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Listening day 7: 1m GLM & NE Primal

As usual I’d hoped to get more sleep after waking up with my alarm. I did not. I was close enough to get at least 7hrs. Felt a little crabby. But I made a quick grocery store run. I had to get my 3000 rewards points on an item. lol.

But now I’m still feeling that kind of tired crabby feeling. But there’s also that optimism and feeling good and singing songs I make up to entertain myself vibe. lol

I wore my tan boots. Man I like them. They feel good. I don’t know why I didn’t ever wear them before. I think it was probably just self consciousness, worried about what others would think. lol. Seems silly now. They don’t even have good insoles but they feel good on my feet. I like that boot feel man. I guess I’m a boot guy now.

A few days back I was self conscious about my hair. I thought it looked extra/grey white. That never bothers me. So it must have been recon. Today my hair doesn’t look extra grey. And it doesn’t even bother me. To me I go out looking like a bum. So my vibe must be what attracts the women, when it hits, it hits. Not saying every woman wants me. Most days I don’t even see hot women anyway, and yea it’s not an all the time thing where women show interest. But it definitely happens and looks, at least from my perspective, don’t seem to matter to them. lol. Scraggly beard, not even dressed nice kinda thing and I’ll get these nice dressed, good looking women wanting me.

Today I stopped at a gas station I started going to. Second time there. So it’s new people, new vibe. Today was some facial pierced chick. She wasn’t hot. But I made a little banter with her. I walked in and saw a blow up easter bunny. With a note that said something like there are easter eggs hidden in the store. Find one and get a prize. So as she was finishing up my transaction I asked if all the easter eggs had been found. More for my own entertainment and a slight move out of my comfort zone. She was not interested in me at all. Which is fine. Like I say, there’s either chemistry or there’s not. To me it just lets me still be a bit more social, and have no attachment. So even though it’s a small thing, it’s still progress for me.

Ok so I haven’t stumbled across the law of silence as far as spiritual goes. I guess maybe from the bible. Something like When you pray, go into your room and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.

I was listening to this book and it says don’t tell anyone how you’re getting your results. Say you write a list of what you want and you review it three times a day. Well it says the reason is because people will pop off with their opinions. Then you’ll focus on that, thus diminishing your own power. Whatever it is they’ll say that’s not right or possible or whatever. Some judgement about it. So then your mind will be focused on that, thus weakening and perhaps halting your results.

So I guess I have learned that. Just in general with people. I’ve always been quiet. But when I’d open up at work. Which I found is not a good idea. People may try to use everything against you, and at the very least anything you say or don’t say is just fodder for gossip. Like say I’d be talking to someone, seeing them as a friend. Then I’d find out too late, that somebody was around the corner, or eavesdropping. lol. Just gross behavior from my opinion. Especially when I saw people as good, and in practice they showed me otherwise. So in the last few days the gears have been turning in my head about the law of silence topic.

But for my journal, luckily I don’t get many comments. And it’s not just random opinions, like say on any social media app. So that’s why I post. And for me it’s always been about someone else can gain something from it. I was helped that way and so that’s kind of how I help. Luckily, I didn’t get programmed with my opinions are the most important thing. Telling people they’re wrong is the most important thing. But that’s also a key with others. They are, lol. They say it’s one of those irresistible urges, to correct others. And that’s probably what I’m doing now in my own way. lol. Very interesting stuff. But for me I take more insight and wisdom from observing, and sort of dismantling my own inner workings. Thus realizing more about the “outer” world.

Also maybe some ever so slight recon today. I do feel like I want to post my thoughts on things, in an entertaining way of course. But I also see that it’s more of that feeling stuff. This bothers me so I’m going to make a joke about it. Attempt to maybe teach a lesson through a joke to change perceptions. lol.

I guess I’m working on some people issues in the background. I’m kind of getting worked up on the topic of the “just get a job” crowd. lol. If those people were so great and loved their jobs so much, why are they so miserable to be with and around? lol. I guess that’s how miserable they are, they need you to share that misery. Then there are the other ones who are so proud and they get to do what they love, so they say. I would beg to differ if instead of focusing on their work they’re too busy complaining about everyone to get a job. lol.

I was kind of cranky this morning. When I went to the store and stopped at this gas station I go to now. It seems kind of busier and that’s why I didn’t go there. So I pull up and see a hot chick at the pump. And get to the parking spots and it’s like work trucks. Working men stopping in. So I see that one of the trucks is parked in the handicapped. No handicapped license plate or sign. So I was kinda cranky about that. I get in and get to the cashier. And another guy comes buy to the other cashier. And he starts talking and it’s a good vibe. Like just a normal, good dude. I was surprised. I’m supposed to be trained that everyone is racist and I have to be fearful of them in some way. But no the vibes were there. It’s funny because the chick cashier I was at had no vibes, lol. Some people have zero vibes I guess. lol. The other cashier chick was hot, I just got a glance but had to run my game. Pretend to be oblivious. Plus that’s what they like anyway. hahaha. If I keep going there she’ll get curious, why doesn’t he like me all the other guys blatantly check me out and flirt with me, but not him. lol.

Had to run some quick errands again. Feeling really tired. Would like to be sleeping instead. Not feeling the most comfortable with my thoughts. So anyway, as I was driving I also noticed that I still felt grounded in my body. That was nice. Any thought junk wasn’t sticky at all. Just mostly uncomfortable I guess. Shifting old conditioning at times yet.

Might’ve gotten too active on my social media. Zero likes again. So I’m in a drought. That means I just shut it off and leave it alone. Unfortunately gotta play a little psychology. Can’t be too available I suppose.

When I had to do my evening errands. I was just uncomfortable, would have rather been at home for sure. Instead of being out in public. So I was on the drive home and an ambulance was coming in my direction. So I pulled over like we’re supposed to do. And that seemed to get me out of the discomfort I was in. I had to be present and focus on what I was doing, watching for other cars etc. So that seemed to alleviate the I guess psychological discomfort. But I was also kind of at my end. I really should have been in bed trying to take a nap, lol. Had one more stop and had some mental hiccups, but just kept right on.

I was getting some insight on social things. Probably from Primal. I don’t remember what it was though. The drive through guy called me boss, today. He’s the guy who has the great customer service. But my energy was off, so I could tell that affected things a bit. He must be a bit of a vibe guy as well, but he probably doesn’t consciously know it. He probably sees me as higher status, thanks to Primal and GLM. Before it was CFW. So I could sense a bit of deferment to my vibe.

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No Listening

I wish I could have LB and one of the happiness/joy titles in my stack.

But again, not going to happen yet.

Then I consider what I need. Well, those would be great. But I gotta stick with the stack as is. Then of course I’d want to maybe try a wealth title. True Sell, whatever. But I can kind of anticipate that I might want to keep GLM for more than 12 cycles. Not sure if I’d want to add a custom. If I did I think I’d keep it one core and just add those elements I’d like. Maybe add a touch of love and wealth somewhere.

But for now I think getting a name embedded LOTS with Divine Self Image will be that right move. That might actually be the right puzzle piece booster.

I got to see yea, there’s still some seeking approval, or validation from others in me. It was not major, but that’s some of the recon that came up. So it’s probably being worked on as we speak.

I took two days off keto this week. For the holiday left overs. Despite that, I looked in the mirror today. There was actually a little of the cinched up in the stomach effect again. I was surprised. So perhaps my metabolism is much more efficient. Plus the only ab exercise I do is stomach vacuums. Which seem to really help with that. I just did a quick web search and found that yea, they seem to work fast as others report. So if you want one move to tighten up those abs, do stomach vacuums.

Went for 300mg caffeine today. Normally I don’t on Tues/Wed/Sat/Sun. But I was feeling like I wanted the boost. Some very slight anxiety. So I’ll need to do my Tues workout now.

Yea, I would say I’ve hit into some recon. Between not getting my 8hrs of sleep and working through things. I finally reached some recon. On the old cycles I’d have a week left before washout. From what I remember it usually passes by the end of the cycle. Plus I’m curious to find out how the new longer cycle will go.

I would like to be on a stack of KB and CWON. But no. I think I’m really going to go for 12 cycles with GLM uninterrupted. Not sure what cycle of Primal this is but I took a cycle off for Genesis Joy. Which was worth it. With the longer cycle it makes it tough to go I’d like to trade out Primal for Genesis Joy or Summertime for a cycle, because a cycle is 2 months. I think it might actually be more beneficial in a way, in that if recon comes up, well now you get more time to work through it if you stick to the 2 month stack cycle.

Being that my life is currently as it is. That should tell me that I need to stick with it. Work through the recons while I can. In the future I may have more responsibilities such as a job or have to be around people more. I still have the freedom to just stay home if I feel the need. So maybe I would change the way I approach stacks if I had a more “normal” life. I’d do a major and a booster and my LOTS or Paragon. The booster would be like a LB, or Summertime.

So the recon was some slight irritability/anxiety. Just general feeling uncomfortable again. I call it the growing pains. I thought I was being too conservative, sticking with 1m instead of fast tracking the listening times upward. But yea my plan of 15 listening days before a 30 second increase seems to be the right one for me.

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Listening Day 8: 1m LOTS

Dang. 6.5 hours of sleep but feeling great. Like I have energy. That hopefully means a late nap today.

Got one of those neck/shoulder pains from sleeping wrong today though. So that puts a damper on things. At least it’s not an upper body day. I’m gonna get to my workout and take advantage of the energy. Generally I need that nap later because the lesser sleep tends to catch up with me at some point in the day.

Feeling some of that joy. Maybe it’s the stoic joy, regardless. Also feeling nice and clear.

Took 3 days off keto. Felt like it was just time for a little breather. Plus it was a holiday, leftovers and such.

I have a large appetite this evening. Hopefully that dies down. But no pull to just eat anything. Keeping it keto.

Still in some slight recon for the last half of the day. Nothing more than routine crankiness from not getting enough sleep. So, normal. lol. I still did chores and whatever. Mostly just resting after my workout.

I just realized that the 30 day cycle now changes things for the multi-stagers as well. Instead of the 1 or 4 cycles per stage debate. Now it’s 30 listening days, which is like 2 cycles on the 21 day cycles, for 1 cycle.

I feel like I’m due for an LB run. My love blaster effects seem to have worn off. Maybe that’s a good thing though. I’m more self contained perhaps. I notice being grounded and maybe that calm is becoming more of the default instead of love blaster effect.

I did look at the Love Synergy but I’d still go with Divine Self Image module for the name embedded LOTS.

I think Primal is my flex slot. LOTS isn’t going anywhere until summer is over. GLM is too close to the approximate 12 month mark to drop. I want to do LB, but when this 30 listening days is up, looks like we could get a slight update on the LBFH. So that will be tempting. Though yea. Still a bit jumbled on titles. I’d prefer to be at 12 months with GLM so I could trade it out for LB until LBFH gets that mini update.

I’d be okay adding LB to LOTS but I’m not sure I want to add the density. Still working through things yet with Primal, at times.

Time for a read of the GLM copy I suppose.

Apparently I have an energy meridian or something clearing up behind my ear. Interesting sensation there tonight. I don’t know anything about meridians. Ans to me thats a weird spot. Cant find anything yet on a search. So i’m not sure what it might relate to. I’ve had energy channels clear up in other spots. Like in between my toes and spots in my hips.

Alright its possibly gallbladder 11 or 12 acupuncture points. Its on the right side. And my neck shoulder pain is on the left. Lol. Maybe I’ll check with AI.

Yea its a maybe healing up the neck pain. But now its like the good body feelings are spreading on the right side of my body. Been a few days since I was feeling really good in the body. Since i hit recon. Yea, almost euphoria starting to spread through the right side of my body. That’s wild. Maybe love blaster is coming back online, lol.

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Still have the neck/shoulder pain from yesterday but way lighter. Doesn’t bother movement.

Right side mostly in the behind the ear area feels good. Like free and clear. So yea, maybe just some meridian clearing or something. Would be nice to have that on the sore side, lol.

I got my extra sleep today. So I guess it was a catch up on sleep day. But now I’m groggy.

Immediate start of the day with the Infinite Brain juice. Normally I wait an hour for the caffeine hit. But it’s hitting and now I’m feeling good. lol. I gotta say since starting back up on LOTS, it’s like caffeine is a whole different thing for me. I think I get what normal people get. Before I didn’t think it did much for me. Maybe I’m just more aware of my body and any good feelings or something. Better chemistry, perhaps.

Lol. It’s wild seeing some of my old posts. Some of my first runs of CFW and Chosen make me want to get back on that. But I’m still seeing some of the same patterns, and things I’m working through. So I might say that no matter what title it is, it’ll work on what you need, just from different angles.

I may end up rethinking my plan. I think it would be to switch out GLM with Summertime at the next interval. I’ll keep Primal as my masculine driver. Primal is more what I want for summer anyway. I can always go back to GLM if I find something missing. But by then I figure I’d jump back on Chosen, or TWTP.

Summertime seems like it would be highly beneficial for me. Plus since Primal is the one that is working through issues, it would really help out with that.

So I might actually just do a 21 day cycle and that means 2 more listening days before 5 days off. Then I’ll plan for the 30 listening day cycle.

I’d say I’m still in some recon. But now it’s more feelings of wanting to be living, in action. Rather than just the unprocessed or stuck, being in my feelings type stuff.

Yea, Summertime is going to be a treat. So it has proven to be a stack breaker. I’m pretty good about not jumping ship at the drop of a new title. But I’ve given in, so I’m always a month or more behind everybody else on the new title.

Super hungry today. But that is to be expected after 3 days off keto. It’s day 2 back on. Been thinking about trying one of those “fat burner” supplements. Just for the appetite suppression effects. They tend to have like 200mg caffeine though and I already take pre-workout.

Oh I learned that my stretch mark problem. Might be due to low collagen. I never even knew about collagen until I was like 30. So I guess I gotta be taking my collagen.

A bit in my feels again. lols. If anything it’s gotta be Primal hitting deep again. I want the growth from Primal, and I think summertime will help with that. As I would guess it’s more targeted and focused than GLM. Not that GLM isn’t but just for my goals of maybe smoothening things out a bit. Summertime probably removes some density for me. Not that GLM is even a challenging title for me thus far either.

I think WDB and Summertime would be a lot more fun and feel good. But I really want to work through Primal while I have the chance. I don’t have any worries of it interrupting my life. I can just stay home if I feel the need. Won’t interrupt my life schedule. Plus Primal does have the fun and optimism and that’s always a bonus when I’m experiencing that.

Aww, dang. I gotta buy Summertime yet. So I think I’ll keep on with my first 30 listening day cycle as is. We’ll experiment, see what happens.

Recon and being in my feelings cleared up by work time. I went with self inquiry and that seemed to clear it up.

Dang. I got the pain in my calf again when I move sometimes. A few months back I thought it was maybe a small baker’s cyst. It’s really small and feels like maybe. That’s why I was on Paragon again. So uhh, yea I haven’t been jumping or running. I have been trying to bounce on my toes again. Not really doing any athletic stuff yet either. So yea, not sure. Just have to see how that goes.

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Day 9: 1m GLM & NE Primal

First impression of the day is that I’m out of the recon, for now. Feeling more of the positive side. Not overly positive, just back to a normal feeling good inner vibe.

Now I gotta try and bang out this workout before we get company, and a home inspection this afternoon.

Also my 300mg caffeine pre-workout is empty. Rather than open another bottle I’ll work on the 2 scoops of the 100mg caffeine pre-workout. I might try the thermogenic supplements to see how I like them.

Only got half the workout done. Not feeling like being around people today. Kinda tired. I would have preferred to go back to sleep. But the workout took precedence. My calf hurts a little bit. Not sure what the deal is with that.

Welp, seems like it might be the small baker’s cyst in my knee. The one I had surgically reconstructed back when I was like 13. So uhh, I hope my jump rope days aren’t over. I was really set on building up to like 20 minutes on trampoline.

I happened upon somebody doing free healing sessions. They use the Bengston Method, the image cycling stuff. So I got on the list. But I think I’m going to research these peptides and maybe that will help my knee heal up. I can still ride bike and walk. I hope this won’t rule out kettlebell swings and snatches in the future. That’s what I was hoping to get back to.

Oh if anybody wants on the list dm me. They also seem to have the website set up for training yourself to learn how to do the image cycling. I haven’t really looked at it beside to request the healing.

I had a pair of shoes that I’d forgotten about. New but never wore them. They were too tight. So we’re like 5 years later. I decided to dig them out. I just had a curiosity the last couple days about them. They fit! So now I have an abundance of footwear. These will be my anytime shoes, the ones I don’t mind if they get dirtied up. I even bought one of those shoe widener contraptions after I bought them because they were too tight. It didn’t help so I forgot about the shoes. I think it was because I was on my feet 8 hours a day at work, my feet were probably wider at the time due to that.

Now about the workout. Haven’t done my knees over toes workout. I did mobility which includes deep squatting with no pain. But I’m not sure if I should switch back to the iso holds instead, I don’t wanna lose progress.But they say the iso holds are good for tendons. So are like jumping exercises, which I guess I shouldn’t be doing. I felt like I was just about to get back into the groove after a 4 week reconditioning phase.

Lol. Now I have a little bit of sciatic pain on my side without the possible bakers cyst behind the knee. And I still have zero desire to go back to Paragon. I really wanna stick with LOTS through summer.

Maybe I should have done Paragon and DRLD together. Lol, maaan.

Alright, so my knees tolerate the knees over toes workouts just fine. But as far as I know their only exercise for the back of the knees is nordic curls. I don’t have the set up. So yea, comes back to I need to do some hamstring exercises. Reverse Planks and Swiss Ball Hamstring curls. Since foundation training doesn’t hit the hams like I need either.

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No Listening

My knees feel great actually. It’s just that I guess I can’t jump rope. That irritates the thing.

Today I had a good stretch before getting out of bed. Just need a good upper body stretch.

I was looking at myself yesterday. I had this lightweight 1/4 zip on. Haven’t worn it much since it’s been too cold. I just wore a hoodie all winter. So I’m looking in the mirror and it looks almost comical to me. The way it fits it really makes that V taper look pop. Like my shoulders are wide and waist is narrow. Still no 6 pack. But got a nice V taper for some reason.

Yea sitting here typing I still want to just move and stretch my body. So there’s gotta be changes going on.

Now I’ve gotta buy new socks. All these shoes and now I need socks. I got some new colorful socks but they don’t match. They didn’t matter in the winter with pants. Now I gotta match up, lol.

Came hoke from work early. That’s the beauty of being my own boss. I’ll have to finish up tomorrow. I was just so tired and miserable. I guess I need a long nap. Got some sleep to catch up on.

That’s weird. I got home went straight to bed. Didn’t get to sleep but I feel better. Pretty much normal. Maybe I just needed an hour break. It also could be that the body says it’s rest mode. Which isn’t particularly ideal since I didn’t quite finish out my job today.

Interesting since my body was craving all the stretching type movements when I woke up. Even now I kinda wanna stretch and move around intuitively. lol. I guess the body said it doesn’t want that regimented repetitive movement from my cleaning job today.

I wanna guess that the fascial system is just freeing up maybe. Getting rid of the tensions or something.

I was talking to one of the previous generations in my family. I made some statements. And they reacted like they didn’t know. It made me realize that they’ve always seen me as a kid I guess. That even if I’m making statements I’m asking to be told what to do since i don’t know, at least in their world lol.

I saw this video earlier today. It was some guys walking around NYC or something just filming. They started talking to this guy. And this guy went right into the social mode. So in the comments there were all these accusations that he’s an agent, or that he’s a serial killer. One even said he must be a big fan of how to win friends and influence people.

There were a few sales guys that said, yea, that’s what we do. So all the negative, judgment types, aren’t social. Because he was doing the rapport and everything. It’s based on who you’re talking to. So if he were talking to these judgement types, he wouldn’t be, but he would approach with a different energy. But they don’t know that of course. Because he’s different than how they are, because he’s not talking to them. They’re just the peanut gallery.

It just got me to see that yea, they don’t know. If they did they’d realize it depends on who you’re talking to. When you’re social yea, that’s more how it’s gonna be. But the judgers aren’t social, they probably just have their friends or whatever and aren’t out talking to new people or strangers. Just sitting back talking about others rather than to or with them.

It’s like they don’t know rapport. Everybody does, but not the importance right. It’s I either like them or I don’t. They’re either like me or they’re not. There’s a guy in this group on a game I play. I like to throw out one liners and make the people lol. But there’s this guy and he will occasionally come back with some suggestion. But there’s no rapport. So I can see that and it doesn’t feel good to me. It’s more like yea, he is an older guy too actually. Maybe that older generation just yea, is used to having no rapport. I think they did have to deal with work life where it was more do what we say and that’s just how it is type stuff. So even if they don’t mean to bring that energy, just in their communication it can be taken that way because there’s no rapport.

It also got me reminded of that angle. Like say there’s a legit good guy. Well there are lots of people who hate that. Because it’s not like them. They’re not legit. Anyone who appears to be a good guy is a serial killer or something. lol. So that’s part of why I’ve had trouble with people in the past. I also got an insight that yea, these just aren’t the right people. They’re the crab bucket types. That’s part of why I never moved up in any job. But there’s also the “metaphysical angle” that idea that they can’t handle the light or someone who’s done that work on themselves. It sparks jealousy because most people aren’t willing and won’t ever do the self work that it takes. They’d rather judge and bring someone down, rather than understand what it takes at least.

I did have some carbs when I got home. Also took my 10g creatine. So yea, not sure what the heck was up today. But yea just think it’s a rest day for the body, unfortunately the body isn’t on a work schedule. I could have just gutted it out but I realized yea, I can do it tomorrow. If I’m feeling this bad I can go home and take a nap, since I’m fortunate enough to be able to be that flexible.’

Feel a bit reconny yet. More just slightly in my feels. I think some issues got worked out of the body. That could be why I was so tired at work until I got home.

If I had an inner circle I think that would help to alleviate things as well. Feeling positive the little social interaction I’ve had today.

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Listening day 10: 1m LOTS

It dawned on me that a 30 listening day cycle is actually like 3 21 day cycles. I been thinking the 30 listening day was equivalent to 2 21 day cycles. 10 listening days is 20 calendar days.

Feeling good and clear in the mental. But I can tell my body is more in chill and relax,rest mode. But I gotta go finish up my work now. Just in that relax mode where I don’t even want to listen to my 1 minute loop of LOTS. But maybe LOTS will give me a little boost for the day, lol.

Got 10 hours of sleep maybe. Got 2 hours in. Then I got 6 more. Then I got an hour. then another hour. lol. Yea, just that cozy curl up and stay in bed vibe today. But I already did some dishes and had no problem if it needs to get done.

Yea. Just generally clear blue skies in the mental today. Just feeling good. Not pouring outward good though. Not where I need anything from others though. Just good vibes. Though I haven’t been around others so I have no data on how it’s received by others. lol. Like anything else some would love it, some would hate it, and some wouldn’t even notice. lol.

Oh I forgot to mention. This am my voice was naturally deeper and more resonant. Probably after I got through the recon and freed up some tension.

Reading the Summertime reports makes me wish we had that title a lot sooner. It would be the best booster. Run your major, Summertime, and whatever else for me it’s LOTS or Paragon. Seems like it would help work out issues, release tension, and just boost whatever your other titles are. Without it being a healing focused title.

I dunno. Everytime I take a peek at the Summertime thread. It just seems like there’s no choice. I have to run it in my stack. It’s just a matter of which title I can live without. That would have to be GLM.

I think I’ve now completed 7 21 day cycles with GLM. I know I could use some Summertime. However LOTS does have relaxation scripting and Primal is NE with irresistible relaxation. So yea. I’ll keep at it for now. But yea, seems like Summertime will get in my stack soon. I can say soon because I’ve seen soon used in such a matter that it’s 10+ years lol. That’s not soon to me but I guess in the history of all existence yea, that’s like instant.

That just gave me an idea. I could have Summertime/LOTS as a custom. That I would use for the spring summer. Then I would go back to Paragon for the long winters.

I tried out my “tight” shoes today for my short work session. They were fine. A little tight on the left side. But I think if I break them in they’ll be fine. I put some FP insoles in them. They’re supposed to be like a dead shock absorbing insole. For skaters or something. These shoes are sort of skate type shoes. Like the old classic reeboks, before shoes got all fancy. They seem fine so far even though they don’t have cushioning. The insoles seem to work for me. I tend to prefer a bouncy insole, or even a gel insole for being on my feet all day. Foam doesn’t work for my feet. My bodweight is a little heavier though. I don’t look like I weigh as much as I do.

Oh yea, I decided instead of going no caffeine. I’ll just keep it to 150mgs caffeine per day for 2 weeks. Then maybe I’d do a week no caffeine. Just to take breaks and not be dependent.

I hit my 4 weeks of higher caffeine and hitting my workouts. Now I’ll just try to hit all the workouts with less caffeine for 2 weeks. Then we’ll see where I want to increase. Probably just add isometric holds and then see if I can still hit my reps yet for the next 4-6 weeks.

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I was walking up the stairs this morning. Felt a quick pain in my good knee. So now I guess I’ll be taking it easy again and wearing the knee supports. I guess I have to regress with the knees over toes. There’s one single leg move and it’s like a step down. So I’ll just do double legs and go slow with it.

Seems like a cycle for me. I keep feeling like I’m ready to get back to it and then I have some set back. Then I am always building back up again. So yea. I’ll just ease up a bit and keep at it. I guess I have to take it slower than I want of course. I never wanted to be a cardio guy. But if that’s the thing that gives me no problems, maybe eventually I’ll head in that direction. I can always increase the resistance on the bike and build some legs if I really want to.

Mental weather was pretty calm this morning. A lot of times I have those worries/anxieties around when I wake up. But today was pretty much nothing. I take my one affirmation you could call it. Just a general cover everything type thing. I was great with keep it going all day. They call it robotic affirming. Just repetition. I always try to feel it though. Bring up the feelings like being in the end state sort of thing. Then a fear kept popping up. Sort of self sabotage I’d say. So then for the past few days I’ve just been working on that fear. So I tried it today and I get the good feelings when I say the affirmation. But I also have a bit of an aversion to it because I guess it brought up a fear. So maybe I get to see consciously how subs might work. They put in the positive and the junk will come up, and that’s the recon. So you gotta work through it. But with the subs you keep going back to the stuff you want to put in. So I gotta do that consciously. Just get back to using my affirmation and putting that in there.

So I think I’m learning about slowing down. Taking it slow but being consistent. Whether it’s with my workouts, or trying to get that one woman, or whatever. lol. Like with a woman you like, the one you really like, you might have to do a slow burn. That’s probably why I never got the ones I really wanted. I didn’t know about building the anticipation and all that. Because the chicks who like me, it’s like right now. lol.

I decided to muscle test on if this energy is flowing through my crown. Nope. Is it flowing through my forehead spot? nope. Okay. has my third eye been opened? yep. Is the energy flowing through my throat spot? yep. lol. So it goes back to the vision I had that we made it up to the throat. That’s like the only time I recall having a vision about something. Like image-wise. I’ve always been super intuitive, but never got it to where it’s on demand. That’d be cool. But yea, I didn’t make it happen so I’m not gonna try and speed up the process. Energy been awakened and it’s making it’s way up and we’ll just keep doing what we been doing. Since that’s probably what started the whole thing anyway. Not trying to make it happen. I’m cool with it being on its time, not mine.

Kind of have some issues around the ick of people. Like all the bad stuff they do and that happens. And then all the projection and that kind of stuff. Being a bit of a sensitive that’s been my issue with being in the world. The people part. I love nature and I do like people. Just seems to come with a lot of baggage and problems. Then since I’m always growing, it’s been tough to keep any leaves on the tree so to speak. But apparently that’s just part of the process. I still have growth to do. I guess maybe that never ends. So yea, that’s where my issues come from mostly. Just being around people that are still stuck in the cages I guess, and I think we all are on some level. It’s just that we don’t know what we don’t know. So that’s why they say we’re all doing our best. But dang, sure seems to be a hassle sometimes. Like I would come in accepting others and being a legit good guy. Then finding out others aren’t loyal, or self aware or any of that. Some are though.

So yea, more introspection. On one hand there’s the wishing I had friends and was out in the world. But on the other hand, I can see that I have my own things to work through. But that’s maybe the take action part. You take the action, then if you’re self aware you get to see your own junk come up. That’s where the work is. So anytime you get triggered by others, you get to see what you get to work on. Generally it doesn’t work that way though. The others like to blame and judge and project, and I’ve dealt with plenty of that. Still a bit averse to getting back in the people world. Thus, I still have my own work cut out for me.

Lol. So it seems I’m back at the point where I’m tasked with what I need to work on yet. Slightly in the feels, lol. But that’s what makes for breakthroughs.

I went to the sub shop on sunday. I wasnt going back, because theres a lady that didnt get my order right. Just felt like she didnt care about her job and doing it right.

So i went back last week. She wasnt there and my order was fine. Went back yesterday, since it’s close to where I work. She was there. I walked in and had to wait for someone ahead of me. She was being helped by someone else. So i had to stand there and wait. The lady was making someone else order. I could tell she wasnt at ease. Maybe looking for disapproval. But I didnt talk to her because she was making an order. But today I realized I could have just talked to her and got her feeling better by just being friendly. She seems like maybe shes more social and has to work just to work. But is also slightly insecure and probably just needs reassurance. Lol.

I think I’m going to drop GLM out of my stack for the next 10 listening days. Then come back with Summertime, or LB. I feel like that’s more what’s needed. I am definitely working through things with Primal and that’s the direction I really want to move in for the summer anyway. I can always come back to GLM if I feel I’m missing something from it later. Primal just has the social, and seduction side that I think is more what my focus is. Plus the fun and optimism. Summertime will just be nice, and LB would help to fortify the inner world. So yea. I’ll take a break on GLM starting now. It’ll be just Primal and LOTS for the next 10 listening days.

lol. Yea all this introspection today, got me on a new path. I’m taking a washout. Then I’m going with LB and Summertime. I think it’ll just take some pressure off. Based on what I see as being what I need to work though, those are going to be the best titles. Especially for summer. For me it can be a little stressful. Just being around more people. So yea, I guess it’s time for a change of pace. So today it’s more of things coming up that LB would definitely help deal with. I guess I gotta get back to basics again.

Yea it seems like 21 day cycle is best for me. I got all this stuff coming up and now I’m taking a washout as usual after 21 days. For now it looks like I will be moving to LB and Summertime, just for a breather/reset.

Like a new day now. I still plan to take my 5 day washout. But I may just stick with it as is after that.

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Day 2: no listening

Did the mirror check. No 6 pack but I’m probably as close as I’ve gotten. I think I need to actually work the abs if I want them to pop now. All I do is stomach vacuums.

Back of the knee that has the cyst is slightly tender today just walking around. I didnt do legs yesterday. My good knee was hurting once in awhile walking up stairs.

Yea, really puts a damper on my workout plans. I did ride the bike and did mobility yesterday with no probs.

Back to wearing knee supports when I work.

I guess the smart move would be to bring back paragon. But I gotta go forward as is.

I was looking at Ultimate Artist and was considering it. Then I looked at Inner Circle and I might go with that. Instead of GLM. It has everything that’s in my new favorite book. So there’s a good chance I will be testing Inner Circle out.

Ultimate Artist has some wealth so that was intriguing. But yea, Inner Circle paired with Primal seems like fun.

Well, after skimming GLM copy. I have to stay the course with my stack as is. It’s still april though. official summer kind of starts in June anyway. Plus I think I’m on the edge of some profound changes. They’ve probably already happened beneath the surface. I’m sure there are more to come.

If anything Primal will give me what I’m after anyway. After it does it’s job of working through some junk, lol.

Primal and LOTS are going to have to team up for the objective of giving me a sexy swagger and walk. Gonna have to work on those knees for me.

Yea it looks like exercise bike will become a daily thing. Just to keep the blood moving through the knees. And I can do everything I’ve been doing just no jumping or hopping, probably no pivoting either. That was my trademark, I would be able to pivot and move well at my job. But yea, no fancy stuff anymore. lol. I think as close as I’ll get to jumping will be like kettlebell swings hopefully. And I gotta keep up the swiss ball hamstring curls and yea. I can still basically do everything I was doing. I was hoping to work on elasticity, but yea no from jumping anymore. I guess I just gotta focus on what I can do which is everything but jumping, lol.

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Day 3: No listening

More toned in the arms today. This bodyblade thing really works. I got the hang out of it. Was feeling strong on Monday. I noticed it was easier for me to do. But the thing about it is, it’s adaptive. Meaning that the stronger you get, the better workout you get. Now I’m sore again. I wasn’t pushing it, was just noticing it’s easier for me to keep it moving and so I was moving it easier but also getting a better workout. What’s wild is it’s not a full range of motion. Say you work the chest, you’re almost at lockout and just flapping this thing, lol. But you can change the ranges of motion as you get better with it if you want. I wish I would got one of these things years ago. But I was into the kettlebells and still able to jump and stuff, lol. I wish I could find the equivalent for the legs. That would be nice.

Got 6 hours of sleep and did chores today. No workout. I guess I’ll hop on the bike and then do my walking. That will have to do it today. I think getting some sleep is the most important thing today.

If you would have told me back in my 30’s that I’d be looking my best at 43. And I won’t even be able to train as hard. I wouldn’t have believed it. I just did a quick mirror check. After 3 days off keto and I still look a little better. I’ve been back on keto for only 3 days. After going completely off the wagon for 3 days. But I haven’t done that since Christmas.

Even though I’d like to be able to work out harder, and I can’t, I’m still getting results from whatever I am able to do. I haven’t even started back up on pushups or continued my attempt to see if I can progress to a full pullup. I could do a few chinups always, but never got a full pull up. It’s not so easy for what I weigh. I haven’t even gotten to a minute of a full dead hang.

I might start working the abs. Maybe I’ll start using the ab wheel. I don’t know if I can get a full rep on that though, I’m talking the full extension. Maybe I’ll work on it plank style. Just hold as far as I can until I build that up to a minute or something. I figure I may as well start working on some sort of strength besides just legs. I guess basically all I’ve been doing is mobility and conditioning.

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Day 4 no listening

I was reading the Primal copy and it seems it may have seducer’s gaze. So I’m potentially getting double seducer’s gaze with LOTS. It’ll be a nice bonus when it comes online for me.

Last time I ran LOTS, there was a point where it was like it clicked in. And I noticed that I wanted to look out into the world more.

Sometimes I still see people with the hard edge. Like I was driving in the last few days. I notice some of these walkers will just stare at cars as they’re passing. My attention was caught by some old woman, she was kind of I guess timid, I could tell. But then I immediately noticed her husband who had like that almost aggressive glare. Probably just over protective because it was getting dark, lol.

Haven’t noticed any women attracted to me lately. But haven’t seen any good ones anyway. Not a big deal. I’m still in inner game/world overhaul at times.

When I get those moments of possibility, that’s right out of Primal description. It just feels like the world is open and I feel in touch with potential and possibility. So I just need to keep at it and allow it to unfold. Probably just the title switching recon that sneaks in at times yet. To where I’m all set on switching titles. After reading the copy for my titles, it got me to realize that I’m not done and these are great titles. I just need to put in the time.

I do think I’ll opt for an NE LOTS with Divine Self Image. I think that’s just the touch I need in my stack. I would like to go for LB, but I’ll play it conservatively and not go for more density.

I would love to have an LB/Summertime NE though. Just the 2 majors NE for a custom. Just don’t have the spot for it yet. I think that would have been the ideal first foundational combo.

Sometimes I think that GLM and Primal, are titles that would require more than 12 months. But maybe after 12 cycles I’ll just be able to rotate them in and out.’

Just got an email from an evidence based hypnosis guy. He actually pulled one of his books and programs off the market because he said he only wanted to do evidence based. lol. He just sent out an email about how your self identity dictates your body shape. So I guess it’s just a slight wink that going with Divine Self Image module in a NE LOTS is a good idea. lol.

My body seems hot after eating. So I guess my metabolism is increased. Burning that fat I suppose. So it turns out to be a slower week for working out for me. Just ease up and let the knees bounce back.

Got an email tonight about sales jobs. Man, those are some nice numbers. 6 figures. Just that I have no experience. But that would be something. It would be the most money I’ve ever made.

That reminds me. I can see that all my fun posting on social media, has inspired at least one person. They posted a few things and they get all these likes. They know alot of people. Me I’m still kind of in the slump with that. But at the same time I haven’t come across anyone who I want to add. I did like one random post that came up on my feed. It was some alright chick. I said for the sake of wanting to and going out of my comfort zone I’ll like it. So I did. In the past the online dating never went well for me. People would add anybody but if you tried to talk to them it didn’t go so well. Plus there haven’t been any women I’d like to meet anyway. But this one was cute, and a maybe. So I figure why not.

I still get the thing from women sometimes. Luckily no men besides maybe a month ago I got one. But they really focus in and try and analyze you. How I usually know is they say it out loud to themselves. Like they don’t realize they’re doing it. But lately I get more that they feel calm from me. So I’ll take it. That means GLM is probably making some changes. Which seem to still go under my own radar. I guess it’s just that I tend to be extra aware. Just from being present. HSP I guess. Highly sensitive person, just always have picked up on things and I’m not like them, I’m not trying to eavesdrop or any of that nonsense that people do. If anything it’s when you’re okay with not knowing, that’s how you get to knowing. It’s not intellectualizing and making up more stories like the normal human thing…

My good knee gets a little cranky getting i to my car lately. Like I hear noises. No pain. But man. I gotta keep those tendons in tippy top shape. Will now build up to a 2 minute wall sit for starters. And going to up the reps on my mobility program. I do super joints it’s by pavel the kettlebell guy. I been doing it probably since late 20’s. But i do it as warmup. So we’re talking 10 reps of each exercise. The recommendation was to do a rep for each year of your age. So yea that would take up way more time. Buuut seems like I will work up to that now. It’s kind of your basic neck rolls, shoulder rolls, knee circles stuff. Just basics but now seeming more important as I’m in my 40’s now.

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Day 5: No Listening

I got the energy boost from being back in keto. So the three day break from keto was good. If I take a break and get back in keto then I get this experience of feeling good again.

6 hours of sleep but so far feeling fine. Also have that body energy and feeling good in the body again. So maybe that’s what it is. It wasn’t caffeine.

Yea, less than 8 hours of sleep is not ideal for me. Tired but gotta do the workout yet. Had some stuff to take care of today. So I got the bike ride and walking in so far.

I saw an alright looking chick drive by. I felt that sense of possibility. Like yea, it’s wide open for me. I felt like I really could be a Primal guy.

This is ridic. Last night I got out of my car. Grabbed my work bucket out of my backseat. And got a tiny strain in my good elbow! So now it seems I’m taking the night off from my beloved body blade. It doesn’t have me down. But yea, I guess I’m wearing elbow sleeves for a few days. Elbow sleeves and knee sleeves. lol. I guess maybe I do need to start working on some strength for those joints. I’ll keep doing what I can. But dang. I just gotta do prehab workouts or what.

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Listening day 1: 1m30s GLM & NE Primal

Picked up a browser hijacker on my pc last night. So that gave me some problem solving challenge. Haven’t had a pc virus or anything since the 2012 era. I did use the AI chat. Just opened a chat and it was able to walk me through the whole thing.

Also got a notice on my phone that they had an update for my old iphone. Both PC and iphone are obsolete so they cant update to the latest operating systems. But iphone had to put out some kind of update for the older phones. There was a hacking threat or something and since people still use old devices they kinda had to.

Work was great. Tried this clean preworkout. Only 200mg caffeine underdosed on the beta alanine. But it all came together great. Smooth focus just enough energy for work. 4 hours no crash and it’s like 6 hours later and still feel good. Last week i ditched my last hour i was so exhausted. But today I felt like when you get the right amount of workout. Where it feels good. Reminded me of maybe high school days when u felt good after a practice or game. When being active just felt good.

Had to text my other job. They forgot to leave my pay last week. So the reply i got back was yes abc33. It just made me feel primal. I took it as dang is she experiencing me as dominant now? Lolol. I don’t actually know but yea that was my first impression. Lol.

Dang, New Ascension dropped. I’m tired tho, so it’s not interesting me at the moment. I feel like I gotta stick to my stack yet.

Summertime and Ascension would be great. I’m sure further down the road It may seem like the plan. Even before Chosen, but Chosen will probably be here by the time I get around to being ready to move off anything in my stack.

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No listening

Lol. I feel like I should learn lucid dreaming. It popped up as in idea since I’m tired but filled with fun positive energy today. My life this week was that I couldn’t get back to sleep as usual after my alarm clock wake up and quick daily task. So now my body thinks whenever I wake up, I’m just up for the rest of the day. But I mean, like I could go back to sleep today since it’s Sunday and then I could lucid dream some fun stuff.

Yea, I’m feeling especially positive, and fun, and creative today. I could go on a social media posting spree. But I’m gonna do a workout instead. That’s why I think maybe some sort of marketing gig would be best for me. Yea, if I had a product I could maybe set up a string of timed posts or something. Or I could just stockpile those ideas and sort of capture the wave.

So far I feel like bumping up to 1:30 listening times was definitely a good idea. I’m getting some of the booster effects again, instead of feeling like I got into the healing rut.

Yep. Was just waiting for my pre-workout to kick in. There’s ever so slight wishing I had friends on my level to kick it with. The problem in the past was that if I was happy, and feeling inner freedom, my old friends couldn’t relate to that anymore. The working jobs, having families, bills, etc. had them in the rut of life. But yea, I think Primal is really working through things and bringing out my favorite parts. GLM would tamper any of that mind junk that comes up as well. The wanting external stimulation and approval. So yea. With the release of the Ascension update, I really feel like I’m on the right stack for me. GLM,NE Primal, and LOTS.

I still get into the trap of being about one woman. I got one that I like now. And I can see possible habituation towards limerance for me. So there’s a module that would be good for me, Alexander’s Play. I think that would really help in terms of breaking that habit and playing the field. I guess they call it spinning plates. Where until you’re exclusive, well you’re not locked in on one person.’

So it’s cycle 7 GLM, Cycle 5 (took 1 cycle off) Primal, cycle 2 LOTS

A miniscus test came up on my feed. So I tried it. You just hold a wall stand on one leg and bend at the knee. Then you slowly twist side to side testing if there’s pain. No pain for me, so my meniscus is good. But yea no poliquin step ups for me. I think that’s what caused it to hurt going up stairs. I guess I need to take it real slow and find a way to work back up to the poliquin step ups.

I guess maybe for me the sign to increase exposure might be if I’m more into my feelings and anxiety. After work now, feeling slightly cranky. I think yesterday I felt slight anger as well while I was letting go. Also felt a little pride as I let go and felt happy. So I got some insight into those rebellious types. They want to talk about everyone else, but they still aren’t where they think they are either yet. That’s why they kind of lash out and sort of want to trigger the “others.” I noticed for me when I’d let go and feel happy there was just some pride there.

But as far as the chart of emotions I go with, anger and then pride are higher up on the scale. So I can also get why way back there were people who liked that because it was their idea of masculine and dominant. And for me it’s more just recon, lol. I can see it feels better than say sad or anxiety. But it’s not where I stay.

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Listening Day 2: 1m30s LOTS

Trying out a little 30 second bump on LOTS as well this morning. So far seems like I’m up for the day after my alarm again. So that trend appears to be continuing. 6 hours of sleep though. If it keeps up I gotta think I’ll be able to take naps again at some point.

I wish I would have done a stint as a local news person. So I could have learned how to make videos. I guess I can always learn yet. I think I’d be most happy in some sort of creative endeavor.

Since apparently I have a crush again, it let’s me examine and release some beliefs around it. Still have some programs where yea, I can get all the hot chicks because I don’t want them. But the ones I like, well I still have some programs to overhaul. So love without attachment would be another welcome addition to my stack.

I’m in a tough spot. I don’t think there’s room for a full on custom in my stack. Not sure I plan on more than a year mark on GLM. Primal is already said to be a pretty packed program. So patience is my friend. Just let it continue to unfold. I think glm and primal are more than enough for my needs. Just gotta give them that time.

I just placed my order for LOTS NE with Divine Self-Image. Looking forward to it!

Today I was kind of turned off by the idea of social media posting. It was like maybe I was sensing that it was more about getting the outside approval. I was more into doing my letting go practice today. Going back to the inner fulfillment.

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No listening

Just found out my biggest crush aside from my ex is single again. Another woman I always liked is now off the market. lol. And the one who lives in my city, who like my post a few weeks back. Well, that seems all but stalled out for now.

So it helped to highlight that I still have some touch ups on my self image to work out. So Divine Self Image module NE LOTS is going to be so good for me.

Kinda getting back my drive for learning some income producing skills. I was made aware of some free youtube courses to check out. I think I could get on the AI train. I’ve never had lots of money, I think it was yea just self image, being too aware, and getting caught up in other people thing. Since it’s my journal I feel like I can be a bit more open with things. It’s anonymous at the very least.

I have been practicing the law of silence again though. I tend to be open and honest. But I see the benefit in not telling people my plans and just doing it. So instead of getting filled with doubts I already did it, so whatever they say doesn’t even matter.

I think I tracked down my heart palpitation situation. It’s not all the time, just once in awhile. I thought it was indigestion. From switching back and forth in and out of keto. The body has to adjust from carbs to fat. So sometimes that means spending time in the bathroom while the body adjusts back to fat for fuel.

But I think it might be from fish oil. Some people shouldn’t take fish oil it seems. So I’m stopping all fish oil. I’ll stick to eating sardines instead once in awhile. But yea, not once has a doctor ever said are you taking fish oil? It’s always been oh there’s no problems. Just cut back on caffeine. Well, I found out that caffeine wasn’t my problem all along. Might be the fish oil that I take daily. Just gotta stick with eating the fish instead.

I went to the store where I had the violator dude last time. I didn’t go to his area today. Didn’t need to. I was feeling filled with like anxiety or something. But I went in anyway. Only had to grab like 2 things. I got the first thing. Then I was looking for something that they didn’t have. So I ha to go back to the other end of the store to grab my other item. I was walking by and these 3 women all stopped to talk to each other. They weren’t in my way. But one noticed me and let the other one know. She turns around and immediately noticed that I’m not holding any tension in my body. So I see her let go of any tension in herself. lol. I didn’t say anything I just kept walking by trying to snap myself out of the anxiety stuff yet. But I get to the other end, and I look back and they’re all 3 looking at me. It was like the who is that guy vibe? lol. So i think I would call that a win for irresistible relaxation.

I grab my item an go down the main aisle this time. A few slow pokes, not worried about being in anyone’s way. So I gotta go between these two old ladies, and I’m actually feeling good now. Like yea I did it kind of thing. This old lady sees me and grabs her purse an pulls it closer to herself. lol I had to laugh out loud because to me that’s hilarious. That’s what I mean, that’s kind of the reason why I get anxiety when I go in places with lots of people. So many different people and different worlds. Preconceptions and all that. It’s all projection but nobody actually knows that. Also if they had any connection with their intuition they wouldn’t be on guard for those problems that aren’t there in the moment. But that’s kinda why I get thrown off my game in large crowds, I get overwhelmed sometimes. It’s not a world of reality, it’s a world of perceptions.

When i walked in to the place it was just me. I grabbed a cart. Had to use some power to pull them apart. Then I turn around and the receipt checker dude was watching. Seemed like a good guy. Then when I was leaving he had to check this lady in front of me. She had a case of soda on the lower shelf of her cart. She forgot to scan it at the register. So she ended up leaving it. Got to the guy showed my receipt and he was cold and arrogant. Wouldn’t even look at me. Usually that’s how he is just talking to his buddy workers not paying attention. Kind of an ego dude but yea, he aint bothering me i aint bothering him.

Just got off the exercise bike. I was feeling good. Like now it gets me juiced to be working out. I feel like I really could go for it. As far as no-impact cardio, lol. Definitely some positivity increase there today. I feel like I can still get in great shape and be quick and fast. But just no jumping. Maybe down the road, we’ll see. But just to have cardio and be able to move quick, nothing fancy, that’s still doable.

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Listening Day 3: 1m30s GLM & NE Primal

Was up every 2 hours for a trip to the bathroom and a shot of pepto bismol. lol. I think I overdid it on some jalapeno meat sticks yesterday.

So that puts a damper on my day today. Still gonna workout. But no errands today. Will save those for tomorrow.

Still going strong on my stack. No interest in having it broken. Even with new LBFH drop.

Maybe it makes it easier on the brain. I don’t have to think about where I might fit in that other title. And what would I switch. And then, the I need to keep at it because I’ve already put this much time in. I don’t want to end up feeling like I should have stuck with a title, like I have done in the past most of the time.

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No Listening

I’ve been making requests as to what I want to dream about for the past few days. It hasn’t seemed to work yet. If it has it’s not any dream snippets I remember. Last night was some light, I dunno healing dreams I’ll say. Not the nightmares, but slightly in that direction. I always consider those to be the mind working out some things.

Didn’t hit the main workout yesterday. I felt some soreness. So I’m still taking it slow, especially since I’ve had the knee and elbow pain. I am more willing to listen to my body even if my mind says I gotta take action. I still did all my walking and mobility. I might have to get creative there and come up with something on those days where I’m feeling a bit sore yet, but I can still find some extra light movement to do. I guess all the mobility work would actually work but I also ran out of time. But it was an off day with the being ill the night before.

Didn’t work out today. Spent the day working. I thought I was going to be wanting some extra caffeine but nope. Just had some in the morning and still feeling alright. Wanted to nap but wasn’t able to when I got home. I do think I’ve had more energy since starting LOTS. I can take my caffeine early and be good all day, don’t need a refresher.

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Listening day 4: 1m LOTS

Got scammed out of $23 by my car insurance. They added a family member who was living with me to my policy. The person doesn’t even have a driver’s license. Told me they have to add them and tried to charge me for the full policy on them. Couldn’t remove them until they sent me forms to fill out and I sent them back and they received them. They won’t remove the charge even though no changes in my policy were ever authorized by me. Told me I wasn’t even authorized to remove the new driver as soon as I caught it. So in America if you have a family member who doesn’t have a driver’s license who moves in with you, your insurance is going to make you pay for them. Sure feels like a scam and injustice to me.

So that’s nice.

I even got to talk to underwriting or whatever. Even made what I would say was an LBFH type connection. I could sense it but still no help. It’s just business, right? lolol. What a scam.

Got my invoice out for my job.

I would like to sleep but it’s Friday. I gotta get some items I forgot to buy at the store yesterday. Then it’s bang out the workout since we get company on Friday’s and there’s no working out when they get here.

Feeling nice in my body. The insurance bs phone call isn’t sticking to me. It’s like whatever. It’s not right sure, but obviously there’s nothing I can do. And I’m fortunate in that $23 is not going to bankrupt me. But still mind blowing that such practices are allowed. I was told not to pay it by other people. But knowing how insurance companies are, I’m taking no chance on them raising my policy premium for a late fee situation. It is what it is. Felt a little shady though, where the emphasized the relationship of the family member to me because I disclosed that last time I tried to get the situation sorted out. Certainly trained in what some might consider manipulation tactics. lol. They are the authority you must submit, vibes. lol. But I got a sense of humor about it. whatever.

Let’s get this worked out started.

Still running around tidying up. I gotta say I’m feeling happy today. Would have liked to sleep more of course. But dang, positive today so far.

I was mad for a minute due to the perceived injustice. Had to make that phone call. The first lady had a very pleasant demeanor. Zero human connection but pleasant nonetheless. At one point of course she had to send me to the other people who were responsible. Had to sit through their long winded script they always do. I was like well let me talk to these assholes. And she’s like, let’s keep it professional. Then I got to the other lady, almost a working from home vibe. Like I was just talking to a normal, lady. I wasn’t able to be mad like I thought because I guess we connected as humans. Despite her being on the training and script mode. Just wasn’t enough to get her to reverse the charge and I figured for $23 I’ll pay it and be done. I even hung up on her in the middle of all her talking because I knew I was going to get absolutely nowhere and was wasting my time.

I think my NE LOTS with Divine Self Image will arrive so I can listen on my next LOTS day.

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So I’ve really been opening myself up to the idea of swapping out GLM for Summertime. I think I might due that. I think it’ll make it more fun and allow me to get the most out of Primal. Maybe take like the 3 summer months and do Summertime. Then get back to GLM to finish up my 12 cycles. I still do 21 day cycles.

Lol, noticing lots of typos lately. Where if I were speaking it wouldn’t matter. But when I write it, it’s the wrong spelling. I think that’s due to me having the habit of writing like I talk. At least that’s how I do it in my head. It’s like if I were talking, and that’s how I write. It’s not 100% of course. But generally yea, I think I tend to write like how I would talk, or at least imagine myself speaking.

Yeaaa! I got my LOTS NE with Divine Self Image module last night. Ready to roll on my next LOTS day.

I was driving home from the store today. I was waiting at this stop light. I car turned and there was this blonde chick. She was looking at me, and there was a connection. I was going to look away but I just held my eye contact and yea. One of those cool moments. She wouldn’t be one that I’d see and think she’s the hottest chick. But definitely a connection and she was alright. Maybe those ones are more interesting to me than just a hot chick. She was driving a nice, new vehicle too. So she prolly has some money, lol.

Oh and I was at the store and I saw these two ladies. I wasn’t paying much attention. Just walking through. Then one of them makes eye contact. And I’m pretty sure it was a daughter mom situation. So I did not engage. I don’t want to try talking to some potential high school chick. So I just went on non-chalantly about my business. Went separate ways. Then I had to go by them again and yea, this chick had the curious vibes, like yea she might’ve been into me. lol. But yea if I’m not sure, I don’t mess with younger chicks. For me it’s like 25 is maybe the lowest I’d go for.

Work was good today. Felt like I was just having fun. When I broke a sweat that felt good too, lol.

I also started planning out a LBFH/Summertime custom. Not from the title switching recon. But more inspiration I’d say. That wasn’t in my plans. But yea, I just might do that or go for the NE with both titles in one if that’s an option.