Maybe I needed 2 years of the KB. I certainly don’t think those goals were accomplished in my 1 year run.
Day 11: 30s Primal
3rd loop of NE Primal w/Irresistible Relaxation!
I woke up from a dream. I was at some place. Like a business. I don’t remember if I was working or what. All of the sudden I was watching somebody make these grilled cheese burgers. Then I think somebody else did something, and there I was getting the handcuffs put on me because I was getting arrested. Just for association I guess, I was just there.
Seems like those anxieties and fears are still being dismantled, unraveled.
A quick search reveals that the associated meanings are relevant. I’ve been feeling like I don’t have a place to express myself the way I want. Too many judgements and arguments, opinions kinda thing.
I’ve been thinking of just doing an offline journal. I mean yea it’s just for me. But I like the idea of others maybe getting some value out of my experience. Instead of it being right or wrong. I don’t know of any forums like that though. All the rules and stuff. But for now I’ll just hold back a lot. I’ll keep it for me. Sort of Eventide module myself.
I just did a quick bank run. I felt like just a normal person like everybody else in this people world. Driving around like a just anybody else kind of guy. lol. See a guy sitting in his car with his coffee on the dash. Yep, we’re just people doing the people stuff. lol.
Day 12: No Listening
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Day 13: 1m GLM
I’m reading The Healing Code book, by Lloyd. I’m going to try it for myself and my family members who have had health situations. There do seem to be positive reviews and that it works for people.
I feel like I should just be on Alchemist maybe. I’ll finish out the cycle and plan to keep it as is for the remainder of the year.
But I’m open to solo Alchemist for the new year.
As far as me, I’ll do the healing codes on myself to try and remedy the stress of dealing with things. I know it’s not the actual events that are causing my stress. But I’m willing to try to help my family.
I’ll also start doing Ho’opono’pono practice for myself and them. It’s almost similar in that there is a prayer you say. Then you just repeat thank you, I love you, I’m sorry, please forgive me.
Luckily I don’t work full time and I’ll be able to channel some of my energy into doing what I can to help.
Also, fortunately, I can do the processes on myself as well. It won’t be a super heavy investment of time and energy. I can also do the Hooponopono anytime during the day when the stressful thoughts and feelings arise. That way I’m nipping any worry in the bud.
So in a way it’s helping me buckle down, and do what I gotta do. It’s not a, oh we’ll do it later kind of thing. It feels like a little bit of crunch time, but I think that’ll just help me dial in.
Day 14: No listening
I really wish I already had 2-3 cycles in on Primal. Well I do have 4 in but last run was at least a year or two ago. Wanted sounds so good I might use that in the new year as well, especially for the physical shifting. Once spring hits I think that’s the plan.
I’ll be planning for Heartsong for at least a couple cycles to start the year.
I notice I still don’t have that drive and motivation to get to work on really learning stuff and making some money. I do consider that a “me” thing though. I actually like being more chill and not doing much. I am grateful for my life as is. I think a major part is that I prefer peace instead of the problems and disharmony that comes with so many people. It could also be that thing of, are you healed or are you just isolated with no triggers. lol. Who likes triggers? GLM for the win on that one, also Primal.
I can see that after some resistance has been cleared up, I’m able to target and work on those main blocks. I knew what they were in the past, but so much gunk in the system that I’d get distracted and wasn’t able to lock in like I needed to. But it’s all a process. I’m speaking on my own inner growth and work, that would continue with or without subs. I’m definitely grateful for the subs as well.
I think I’ve matured in that I’m okay with microloops and even doing 2 titles at times. For me that was the problem, so much gunk to work through and also wanting everything all at once.
Cycle 3 GLM, cycle 1 NE Primal
Although, after typing once again I get a better idea. Probably a good idea to run Regeneration for a couple cycles to boost up GLM and Primal before I would hit up Heartsong.
So this The Healing Code stuff seems to be about removing, neutralizing, or deleting destructive cellular memories. They say that’s the root cause, the physiological stress.
I have an idea for a fantasy stack. It’s Heartsong and Inner Circle, and Chosen. Don’t know when I’d ever get to that one but I think it’d be great. It’s just that I’d have to give up Primal and/or Wanted by that mythical future time.
Day 15: 30s NE Primal
4th loop of NE Primal!
Chemistry is kinda crazy. It doesn’t matter what you look like. If the woman has a man already. Many of them are looking to trade up whether they know it or not. Kinda makes a guy see things differently. It also contributes to dropping attachments to the ladies as well. Which only seems to make one more desirable as well. For me I think it’s finding the right one to enjoy. Just a bit eye opening at times.
Yet there also seem to be those people who are in relationships and there’s no messing with that.
I remember my first run of New Primal. It was like at one point my eyes were opened to some of those dynamics as well. I don’t quite remember exactly what it was, but I think it was just that having new eyes to see things and not really able to express that in words. I tend to be more of a vibe guy anyway and that’s not stuff one can clearly explain, it’s the experiential.
Ever so light thoughts coming back of planning on my new year stack. KB and Alchemist still in the running. For now I’m not wanting to jump back into a 3 title stack. I’ve read that Primal is packed with scripting and I don’t want to overload or potentially slow results. But a KB, Alchemist, or DR, would only boost results after a few cycles. That and I’d go back to 30 second loops on everything.
My desire to get those 3-4 cycles in on GLM, Primal is winning out yet.
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So thoughts of my ex have been coming up. I suspect this could be due to Primal. Some healing or resolution on the subconscious level is taking place yet.
Previously to starting Primal, I really wasn’t having any conscious thoughts of her or the situation at all anymore.
Doesn’t make me want to run Heartsong, but I still have my eye on that one for a future date. Pun welcome. lol.
Day 16: No Listening
Day 17: 1m GLM
I feel like yesterday and maybe at other times as well, I get glimpses of the Primal me. I like it.
Next cycle I plan on doing both titles on each listening day. So 30s microloops of both GLM and NE Primal, just two titles.
Rather than bump up GLM times I want to see how they play together on the same day.
Been able to hit that 300mg caffeine in one go the past couple of days. I’ve been planning to ease it back. Maybe I can try every other day caffeine if I don’t do a cold turkey break this month.
Day 18: No listening
I was doing my mobility and was thinking about how I was going to describe my experience. It was good. Feeling grounded and good. Then I remembered I don’t have to journal it. That allowed me to drop the excess thinking and just be in the moment more. I liked that.
Still having thoughts of my ex coming up. Not really any attachment or feelings. But seems to be some healing on that area for sure. But on the surface it doesn’t feel like healing. I’d say this is the work of Primal. I’m glad I stopped CFW for now. Any healing is gentle so far.
Day 19: 30s NE Primal
Been having lots of dreams lately. Wake up a couple times from dreams nightly. I had a cook one last night. I got with this chick I like. Haven’t had one of those dreams in a loong time.
Field report: Went to the gas station to restock my Zyn’s. I walked in and see this woman at the counter and she has a nice ass. So I’m just aware that I like it. Not giving much attention. Appearing normal and relaxed. Then when she’s done she turns around and lights up while she’s looking at me and smiling. Her focus was definitely on me. So it’s just interesting. She wasn’t hot though, lol. So my guess would be she got that charisma hit from me.
Also feeling a sense of personal power, that’s increased. Still some of that background anxiety. More power definitely, I’d say. I can sense some of that dominance now. I’m sure I have some things to work out there before it’s really my style though. I was a little cranky today but it didn’t bother me. Then I was leaving the store parking lot and had a rude driver, happened to be a woman. So I gave the honk. Which is something I just forget about. My main concern is no accident, no problem. But this time I honked the horn to maybe let her know she’s being a stupid driver. Pulled in front of me on potentially slippery road, just no manners kind of thing. Then I gave the double finger salute. Not sure she even saw me but I feel like if someone is going to be dumb, the kindest thing is to let them know about it. Especially when it could potentially hurt others. If she hurts herself that’s fine. But causing an accident would damage and potentially hurt others. Then she proceeds to make a turn with no turn signal. lol. So I didn’t feel bad about it because she’s a woman. It was like you’re a dumbass and that’s all it is. I don’t care about arguing or fighting.
That reminds me. One of my dreams was me asserting myself in a not so artful way. Kinda like the driving situation situation that happened in real life. Definitely some inner changes taking place. So I can confidently say after my first cycle of NE Primal, it’s doing work.
Also noticed that when I was around people and felt like I had eyes on me, I had a slight smile on my face because I was kind of doing some mental self entertainment.
Thus far, GLM’s influence seems to be eluding me. Perhaps it is so natural that I’m not noticing it yet besides the one time. But I also see potential overlap with Primal, maybe. Just seems that Primal is coming out more in consciousness. But it is also name embedded.
Day 20: no listening
The dreams are continuing. Seems to be hitting on the right topics. I’d say Primal is definitely at work. I wonder if it’s the name imbed or what.
So I think Primal is going to be great. Might consider a name embedded GLM. But at this rate I would be okay with a solo Primal run. Will keep GLM. Up next is cycle 4 glm.
I went back to the store where I was feeling anxiety every time. The one with the not nice, open workers. I wasn’t feeling anxiety. Just slight unease. No interaction with the workers. But those I did make eye contact with responded with slight intimidation I would say. I wasn’t feeling intimidating internally though.
There’s always this one lady who I would say is normal. Doesn’t seem to have any issues. Just an older woman doing her job. She’s always at the produce area when I go there. If she doesn’t love her job she at least doesn’t mind it and is always focused on present with whatever she’s doing.
I was just doing the unthinkable and reading comments on a story. One of those things where people will believe anything as long as it’s bad and not about their “team” or liked person. The story was good, but I was surprised by the comments. They tend to go against whatever the person posts. It’s not even one side or the other kind of page either. Anyway I saw someone using the What do you think? technique. I had never seen it in any books. But it’s kind of common. So I had to google it and, yea it can be a sales technique. But the AI says the better method is to use socratic questioning. I decided to do a quick search on it because it didn’t come off as very helpful, in the context. Of course nothing would be helpful in those comment sections, everybody believes their version is the correct one. So to me that’s a time waste kind of activity, arguing with people online. Or in person.
I started doing my guitar finger fitness routine 2 days ago. 30 mins a day just finger exercises. The second day my muscle memory came back. I also happened to see a video that got my mind open that yea it’s possible for me to actually learn how to play. Plus one of my live streamer friends was practicing her piano- Christmas songs. I was also noticing how she’s kind of a busy body. She will be doing her thing, and then say she moves to another app. And then she’s doing her makeup. Cleaning up a little. Just always moving. Just kind of motivated me. Although I think I’m still a chill guy. I get stuff done and then I don’t do more stuff. I just like to chill.
Got a bad knot in one of my calf muscles. I thought it was the hamstring tendon acting up. But no. Not sure what I can do for that. Maybe foam rolling and try the massage gun. I’ll start stretching the calves for sure. But yea, we’ll see how that goes. I’m really feeling ready to get back to work with my workouts. But I’ll just have to see what I can tolerate. I can’t get hurt because my job is a physical job.
Went to give someone a ride to their clinic appt. Different vibes. People were looking at me with a lighter reaction. Not intimidated. Almost like they saw me as a respectable good guy. I’m just finding it interesting to see what comes up in me in regards to other people, and how they respond to me. Anxiety is way down from a week or two ago. So I have a quieter mind, which is always nice.
I did see one woman who I would love to date. Just passed her while I was driving. lol. I’m curious if I met her what I’d find out. Would my desire lead me right or would I find out that nope, not really into it. But it has been rare that I see a woman who I’m like yea, that would be great that’s what I want. So I can’t take it seriously that yea I would have actually liked her or anything, lol. It could be hitting on some of those old programs that I’m attracted to someone who isn’t actually the ideal situation, more of an old trauma or wounds thing. But only if I met them and asked them out would I learn more.
I know from my past experiences, the ones I want, only give me tough lessons and build character. It hasn’t gone well with the ones I want. But maybe it’s like anything else, it’s the ones I don’t expect that turn out to be the most enjoyable. There’s the thing you think you want, and then there’s the thing that blindsides you and it’s one of life’s happy surprises.
I did decide to take a week off keto. So it’ll be a fun week or two while my body readjusts to the keto. I always feel better after a break. It’s the contrast effect. When I get back to keto I always feel better once I get over that week or two hump.
Day 21: 1:30 GLM
Going with a 1:30 of GLM for the last listen of this cycle.
Took someone to another appt. today. I felt that optimism when I was out and about. I think I’m really going to enjoy my time with NE Primal.
For me I think Primal is close enough to Chosen that it’s definitely the perfect fit. Plus when I do get back to Chosen it won’t be such a big contrast from me before Chosen.
Just had a run in with a dhead. Picking up the person from their appt. The valet was giving me attitude. The first one was a lady. I could tell she was upset so I didn’t react. Then she dropped it off and realized she didn’t need to be like that. Said I could park there since I was just picking someone up real quick. Then I dunno a minute or two later an old guy comes to my window with attitude. Acting again like I’m supposed to know this is valet only. It’s the hospital! Maybe a sign that says that would help. I’m picking up and dropping off an elderly person.
So he just keeps talking and finally I realize he’s not gonna listen or let me talk. So I just say you stfu, and leave me alone. That got to him. He reaches his hand for my window and says he’s calling security, lol. So I roll my window up. Go to the other entrance. It was a big hassle for the person I was picking up. They had to get a wheelchair because that’s a long walk. No understanding from these guys at the valet. To them the people are in the way. But it’s a hospital! You’re gonna make these people with limited mobility walk that far. So yea, I found it all quite entertaining.
No anxiety with the confrontation, but still some background to work out when I’m in the calm moments. I’m sure I will get more artful with my communications, or maybe it just depends on the situation. That’s how I saw my dad as this angry guy. He kind of is a crab though. But he would get angry like that and so I guess I understand why. For me though I go back to chill, laid back no problem mode like that.
I think the guy ahead of me had a chippy interaction as well. May have been same situation. I opted to mind my own business and not pry into their exchange. It was quick and from what I saw and now after the fact it probably was the same kinda situation I had. Where the valets were frustrated with people dropping off and picking up people at the main entrance of the hospital. There’s also no sign that says that. Just a case of people in their own worlds not seeing the bigger picture kind of thing. To me it’s that it’s the hospital, people may not be going through nice things so have some patience and understanding. I would have expected that from people working for the hospital. I can see that because people may be under emotional stress they might snap at workers, so the workers just become frustrated and assholes, or just cold and uncaring.
After 1 cycle with NE Primal, I’m really excited about it. Definitely getting a 12 cycle run.
I think paired with GLM it’s just what I need most. I haven’t noticed anything where I’d go that’s GLM. But since adding Primal I think they can sort of intertwine on certain things. That could be why I feel more of a sense of power with Primal.
Lol, Just got an email from this place I clean for. I just sent a friendly double check on my latest invoice. Got back what I would call a cold reply. I won’t take it personally but in their line of work I would have expected they know tone. But who knows, maybe it’s been a long year. They just lost 2 more workers. The office goes through a few people a year. It’s been the longest since I’ve been cleaning the place that they haven’t lost any workers. The only people who have lasted more than a year are the office/business side of the place. The ones who deal with clients just don’t stay around. Just like dang, lot of people have no holiday cheer. No dang wonder I had a hard time when I was just happy and being in the world before. lol. Some people don’t like that. But again, it’s available to all. You just have to go against the grain and instead of being one of the herd, gotta be willing to carve your own path and go your own way. Insert Primal. lol.
Yea I think the self entertainment is just on the rise for sure since starting NE Primal. Easier just to drop it and have some fun or be playful. Or anything else I want.
My situation was not resolved. I went to pick up my check since the invoice has been paid. No check. lol. I’m going to have to tell myself a new story I guess. Everywhere I go I always get the best customer service. People are so helpful and respect my time. lol. Because the “reality” is still that customer service and professionalism has taken a dump.
Oh a good thing. Just a couple mins of foam rolling solved my calf pain that I thought was hamstring tendon pain. So I’ll have to do that on my leg days. It seems as I get older it’s more about mobility and feeling good in the body rather than pushing the limits. At least for me. I still get great results from consistency and minimal training, which surprises me.
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Day 1 of 5 break
Woke up from a deep dream sleep. Someone was smoking herb and then a friend was trying to get me to sing. Dreaming of her might mean something to do with being spiritual. From what I remember from looking it up. And the singing is probably hitting on some creative desire. There was a year where I was doing daily vocal exercises.
I also have a sense that I like 1:30 GLM but U cant put it i to words.
Also realized that my thing with not liking long explanations is really about preferring presence and stillness more. And since most people have no inclinations to stillness or presence it can be tough connecting with most people. And since theyre mind identified of course theyre going to point the fingers at everyone and everything else. So thats another reason why I would get sort of targeted for existing. Like at work, apparently to them I was the freakshow. All it was was that I was able to drop some of that mind identification and be in touch with stillness and presence, even just being happy for no reason.
Was just doing a quick errand. Driving around when I see people it’s like that optimism is kicked in. I was taking a package to be shipped. I was standing there and the lady beside me at the other register, was open towards me her feet and body and she was looking at me. I was feeling a little anxious though. Not sure what the deal was. I guess I still have the habit of minding my own business so as to not draw that unwanted attention stuff, if I can help it. But it was probably just that she was open to some small talk or something. On some level she seemed to be leaning towards me. I wouldn’t say she wanted me or anything, but maybe.
I guess it was probably that stable and comforting presence more than she wanted me.
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Day 2 of 5 break
Woke up from a few dreams. The one I woke up for the day had this chick I kinda like in it. Primal is good stuff.
Today I’m feeling confident about my ability to be charming. At first I was like why should I be confident about it. Then I remembered well I’m not actually starting from zero charm. Everybody already has natural charm. A baby doesnt’ even have words and is the most charming thing around. lol.
I did not hit my workouts this week. It was just bare minimum mobility. So the caffeine cut back didn’t go so great this week. It still tracks that I need to get my workout done first thing and early in the day if I can’t do it first thing. Otherwise that tiredness hits and I try to take naps. By the time I take my pre-workout it’s already nap time mode and so it hasn’t helped me over come it. A couple days I actually did fall asleep for a few mins post pre-workout.
This month it seems I have just about an extra paycheck for some reason. It’s not burning a hole in my pocket, luckily. I’d still maybe do a name embedded GLM. I couldn’t figure out the module though. Of course right off the bat I’d want the new Electric Stillness module. But I think Primal has me covered until I bring in New Wanted. So I could see going with Fortune’s Favorite module. Also I always consider Worthiness Recalibration as well. Since I could use a little abundance/wealth boost. Nothing at all to cover those areas in my stack. I was also thinking Attachment Destroyer since I have no healing titles in the stack.
It’s been a couple years since I was winning things. Small things like 100 from the lottery. Like 200 or something from a supplement company. Last year I wanted to find raffles to enter, but never did. When I was in like grade school first time I ever played bingo I won like 20 dollars. Also have won some prizes throughout the years. Nothing big like a car or 1000 dollars yet. But yea, I like winning those type of things. Also like just being lucky. That’s Fortune’s Favorite module.
The new plan is I’ll probably go like 3 more cycles with just NE Primal and GLM. Then the plan is/was New Wanted. But by then we could have new Chosen, new Ascension also. I could see myself going for Ascension as the next step. Plus it has some of that fitness body shifting, and it deals with a little wealth. But would I want to do 3 manly/alpha titles? Not sure, lol.
Almost forgot, Treasure Finder module might get the nod. It’ll tilt me towards finding the “treasure.”
Today was slightly turbulent. I think it was due to being tired. Having to work through some stuff. But I did get pretty clear for a little bit. The being tired just has me kind of surrendering and letting go if I can’t sleep. Wasn’t a good week for workouts. Didn’t get a full workout in. Just bare minimum mobility this week. The new plan is do the workout first thing in the day, if possible.
Listened to some good content. Also a day where I’m like yea, maybe one day I could just quit social media altogether at some point. I was listening to someone who took like a 3 month break off social media. I think there are people who do just quit. Like I’ve had people I knew and all of the sudden they just stopped posting on social media. So maybe they just stopped posting and still view, I’d probably put my money on that if I was betting. But I still think there are some people who have just quit social media. I’d say that’s rare. But I mean I quit tv at least ten years ago. So yea, I think I’m a bit attached to the social media, sometimes like everyone else. I just don’t engage, comments off if I post kind of thing.
After my day today I am certainly eyeing a name embedded GLM with Synergy: Semper Praesens module. I think it would give me that boost of just cutting back that extra thinking junk. Since I’m planning to take my time with GLM and Primal. I think I could still use a run of DRR in the future for sure. But this could clean stuff up in the meantime.
“The present moment is everything. We do not live in the past, nor in the future – it is the now that we exist in. Semper Praesens combines the two quintessential “in the moment” modules. Through Ego Adsum you will find yourself overthinking things less and your mind being pulled towards the present, deeper into the moment, into your body and being, while Everpresent ensures your spirit is fully aligned with the present moment. The result is a powerful synergistic module that affirms you firmly into the now.”
Maybe it could be in GLM already, I have no info on this though.
Going back through GLM description, it doesn’t seem like it would need it though. Since I’m enjoying my NE Primal so much after 1 cycle. A name embed GLM seems worthwhile.
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Day 3 of 5 break
Day 4 of 5 break
Still having dreams I wake up from a few times a night. Don’t remember them today though.
I think I finally got a shift to where I’m at peace with my ex situation. I was fine with it being done and over with. But I think I finally got to the peace part where it lets its grip on me go. It was basically as long as I wanted her and would do anything, it was a no from her. When I got to the place where it wasn’t worth it to me anymore, and it was a no from me. Then she wanted me. lol.
I still had some attachment. It’s just one of those things though. I’ve known women who will leave a guy because they love him too much. So to me the whole secret to life is, enjoy it, love it, but have zero attachment. The winds may change.
I feel like this time around with Primal, I’ve been getting some hints at social dynamics. I feel like Primal is just hitting better. That’s probably thanks to the preliminary work I’ve done. Like with CFW, Limit Destroyer, KB, etc.
When I used to have friends when I was in school. It was easy. Then as I had to work. Relationships dropped off. Yea there’s the thing where if you start to chip away at getting to your true self, you just lose people. As far as the relationships after that, it’s like it takes work. I see it almost as you gotta learn 48 laws of power stuff, lol. Because now it’s like you gotta fight through a lot of the social programming.
So my new plan is the next title I add is going to be S&S. I just feel like that seduction part can apply to everything. I think in the world it’s already applied on us all the time anyway, that’s how the social programming and conditioning happens. Me, I don’t see it as me gaining power over others. It’s just I want to have these real connections. But I still have to navigate through the NPC’s and whatever is out there. So out of respect for myself and my time, that’s what it comes down to.
But after typing, got some clarity again. Inner Circle would be great. Since I still after all this time, see myself as being in foundational mode. To me the right things for me are more important than being a great seducer anyway. At least in my current season. lol. Still got New Wanted on my to do list. At my best, I was a Wanted man anyway. I didn’t have to work for the ladies. But I didn’t have that wisdom of non-attachment stuff yet.
5 of 5
Cycle 4 GLM. Cycle 2 NE Primal, starts tomorrow.
I feel like Primal is just a great title. I have some of that optimism for sure. Despite seeing many woman I liked off the market now. Things are still up in the air as far as the future. But I’ve made great progress on myself. So I think I’ll be okay. 2026 will be an interesting year I think.
Day 1: 30s GLM, NE Primal
Cycle 4 GLM, Cycle 2 NE Primal
I got this good sense again. I guess I called it vitality on KB. It’s probably that optimism, but more like deeper optimism. Tapping into the sense of possibility again or something.
We lost one of our family members to the big C. I think it was more the long treatment than anything. She also wasn’t open to anything besides what the doctors said, as far as I know.
Another family member just had their first surgery on their big C. They got good news. So they’re optimistic about this one.
I think they were both the germophobe types. Really swayed by the news media and stuff. But if there was anything I could do to help I had to try. I mean as far as trying The Healing Code, and asking for help from the most high stuff. I think I was late on the one who passed, I didn’t know how dire the situation was. It was earlier this year I think, they said they got rid of all the tumors, but kept her on that treatment.
I was really going after the Chosen route again previously. Because there were some positive changes in some local leadership. Not that I’d be on board. Just wanted to be on my wave I guess. But then I also got to see that there are still those snakes and sharks out there. Those people who appeared as the people’s choice, now it turns out they’re about the money and power kind of stuff. It’s like anything else, and I think that’s why I’ve been a loner as well. Seeing people swayed by the illusions, knowing full well if you were to tell them that, they’d turn on you. So it’s unfortunate that they just have to learn the hard way. But I guess it’s also a reason to remind myself that I gotta be focused on my life and goals. Rather than trying to save the world type stuff. I used to get caught up in that from a young age. Thinking that that’s what it’s about, lol. It’s kind of that thing though, it’s hard to give up a person’s illusions or version of reality.
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Day 2: No listening
Woke up from a dream where I was getting into an online argument with someone. It was more like they were just arguing with me. Or taking my words to mean whatever they mean to them kinda thing.
Also slight uptick in anxiety today. Also noticed my sex drive seemed high. But that was short lived. It’s like I transmute more easily maybe.
I gotta get back to workouts. Haven’t hit my main mobility in like a week. I can feel my wrist and body just feeling a little sore and cranky. That’s what keeps me consistent is that if I don’t do the exercise, after awhile I feel sore because I don’t do it. For me at this time I think it’s still about consistency. Rather than pushing it one day then feeling like I need extra recovery.
Yep. Having a rebound day. After all the good stuff, some of that stuff that isn’t in alignment is surfacing today. It’s a just part of the process day so far.
lolol. I’m actually interested in Wanted: Dream Boy. But for now I’ve got my work cut out for me. I’ve wanted to have Ethereal Presence and Transcendental Connection modules in my mix. But Dream Boy seems to make them into a full title.
Had to work on letting go of some resistance to working out. Since it came up on a day where it’s an all part of the process day. I think whatever that block is, may not have anything to do with actually working out.
Intellectually I already know I am free. I am already whole, complete, and perfect, the way I am. I haven’t had the insight so that becomes my lived reality though. At times yea. But there still seem to be some of those limiting programs running on the unconscious level. Otherwise I would already be living and being, and having all the things and life I want.
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Day 3: 30s GLM & NE Primal
Back to feeling some of that optimism today. Almost to the point of self entertainment. But now just a general good life kinda vibe.
I did a quick grocery run. The only workers I saw were fine today. One guy was a nice old guy. Another was a lady just doing her job. No hot ladies so I couldn’t gauge the attraction. The women I did see didn’t not give any indicators of interest. Even saw a couple driving by that I liked, they were not feeling it. Haha.
I got a new small insight with the stuff that comes up into awareness, the unwanted. If it’s coming up to the surface, that means it’s not just automatically running in the background out of your awareness. At least that’s how I take it. So maybe it’s not comfortable to have mind junk in there but yea, at least it’s not just running as an unconscious pattern or program.
Getting a workout in on those rougher days definitely helps me.’
I’d say so far this cycle is not as great as the last one. It seems like the stuff not in alignment with GLM and Wanted is getting stirred up. Not a lot. Yesterday a little at times. Today I got more positive and also some stuff stirred up. 30 seconds on both titles seems to be enough for now.
I don’t know if it’s the cold or what. Below zero out so it’s colder in the house. I was laying down and stood up quickly, as I normally would. Started walking and got one of those sharp pains in the upper calf. So yea I dunno if that’s from the cold or what. But I’ve been doing some foam rolling daily to hit those calf knots. Hadn’t had pains there in like a week. My feet have also been feeling sore. So I think that’s just a sign of getting detrained as I haven’t hit my leg workouts for a couple weeks. I’d jump on Paragon again but I think I can work through it. I’d rather not risk giving up my energy during a potentially higher stress time. Holidays and just things popping up, people showing up kind of season. Not being guaranteed to be able to stick to my routines.