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Day 15: 3 mins Spartan

Lots of dreams. Maybe due to the full moon eclipse thing. lol.

The last one we were looking for somebody. I don’t know why. But we came upon this clown near a body of water. If you played a game and he beat you, he would give your quarter back. Well, now I don’t remember but either way you played him a game and he gave you your quarter back if you won? I don’t know. lol.

So just different kind of dreams than I remember having. Not my typical kind.

Oh another dream I met and was hanging out with this mind coach type guy I used to listen to.

There’s this hot chick who used to work at this office. She keeps popping up on my people you may know. Even after deleting her. So she popped again today, and it’s like I’m just using that energy and channeling it into life force energy or something, lol. Like she’s so hot, but I’m not gonna chase her and I’m not attached, so I just get some energy from that.

Good Afternoons:

Had to run to the wal-mart. I wanted to wait until Monday. But I did it anyway. I had lots of energy and was not grounded. So I was in my head on the drive. I was at a yield sign and I looked both ways and turned and there was a vehicle, that I could have hit. Luckily they were aware. So no honks, I waved awkwardly and had to keep it moving. So that kind of got me re-focused.

Normally I do like the squared breathing before I go out. Just to get grounded. But I wanted to get home by a certain time. When I got out to the store, I remembered that there’s just a pace to the things going on. So I can kind of just blended in. But I forgot about the contrast effect. I’m at home at my own pace and then you get into the world and it’s like what in the heck is this? lol.

But at some point I felt that sense of fun and adventure again. Just doing normal things can be fun.

I did see a chick who it may have been a mutual “vibe” with. She saw me when she was going into the store. She also noticed me walking in. I was more flowing with the movement of the people. Not getting in the way, and lol it’s more like instead of being social I was just like more practical. I need to stop because they’re doing this, and just knowing where to be so i could get get to where I needed to be. But chill about it, lol. But I was on a mission, lol. Then she saw me when I came out but I was already in my car backing out. I think it’s those spy kind of movies I used to watch. I liked that kind of thing, you gotta blend in but you’re there on a mission. lol. Like the new Ocean’s Eleven movies with kind of that fun vibe, that was one of my favorites.

Internally I felt that socializing would be no problem. I guess some of that edge was removed. I used to deal with the social anxiety and just be on edge a little around people. But I haven’t built the habit of socializing yet. Spartan seems to be adding just the right touch to my experience. Once I kind of calibrate to the increased energy and adventure sense that I get sometimes, I’ll be golden. It also doesn’t have the fear or anxiousness component. So it seems to be a perfect stack for me.

End of Nights:

Still feeling like a rest day. I’m not fully adjusted to the time change yet.

I haven’t mentioned it until now, that my cardio/breathing muscles seem to have been sore lately. Even before I over did it with the warmups on Monday. I even had the side stitch at work last week. That’s probably a sign of the cardio increasing. Some evidence of physical shifting perhaps.

I used to use this breathing training device that was created by an MMA legend. I haven’t done that in probably a year maybe. So I’ll want to get back to that soon as well.

Still having occasional social recon as well. Just how people seem to be. They’re always right. They mostly tend to be on their own track and their world is the world kind of mentality. But that kind of recon has always been with me even before subliminals.

So I think this is where LBFH can do some really good work. I’ve had periods in life where I was in like unconditional acceptance and it was kind of magical how doing nothing would get people to change themselves. So that’s something I’d like to see again in myself. But that doesn’t mean being a doormat, and somewhere I took on a limiting belief. At least intellectually I know the two are not one in the same. That’s an area where Spartan will help in my stack as well.

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Day 16: No listening

Dropping to 30 seconds of LBFH/DRLD custom seems to have taken care of the recon. Maybe next cycle I will try 1 minute loops.

Good Afternoons:

Had more of the wanting to switch titles today. Spartan is solid, maybe because it’s the first cycle. I was ready to switch out the LBFH/DRLD custom for Wanted. I would like that physical shifting boost. The attraction would be nice. It’s just that since being on Spartan instead of Paragon, I’m getting the energy boost sometimes. I really like having energy. I think adding more physical shifting could be more energy consuming.

Today I’m seriously considering trying to have a fruit breakfast and then go back to keto style the rest of the day. I see people talk about how keto raises cortisol. They also say it doesn’t matter and that carb diet is just as effective according to the studies. Yet, I tried the counting calories eating whole clean foods and keto was the only thing that worked to get the fat off. I don’t think I’d gain weight on a fruit breakfast. If anything I’d expect to maintain. If I feel better I might stick with it. With Spartan on board I think I could make that work and still probably lose a few pounds.

Still not used to the time change, staying up that extra hour. So I kind of have a headache today. Slept a full night finally. Had more dreams that weren’t my typical fodder. Worked out last night. I didn’t feel as strong as I had been. So it seems lower volume is how I need to go again. I do make each rep count, so my intensity is probably deceptively higher than I estimate.

I think the plan is 6 cycles of LBFH/DRLD for sure. Primal would be the next title I think. The masculinity wins out over anything else for me. Then I would just boost up my Spartan by customizing it.

I was holding back on adding I.Q. Cognition booster to Spartan, but I think I will throw it in. Having that brain boost always comes in handy. It would certainly help on those low energy days when sleep isn’t yet on a set schedule.

Good Evenings:

A video came up while I was scrolling. It said if you have pain in your shoulder from pressing, it’s rotator cuff. And for some reason I never researched on that pain. I just didn’t do any chest work for a long time. Then I started pushups and had the pain. So I switched to wall pushups and no pain. So I guess I will also include some rotator cuff work for warmup on the wall pushups standing pull days.

I did an edit on my Spartan custom modules. There are zero seduction modules. Since Primal is the plan, I won’t need any. I was also able to add both I.Q. Cognitive Booster and Energy Development XI into it. I had Energy Development module in my SI/Spartan custom. I think it will add a nice touch. Also decided to add in Joie De Vivre module as well. It’ll help me feel happy about working on my goals and life. Just a nice bonus since I won’t have all the feel goods from LBFH/DRLD custom.

Definitely a more of a go getter, flawless decision maker vibe in my Spartan custom plans. Also had to keep Lion IV module for the chill, social stuff. That’s the one I’m keeping in from LBFH/DRLD. Although now that I mention it, Primal has that in boat loads already. So that could give me a spot for Harmonic Singularity which I’ve been wanting to fit in.

I just kind of saw that all my reading sales books and trying to learn about social skills… When I really consider it, all the people I was around back then, weren’t people I wanted to be around any way. I was forcing my self to fit in. It was the square peg in a round whole situation. So that could also be why I never applied it and let myself succeed in the social arena. Now I don’t really care about being a social butterfly or master, and thus I’m understanding it more. Also coupled with more self understanding, more and more things just start to click for me now.

End of Nights:

Today I felt like maybe I was coming down with something. Got to work and I was in all this resistance, and I guess fear. But I didn’t have a story about it. It was maybe just that stuck energy in the body or something. So I got to work and got back to the now moment, aware. It didn’t take much. But by the time I was done with work and still now, I’m feeling like a new man. Like just cleared up. In Neville Goddard speak, I was in the old man, and then I got into the new man, lol.

I mean I was still thinking about it. Because that wasn’t fun. So at work I was once again decided that I’m stopping LBFH/DRLD. Yet when it all settled, I saw that that was the perfect case where the Foundation module could do some work. So it’s probably a good thing that it came up and dissipated. That’s one of those things that I’m sure was holding me from being at ease in myself, in this world. There’s probably more to come. But feels good for now.

"In Neville Goddard’s teachings, the “old man” represents the old, limiting beliefs, habits, and patterns of thought that hinder your ability to manifest your desires and live in a state of abundance. " - from the google search, AI.

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Day 17: 30 seconds LBFH/DRLD custom

I’m feeling the love bomb as I was waking up today. I always expected it to be like euphoric bliss. It’s not really that at all. It’s kind of a grounded, new baseline of love or something. At some point I’d expect to be back in the trenches but for now it’s pretty good.

I was considering testing 3 mins again. But I may as well finish out the cycle with 30 seconds.

I am able to work at a pace that gets me all sweaty at work, but not breathing hard. So if anything work is my cardio. I still think I’m a month out from trying to jump rope, or hit the heavy bag for cardio. I could do some upper body cardio but I want to train the body as a unit.

Normally on my free eating day I don’t even eat whatever I want until I’m home from work. But today and this week my appetite has been on the uptick. So I’m going to pick up some food to eat. Work is in about 90 minutes.

Sometimes if I get up fast or something, I feel the ligaments or tendons in my knee. No pain, but keeps me cautious.

Good Afternoons:

Talked to my buddy today. It ended when I ended it. He got on a track and ended up super angry that it’s this country’s fault. With either party in power his life would be the same. But in his mind he’d be living in heaven I guess if was the other side. I just immediately excused myself with a well it’s been nice talking to you, I gotta get to work now. Sometimes I see myself more willing to try things and note the data.

Could still be some How To Win Friends and Influence people stuff. It’s more that you can read a book but you still have to practice it. Take notes, okay so if I approach it this way, this is the reaction I get kind of thing. Other times it won’t matter because people are so in their worlds that they’re on that track so anything you say gets pulled into their tornado and spat out.

I really like the detach from societal expectations and pressures kind of scripting. I think that is essential as any Love Bomb Scripting. LBFH hasn’t made me soft or weak at all, even though on the surface I knew it wouldn’t. Experience tells me it only makes one stronger. It definitely doesn’t make one stupid, and I know there are people out there who believe that way. That the only value in Love is flipping over tables, heck, forget the love and just flip all the tables. Don’t truly know yourself and your relationship to this world, just believe you do. It’s everybody else that’s causing your problems, it’s them it’s them. I like being free from that stuff.

It also does make me an outcast. When you know that people like people like themselves. And the other side people dislike people who are not like them. So if most people aren’t living authentically, one can see the results play out. I feel like I’d have a better time in a managerial role or something. At least people wouldn’t feel like they have to harass a person for simply existing. Then when their real boss shows up they point fingers and kiss ass, and they don’t see the absurdity in that kind of thing.

That’s also where Primal comes in, that authority or perceived stauts without it being too kind of in your face attention, that I felt with Chosen. Not that that’s a bad thing, some people thrive in that. For me, I just want people to let me live my life, like I let you live yours. No problems here. But that’s expecting too much from others. So what I expect from myself is to get to the place of not being bothered with how other people are. That’s a waste of energy anyway.

I still at times would love some extra power to any inner circle type scripting. I have You Are Not Alone module, yet still have to find that one friend. I’d be fine with one friend. A friend would benefit me more than a woman because there’s just certain things a guy has to do with women. With a friend, a true friend I think you can just be yourself. And if it’s a true friend, I’d also think they’re at least on your level and have their stuff together, so it doesn’t turn into tirades against the world and the thems doing all this stuff to me, causing my experience of life. lol.

I’m going to work late today. In no hurry. I’m just curious to see if I’ll be all sweaty again, working hard but not winded. I just find that really interesting. I’m thinking so I have cardio now, but we’re still waiting and working on those knees. They don’t hurt anymore and haven’t for awhile. Elbows, back have been fine too. Occasionally I get a little jammed in the hip, but twice a week of the self traction takes care of that.

End of Nights:

I realized that I actually get paid to do cardio, 5 days a week. I don’t know why I was so concerned with getting in more cardio. So I don’t need to make it a priority outside of work, for now. 20 mins a day walk is enough.

I did have some in the trenches moments today too. I couldn’t even tell you what it was about. I don’t remember. It’s almost like it never happened kind of thing, but I know it did. So LBFH/DRLD is still a winning combo. The low wasn’t too low this time, lol.

I also had memories surfacing, and eventually I could see that it was probably related to Song of Joy/Laughter scripting in LBFH stuff. It also had the LBFH influence too. I had more of that sense of love and appreciation, and actually got to see times when people said I should have been embarrassed, or that would have been the social norm, yet I wasn’t embarrassed in the least. It was more that sense of freedom.

There’s also been more of this kind of thing where people have said like I woke up to find out everybody is still asleep. I have some of those moments too, a lot of time in social situations. I don’t think it’s that I’m a good actor, but everybody is so completely identified in their roles, that I find it difficult to understand and relate to at times. That’s coming from those moments of being in touch with that inner freedom sense, that can’t really be put into words. Not superiority either. Just like huh. It is what it is man. lol. Those moments go way back to when I was a kid. I didn’t have a lot but a couple memories of that, where I was pretending but nobody knew because they were completely identified with their roles. Like a kid maybe purposely does something not right to get a laugh, and everybody laughs because they thought that really happened, the kid really was clumsy or whatever. lol.

I’m just a big fan of my LBFH/DRLD custom and Spartan. I think it goes deep and removing limits and healing. It’s the whole package for what I’m after. I favor being a natural, beginner’s mind kind of things. Can’t really explain it but every person has their own ideal stack or path or whatever. I feel like I’ve found mine, maybe I’ll stay at 30 seconds with the custom. Results without overwhelming recon.

Guess it’s bed time. Social media break. When you open social media and somehow your on the rice argument algorithm. And plenty of the No. It’s this. No It’s this comments. No, that’s not for me. I shut it off. Goodnight!

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Day 18: No listening

More dreams. Don’t remember them. Slept a full night’s sleep. Still going to sleep like 2 hours later since the time change.

My dreams are changing though. My role in them and feelings used to be more of the insecurity type stuff. Now it’s not there. Like maybe I used to be chased or feel like I was, now instead for example, I’d be looking for and trying to find somebody. I don’t know why, not because I need them. More almost a matter of fact type situation. Almost from an authority type perspective but not that overt like say the law or something.

Good Evenings:

I’ve gotten in my feels again today. My sense is that all this feeling stuff that comes up, is nothing new. It’s from the past. So we’re just dissipating it, at least seems to be the case for me. 30 seconds of the custom is the right level. It’s challenging but not overwhelming, and other times I still get those feel goods.

My use of the titles is more to get back to my zero point. Hence, my not sticking long term with any of the “archetypes.” That’s why I’m leaning more towards Primal as my main title, masculinity as the “archetype.” It’s also why I like my current stack so much. It definitely has enough healing to keep me busy for awhile. Also the benefits are more generalized and could apply to many areas.

Good Nights:

Sometimes I catch my replies from like two years ago and I laugh. Because now I feel like I’m more in my masculine and just a different person. lol.

Oh I know what I forgot, I wanted to mention that me being in my feels earlier…Some of it was around I guess dating/women. So I think it’s that Love Without Attachment module doing more work.

I’m already seeing some of the effects of me being in my masculine, and grounded. I don’t get walked all over, so they may not like that. Not getting angry. But more in the sense that they may feel like they can’t win.

I think it’s the thing where generally people see the world the way they see it, and if you’re not in line with that, they can’t really handle the cognitive dissonance. It also seems to be yea, the lack of proper communication skills, on both sides. It seems like they just want you to feed back to them their own beliefs and way of seeing the world. Rather than giving them a “real” answer. The sort of misery loves company cliche’.

The principle is the never tell people they’re wrong thing. Everybody’s right so you telling them they’re wrong isn’t going to get the whatever it is. But it’s not even coming from a domineering kind of place. It’s more like, I thought we were just talking?

It was a female though, so naturally I don’t engage in the drama side of things. I’m not into putting the blame on others kind of thing and getting joy out of focusing on what’s wrong kind of thing. Not that all females are like that, I would like to find one who doesn’t need the drama chaos stimulation. So that’s why if anything I hope to meet a real friend, lol. Just one would be nice. lol. I don’t bring the chaos and drama so naturally I don’t get the women I want. Yet I get the ones I ignore and am not interested in, interested in me. So I still need some work in that whole department. Is that a limiting belief? I’m sure it probably is. lol.

I see how I get into a conversation and their style kind of dictates how I respond. I still haven’t mastered the How to Win Friends and Influence People principles yet. I think that also is the thing of you’re like the people you hang out with.

So if none of them have any inkling of How To Win Friends, it takes more brain power and self awareness to be able to master those skills anyway. And the pay off is if you do master them, some of that will rub off on the people you spend your time with. I think that’s kind of the best I got for now.

I am still in the in between stage as far as hermit mode. It’s like do I really want to get out there, well yea not everybody is the same. There are good people in the world. But like everything else it might actually take some work. I think I’m going at a good growth pace as it is. All I need to do is to stay the course.

Heartsong or Inner Circle bro, come on. lol. LBFH/DRLD is enough healing load. Once I feel like I’ve got the growth I wanted those are options, but only after.

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Day 19: 3 mins Spartan

Slightly considering Chosen again. The thing is, I want to be long term minded. At the same time it’s only a couple months until I get my Spartan custom. So I actually have a tester slot until then. For the next couple cycles, if I really want it.

Noonerville:

So if I am aware of my own body-mind. I would say a brain boost would be of most benefit in my stack. Although at first glance, of course I’d go what about S&S? I’m more interested in other things. Learning about the male-female relationship dynamics being one of them. But not enough to justify S&S in the lineup.

I like how Spartan seems to give me some kind of mindset and focus. I was thinking about an old incident with my boss. I quit but it was just a high point for me. I finally was standing up and not going to take the kind of disrespectful type of treatment in the work place or any place. My boss was insecure, most probably are but they put on a front. It was just a funny moment because he thought he was going to get an ego satisfying argument to feel his importance, but it turned out that because I wasn’t interested in that, he went to the staging area, where we go when we put our stuff back. But my bag was not there. So I was walking straight for my bag and he flies right by me to get to the spot, so he could argue with me. But my bag wasn’t that way. I grab my bag and go. At the time I didn’t realize what was happening. I just knew what I was doing. He knew what he was doing and it wasn’t the same thing haha. Just really funny. He was mad because I left a 2 week notice, and he said no. That’s not gonna work. Then I said I’ll quit right now then. Well I said F you first. Then he says you already said you quit, lol. This guy was just confused and not a grounded masculine man. Neither was I, well I just stepped into the standing up for myself so I was kind of on that end of the spectrum. Nobody would put up with what I did and certainly not for as long. Don’t put up with things for too long expecting them to change. What happened for me is I really need like months if not a couple years to get my nervous system back to calmed down. And I’ve tried to get jobs since then but at the first sign of the unwanted type of attention I just won’t ever do that again. I would love to work a job, but for me I’d put up with people’s nonsense that I used up all my tolerance. That’s why I clean, I work alone and basically I get paid to do cardio and listen to How To Win Friends and Influence People. I feel like me trying to get a normal job still wouldn’t be ideal. As long as I can work alone, that’s what I’d like. But that makes the case for Inner Circle for sure. I do see Chosen in a positive light and since I’ve seen people say that it’s relationship building and stuff like that, I definitely have it on the back burner yet. I was going to split this up into nice paragraphs. In the past I’ve had somebody just complain with me about not making it easy to read. Well, this is my journal. That’s tough, man. I’m leaving it as is because it’s a bit more personal and it’s not supposed to be easy to read. It’s for me.

I went off on a bit of a tangent. But for me when I talk about past things, to me that’s always signaled that I’m over it. It doesn’t affect me anymore. When I was thinking about the boss thing, I was in the shower and I just had this genuine laugh about it. I was like wait a minute, that’s like one of those hero sounding laughs. lol. Spartan strikes again. Spartan, LBFH/DRLD is a nice package.

I’m still trimming down. I noticed yesterday when I was putting on a pair of shorts. I’ve never had to tie the string. Today I did. Last time I got to my trimmest I was also on the old Spartan in a custom. It seems that was the missing ingredient. I hadn’t even thought of that at the time. It just seemed natural.

Wednesday is going to be the wall pushups and standing pulls day. I doubled my reps on my knees workout yesterday. My FT training, I was just maxing out those holds, and even though it’s body weight, it is actually an intense workout. So 2 days a week it is. 1 day a week I’ll just focus on those summer muscles that aren’t getting work on the other 2 days. I did feel stronger in my work out yesterday. That tells me that 2 workouts a week is enough. In a few more workouts I’ll even start adding the progressions and progressive overload.

I still do the inner work on the daily.

I had a dream last night about me banging this chick from my past. It was another one of those situations she wanted me when I didn’t want her and vise versa. She turned out to be rather permiscuous and had no standards at one point. So I really dodged a bullet on that one. But I saw her recently and she is physically attractive. I just would never.

I felt like I was invisible today. Just the way I like it. But in certain situations people were still giving me the right of way kind of thing. I haven’t really had that from LBFH, so it must be slowly rolling out finally. There have been periods in my life just from doing inner work that people would give me free things and I’d just have lucky experiences. A lot of my inner limits and junk has been removed and I’m not done yet, but what matters to me is the inner. I feel like I’m always getting better and better, even on those in the trenches in the feels days. I know they’re temporary.

Good Nights:

I had to check my downloads and I do! I have the new Emperor: The Executive in there! I’m going to have to read through the copy.

Work was alright. I’m definitely getting paid to do cardio. Probably like zone 2. I get all sweaty and up the pulse a little bit but not winded.

If my test run of Emperor: Executive goes well I might just custom Spartan and Exec. I’ll give it a couple cycles though. Last listen is tomorrow then my 5 day break.

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Day 20: No listening.

My biggest limiting factor seems to be sleep. I stay up until 4am since the time change. I was going to bed by 2am. Waking up earlier didn’t help. Now my sleep is adjusting to where I wake up way later. I also am not feeling tippy top.

Emperor: The Executive has sleep stuff it. Seems like the ideal package for me. I slept 9 hours last night but getting anything done is gonna be tough. Groggy and such. I’d prefer to wake up by 11am at the latest. Today I woke up at 1pm.

I really like a 2 title stack. But Emperor: The Executive just covers all the bases I want improvement in. Even to the point that I’d probably drop LBFH/DRLD if I had to. But I’m going to try all 3 titles starting next cycle.

Good Evenings:

How to Win Friends and Influence People seems to be more towards how to be a leader in professional situations. The principles can apply to all relationships, but it’s more up to the individual to internalize these principles and apply them in more situations. That’s kind of why I lean towards I’d have better success with people in a business situation where I’m a manager or something.

Plus I’m not sure I want lots of friends anyway. If anything I’d find what I love doing, something that I work hard at and spend my time doing, but it isn’t work. I never wanted to be a busy person yet I know it’s probably just from mis-beliefs on what it is. The old getting caught up in what I think something is rather than through doing.

So Emperor: Executive will prove to be challenging and rewarding. I’m sure I’m in for many surprises. Many of the distractions it seeks to overcome, are things that are probably just commonplace in society. Myself included. I get pulled away by checking the social medias, and maybe overthinking analyzing, talking myself out of it rather than doing the things. Excuses begone!

I don’t have the get it done when it comes to my workout today. I’m procrastinating. But getting other things done during that time. Intellectually I don’t want to waste time with too much social media and unproductivity. Also I know that rest is important as well. Sometimes when you’re completely rested, you get those right ideas and spurts that you just get something done without forcing yourself. I like that kind of vibe.

I’ve got some cleaning and straightening up to do. A few weeks back I was doing things and getting things done. So we’re just in a lull with that kind of thing. For me it’s get my sleep schedule back on track and things will take care of themselves. I’ll be back to that get it done mindset.

I’m not scared of Emperor: Executive. I’m more curious. When I switched to Spartan from Paragon I had this kind of fear of success. So it’s probably that Spartan mindset that has me more in the mentality of just embracing whatever challenges arise.

End of Nights:

I didn’t feel like I got anything done today. Definitely a rest day. I did mobility and I still need to do pushups and pulls. I’m still getting progress though. So it’s not a matter of doing more, it’s just listening to the body and taking it easy with more rest days. I didn’t have the mental energy for any study or anything. It was a lot of meditation you can call it, inner work.

I was planning on using wednesday for ab work and maybe an interval session. But nope. Not today.

I can’t feel too bad since I doubled the reps on all my knee exercises on Monday. Again, it’s a case of sticking to the programs I’m on and mastering them. Then I can do the minimum on those to focus on say interval training for some speed and power.

I did 4x25 on both wall pushups and standing pulls. I’m only going to do those 1x per week. So I’ll definitely go closer to failure. It’s possible I could hit the progression next week of 3 x 50 and move on to the next progressions. But I will probably try for the progression and do that a couple weeks for conditioning purposes.

I was going through TWTP thread and man. I think I need some of that. If I go with TWTP, T:E, and Spartan. I’ll be a whole new person by the end of summer.

I do have a Chosen/PCC custom I never updated. I think I’m more in the mood for a Spartan TWTP if anything. I have something to chew on. Alright I thought about it and maybe not. I think I naturally have some of that TWTP stuff and so it’s not that I’m not good with people it’s that I don’t want to be. Just knowing generally how people are and seeing motivations and stuff. TWTP could be overkill for me. My original Spartan custom should be more than enough for what I’m going for.

My SI/Spartan custom was kind of a PCC themed creation with a lot of the modules. Did a lot of social healing and realizing things and all that. So TWTP might actually help me. I’d definitely want to be running it if I ever have to work around people again. Just the manipulus module showed me a lot of things. With the certain family member how she was a bit manipulative. I uncovered a lot of why I kind of was the way I was socially.

TWTP might actually get me willing to play the social game again, and I’d come at it from that angle rather than the social titles, because I dont’ want to be a social butterfly and I was a nice guy who was on the receiving end of people’s BS. Just having the grounded masculinity and confidence seems to be keeping that at bay now. Where even if it’s there I snip it in the bud and it gets no energy or participation from me.

Alright, I’ve got 5 days to consider. Being that I’ll be around people more now that it’s officially spring. TWTP could be really useful to me. I’m more of a How To Win Friends and Influence People guy, but based on past experiences with people, TWTP will probably be huge for me. I’ve faced many hard truths and will continue to do so. For me I’m more like I don’t hate the player, or the game. I just didn’t want to play.

LBFH/DRLD has done some great work. I’m sure I’ll continue to benefit if it’s time to move on. I’ll come back to that one though. I like it as a fall/winter title. When it’s more stay home and go to work times.

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Day 21: 3 mins LBFH/DRLD custom:

I think I will take a break from the custom. Next cycle Spartan and Executive only. Then after that I’ll try out TWTP.

Another day where I’ve woken up at 1pm. It seems I’m adjusting to staying up later and waking up later. Rather than staying at the same time as before the daylight savings time change.

My Spartan custom seems to be the safest bet. That way I have 2 (if I really want them) slots open for say The Executive and TWTP. Although I could potentially add The Executive in the Spartan custom. It seems like that’d be my new base title.

I would like to maybe do TWTP and a softener. Maybe keep store LBFH in the 3rd slot. I don’t want to lose on that feel good and fun aspect that I get with love bomb.

But for potentially the next 2-3 cycles I find out what it’s like with no LBFH in the mix.

I got some things done. Had to run to the gas station. Also did my breathing and some inner work. Not feeling tippy top again. It’s more like my body will go through the actions and I’m kind of watching myself. Not in a disassociated way though. It’s more like the mind is just in observer mode. I do like that component of maybe the Formless Clarity module.

I’ve been going to bed and just doing some inner work. No regards to time since I don’t have to be up at any certain time. Before I knew it it was after 5am this morning. But to me that inner type of work is a bit of a priority.

I’m just not feeling the drive today. I have been putting off maintenance cleaning tasks in my place. Like right now i was looking at my computer screen. It’s so easy to go grab the cleaner and wipe my computer screen. But yet it seems like so much energy that I’d rather just sit here in this chair. lol. The Executive will probably change my ways a bit. Even though I’d been starting to become a guy who gets things done and goes for what I want. I actually like getting those tasks taken care of right away and then I really can just rest if that’s what I need. That feels good to have things done.

Waking up so late does have the downside of feeling like the day gets away from me. Like I’ve only been up 3 hours and it’s already 4pm.

Evening Updates:

I vacuumed and swept. Now I just have a bathroom to do for today. I just did it. Not really in the mood but might as well get it done.

After skimming over the copy for TWTP, it seems like the next logical step. I started at Sanguine, and it didn’t have enough power. Then I went with DRLD, power, confidence, removing limitations, some healing. TWTP seems like the next rung on that ladder for me. I might actually be on a path towards Emperor, but I still think Primal is maybe that full alpha title for me, and Chosen. But for now I’ve got my path forward. It just feels right.

Alright I got my Spartan/LBFH custom lined up. I plan to use store LBFH next cycle along with Executive and Spartan. DRLD is amazing, even though it can be a bumpy ride. It’s just time for my next phase of growth. I don’t know what kind of recon Executive could bring on, so DRLD is taking a break.’

I decided again. I’m going to double Spartan for the custom- Spartan Apex and Spartan Legacy for the cores. Now that I’m seeing changes in my body again, that kind of gets me going. No chance of me falling off the wagon.

End of nights:

After I ate dinner tonight, my body temp has been up again. Almost sweating with no activity. I would say I’m definitely getting increased metabolism effects as a result of Spartan. If I add in Legend I might have to start carb cycling at the very least; instead of strict keto.

I’m also curious to see what the next release will be. Even though I’m pretty much set in stone on a Spartan custom and my stack moving forward. I think I would still choose Executive over Beyond Limitless. Getting things done is probably one of my main limiting factors, along with whatever blocks stand in the way.

For the last week I’ve been wearing normal shoes again. I’ve been wearing the minimalist barefoot shoes probably for almost a year. But all the walking had me going back to normal shoes for the cushion. I still wear the minimalist barefoot type shoes to workout and just around the house. But if I go somewhere I’m wearing the normal shoes again.

That warrior mindset must be kicking in lately from Spartan. I can tell I’m more determined and willing to jump in. Like how I’ve decided to change up my stack. I really will be a different person after some time with Spartan and Executive. Then add in TWTP I won’t even recognize myself, by the end of summer.

I got to work. What do you think came up in mind? The women and limiting beliefs around that. Primal seems to be the remedy, just have to run it long enough. I’ve ran Primal for 4 cycles. I did Wanted for 4 cycles too. I tried Primal Seduction a few years ago. S&S. It’s funny though, running Heartsong did not come up until I started thinking of what I ran already. The problem seems to be not running them long enough to make those deep overhauls in personal reality.

I’m thinking TWTP will also help me even though it’s not for that specifically. Just tapping in to my masculinity and personal power seems to be doing great things for me. Coupled with action on my goals, and the right focus is really my direction anyway. Executive, Spartan, and TWTP is what I need most right now. Before I get to the dating and seduction stuff.

With TWTP I’m looking to to really overhaul my personal power and frame, and take my whole social game up another level. I still prefer solitude but that seems to be more about not wanting to deal with all the games people play. That and a lot of times they don’t know they’re running on programs as well, that may not be the most useful for them or the betterment of society as a whole. My goal isn’t to change them though. It’s more to be grounded and in my frame. Which is still live and let live, with WTP to back me up, I think I can pull that off.

I found a penny today after work. In pretty much the identical spot I found a whole pile of pennies about a year ago. It was just a nice wink, that’s how I took it.

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Day 1 of 5 no listening

I’m feeling that love bomb today. 3 mins of LBFH/DRLD custom yesterday.

I guess I’m gonna have to keep LBFH/DRLD in the mix. I’ll just go with 30 seconds of Executive next cycle.

Spartan, LBFH/DRLD custom, Executive next cycle.

Lovely Afternoon:

Man it feels good to feel good! I definitely feel Executive will be the right touch for what I need. I’d also like some more of that personal power oomph of TWTP. But I won’t drop Spartan, that’s probably a permanent title for me now. LBFH/DRLD is really holding on as well.

So I might have to go ahead with the Spartan custom and just tweak the modules to lean it more towards what I’d like to gain from TWTP. Yet at the same time I do plan to run TWTP so maybe I’ll go for a Primalized version of Spartan, which probably fits more with Spartan’s vibe.

Lol this buddy of mine. He’s a downer but the high IQ type. Rather than use the IQ to his advantage he uses it for his continued victim mentality. I was always though of as smart, and yet it was those who didn’t seem to have the brains who got to be successful. They didn’t know any better, lol. At least more successful than I was.

Good Evening:

Alright I got my Spartan custom ready to roll. Now to sit back and enjoy my next couple cycles.

I went for a more Primal themed Spartan without using the Primal core. It’s about success and the Primal Masculinity and Spartan covers the fitness base. It’s not the decision making type masterpiece I’d originally envisioned. With The Executive being released, I think that’s going to take care of a lot my most pressing needs.

I do have 2 wealth modules since that’s the only thing I lack in my stack. Treasure Finder module, is in the wealth category but could apply to other areas. The Worthiness Recalibration will cover what might be my most urgent need as far as opening myself to wealth and abundance. That would also be the only “healing” module in this custom. Since I plan to keep LBFH/DRLD custom as long as I can, it makes sense that I don’t want any healing modules.

I’ve been feeling a little lower energy this week. And I haven’t done any stretching. One of those stretches is my feet! Where you knee down and kind of have your toes on the ground and lean back a little. I suspect that’s why I’ve had sore feet. One thing I found about working out is that I’ve got to find the balance between frequency and rest. If I take too many days off then I can get pain from not working out enough. If I work out too often then I don’t make the progress I want.

I wish I had pool access. Unfortunately the pool I’d have access to is where I used to work. I quit because of just low quality people and drama and I won’t ever go back. There’s no need in me to want to be around them or even to walk in and dominate with my new presence and mindset.

There was a few chicks who liked me but I did not entertain them due to the sort of bombardment I was receiving. I liken it to a flag being torn and tattered in the wind kind of feeling.

I guess I had to walk away and let my nervous system reset and thus allow my energy systems to recharge and repair. Yet I persevered too long. And now I don’t want to go back into the people world, definitely not in jobs yet. That’s where TWTP will surely aid me in that comeback.

It just hit me that maybe I ought to consider a Primal Spartan custom. I felt like Primal was my favorite sub when I used it. I certainly didn’t touch on its full potential. It’s also a title that I’d run for a year. In many ways it would negate my need for TWTP so urgently.

What holds me back is I’m planning to keep LBFH/DRLD on for as long as possible too. For me that wouldn’t leave room for Executive. But at the same time I want to keep LBFH/DRLD for the foundational stuff for dating. Primal would cover that and it includes fun. At the very least I’ll get 6 cycles out of LBFH/DRLD for now.

So yea, I’m always changing up. It’s not the recon talking this time. It’s more that I really want to get to my most pressing needs. I forget about my dream titles and all that. It’s just what do I need now to get me to the next level.

Primal Spartan and Executive? That feels like my hero’s journey for the rest of the year. Although Executive is a wild card because I’m sure I have some things to work out.

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Day 2 of 5 no listening

I slept on it and now I’m still not decided. The only thing with Primal is that I thought it was the best title while I used it. But I’m not interested in dating/seduction at this time. Perhaps limiting beliefs.

I think I’d like Legend of the Spartan for more body shifting. So I could still make a double Spartan custom. Also TWTP is still attractive, maybe more than Primal because it is not geared for dating/seduction. It might still be more beneficial to me to run it before Primal. TWTP might be something I just need to improve on before I start on the dating/seduction, anything with people path.

I credit Spartan for my new approach. Especially for my approach to choosing my next stack. It almost seems Achilles’ Heel styled. Where I’m looking at what is my weakest area and what is going to shore that up.

If my new stack started today, I would go with TWTP. Personal power and the social arena would be my biggest lack. I have seen myself identify with someone who gets things done and goes after what he wants, thanks to LBFH/DRLD. Now with Spartan there, I think that will get even more of a boost.

Afternooners:

Finally got to sleep at 3am. That’s a win. I’m just feeling tired though, like it’s a nap day. Woke up at noon. So I just gotta keep that going.

I skipped the knee program yesterday. Slightly tweaked my knee just trying to pick something up. A slight hyperextension. No pain but I decided I didn’t want to aggravate it and hit the program on Monday.

I tried to up my reps on the Foundation Training, more on the philosophy of going for high reps with all good form and control. I only got one more rep than I had been doing! So that is not an easy program, but it’s in my routine to prevent any of that back pain that set me back a few months ago.

I’ve been toying with the idea of doing 2 days a week of higher carbs, and keto the rest of the time. It could help with energy levels and recovery. Between work and what I think is minimal training, my body is needing some more assistance in the energy department. That would mean instead of one free day, I keep it clean, and simple with the carbs. Although some keto plans give you 1-2 days for carbs. But that’s in a row. I would consider that.

I’m more maintenance minded, and since I’m probably underestimating my body’s activity levels I might still be dropping a little of the fat. No six pack yet, but I’m hovering at the closest I’ve ever gotten. I’ve never been the super lean type of body though. Endomorph is my body type, that’s why I have done best on the keto plan. Yet at times my body looks even better after a carb day, like I actually look more trim.

I am still eyeing the Legacy of the Spartan, I feel like that’s one of those basic things. Would give me a psychological boost since I always wanted a nice physique, just was never dedicated enough to make it happen. That’s mostly with the diet aspect.

The vanity aspects of Legacy Spartan are really appealing to me lately. That’s why I didn’t want to run it initially, that wasn’t something I cared about. Results with Spartan got me wanting to go for it. Also LS has relaxation scripting and that’s something I would always benefit from. Also excited to test the magnetic gaze factor. It’ll come in handy when I see the ladies check me out, instead of ignoring them I can test the gaze hahaha.

If anything Legacy would get the nod next cycle. Then I could just let LBFH/DRLD continue to blast through limits and go deeper. Because the fitness body shifting seems to be something I’m already primed for. At the very least I could run it through the summer and then switch gears to get back in the trenches a bit. That would mean TWTP first. Since my current work situation is just purely physical it would actually provide most immediate benefit to my life as well. I don’t have plans to take on new work or jobs just yet. Also my life isn’t set up for any social or power struggles besides random encounters. LBFH/DRLD is still doing the heavy lifting for my inner game.

I seem to be naturally a type who would benefit from HOM, if I was living from my highest truths. Chosen also, DRG, also. But I’m still in the trenches, so to speak. Making my way up the mountain, conquering the limits of the false self, as they say.

Yet ultimate freedom is one of my greatest aspirations as well. Not this or that, but a true expression of that which isn’t limited by labels, or conditions, yet is free to navigate the practicalities and necessities of daily life.

Good Nights:

I feel like I’m lacking cardio again. For my purposes I’ve found that more intense shorter cardio, more athletic based seems to transfer over really well to daily life. Walking not so much. So I did experience some of that tonight, where I could tell I would like to bring back some higher intensity cardio soon.

LBFH/DRLD seems to be the perfect combo to feel good and work on those internal limits. I consider it my shield as far as unwanted attention goes, so that I can continue to just be me without hassles from people. I did get some slight thoughts of what if I’m feeling too good, people didn’t like that in the past kind of thoughts/feelings.That was after I was feeling good again yesterday. But I’m willing to let it ride because of Spartan in the mix.

I really would like to get a full year on LBFH/DRLD custom. As far as feeling good and feeling the love within, It wasn’t all negative from people though, it was really a mixed bag, the whole gambit if you will. I dont’ think I ever got to the free things from people stuff either. So I was happy to see they added the light protection aura in the latest edition. Also the disconnect from negativity from people and self in DRLD is something I like for sure.

I’m also kind of settling in on taking LOS for a spin. It does have the organ healing from Paragon and other reports make me think it’ll be great for my purposes. I mean, beyond the vanity aspects.

My instincts were right. By the time I got to work my cortisol levels were spiking. Same thing last Saturday. So I might have to either do carbs on two days, or just try out post workout carbs. When I first started keto I always did PWO carbs with protein shake. I’ve just been doing keto no carbs, just the one day a week. There were times when I first started I found I could do 50 grams carbs and be fine. It’s time to start doing that again.

I found another penny. Same spot. I just happened to notice it as I was getting in my car to leave from work.

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Day 3 of 5

Still feeling lighter as in feeling wise. Heightened kind of energy vibration, if you will. There’s the ever so slightest thoughts and feelings of, that what if I’m feeling too good again. I’d like to avoid the people hassles and just be a private person that just gets to go on with his life without the comments and attention. But that’s impossible. That’s what people do. They must comment. They must narrate. I was listening to a Joe Dispenza interview, and he talked about something I kind of forgot about.

Years and years ago it was so clear to me that people were addicted to the way they were and the feelings and chemicals the body produces in relation to those states. Well Dispenza also talks about that. I’m more interested in reading one of his books. But it’s still not about changing them from his perspective either.

Good Afternoons:

My hip hasn’t bothered me this week. It’s the sacroiliac joint that seems to be the cause of any low back pain issues I’ve had. This week only the ever so slightest hip of anything going on. I haven’t even done the self traction device this week. I will tonight before bed just for maintenance though.

Knee was a little tweaked again at work, because I had to bend over and pick some things up. But it seems to have been temporary. No pains since. Just the other day I was testing out some jogging in place and no problems. More like jump rope style bouncing. So I’m right there as far as maybe adding that back in, just light jump rope type stuff. I don’t feel confident about any hitting the heavy bag yet, the rotation and pivoting stuff. So I’ll start working in some rotation exercises for the core at least.

I got to work and I was moving smooth. Even though I felt like I would still like some extra brain power. I was in a flow state at work. None of the wishing I had more cardio. I think that was due to the cortisol spike yesterday. I’ll just have to increase my carbs, first experiment is just do post workout carbs and protein.

The energy from LOS will be nice though. I think that should get me over the hump as well.

I have also been noticing that I’m at a new level of being over the ex. I think the cord has been cut so to speak. It’s almost like one of those visualization techniques, where you take an image and you remove all the color out of it, maybe shrink it down into nothing. And also you could say the charge is gone finally.

Energy and relaxation just puts LOS over the top in my book. That’s the title I’m going with.

Lol feeling a little bit of a pull. Like kind of wishing I had a good woman to talk to. So I guess it’s wanting that Heartsong vibe. The right kind of woman without having to play the games and all that. Also some desire for what to me is maybe a flashier title, like the new Executive or TWTP.

But LOS wins. I had a little bit of pain in the back of my knee today. Not all day just where it feels a little sore, probably from the tweak a couple days ago. It’s behind the knee so I may have to start doing those hip airplanes and figure out how to do some high rep hamstring curls at home. I should be able to set up some resistance band somehow. or maybe standing with ankle weights.

Executive and TWTP are my next two titles for sure. Just a matter of when. I won’t set LBFH/DRLD custom down yet. Between the custom and Spartan LOS I should be getting some energy and also just be able to relax free from tensions. I think that’s still what is going to benefit me the most now. Just get used to being relaxed and yet still be able to just work hard at work and workouts when it’s time.

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Day 4 of 5 of no listening

A few days ago I was thinking of how I haven’t had the urge of wanting to live come up lately. I mean like this wanting for something more kind of thing that I used to get. Well it seems like it’s come up a bit today. Like there’s this maybe life that wants to be expressed. But I don’t have a direction for it. So working out is definitely a great outlet to sort of use that energy and to also clarify it. I think Spartan with Khan Black would really help out KB in a stack. That would be my plan whenever I get back to Khan Black.

The LBFH/DRLD custom, I’m more into holding on right now. I don’t want to give it up. There’s the case to stick with things long term and there’s also the case for changing directions so as not to stagnate. Potentially I do feel maybe I’m holding on out of fear of success, at least to the custom.

I’ve got today and tomorrow for any last second changes. But currently there is some sort of nudge coming up to maybe switch directions for a bit. That’s probably why all the going back and forth over my next stack. Primal lost out because I’m really not set up for dating and all that. Executive, I don’t think I’ve uncovered my direction just yet. TWTP yea, but maybe in another 4 cycles. KB would do me good.

So my last minute change seems to be switch out my custom for KB. KB would also boost the energy needed for any physical shifting in LOS.

Spartan, LOS, KB for the next 4 cycles. I don’t have the this is foundational sense with this stack. It’s just more like this is definitely the right thing for me now. It’s kind of working on my physical reality, in the sense of mastering my body, and mind. No worrying about defending from people or necessarily gaining anything from the external. To me it’s kind of like my version of Emperor Black, just focused on building my physical body and mindset. That’ll be my main focus. Just going to work and building my physical body. Just to really have a good focus and eventually help me clarify my direction. While also building those qualities of discipline, strength, resilience, etc.

Good Nights:

Alright, the playlists are locked and loaded. KB 1, Spartan, LOS.

I may take 10 days off from any listening. Since I’ll be starting 2 titles instead of 1. Even though KB isn’t technically a new title for me. Just would be smart to get a little buffer coming off the custom.

I hit 25 reps on the exercise I only hit 16 on last week. The 25th rep was easier than the 16th on Friday.

2x per week is giving me enough time to recover. I’m after results, I’m not actually trying to build muscle. For me it’s all about performance. I’m not too optimistic on the wall pushups and pullups since I’m only doing those once a week. But if I go to failure, or hit the standards then I can move to the next progressions. I’m not sure if things will go as quickly on the pushups and pulls, but I’ll find out Wednesday.

Knee workout wasn’t as smooth as last week. But it has been a whole week since I did this workout. I still hit the same reps. I didn’t do the knee workout on Friday due to a slight tweak.

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Day 5 of 5 no listening

I got a little in my feels last night before bed. It was a different flavor. Not like the usual recon stuff where I just want to be done with it. It was kind of easier to face and of course went away. But I realized that I want to stick with LBFH/DRLD yet. Plus that means I would just start the new cycle tomorrow, just adding LOS.

I think the LBFH/DRLD is making some deep changes for me. Thus I almost talked myself out of staying with it. KB would be highly beneficial, but it also entails healing and a hero’s journey. I decided to stick with the one I’m on. I’m just facing some things at time, and those are the limits. I also feel a lot lighter at times. I guess that’s an effect of being free from the limits. The weird thing is sometimes if you drop limits you’re kind of lost almost. It’s the recalibration, the perceptual shift type thing. Maybe that’s what I’m going through after 4 cycles of LBFH/DRLD custom.

Afternoons

Had some more feels come on awhile ago. Still some of that healing going on. Emotion limit destroying whatever. It’s a different flavor now. I think Spartan has me embracing the challenge. It’s just different, like instead of wanting to take a break from LBFH/DRLD I see it as a reason to stick with it.

I’m probably going to have to increase my calorie intake somehow. Just for the sake of recovery and progressive overload in my workouts.

Sometimes I feel like I need True Sell just to have normal conversations with people. So much of this stuff of people stuck in their own paradigms that trying to talk to them is just like what a waste of energy. It seems like many people are so down and given up. No wonder there’s such a mismatch between me and them and trying to even work a normal job around them. I don’t judge them. But that doesn’t work both ways. Still tricky situations. HOM would be good, True Sell, TWTP, I can even see how Stark would be beneficial. When you’re creative, or just outside the paradigm, you gotta deal with all the others yet. Get them on board, with the vision, if only to see the good.

I’m also feeling a little more of the free and clearness. I see and sense that there is so much possibility, even when I talk to people and am left reeling, like how do they live in the worlds they do? It’s dark and dreary and really a big negative for them, but I can go on with my life, without being attached to their energy.

Generally I think I’m getting more benefit from LBFH than anyone I go around.

Oh, I do have some extra energy today too. Like I would like to workout but it’s just 20 minute walk day. I am planning to maybe do my stretching on my “rest” days.

It’s almost like generally what brings the average person to life is having something to fight, not even that, just something to complain about.

Good Evenings

I’m going to nickname my LBFH/DRLD custom, the gauntlet. Because it is. But if I stick to 3 minutes I don’t get overwhelmed, still challenged at times.

With some of the recon I can say this is this module or this influence. I had some more of the solitude module healing come up today. I can also see some love without attachment module influence in the recon at times. I probably have had some forgiveness module healing come up, but it hasn’t stuck out to me. Maybe it’s just that it’s not about the other people wronging me, it was more letting myself be wronged kind of thing. At the same time I wouldn’t hang out with most of the people from my past either. Not because I still hold grudges, but because I won’t subject myself to them any longer.

This time instead of getting the love bomb, which may come tomorrow. But I got confidence this time, after the recons passed.

Lol, when I was feeling the confidence earlier, it almost seemed like it was on the verge of cockiness or arrogance. I’m sure that will level out, because that’s not what I am. But at the same time that’s probably what it was those times I did get the chicks. One for sure was but another time it probably could have looked that way but it was more just me having fun not even trying to hook up.

I feel like I’m still doing the uncovering my self. I mean all the traumas and that kind of junk that got dumped on top of the natural me. So they’d probably say DRR would be the ultimate. But I think LBFH/DRLD is already challenging as far as the healing goes. So the plan is still to let LBFH/DRLD custom ride out the year if I can. When I see Primal mentioned as the fun care free type, that gets me going that’s what I want to get back to. Then I see Wanted and I’m like yep, I can see how those traits would work to attract the women also. But first thing is first. Just letting DRLD work in the trenches, and LBFH to hopefully spread some goodwill and between the two keep away the nonsense.

I also have wondered if Spartan has the invincible presence.

End of nights

My new routine is 8 oz. of tart cherry juice after work. It’s said to help sleep, recovery, and inflammation. Plus it has 30 grams of carbs. So instead of post workout carbs I’m trying this out for awhile.

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Day 1: 30 seconds LOS, 3 mins Spartan.

Woke up late. Was up til 4am, even though I woke up early yesterday.

My knees are feeling good today. Like they’re strong. It seems like I really have to just high rep those hamstring curls for a bit for the backs of the knees, and do the hip airplanes for the popliteal, the small muscle that wraps behind the knee.

Afternoons

I’m thinking my relaxation will be bumped up. LBFH/DRLD custom has Stonelike module, and LOS has relaxation scripting. LBFH also has tranquility scripting. So I’m looking forward to that. A great blend of energy and relaxation. I think that’ll hit the spot.

Good Evenings

I have been using a xylitol capsicum aloe nasal spray to clear out my sinuses. Not a cold just a little stuffed up. I ran out and wanted to get another bottle. I stumbled upon bee propolis nasal spray. It has so many great properties I figured I’d try it out. Well after using I found that it helps take the edge off anxiety also. So I got the throat spray version too. I wonder why more people don’t know about this stuff. I used to take cbd but never noticed much in terms of anxiety relief. This stuff works better for me. So I also found something to keep those cortisol levels in check if I need it.

End of Nights:

I was really not feeling like a work out. Sleep got off schedule again. But when I started moving, just doing the walking it was kind of easy and I got in the zone. Then I did some mobility that I wasn’t going to do. Now to check out the wall pushups and pulls. I’m not too optimistic that I’ll hit the progression standards but I’ll find out.

As I was sitting here I just noticed that I had some slight pain in my jaw. Higher up towards the ear one one side. My jaw feels slightly tired now. I’ve been oil pulling 10 mins morning and before bed for a month. But that means I’m using those muscles so they may be primed for any of that facial physical shifting. I hadn’t had any jaw pain or tiredness so it kind of stuck out. This after reading some others reported that when starting LOS. But I wasn’t expecting much from 30 second loops of LOS in my first cycle with it.

I hit the progression standards. 3 sets of 50 on wall pushups and pulls. I’ll want hit those numbers at least another 2 weeks for conditioning purposes. Then I’ll move on to the next harder progressions. 1x a week sessions on those, so far so good.

150 wall pushups with perfect form and at a slow pace. Whew! I had no idea. I might rethink how I want to do this. Maybe I’ll stick with 150 1x per week until it’s easy. I only started over with wall pushups because my shoulder was hurting on regular pushups. So rather than do no chest, wall pushups was the solution. Kind of rehab. Plus pushups actually help my elbows stay pain free. I can see how the high reps will show you your weak spots. I could definitely use some conditioning. My plan is to be able to do dips and pullups as my upper body exercises. For now it’s more conditioning focus.

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Day 2: No listening

I had a dream where I think it was one of my friends, they were looking old and kind of shriveled up from drugs or something. lol. So that could be possibly LOS already making an impression. But it was only 30 seconds and 1 listen.

Not really sore from the workout yesterday. More that I can tell I have some conditioning to be done yet. I think it’s 5 progressions until full normal pushups. The first 3 are easy. It’s wall, then 45 degree with a table or chair, than kneeling. But each progressions the reps go down a little, so it won’t be a goal of 50 reps x 3 on all exercises. It works up to one arm pushups, and pullups if you want to take it that far.

Good Afternoons

Ran over to the gas station to get my nic pouches. I had one of those positive experiences. Just not feeling anxious. I got there I felt like grounded and at ease in my skin. Like I belong anywhere kind of thing. The chick I’ve seen before when she was low vibing not paying attention to anyone but here phone was there. All 3 cashiers were like in a good energy. I really liked the one chick, it was cool to see her in a good vibe. I don’t think I was influencing any of it, but just being able to sort of fit in I guess. Just something to get me feeling better about being around people. I would say maybe an LBFH/DRLD positive experience manifestation that things can just be on a more positive level with people.

Good Evenings:

I was skimming over 48 Laws and wish I could be on to TWTP already. But then I remember at the very least, according to the description DRLD has some anti-manipulation scripting. I’m generally a decent, trusting person but unfortunately there are those types out there who are not. So that’s one thing that wins me over to TWTP as my base building social title.

I finished listening to How To Win Friends and Influence People 30 times. I haven’t mastered it at all. It’s one of those things that requires actual practice in the field. Plus I’d only read it once like 10 years ago. Other books I’ve listened to repeated times over the years and noticed that I end up putting them into practice just because I’ve listened to the material so much. Not the case yet with HTWFIP.

I might checkout 48 Laws for my next book. The books is so long though. I’m sure it could just help me out in terms of dealing with people and not getting burned at least.

My current stack really does have everything I need for now. It’s just a matter of riding out the storms and sticking with it, as usual. The only titles I sometimes wish I had were Primal and TWTP.

It seems to still come down to knowing what I want. The best for me has been just to have fun. Yet getting tangled in other’s webs and bubbles tripped me up. I’ve gone through a lot of the material where they ask you, if you had all the money you could ever need already, what would you do? Well I used to say I’d keep working. But no I’d quit my job, workout and do what I already do. ahahaha. Maybe travel some more and things like that. Have my own gym and sauna, and house etc.

I asked other people well what was something you always wanted to do or what’s your dream? And they tell me things that can’t happen. Like one guy wanted to be a racecar driver. Another guy who has an injured foot and is physically handicapped wants to be a surfer and live on the beach. So that got me thinking that to most people, dreams and what you really want isn’t something that’s even possible. So the limiting belief is already built in. So what they do is live from that place of lack. That also helps me realize that I really can’t change them. If they can never go beyond their own filters, that’s where they’ll stay stuck. I’ve gone beyond many of mine so I know it’s possible, but even trying to convey that doesn’t do much. It’s more just realizing that yea, even though I don’t have friends like I’d like, they’re out there somewhere. For now I’m just going to keep living my life.

Good Nights:

A little in what I call the trenches tonight. Thoughts and feelings about the past. A little bit of that lacking any real connections.It’s not the actual reality of the situation, or lack thereof, it’s of course my own paradigm or filters/beliefs about it. Since it still comes up I think I will partake in some targeted work on it.

I am going to test out 3 minutes of LBFH/DRLD custom tomorrow. I’ve never had probs from that time amount. It’s only when I tried doing 7 minutes because I wanted to get to 15 that I dabbled in some recon hell. lol.

This would be day 7 of not listening to LBFH/DRLD custom. Definitely some processing yet. I just had a memory come up that I hadn’t thought of in maybe 20 years again. It was when I was in school. There was this chick I thought was hot at the time. Kinda goth. We were in physical education class. It was like dancing day or something. I’d never danced before, it was a new school a new city for me too. But the way I remember it is everybody was already partnered up so I see her and well we’re supposed to pick a partner to dance. So I forced myself to go ask her to dance and she turned me down. Then I got in trouble from the butch p.e. teacher for not having a partner. Then I got to dance with this other hot chick but she didn’t think I was into it, lol. I had a few teachers in the past who thought I was a bad guy. Teachers really gotta watch how they treat these students though. But of course if you can make people laugh, you’re the bad guy in school. Or even if they think you don’t see them as the ultimate authority figure either, not even making any trouble. Like they know you’re smart and maybe can see through things on some level. Like maybe you’re a thinker or something. I don’t remember ever seeing that chick again. But I had to laugh when I thought of that. It was like a year after I had this chick ask me out, and at that time I’d forgotten about that.

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Day 3: 3 mins LBFH/DRLD custom

I was just walking around and it struck me that my body feels relaxed. I think between the custom and LOS I’ll get a lot of that.

My initial observations lead me to believe that I’m taking to LOS pretty well. After only 30 seconds and 1 listen. lol. I wouldn’t have believed it myself. As far as physical shifting I think that will definitely take more time. Paragon and Spartan probably have me primed for it. And I’ve got DRLD in the custom.

Feeling some soreness in the pecs and triceps from the upper body workout on Wednesday.

Good Afternoons:

Last night kind of showed me that after 4 cycles on the LBFH/DRLD custom journey, I had another kind of edge of the cliff collapse. So that tells me I’m still working on breaking the limits of faulty foundation. So when the going gets tough again I have to remind myself this is really a long term journey. My stack as it stands will only get better for me as time continues. I had forgotten about some of those past people things that probably still were affecting me today. Why I’d still get on edge just being around people, yet other times I almost feel free of it. Though last night wasn’t really tough, it was more that healing laughter situation.

I’m also trying to get into the habit of falling asleep while “love flooding” just letting love kind of fill up my being and falling asleep. My take on the neville goddard thing of fall asleep in the wish fulfilled. It’s not easy, I mean it feels good, but falling asleep will take some getting used to. I was up really late again.

Oh and last night before these memories came up. I was working and had that perceptual shift. For me it tends to just this sense that I’m missing something. Not longing, but like I forgot something. But no, wasn’t missing anything. It also was probably because I wear a sleeveless shirt while I work, to stay cool. I was wearing a hoody yesterday at home. It just seemed like I was missing something I was wearing, so it could also be LOS influence about my body somehow too. I felt like my arms were naked kind of or something, lol.

End of Nights:

In a way it’s kind of humbling to realize how much work I may have to do on my inner world. This even with all the years of inner work I’ve done before subliminals. Yet I’m gaining a greater clarity, and wisdom. That’s probably what most people do, is jump to the sexy titles and try to tackle everything at once. I think there is value in that, but after a few years, I realize that getting ahead of myself is probably not the greatest thing for me at least. It’s kind of the thing where they say it’s more about the journey than the destination. I still have to realize that on a much deeper level, but I kinda get it.

From my current standpoint. I wish I’d stayed on Chosen From Within for an entire year before trying out Chosen. But Chosen showed me possibilities. Then all the new titles came along and I guess I kind of found my mule to help me up the mountain for awhile.

I am lately intrigued by Revelation of Mind, but my custom has a couple modules that are that flavor. Thus will keep me sticking with the custom. The relaxation benefits of my current stack will prove to be highly beneficial. Also the increased energy. lol. I’m love bombing my stack at times yet. Which is fine. Some self love and motivation I suppose.

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Day 4: No listening

I realized me starting LOS is kind of at the perfect time. I’m currently right at my trimmest I’ve been as an adult. Basically the same as when I was in school. So we’ll see how LOS bumps me up to the next level.

I’m also feeling like I’m at more of a maintenance point. Where I would take 2 days off keto per week instead of the standard one I’ve been doing. My body seems to be needing that extra day to refuel the glycogen stores.

I feel like I’m really most aligned with this stack. Probably more than any stack I’ve run. LBFH/DRLD is the keystone here. But I could have gone either way LB or LBFH. I chose LBFH to help me get positive or neutral attention, and maybe keep the nonsense trouble makers away. But it’s doing great work on my inner game as I like to call it. Just a matter of sticking with it and not getting ahead of myself.

The Spartan and LOS duo will just bring back my confidence and help me with working out, since that’s always been my kind of stress relief and what I like doing. I could use the relaxation and energy boosts for sure.

I had expected to be more in the love vibe, and I only had one spontaneous experience of the love flooding in LBFH. It seems that stuff may need a more consciously steered and guided route. But I’ve also shifted my focus to being more about self love. DRLD has kind of just shifted the focus more to digging deep so that I can be the version of me that I want.

Good Evenings:

Was up extra late last night. Got 6 hours of sleep. It’s possible I took the energy mushroom supplement instead of the sleep one. The bottle and label are almost exactly alike. Judging from where my bottles are, that’s a possibility. lol. So I’m groggy af today. But I’ll feel better after I start working I’m sure. Running on 6 hours of sleep.

End of Nights

I seem to get any love bomb effects 2 days after listening. So that would be tomorrow.

First half of work was pretty easy. Moving well and everything feels good physically.

I didn’t feel the need to do a second carb up day starting today. I decided to take 100 mg of L-theanine with my caffeine Thurs-Sat. Also I have this herbal stress manager blend I’ll take Thurs-Sat. Seems to do the trick.

Also has me doing 3x a day of the squared breathing and 4-8 breathing. I do 10 min sessions. I do 5 mins squared breathing, followed by five minutes of inhaling to 4 count and exhaling for 8 count. That’s to manage stress levels and keep the nervous system balanced out. Plus I just use it as meditation time since I still haven’t gotten back to just the still mind/awareness of whatever arises sitting practice yet.

Which reminds me, I’ll make a note to toss that Stress Displacement module in the next custom. That will always help me out. I bet I’d get a good boost between that and Stonelike which I already have in the current custom. So it appears I’m still approaching any potential custom build like Achilles Heel module minded. Which is to shore up any weaknesses if not right out turning them into strengths.

Though I don’t ask people for help. If it’s something I knew somebody’s profession was that, or they were well versed in that area I’d ask. In the past when I finally started asking for help, that was the first step before realizing that they weren’t any help at all. So I just started walking away and kind of protecting my energy and peace type thing. I should have went Eventide Module mode manned up and kept on trucking. That’s what I ended up having to do anyway.

But that gives me an idea, Achilles’ Heel module in a custom if you have Inner Circle, that might work some good stuff. You’ll actually find the people who could help you.

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Day 5: 30 seconds LOS, 3 mins Spartan

Up late. Slept really long. Kinda cranky. Going to work later than usual. Which means I will probably do the same thing tonight, stay up late. lol. Oh well.

No LB effects today yet. lol. Although now that I started journaling the laughter/humor scripting is kicking in. So I’m feeling like laughing and that kind of thing.

I kind of forgot that LBFH had some of that in there. So the laughter/humor gets a boost with Song of Joy Module which I added in the custom. After having tried it I may have wanted to add in Stress Displacement module for the ultimate combo.

I also held back from the feel good modules because I already had LBFH. But if i had to make it over again, I would include them. Like Joie De Vivre. Stress Displacer didn’t make it in the custom because of the tranquility scripting that was mentioned in the LBFH store title description. So when they say if you need it add the custom module. Yea, just do it. So I have some new data for myself at least.

End of Nights:

Work was fine. Felt as good as I ever have. Like it’s no problem.

I did notice today that it’s like I don’t even want to eat junk food anymore. It’s like it just doesn’t have any appeal to me. At work I was thinking that it seems like food is just fuel kind of mindset. Not forced or anything just like yea, the thought of eating junk food just doesn’t do anything for me anymore.

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Day 6: No listening.

I looked in the mirror today after my shower. I was kind of shocked. My hair doesn’t look bad at all. I mean in the last few months it was like every week it was getting greyer. So I was even thinking about dying it, but it wasn’t that bad yet. It looks fine, and I had to look closely to see the whites/greys. But before it was just obvious to me that my hair was greying, turning white. Today it’s like yea, doesn’t look bad at all. I haven’t changed anything with diet, only thing is I’ve been consistent for the last month on taking the collagen with my protein shake. I wasn’t applying anything topical or doing anything else different.

Here’s what the AI says: “While collagen is known to promote healthy hair and potentially slow down graying,it does not directly cause hair to turn black.”

Evenings

Okay, maybe wasn’t as dramatic as I thought with the hair. After it’s dried down. I definitely have an increased self image though. Like I feel good about how I look. That will go a long way. One of my early memories was when I was in like pre-school. For some reason I thought to myself that I shouldn’t stand out because I didn’t want people to be jealous of me. Say I was good looking and light skinned compared to many of the other people from my uhhh race of people. So it was like one of those kind of in between things. Like to me I didn’t care, people are people, but to many others I could see they were prejudiced and dealing with their own issues. But of course they didn’t see that, it’s not me that’s the problem it’s them. That’s kind of been one of the issues I’ve had with people. The filters and lack of that self awareness and knowledge. But it’s had me working on myself first and foremost. Not working on myself just undoing more than anything. Because that’s what matters. Even if you help people, well, you’re not really helping them. Or your just making more problems kind of thing. Plus being a nice guy and all that kind of stuff.

I was out today a little bit and even though I’m not feeling my best. It’s like I wasn’t worried about what others thought of me. That’s always a bonus for me. That others’ perception of me isn’t my problem. They lack self awareness anyway, and if they had any they wouldn’t be as judgemental and just let people be kind of thing.

Good Nights:

I’ve been feeling lately like KB’s influence is still alive. I just feel like lately my sexual energy is high again. I guess it would make sense since I used KB for 12 cycles. And this is just an idea but maybe any energy scripting would have the easiest pathway through the sexual channels, since that ground work has already been laid. And it is the sort of energy of creation, if you will.

I’m feeling pretty virile and good in my body again. It’s just that those weak spots still aren’t 100%. So I’m conscious of that and can still move well without pain.

I’ve kind of fallen off the Spartan/LOS custom idea. I still plan to use both for 12 cycles and one or the other probably has a permanent spot in my stack.

I did notice earlier some thoughts come up like, “Bring it on.” lol. I would say that’s the Spartan influence. I was doing some inner work.

I decided I’m going to try out 5 day workouts again. I feel like I’m finally bouncing back after getting conditioned to my workouts. So I’ll try out my original split this week. Instead of the 2x a week workouts.

I’ve eased off on the self love releasing. I am going to focus on doing my releasing work on more practical matters. Though I think self love is the most practical thing. But since I’m naturally easing off it, I’m going to try a goal again. I realized I got one goal. So now I’m going to see if I can level that up to the next level, something that’s eluded me for years. But since I’ve grown so much, it could be that it’s now in the realm of possibility.

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Day 7: 3 mins LBFH/DRLD custom

So far it’s been a slow cycle. With experience that’s a good thing to me. I think it’s like the Joe Dispenza thing, he says you gotta practice the feeling of the future you want. So in the past if I got crazy results, it was like maybe the nervous system wasn’t ready for that.

So I switched titles a lot. But the beauty of more gradual or even NSE type titles, is that it’s at your own pace. So it won’t be like a complete shift, going from no lights to bright lights and lots of activity. lol Unless that’s what’s best for you. But I like the idea that it works with your own level of development and to me the idea is that is graduates at an optimized level.

In the past when I’d go for those 15 minute loops, I was like time seems to be flying by. But so far this cycle it’s not too fast, not too slow. Just kind of is a nice medium, normal pace.

Good Afternoons

Was up extra late last night, 3 hours more than what I usually am. I’m also up late.

Just listened to my loop and I’m already getting some of the feel goods. I don’t normally do caffeine when I wake up, but I’m going to try that and see if I can get to sleep any earlier.

Had some slight uneasiness about stuff coming up. Seem like the limits are on shaky ground, and it’s just the thoughts and feelings that come with that I guess. 3 minutes seems to be my top end as far as results and recon with my custom. My sweet spot for what I think is manageable for me.

End of Nights

Had some slight feel goods. Also got some anxiety today. DRLD is hard at work, working on those inner limits.

I am currently eyeing CFW or LB and TWTP as my next subs or custom. But I’m only on cycle 5 with my current LBFH/DRLD custom.

I am still planning to go for 12 cycles with the custom. I guess 6 cycles would be a good number. Then I could take a tester cycle or two if I so desire. That might be Heartsong and TWTP which have been sitting in my downloads but not used yet. I have been slightly questioning if maybe regular LB would have been the way to go. LB, TWTP might be a good tester cycle. Though, it’s one or the other since I only have 1 slot that would be open. If that’s the case I’d probably try CFW again.

It seems it was just a little recon pre-work again. After the feelings subsided the monkey mind got busy. So that feeling energy was broke through, then the busy mind. Nothing major.

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Day 8: No listening

It seems like maybe deeper limits are being eliminated. Just feels like that perceptual shift. Like I’m on shaky ground. So the foundations of the limits might not be so solid anymore.

I went to the bank. There was a hot chick. To me the vibes were like she could fall in love with me, lol. Then I went and met some other chick, to buy a couple books from her. Vibes were chill. Definitely feeling much more at ease with people. I noticed a few days ago that I’m looking at people again. Ever since Primal, I really liked the vibe of not paying attention to other people and just doing my own thing. But lately I’m starting to be more open to people.

Good Evenings

I tried out single leg work for my knee workout yesterday. I didn’t hit the reps I wanted but it has been months since I tried single leg work. I should be doing the full workout in a month if there aren’t any setbacks.

I’m going to try the pushups and pulls again today for my weekly upper body workout. This time I’m going to try to make them harder by stepping a bit further from the wall on pushups, and I think feet closer to the wall for the pulls. I don’t think I’ll hit 50x3 but we’ll see. It was nice just to know that I hit the absolute basic standards. Now to start with the next level of difficulty before I move on to the next harder versions.

End of Nights

When it gets dark out I like to shut the living room blinds. Today that changed. I shut them because I don’t like people to see in. But I closed them then sat down, and I wanted to see out.

At the end of the year I remember wanting to start up daily vocal exercises again. I don’t sing but there was a time where I was doing vocal exercises daily. I felt like it helped me out just to feel better about expressing myself. I hadn’t thought of it again until just now. But, birds sing in the spring.

I think that staying up all night the other night, has caught up with me. I don’t have motivation today. I haven’t walked yet or done my pushups and pulls yet. So hopefully that second wind kicks in soon.

Today turned out to be a rest day. I’ll hit the pushups and pulls tomorrow. And double stack for Friday which is just what I was doing anyway. So it works out. Maybe 4 days a week workouts instead of 5 like I had planned.

I am intrigued by Primal Seduction once again. Based on my recent experiences. My LBFH/DRLD custom is just the whole package when I consider it. It’s modules make kind of a Genesis title for me. Like I would like to switch but it has Long Range Seduction and Lion IV module, covering the basics of attracting women. LBFH/DRLD is really that foundational combo for me and provides its own magical moments at times, which I would say does contribute to any attraction. With LOS getting more time in, I’m sure attracting women will be fine. Couple with the limit removal of DRLD, the sky really is the limit.

My interaction with the bank chick was like the last time that happened kind of. I just needed to break a bigger bill. So I asked for her what bills I wanted. She said of course, but it was just that vibe like she could fall in love with me. lol. I forget where that happened last time, it was a few months ago. Actually that was like a year or two ago, this cashier at one of the gas stations. She said the of course thing with that vibe.

I’m trying to run through the copy of DRLD and LBFH. I’m trying to see which one might have the gratitude scripting. I was just finding myself looking for things to appreciate and just have that feeling sense of it. It definitely wasn’t a forced thing like this is the technique I have to try thing.

The gratitude scripting is DRLD, from the copy.

“That’s why we’ve included all new, rewritten from scratch positivity scripting, helping you cultivate immense joy and gratitude for life and the overcoming of obstacles. Gratitude is a powerful force that allows you to see the value in every experience, no matter how challenging. By embracing joy and gratitude, you change your relationship with the challenges you face. Instead of seeing them as burdens, you begin to see them as opportunities for growth and learning. This perspective shift is critical for breaking free from limits — as it empowers you to approach life with a positive and open mindset, which is fertile ground for endless possibilities.”