this stack is about fun and keeping it light.
I still think sleep is a main factor. Lack of a straight 8 hours. But yea, nothing I can really do about it. Get as close to 7 as possible and then a little later get an extra hour or two of more sleep.
So it seems I will make it to my first 30 day cycle. But then I’ll take that 5 days of no listening.
Oh well.