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Day 1 of 5: No listening

Think I’m going to go with 1 minute of Paragon and NE Primal next cycle. Take that cycle off for GLM. Testing out the bloom effect.

Haha! Just got an email from sub club, $8.99 footlong. Wtf are these guys talking about? Oh, sandwiches not subs, lol.

Just part of the process day. Been in my feels. But it gave me a chance to just do some internal cleanup via letting go. Now I’m feeling better and gotta hit that workout before some NYE pizza. No plans for me. Staying home.

I bought some new sweaters. On the local marketplace. There were four of them. One was brand new with tags on. I still seem to want to look a little nicer as far as my clothes go. Maybe next up is the pants. I don’t like jeans. I have a pair of cargo sweats that I wear when I go out in winter but that’s about it. Not really into pants yet for some reason. I think it’s because yea, I don’t like jeans. I prefer just a nice pair of warm sweats in the winter and for colder times.

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Day 2 of 5

Started off the year with 10 hours of sleep. I woke up after my normal 7 and got to sleep 3 hours longer, just waking up after each hour after 7. Still feel like I want to sleep some more.

Christmas and NY’s didn’t feel like holidays this year. I’m really on board with the natural new year. The natural new year is the spring solstice. When everything comes back to life again, that’s new!

I kinda have the mindset of wanting to hit all my workouts this year, lol. It’s a work night for me and normally I used to be apprehensive about working out. I don’t want to be dragging at work. But today it’s like whatever. In the past few days as I was working out I could see that I have bad mental habits. I get those unwanted thoughts while I’m working out. I was just able to be aware of that and thus get some clarity. Seems like awareness really is powerful. I didn’t try to change it, just saw that it was there.

I finally got to the chapter where they introduce The Healing Code process in the healing codes book. So I’ll read that and practice guitar. Feel like so far I’m on task today, at least have the mentality. Don’t seem to have that resistance to doing things just because it’s a work day.

Lol. Haven’t finished out the workout. I’m great at mobility and walking. I guess maybe I have to be honest, maybe for as much as I say and think I like working out, maybe I don’t. lol. But that’s no reason not to do it. It seems that I really do have to apply that going to work mentality to working out, lol.

I think I will just keep GLM. Everything is at 30 seconds anyway. GLM doesn’t seem to be a heavy hitter in terms of shaking things up for me. I think it’s really natural and so it hasn’t caused much recon or conscious results. Just really natural. When I added Primal I started getting the slight recon and healing effects.

Been having some hamstring tendon pain I’ll call it. Not major but I dunno. Like I still need to just start working the hamstrings, even just high rep stuff to pump blood through them. I just checked for the baker’s cyst, the reason I started Paragon. I can’t find it. I haven’t been checking for it. If it’s there it’s drained back into the body so much that I can’t find it for now. So cutting back on the trampoline jumping is the only thing I did. And any explosive fast movements.

Been thinking of the ex again lately. So must be still working that out. Not really a conscious thing tho. Seems like a lot of the women I liked are shacking up again. lol. I probably just need to clean up my beliefs so I’m only attracted to the right ones for me. It’s interesting though, seeing how I was so attracted to certain women and then for whatever reason there’s no attraction. I guess that’s like everything, seeing through the illusions. Not many are willing to do that, at least that’s not what they choose, if it happens it kind of chooses them.

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Day 3 of 5

Feeling that optimism and positive spark already today.

I’m thinking and feeling that I’m not so attached to GLM because it’s kind of seamless for me. Not really serious about trying out another title yet. But I feel like Primal is definitely my main title in this stack. One I will be keeping all year. I planned on GLM for 12 cycles but, yea. I could see myself trying a different title and finding out how that goes.

I kind of anticipated maybe another title being updated by now. But in the meantime, I’ve thought about Chosen and Emperor Daddy. Before that I was thinking S&S, but at this rate why wouldn’t I consider PS and stack Primal and PS.

If I want to go with a mighty ducks themed 2026 that would be Inner Circle.

I might actually swap GLM for Regeneration. Get some focused healing in again before summer. Then it’ll be Chosen time perhaps.

Yea. I’m gonna try out that inner spa in Regeneration. Got some anxiety coming up but could be due to extra caffeine. Tried to get that extra energy today.

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Day 4 of 5

My to do list for the day is to re-read the GLM copy.

After reading GLM copy again. I’ll stick with it. 4 cycle sneaky, title switching recon again it seems. There’s an urge for something more exciting. Yet Primal is all I need for now until I get a good base with it. GLM still seems like an essential even though it’s not particularly exciting or stimulating for me.

I feel like I want to sleep a lot lately yet. So I’m ready to get back to keto and get my energy back and hit those workouts. I turn 44 this year so I definitely wanna keep up the workout routine. I’ve always wanted to get back into HIIT for cardio. But see all this talk about just zone 2 for people over 40. So I’ll do some research. Either way I can do one HIIT workout a week. Or maybe I’ll just pick up the kettlebells and do the 40s on 20s off routine. That’s interval training. Would like to be back to trampoline jumping or jumping rope ideally. Even hitting the heavy bag. They say power is the first to go as we get older. I definitely want to keep the power. lol.

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Day 5 of 5

I feel a little resistance to not switching titles. But I don’t even have a title I’d want to switch GLM for. So it does seem to be some of that sneaky title switching recon that I seem to get after 4 cycles with a title.

When I look at GLM and Primal, it’s enough like Chosen for me that of course I gotta stick with it. I haven’t had the heavy attraction that I got from Chosen yet. I remember I did try a few cycles of Wanted before Chosen. So that could have influenced why Chosen was so attractive for me.

Back of my knee area was a little sore today. So I checked and the cyst is still there but definitely smaller. Not much they can do for them I guess. But if it keeps going like this, hopefully in a cycle or two it’ll be cleared up.

Was thinking of my friend who I tried to get back in touch with earlier this year. It was during my experience earlier this year. So he ghosted me and I’d already written him off. But called him because I was going through something, still wasn’t quite sure just what yet. Today I was just thinking that he wasn’t really a friend I guess. He wasn’t loyal and is probably more NPC than I gave him credit for. I dunno, I feel overall more optimistic and at ease with people though. So I think that will just continue to get better.

I’m not really in finding a woman mode either yet. So I’m fine that I’m not seeing all these hot chicks yet, lol. It’s winter anyway. For me that means more of a Khan Black vibe by default. I think I’m quitting Zyn’s because sometimes they give me hiccups and once in awhile a sore throat. So that’s not good. Plus I’ll have some extra money. Since my few months of increased abundance. I’m out of the spending money mode and maybe will save some money again. Just buy the necessities for awhile and see what comes up.

I just had a thought, maybe I used to pick friends like women. I was just playing below my league. Not that I subscribe to the idea of leagues, but that’s a concept that’s out there.

Also has me looking forward to when I get back to Chosen, and it’ll be the new version. I think I’ll be able to vibe with it a lot better this time.

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Day 1 of 21: 30s GLM & NE Primal

Start of cycle 5 GLM, cycle 3 NE Primal, cycle 2 Paragon.

Feeling that positivity back. Feeling good man. I’m so happy the toxic positivity talk has died off. There aren’t positive people anyway! They complaining and arguing and mad mad mad! But if I’m at home and off social media, I don’t get to hear and see all that junk.

Making the most of when I’m feeling good. Took care of the chores already to start the day. Now to get into some exercise.

Yep. Just a nice sunny inner day today man. I also switched up my pre-workout routine. I’d take two scoops on Sunday my long work day. It was more for recreational use, lol. I mean I’d take it so I’d feel good while working. It’s more light cardio, my job. Then I realized yesterday that it’s work, so I don’t actually need the double scoop. I would get it done with or without it. Where I need that help is the Monday workout. So I’m leaving Monday for the double scoop day.

There was a small thing that happened today. Made me think differently of toxic positivity. Sometimes it seems as if a person will use their feeling good, or happiness to purposely make others feel bad. That’s not positive, but it is toxic. Also others who are made to feel bad because they are happy or feeling good may be called toxic positivity by, again, the toxic ones. So the waters get muddied as it becomes a thing in the mass consciousness. It’s the do and say as they do from fear without having the deep insight into what may really be going on.

It’s bedtime. Got the workout in today. It’s all about consistency. I just remembered I haven’t restarted my guitar practice yet.

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Day 2: No listening

Slept a lot this morning. Most I’ve gotten in quite awhile.

Back to keto. I think this week is a 3x workout week. As long as I hit the main workouts. The off days I’m at work and getting in that light cardio anyway. Need to rebuild my conditioning and take it slow, consistency is most important in this phase.

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Day 3: 30s Paragon

I would say the changes are happening pretty naturally and seamlessly. GLM & NE Primal seem to be the ticket for me. Still at 30s on all titles.

I do have those times where life is great, and then I get a little recon. Last night I got to work and I was a little cranky, maybe a bad mood. So I noticed that and just allowed myself to be aware of it and did some ho’opono’pono in my head and eventually it cleared up.

I just have this sense that yea, a good life is possible. Whatever that means for me. Traveling is on my radar lately. Before I was like no I don’t want to travel at all.

For me the optimism and joy seems to be more of a visceral experience. Like I wouldn’t have a story or words with it. It’s just feeling in touch with possibility. Earlier I was also noticing how this guy has a podcast but he seems to laugh nervously. You know the social kind of laugh, that we all do. But I realized that it’s different when the laughter comes from that pure joy. Don’t have much of an insight beyond that but still seem to be getting insights, and eyes opened, and seeing things differently. So yea, impressed that 30s is still providing benefits.

I was also thinking that if I’m getting benefits at 30s I don’t need to bump the listening times up. Maybe when I have what I’d call some sort of breakthrough, then I’d start bumping the times up.

I’m really looking forward to wanted. But Ascension would be more beneficial. It has that success and some wealth scripting. As much as I love freedom and not working. It still seems that in this world, having some extra income is always a bonus if not a necessity. If Paragon wasn’t necessary I could see myself having Genesis in my stack.

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Day 4: No Listening

I think the whole toxic positivity thing comes down to the same thing as everything else. People not knowing what really creates their experience. It’s an inside out thing. I know it looks like when somebody says or does something, that makes us feel this or that. But in truth, it doesn’t. It’s our own nervous system and biology that brings our experience to life. Thought is the mover. We just don’t know it’s thought because the thoughts that run our lives are outside of awareness. The Healing Code idea is that you can think in words, say give your mind instructions, yet you image in your mind doing the opposite thing and your brain sends those nerve impulses to your body as if you were actually doing it. Interesting stuff.

So the toxic positivity stuff is like the just let it go people. Oh, just get over it. Well those people are reacting. They don’t like their feelings but they’re blaming the other person for their feelings. The person wanting the other person to let it go or get over it, hasn’t done that themselves either.

So somebody who might be called toxic positive, is just telling someone to be positive or whatever. On a certain level of consciousness that is true. But they just haven’t met the person or even themselves on the same level. So somebody calling them toxic positive thinks they’re making them feel bad and whatever. And the toxic positive person also can’t handle their feelings or doesn’t know the real cause, they think it’s the other person, hence they’re telling them to oh just don’t think about it or whatever it is. Just focus on the positive.

I think it’s safe to say that we’re always going to have feelings. So it’s not a matter of controlling your thoughts. Just understanding that it’s an inside out thing, and that everything is temporary. So it’s not going to last forever. But trying to control it is resisting, thus prolonging the discomfort. So as they say letting go of resistance to whatever is, that is, whatever is arising in one’s own consciousness as experience, is really profound. Too simple that many of us even gloss over it, and after many years of practice and insight come back to the simplicity.

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Day 5: 30s GLM & NE Primal

Gonna hit my 3 workouts this week. I haven’t done mobility or daily walking. Just hitting those 3 main workouts with mobility and walking 3x a week. Building up the new habit. That’s going to be more productive for me since the days I don’t work out I’m already at work getting in the light cardio. Just taking it slow while I make sure I don’t aggrivate the baker’s cyst. Hasn’t bothered me at all besides a little sore last Sunday.

I think I might be considering a GLM custom. I’ll put in some wealth modules. Since I have no room for a wealth title. I could do New Wealth Experience and some of those wealth title I like. Electric Stillness module is going in there for sure. That’s the one I’d pick if I did a GLM Name Embed. GLM seems too natural for me. I say that because I’m not like that’s GLM, it’s just pretty natural for me. Has been under my radar mostly and I’m on cycle 5. It could also be that the new anti-recon in GLM just makes it a bit seamless and natural. Heck, maybe I’ll finally try out the True Sell module.

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Day 6: No listening

Planning on making that GLM custom. So looking at having it for next cycle. Just to bump up the wealth angle and beef it up a little.

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Day 7: 30s Paragon

Got my GLM custom ready. Still need to purchase 6 modules. Definitely leaning it towards success and addressing those abundance beliefs.

New modules for me: Electric Stillness, Roots of Scarcity, New Wealth Experience, The Worthiness Recalibration, Omnidimensional.

I’m tossing True Sell in there finally. It’s one of my interests, and I’ll finally take the plunge and try it out.

So it looks like my healing slot is taken up this year with abundance/success focused healing.

I’ll list my plan.

GLM core
Ethereal Presence
The Worthiness Recalibration
Electric Stillness
Synergy: Winner Overdrive
Synergy: Semper Praens
Synergy Harmonic Conflux
Treasure Finder
Safety Net
You Are Not Alone
The Way of ROI
Fortunes Favorite
Roots of Scarcity
New Wealth Experience
Lifeblood Fable
Omnidimensional
True Sell

The new modules may bump my purchase back a little. But either way I’ll get it for next cycle or during next cycle.

I actually felt good yesterday and did my long work day on Saturday instead of Sunday. I guess I’m gonna do some light work out because I don’t feel like sitting around all day.

It seems now the subs are back to working on changing those beliefs. So a week in and we get back to the nitty gritty. Some recon I’d call it, but no emotional upheaval or anything.

Has me slowing down my plans for the GLM custom. I’m already getting that light healing with GLM and NE Primal. So do I want to add in the money belief healing stuff? So maybe I’ll rethink those modules for now. Maybe I’ll switch those out for stuff like Song of Joy, Joie De Vivre, etc. Lol, maybe I’ll drop in Synergy: Inescapable Gaze, instead. I already purchased it.

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Day 8: No listening

That sense of possibility or optimism or whatever it is. Seems to be channeled into working out lately. Like today I’m looking forward to my exercise.

Seems like I had a little recon the last couple days. Was feeling a little low. Not too bad. But now it’s like more just a not attached vibe. So maybe dropped some attachments or something. It’s like I don’t have much interest in my typical distractions of doom scrolling as it’s called, lol. Maybe I could say it’s like being freed from some chains that you’ve had on forever. But now that you’re free and the danger is passed, you just kind of stand around. Like huh, maybe the void before you build your new world or something, lol.

I just took a drive. Went to go buy a snow shovel from a guy. I feel like more at ease. Open to possibilities. More I guess like the world is mine kind of thing. Grounded but open. It’s nice. There was definitely some thoughts of yea, I could totally be down for some road tripping.

Got into some recon. Some feelings coming up. So that was a quick rubber band. lol. I want a name embedded Paragon with Essence: Inner Spa module. But I’m waiting for that update.

Also thinking maybe I do a GLM name embed with electric stillness. Not sure I want more input, good as is. Just name embeds instead of a new full custom.

So I have those limiting beliefs still being overhauled. 30s loops is still surprising me. Once the Paragon update drops, I’ll have that extra anti-recon in there. For now just GLM has the anti-recon. I think that will smooth things out.

The idea that I could go do things I don’t normally do, to help the recon. Step out of what was the comfort zone a bit. Maybe I’ll have to start taking drives at least. Been a homebody for sure.

I used to call it hunker down mode. But I wasn’t feeling like I had to hunker down this time. It’s more like growth spurts. That’s just how it seems to work for me. Get the new preferred experience, then those beliefs pop up to fight a bit more. Then things settle into a new normal, which is a little higher than previously. I really like the optimism and stoic joy in my stack.

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Day 7: 30s GLM & Primal

The inner waters are a little murky at times. Kind of a theme in my life since I started on the self-realization path. Sort of walking the tight rope. On the one hand there are these good feelings and amazing experiences, on the other I guess there’s still that shadow material to be worked through.

Doing these few 30 second isometric holds for tendons is surprisingly effective. I wish I’d always done them and bodyweight training. Now that I’m 43 I’ll get to do more of them now, lol. I also do a couple moves for the forearms and haven’t had elbow pain for a few weeks now. Knees feel good. But I’m still taking it slow. Probably won’t try the trampoline jumping or explosive kettlebell stuff for another month.

I’m gonna add in some core work, on my off days. The closer I get to summer the more I will probably want to add more of the look good stuff. lol.

I think between keto and knocking out those old beliefs and hitting 3x a week workouts, I’m feeling good. Ready to hit a workout today. So i guess now I have a core day in the mix.

I recently learned there’s a thing called transcenders. So apparently they raise the consciousness or something. I used to identify as an empath early on. But transcender seems more apropos. The challenge I find is not being able to basically have a normal life. Like a job and definitely never wanted to have kids until I had money to afford it. But so far that has eluded me. There are certain challenges to being tapped into something larger, it’s stuff that shatters my own paradigms, and yea trying to be a normal person only lasted so long. I love my solitude and stuff, but yea. Not being outcast and looked at like some kind of freak show is something I definitely had to deal with. That’s what finally got me out of trying to do normal jobs where I gotta be around people. I still have the thing I don’t talk about, but now it’s more like maybe it just comes with my territory. My own unique makeup. So as I clean up my shadows or whatever, it won’t be seen as a problem. Maybe it will be something I’ll have control of. Like say when you talk, you can choose to not talk. That sort of thing. Or any other conscious thing we can do.

I was also listening to this old book from like 1926 called It Works! by RHJ. I really like it because it’s so short. It didn’t appeal to me early on in my journey though. But now I see the value in it. For me the most value is going to be getting back to what I truly desire and want. The conditions of my life. So maybe that’s the sort of next phase for me. It’s like okay, what do I really want? I think I always went back to feelings since I didn’t have that intellectual side going on. As far as I want this and this. There are schools of thought that say we don’t want the things we want the feelings that the things will give us. So I guess I just have some more clarity to gain on things. I’m sure I will.

My cousin that friended me on the fb. Has NPC vibes. But she got a brand new truck and is super into football. Like cheering on updates into it, lol. Crazy stuff.

An ex from HS just popped up in my fb. She’s NPC vibes as well. But she went to college. She’s like director of operations at some place and has another job. Maaan. lol.

I went for self-realization, the joy within kind of route. As far as outer markers of success, I don’t have much to show. It makes people not like you it seems, the light disturbing the darkness or whatever. But for the most part I like my life. None of the people craziness or nonsense. I guess maybe you gotta be on that level to work in that world or else you gotta be the other end, a savant character, who can’t fit in and be the company founder or something. lol.

That’s why I like subclub titles. I feel like they’re helping me to fast track some of that journey back to the “normal” world, just better. And being on Primal, on my terms.

So it seems my journey has been breaking down and seeing through all my illusions. And then restarting and learning how to rightly play this game of life.

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Day 8: No listening

Still seems like the belief overhaul is going on now in the cycle. Not big feelings or anything. Just the deconstruction/reconstruction process.

I seem to have a renewed passion for working out. I can’t do the athletic stuff I’d hoped I’d be doing by now. But I definitely like working out. So maybe whatever resistance to working out was in there, finally got worked out a bit.

I was looking to read up on electric stillness module. So I skimmed thru the new Wanted copy. Man, I do want to run new Wanted. Just a matter of when. Perhaps, I run as is until May. Then try Wanted for the summer.

Whenever my inner world is getting overhauled, I develop an aversion to social media. That’s what I was calling hunker down mode.

A little while ago I was back in that place of feeling confident, feeling the possibilities in life. Seems to be like a growth loop I’ll call it. Definitely seems to have similar components. Just going round and round on that loop. Growing of course. I think I had better way to describe it as I noticed it. lol. But yea, seems to be a pattern of the growth.

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Day 9: 30s Paragon

Today feeling back to life is good. More normalized though. I guess it’s just becoming more integrated or something, a new baseline. Until we dip back into the overhaul, lol.

I haven’t forced myself into practicing guitar again. But in the last couple days those good feelings that get me to want to, are coming back.

I haven’t seen much in terms of increased attraction or seduction areas yet. But that’s not a big deal for me anyway. I see Primal more as a foundational title for me. It’s definitely making my inner world a more positive, but grounded place. Again, if I didn’t feel like Paragon is necessary, I think Genesis would be a good fit for this stack.

Started listening to an audiobook. Money Magnetism: How to Attract What You Need When You Need It.

I’m on my second listen. So I haven’t gotten any insights yet. I was looking for Yogananda books, and found this one. To me it’s almost like listening to Eckhart Tolle kinda vibe. Wasn’t expecting that. I think it’s interesting. I probably will read the actual book to really get the most out of it. It has a money and spiritual kind of angle. lol. Not for everybody I would suppose. But right up my alley.

I bought some new socks. 75% cotton. These things feel great on my feet. I’ve tried some expensive padded socks and my daily were just some multi-packs that were cheap. They fit and I liked them. That used to be my mentality. If they’re cheap and I like them that’s what I’m going with. These things were on sale, the colors are a little funky. They’re 1/4 socks and I didn’t have any of those. What used to be the style was the ankle socks. Now the kids say those are old people socks. My new socks just make me feel good when I’m wearing them. So I think my fashion sense is changing. It’s still more utilitarian, but also finding out that clothes might help us to feel good also.

But I thought I was getting some new boots. Ended up getting refunded on the boots and bought a couple pair of pants and new underwear. lol. I never thought much about the fabric types. There’s a movement towards more natural fibers. I love those polyester workout shirts, that’s what I wear for work. But…they’re polyester.

Missed my full workout yesterday. It was more an easy/recovery day. I’ll hit four workouts this week anyway and that’s actually an increase. Since I’m sort of doing some progressive overload, it’s fine. An extra day of recovery. Plus an extra workout this week, funny how that works out.

Woke up today it was 8:08, next time I happened to look at the clock it was 8:28. Now it’s 12:56, lol.

After it’s a good life first half of the day. Had some sad type feelings come up. Maybe the crying or mourning of the soul thing. Almost on the subliminal level I can see or sense that there’s memories of the past filled with life and possibility. At least it’s not more of all the “bad” or unwanted past experiences. I can see that these memories are a bit empty of people as well. Since a lot of the people were limiting and I’d call them toxic, npc type stuff. So maybe reconciling that so I can benefit more from the social stuff in Primal.

For me, Primal seems to be the best foundational title. It’s also been proven to be quite healing for me at times, which for me, is necessary.

GLM still seems way too seamless for me. So I don’t really have any reports of this is GLM. It probably just gels well with Primal also.

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Day 10: No listening

Was an okay day. I think I’m still processing a little. This evening I’ve had some of the sad type feelings. Just not major. But definitely notice myself drifting off into distractions instead of just allowing it or letting go. Haven’t gotten the workout in yet. I’ll have to do that now.

Still thinking about the ex at times. I thought I was over it how many times already… Seem to be some attachment yet.

I’ll probably mock up another GLM custom. This time I’ll try Love Without Attachment, to hopefully wipe out any attachment to my ex and nip that in the bud. And then for what seems to be my other thing that comes up, Code of Loyalty and Pride Unbroken. Yea, that’ll add some healing, but to me it’s targeted healing based on what’s been coming up for me. So the idea is to target it and be done with it.

Alright here’s what I came up with:

GLM core
Essence: Inner Spa
Electric Stillness
Omnidimensional
Code of Loyalty
Pride Unbroken
Love Without Attachment
Synergy: Inescapable Gaze
Synergy: Winner Overdrive
Synergy: Semper Praens
Treasure Finder
The Way of ROI
Safety Net
You Are Not Alone
Long-Range Seduction

As far as effects on others from Primal, it seems there’s definitely an increased respect from others. Not in outward shows, just generally in their demeanor towards me. I can tell I have a little dismantling or healing to do yet on some things. So the things that I’m aware of is what I want to work on with those 3 modules. The rest are just more for continuing the shift to positivity and success. I still don’t like using the word positivity because it’s had a bad wrap in the past. I could just say maybe a general sense of well being and inner happiness. Also getting myself to focus on the good and work towards that instead of avoiding the unwanted.

My plan is to proceed with the custom. Maybe it’s two cycles out yet.

Oh I have also noted mentally that my sexual desire is high at times. Not to where I’m chasing women or anything. But Primal seems to be doing it’s thing under the hood.

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Day 11: 30s GLM & NE Primal

Hit my 4 workouts this week. Most were late night end of the day now or never situations. I tend to get the mobility and walking done first thing in the day. But it’s also probably fine to split it up. That way I’m not resting the whole rest of the day when I break it up into mid day and evening/night sessions.

I was in a live stream i used to go in sometimes. Never became part of the group. Kinda never said much. But today I went in and was just having fun and getting involved with the chat. It was natural though I wasn’t consciously planning what to say or anything. Just a good sign that Primal is working.

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Day 12: No listening

Saw this chick who I follow. She goes on hikes. So it got me re-motivated to get in hiking shape. I always want to get in fighting shape and have explosiveness and stamina, and be strong. But the hiking training would be more suitable for me in this phase.

Since I can’t jump rope I was still thinking circuit training. But I could also do stairs for cardio.

Lol I guess the circle came around again. Feeling that sort of lonely vibe now that I’ve been procrastinating my light workout today. I switched my schedule so Saturday is my long work day. I just do a quick clean up tonight now. So got the whole Sunday free.

I’ve had a few instances where I got refunds, and those refunds might’ve saved me from overdrafting. So I’m not sure where that’s coming from. But it seems I have some upgraded money beliefs or deleted some limiting beliefs somewhere. I was trying to look at what I paid in taxes last year to get myself prepared. I had a few overdrafts last year. So somethings in my world changed to where it’s like I’m almost protected from going negative with the money. So I’ll say that’s definitely a win.

Had a few unexpected purchases. I took my boots in to get resoled. They required pay upfront so that was one I wasn’t expecting. But since I had the extra money I went for it. So it’s like I have a safety net for money now and reminder that I need to stay on the ledger keeping. So I don’t risk going negative.

This after an unexpected cash inflow for Christmas.

Definitely might go for the GLM custom, with the couple modules like Fortune’s Favorite, Treasure Finder, and The Way of ROI. Not strictly money focused, but starting to do some prep work.

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Day 13: No listening

That optimism is kicking in again today. Feeling more practical with it. Haven’t written down what I want yet, but today feels like a good day for that.

As far as the political stuff, early on I was into it. I’m talking around 2001. For a few years I was thinking that was the way. Then I sort of detached from it. It was like the more higher my consciousness rose, the crazier the world got. It’s kind of the same thing. I don’t feel particularly high consciousness lately, more on a normal level I guess. Almost getting pulled into the people circus again, lol. Maybe it’s because I feel like I’m ready to start living. Then you look out the window and the world is on fire, lol. And it’s like hmm. But I think eventually I’ll just keep doing what I been doing. Living my life and sort of waiting for the rest of the world to catch up. Though that seems to be an eternal wait, lol.

I started getting a little conflicting info on the dating thing. On the one side it was oh she wants a guy who is on his purpose, who has no time, on his grind etc. The other side is oh she wants a bum. The guy who has nothing going for him is who she goes for, lol. So for me it comes down to she wants you or she doesn’t. No wasting time or having to be this or that. For me it comes down to having zero attachment and love what you love and do what you do. I’ve seen so many women pick the wrong guys and reject the good guys and all that. So now I just don’t waste my time with it. It is what it is.

Some processing yet. Had some anger come up earlier. Some memories I forgot about. People I hadn’t seen in years maybe never will. Still had some feelings I guess.

Seems like maybe 6 cycles is the minimum I want to run a title. That seems like it would really clear up stuff. Switching at 4 cycles I think was the recon to keep me from going deeper. That’s just for me though.

With all the choices it seems like that makes it hard to stick with a title for that year mark. But after all my years, I think it’s worth it to hit the year mark. Especially since I, in many ways still feel like I’m at the foundational work. After all this time, lol.

The first title in my stack to hit 12 cycles will be GLM. So if I can hold on to the stack until then, Wanted will be on board near the end of July. Plus I will most likely be living a new life, being a “new” person with that much time on GLM and NE Primal. Will definitely be prepared for Wanted, and at that point wanted could be overkill. lol.

Still on 30s loops of all titles. I’m still blown away that I’m still getting benefits that I’m happy with. I always thought the goal was to get to that 15 min full loop mark.

Yep, yep. Still going through changes. A bit more overhaul today. Missed my workout but still will hit 4 this week.

I had some of that old insecurity I’ll call it show up today. I used to live in that just at higher level.

I was also able to have moments where I was more social than I’ve gotten habitually used to. Felt fine and grounded. Noticed more presence and masculinity. Good things all around.

Just the cycle of going around from the upgrades, then dip back into the old stuff which has gotten diminished.