Day 3 of 5 No listening
I guess I could attribute my poker strategy upgrade and new eyes to see and adapt and to capitalize on how others play, could be attributed to Spartan.
I’ve also had some intuition hits in general recently. I do recall that when my intuition was good last time, Spartan was also in my stack. So it could actually be helping with intuition, at least for me. Nothing major yet, but more like it’s starting to wake up again, after a long slumber.
Actually the time I was thinking of was Survival Instinct store title.
It’s been maybe 2 years since I had that good intuition though. And that was SI/Spartan custom. Makes me want to add the intuition module in my next custom.
I guess the poker thing could be Merger of Worlds module, that’s in my custom. Combined with the Spartan.
Evenings
People are showing up unexpectedly today. I guess they got that extra day off. I gotta get my workout in now though. So it seems like by the time Friday comes around my motivation is higher. But circumstances don’t allow me to workout Sat/Sun. Those are also my long work days and so by Monday I might be sore or wanting rest. But I think if I just keep at it as best I can, I should build up that work and recovery capacity. So I can at least hit those 3 workouts a week.
I’m bumping up my listening time to LOTS next cycle. So I’ll be listening to 1 minute. I want to do higher listening times but I also just want to gradually build into it. But even 30 seconds more will probably be more noticeable to me in terms of any effects.
I’m also changing my work schedule back to my summer schedule. I’ll do a short day on Friday, I’ll do my long day on Sat, and another short day on Sunday night. So that will also give me better chance at recovering and resting come Monday, to hit that first workout of the week. But it only gives me two full days off from working. Which I think is fine. I only work part time anyway. But it’s physical work, when I first started a couple years ago, it took me like a month to where I wasn’t sore every day. So I tend to forget that I am still getting a good amount of physical activity even if I end up taking extra days off the workouts.
Had some cool dreams lately. I don’t even remember them. The one I woke up from today, I was going to see my friend at some building. But towards the end I went outside and wasn’t allowed back in to see my friend. But I knew there was no problem, because I already had a way around that. Then I think I was walking to the back of the building and it started to rain. But it was like no big deal. I kinda think it was hailing too but I was undisturbed and then I woke up. Another dream a few nights ago was almost like a nightmare but right before it was over I said you’re done to this energy or whatever. Like a scary movie influenced dream. I woke up from that dream with no rapid heartbeat or anything either. So it seems like maybe overcoming fear and knowing things are going to work out. Personal power or something.
Looking up hail in dreams, I guess it could relate to this weekend. I wasn’t expecting these people to show up. Now I can’t do my laundry. I was just going along as if it would be a normal friday. When I should have planned ahead, so I could get things done since I guess it’s a bit of a holiday weekend.
End of Nights
Didn’t get the workout in yet, but I am doing my laundry now. 
I will say that LBFH hasn’t seemed to work on the tough family member that I’m around every day. I guess the person is just a tough nut to crack.
I also haven’t seen it hit as much this time around. But it is in a custom and I’m running two other titles. So less is more probably applies here. Let’s say I only ran the custom, I’d no doubt have greater effects. Also I’m only at 3 mins on the custom due to it being a tougher title to run for me.
I’m fine with it though. I have definitely been kept busy with things coming up to work on. Those inner limits. It’s been kind of a back and forth run. Like the other day, feeling LBFH good in the am, and cranky in the pm. lol.
I was also realizing that somewhere I read the advice that you should talk under people. Don’t talk over them. Well for me that was bad advice. I think I actually need to talk “above” certain people just to break the bad habits on both sides. It’s not what I prefer, but it is what it is. I can see how there are both sides though. Definitely lots of problems I’ve had with people stem from insecurity on both sides, but their angle is to project and go on the offensive. And mine is just to do the inner work. Which is great but for being in the world, I just have to try new things.
LIke I just had a conversation, and the person has the habit of making me wrong all the time. No matter what it is. Even if it’s something I do know about. So I just have to stick with what I know. Then I got the angry look like I was a problem again. But even though I saw that I had no reaction. I’m not a problem nor am i trying to be. It’s just that making someone out to be wrong on even little things, it’s just a bad habit in my view. One that at the very least break off my habits that would let someone think it’s okay. I also could see that my non-reaction, was enough to get them to settle down when they saw that there really wasn’t a problem. Besides their own reaction and perception.
Makes me think maybe I need to go even more basic, and try GLM in August. Instead of whatever route I was thinking. GLM and I like DRLD. But maybe Sanguine Elixir would be a nice healing title for me. I haven’t tried that one.
I will be running Spartan all summer. That will probably have some surprises and could take care of my need for GLM. I guess I’ll see. If I still feel I could benefit from GLM, I’d switch out Spartan for GLM. I’d keep LOTS and be looking to pair up a feel good title. I don’t want to do GLM but I probably need it. I just want to make sure I’ve got something like Genesis Joy alongside it.
Ideally I like Primal for the whole package. lol. So now I’m just doing too much thinking when I still want to try and get in some sort of workout before bed.
I didn’t get the workout in. I just did mobility. It’s way too late now. I think this procrastination is still some lingering flight or fight pattern. Due to my perceptions and reactions from being raised by someone who wasn’t so nice. But I didn’t know any different, like you love them but you didn’t know they maybe weren’t happy with their own lives and then having to raise you kind of thing.
So if I ever do make another custom, I’d probably gear it towards feeling good and relaxing a lot of the tensions. I heard some mention of a nervous system reset, that sounded good to me.
If I wasn’t still trying to get back to being in tip top physical shape, I probably would look at switching Spartan for GLM, despite wanting low recon until Aug. I could start at 30 seconds and be fine I’m thinking. But Genesis Joy seems like the welcome refreshing, cool breeze on a hot day that I need.
I’m also leaning towards Sanguine Elixir as the best healing title for me to try next. I read through the objectives and think that is another piece I need. Maybe it should have been prior to DRLD. But LBFH/DRLD won because I wanted the protection scripting and detaching from toxic people and influences of that combo.
On another note there is an interesting situation I have. I won’t mention it though. There’s also this chick I like, she’s not that hot but I really like her. She just isn’t interested in me at all. I mean I don’t believe in leagues when it comes to women, but apparently my problem is that I tend to like the ones who aren’t in my league, not above it either. lol. Because the one’s who check me out and give me all those signs are actually hot women. But I don’t usually go after those ones because I look at my life and I don’t think it’s set up to be able to keep a woman. I never was a sleep around kind of guy, but that definitely seems like the path of least resistance for me, yet I’ve always resisted it. lol.
