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Journals - Major Programs
#501

Day 4- No Listening

Was up all night. Finally got four hours of sleep. Sleep has been low to nil this week. Turns out it was just the next phase of whatever experience i had 5 years ago. I settled on maybe calling it a satori experience. The energy moved through and hopefully I get some sleep tonight. Definitely feels less profound but still clear. Like the tensions went away and just a nice sense of clarity. I would say the ego is still there but it’s just going to be easier to work with.

Evenings

Just got through another wave of the energy moving through the body. This time it took awhile. Definitely was slowly making it’s way up. Lots of nice tingles. But I’m still here. lol. Still looking forward to getting some sleeep.

#502

Day 5: 3 mins Spartan

I’m on team no sleep. I guess I got traded or drafted. It’s like last night. As soon as I get to just about to let go to sleep, my body shakes back to waking. It’s not too bad, I’m not miserable or anything. But I’m really going for a day where I’m not laying in bed all day. But I think I may get a third wave of the energy moving through. I still feel like I have some work to do. Traumas I guess that come out in unwanted thoughts, the shadow, as they say. I am out of the zyn’s too. Lol. I was going to go to the gas station now if I was awake. But I feel like the next wave is soon to arrive. I don’t want to go anywhere if that’s gonna be going on. A friend indeed would help my need. Well, it’s not a need. :smiley: ahaha. So once again I am hermit mode, hunkered down for possibly another day.

Evenings

Got a few hours of sleep. More energy moved through. I didnt want to call it the k thing because there was no energy going up the spine. But that just kicked in after a nap. Its slow and it kinda feels good man. I dunno. So seems to be some sort of unfolding still going on.

#503

Day 6: No listening

Finally got some sleep accumulated last night. It was a bit of an off week for me. I didn’t get any workouts in. Called in to work one day, first time ever since I been working this one job. So I think getting back on track is already started.

Good Evenings

Had another wave of the spinal energy come through. It seems less intense with each passing. I think it’s been 2 now. So I’m anticipating it will keep coming up. But I gotta to work tonight and haven’t been out of the house in about 3 days.

End of Nights

Ho-ly cow. I just had some crazy experience at work. I do the cleaning at this place where they work with abused kids. Like counselors and stuff. I’ve been doing this one cleaning gig for like 2.5 years. But today I got my mind blown. Now I’ve always been a fan of ghost shows. Then they got old. It was always focusing on these negative things. So I eventually lost interest in them. So I get to work. I start cleaning the first bathroom. I get a heart palpitation and am thinking holy cow is this some sort of psychic attack or something. So in my head I just say maybe my mom can help me. She passed away last year. Well as soon as I say that multiple what you’d call negative spirits gang up on me in my spiritual ear. I finish that one bathroom, but then I’m gone. I grab my bag and I’m out the door.

Now, I thought maybe those kind of psychics were real, but until today I still wasn’t like 100% on that. I kinda thinking maybe now. My brother works in a shop by his self. He actually has an orb video from last year. He says he felt like he was touched on the arm, and according to the video that lines up with this orb he caught on video. So now I’m a little concerned. I hope it was a fluke because this is not my expertise one bit. And I like the job! I’m sure I’m extra sensitive this week this wild stuff going on. All I do is let go man, I let go and I like to feel love as a kind of meditation. That’s been my whole practice.

#504

Day 7: 1 minute LOTS

Feeling a whole lot better today. Like it’s just a normal day. Starting the day early since I went to sleep early. Now I got a long day of work ahead of me. I think I’m going to work right now just to get that extra bit out of the way. I think it was the right move to choose rest and sleep over pushing through it last night. It’s only an hour and a half extra.

Also taking a much needed social media break. Besides updating my journal and reading I don’t want any of the medias. I just don’t want the overstimulation. Rested and boring sounds like the kinda life I could get used to for awhile. lol, man. I think I really was able to work through some fears last night, and definitely woke up with a sense of peace, and silence. Not the crazy spiritual kind, just like there’s no worries or anxieties running through my mind, I like it!

I definitely think that calm, grounded, centeredness is number one on my list of traits. But sometimes I think that only comes with experience. Other things come in to play, and I think overall, that harmony works in cohesion and unity to achieve equanimity in ones sense of reality.