Day 4: No Listening
I skipped Foundation Training last night. It was too late and I just went to bed instead. Maybe a part of me wanted to give it a day off and see how my back feels. I wasn’t sure if it was sore from exercise or a tweak. I did get a nice self adjustment when I got to work. I used a doorway to get a good hip adjustment and the lil hip pain went away. Then it just felt a little tweaked once in awhile, but that happens sometimes after an adjustment, there’s some post adjustment soreness.
Evenings
I work out at home in the basement. It’s cold today. Not feeling motivated to workout. I gotta take the pre-workout though. I found one I like. The first jar I did not like because I was so tired and didn’t give me that boost. But now that I seem to be less tired generally, I get a nice light boost. Only 150 grams of caffeine in this thing. And that might be perfect. Too much stims is not something I enjoy or feel like working out on. It’s the Wick Mode pre-workout, you put it on your amazon wish list and every so often it’ll go on sale for 19.99. So that’s the only reason I bought it, it was on sale. But it seems like the perfect speed for me. I took it at work on my long day and work wasn’t a grind. Wasn’t feeling pumped or energetic but it seems to do the trick. Gets me the perfect amount of workout energy without being too much.
Late Evenings
I actually felt bored earlier, it was very brief. Since that’s so rare for me I chalk it up to shifts taking place somewhere in the background.
Also had a sense of something brewing, as far as wanting to express more life force or something. Whether it be having some money making venture or just being able to live how I want So I was of the thought that energy must also be building along with changes and shifts. I think the last time I had that was on KB.
End of nights
Doing my workout now. Haven’t done mobility for two days. Doing my walking I feel lighter and more capable already.I’ve only done one workout, the knees over toes stuff for my knees. One workout where I did 2 sets and also pushups and pulls. I only added one minute to my 3x a week trampoline jumping as well.
But it seems like my body is adjusting quite nicely. I think it’s more a matter of staying consistent to a routine rather than trying to add more reps every workout, which leads to taking days of recovery, which I’m sure there’s a season for. Just after I build up the conditioning for maybe 3 or 4 months. I think that was what was missing in my training. Having had some injuries and pains and having to start over a few times, got me set on the idea of building from the ground up. Now I’m seeing the benefit of just being consistent instead of trying to get as strong as possible or as in shape as fast as possible.
That’s always been one of my issues with things. Wanting to do to much too soon. I am just realizing that it was also in my workouts as well. It’s also nice not being sore all the time. I used to workout hard and then was walking around stiff and sore, not feeling capable. Lowering the intensity and staying consistent has me feeling more capable.
I just did mobility. I feel good now. That should help me in the future. It feels good, it doesn’t take much time at all. I should do it as soon as I wake up in the mornings. But I won’t put the should on myself. Since I wake up later, more around noon or later, that’s when I do my errands. I’ve also been thinking of adding in a short morning meditation session, but again depends on what I’m doing that day it seems.
I still gotta work on knowing when to open my mouth and not. I was talking to the historically challenging family member, the one who always made me feel wrong, and yet told me I was smart. lol. So I got stunted socially because I didn’t know better. Well, I gotta get better at checking myself. I have been a lot better. But I gotta achieve master status, lol. I just looked up the projected forecast for the month of July. So of course I went and told this person, just to make small talk. The person tells me that well, we normally don’t have 90’s and 100’s in July. I didn’t realize until just now that I got caught up in their frame once again. That they’re right and I’m wrong. And it wasn’t even about that for me to begin with! I look online and it says yea 90’s are common in July where we live.
But of course I’m not looking for an argument. For me that’s been a common thing, everybody wants to be right. They love telling you you’re wrong. But oh no, don’t ever tell them they’re wrong. lol. So yea, I still need to become a master of communicating, but I also take that as a limiting belief somewhere. When the more useful path is not reacting, and not taking offense. Understanding that they feel the need to be right and make someone feel wrong, not because I am, but because of their own beliefs and self-image, which they most likely won’t ever change. So I don’t really need to get caught up in that in the first place. It also comes with that energy, and I’m a bit of an HSP. Sensitive to those auras,energies etc. and sometimes am not even aware of it. I just know I like to work on myself so I’m clear and less likely to be affected by “other” and more in touch with my inner knowing and guidance.
I guess I thought it was just line and almost fun fact kind of thing. As far as telling them the temp. I was in that mode and then after mentioning it to them, yea I was once again caught up in that kind of mode of theirs that I’m wrong. It’s just poor communication stuff. And of course them being caught up in their own identity, whatever that is. Not fun I guess. More of the general people thing of being about what’s wrong or not right. I made the mistake of assuming that they were going to follow my lead of being in a lighter fun mood, but nope.
So the thing about me looking up the July forecast was to see if it was going to be 90’s or 100’s maybe. And not one day, and I said if it’s accurate is going to be 90 or 100 in July for us. I was just curious. Plus that far out you can’t take a weather forecast as certain, anyway. I think everybody knows that so I mentioned it. It was just kinda funny to me. So I just assumed they’d think it was funny too, lol. No. They did not.
Oh and I saw a hot lady at the place I clean, normally I don’t see anyone. But I was thinking about how nice that booty was. I’m pretty sure she has a man, and I’m hoping that the universe isn’t that good to me. Where she’ll be attracted and I’ll have a married woman with kids, desiring me at a place I work. I saw somebody else mention in another thread, their married boss wants them and it sounds like a dangerous game lol.
I saw awhile back, I never found the source so it’s an unconfirmed rumor. I think they said Kat Williams said he had done so much work on himself or something, that when he walks into a room, he keeps his head down. Because he doesn’t want to see a married woman and he desires her and the universe says here you go, she’s yours man. Paraphrasing the story I heard. I did not save the video I saw it from either so I wouldn’t know how to locate it besides pure luck. Oh, I know. It was somebody talking about Paramahansa Yogananda. He has said something similar. They said he was on a car ride and he kept his head down the entire time. He didn’t want to see a piece of land and desire it and the universe would give it to him. That was the story. So he did look up at a piece of land and I think that’s the land where his temple or whatever now sits in California. It did become his.