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Day 3: 3 mins LBFH/DRLD custom

I was just walking around and it struck me that my body feels relaxed. I think between the custom and LOS I’ll get a lot of that.

My initial observations lead me to believe that I’m taking to LOS pretty well. After only 30 seconds and 1 listen. lol. I wouldn’t have believed it myself. As far as physical shifting I think that will definitely take more time. Paragon and Spartan probably have me primed for it. And I’ve got DRLD in the custom.

Feeling some soreness in the pecs and triceps from the upper body workout on Wednesday.

Good Afternoons:

Last night kind of showed me that after 4 cycles on the LBFH/DRLD custom journey, I had another kind of edge of the cliff collapse. So that tells me I’m still working on breaking the limits of faulty foundation. So when the going gets tough again I have to remind myself this is really a long term journey. My stack as it stands will only get better for me as time continues. I had forgotten about some of those past people things that probably still were affecting me today. Why I’d still get on edge just being around people, yet other times I almost feel free of it. Though last night wasn’t really tough, it was more that healing laughter situation.

I’m also trying to get into the habit of falling asleep while “love flooding” just letting love kind of fill up my being and falling asleep. My take on the neville goddard thing of fall asleep in the wish fulfilled. It’s not easy, I mean it feels good, but falling asleep will take some getting used to. I was up really late again.

Oh and last night before these memories came up. I was working and had that perceptual shift. For me it tends to just this sense that I’m missing something. Not longing, but like I forgot something. But no, wasn’t missing anything. It also was probably because I wear a sleeveless shirt while I work, to stay cool. I was wearing a hoody yesterday at home. It just seemed like I was missing something I was wearing, so it could also be LOS influence about my body somehow too. I felt like my arms were naked kind of or something, lol.

End of Nights:

In a way it’s kind of humbling to realize how much work I may have to do on my inner world. This even with all the years of inner work I’ve done before subliminals. Yet I’m gaining a greater clarity, and wisdom. That’s probably what most people do, is jump to the sexy titles and try to tackle everything at once. I think there is value in that, but after a few years, I realize that getting ahead of myself is probably not the greatest thing for me at least. It’s kind of the thing where they say it’s more about the journey than the destination. I still have to realize that on a much deeper level, but I kinda get it.

From my current standpoint. I wish I’d stayed on Chosen From Within for an entire year before trying out Chosen. But Chosen showed me possibilities. Then all the new titles came along and I guess I kind of found my mule to help me up the mountain for awhile.

I am lately intrigued by Revelation of Mind, but my custom has a couple modules that are that flavor. Thus will keep me sticking with the custom. The relaxation benefits of my current stack will prove to be highly beneficial. Also the increased energy. lol. I’m love bombing my stack at times yet. Which is fine. Some self love and motivation I suppose.

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Day 4: No listening

I realized me starting LOS is kind of at the perfect time. I’m currently right at my trimmest I’ve been as an adult. Basically the same as when I was in school. So we’ll see how LOS bumps me up to the next level.

I’m also feeling like I’m at more of a maintenance point. Where I would take 2 days off keto per week instead of the standard one I’ve been doing. My body seems to be needing that extra day to refuel the glycogen stores.

I feel like I’m really most aligned with this stack. Probably more than any stack I’ve run. LBFH/DRLD is the keystone here. But I could have gone either way LB or LBFH. I chose LBFH to help me get positive or neutral attention, and maybe keep the nonsense trouble makers away. But it’s doing great work on my inner game as I like to call it. Just a matter of sticking with it and not getting ahead of myself.

The Spartan and LOS duo will just bring back my confidence and help me with working out, since that’s always been my kind of stress relief and what I like doing. I could use the relaxation and energy boosts for sure.

I had expected to be more in the love vibe, and I only had one spontaneous experience of the love flooding in LBFH. It seems that stuff may need a more consciously steered and guided route. But I’ve also shifted my focus to being more about self love. DRLD has kind of just shifted the focus more to digging deep so that I can be the version of me that I want.

Good Evenings:

Was up extra late last night. Got 6 hours of sleep. It’s possible I took the energy mushroom supplement instead of the sleep one. The bottle and label are almost exactly alike. Judging from where my bottles are, that’s a possibility. lol. So I’m groggy af today. But I’ll feel better after I start working I’m sure. Running on 6 hours of sleep.

End of Nights

I seem to get any love bomb effects 2 days after listening. So that would be tomorrow.

First half of work was pretty easy. Moving well and everything feels good physically.

I didn’t feel the need to do a second carb up day starting today. I decided to take 100 mg of L-theanine with my caffeine Thurs-Sat. Also I have this herbal stress manager blend I’ll take Thurs-Sat. Seems to do the trick.

Also has me doing 3x a day of the squared breathing and 4-8 breathing. I do 10 min sessions. I do 5 mins squared breathing, followed by five minutes of inhaling to 4 count and exhaling for 8 count. That’s to manage stress levels and keep the nervous system balanced out. Plus I just use it as meditation time since I still haven’t gotten back to just the still mind/awareness of whatever arises sitting practice yet.

Which reminds me, I’ll make a note to toss that Stress Displacement module in the next custom. That will always help me out. I bet I’d get a good boost between that and Stonelike which I already have in the current custom. So it appears I’m still approaching any potential custom build like Achilles Heel module minded. Which is to shore up any weaknesses if not right out turning them into strengths.

Though I don’t ask people for help. If it’s something I knew somebody’s profession was that, or they were well versed in that area I’d ask. In the past when I finally started asking for help, that was the first step before realizing that they weren’t any help at all. So I just started walking away and kind of protecting my energy and peace type thing. I should have went Eventide Module mode manned up and kept on trucking. That’s what I ended up having to do anyway.

But that gives me an idea, Achilles’ Heel module in a custom if you have Inner Circle, that might work some good stuff. You’ll actually find the people who could help you.

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Day 5: 30 seconds LOS, 3 mins Spartan

Up late. Slept really long. Kinda cranky. Going to work later than usual. Which means I will probably do the same thing tonight, stay up late. lol. Oh well.

No LB effects today yet. lol. Although now that I started journaling the laughter/humor scripting is kicking in. So I’m feeling like laughing and that kind of thing.

I kind of forgot that LBFH had some of that in there. So the laughter/humor gets a boost with Song of Joy Module which I added in the custom. After having tried it I may have wanted to add in Stress Displacement module for the ultimate combo.

I also held back from the feel good modules because I already had LBFH. But if i had to make it over again, I would include them. Like Joie De Vivre. Stress Displacer didn’t make it in the custom because of the tranquility scripting that was mentioned in the LBFH store title description. So when they say if you need it add the custom module. Yea, just do it. So I have some new data for myself at least.

End of Nights:

Work was fine. Felt as good as I ever have. Like it’s no problem.

I did notice today that it’s like I don’t even want to eat junk food anymore. It’s like it just doesn’t have any appeal to me. At work I was thinking that it seems like food is just fuel kind of mindset. Not forced or anything just like yea, the thought of eating junk food just doesn’t do anything for me anymore.

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Day 6: No listening.

I looked in the mirror today after my shower. I was kind of shocked. My hair doesn’t look bad at all. I mean in the last few months it was like every week it was getting greyer. So I was even thinking about dying it, but it wasn’t that bad yet. It looks fine, and I had to look closely to see the whites/greys. But before it was just obvious to me that my hair was greying, turning white. Today it’s like yea, doesn’t look bad at all. I haven’t changed anything with diet, only thing is I’ve been consistent for the last month on taking the collagen with my protein shake. I wasn’t applying anything topical or doing anything else different.

Here’s what the AI says: “While collagen is known to promote healthy hair and potentially slow down graying,it does not directly cause hair to turn black.”

Evenings

Okay, maybe wasn’t as dramatic as I thought with the hair. After it’s dried down. I definitely have an increased self image though. Like I feel good about how I look. That will go a long way. One of my early memories was when I was in like pre-school. For some reason I thought to myself that I shouldn’t stand out because I didn’t want people to be jealous of me. Say I was good looking and light skinned compared to many of the other people from my uhhh race of people. So it was like one of those kind of in between things. Like to me I didn’t care, people are people, but to many others I could see they were prejudiced and dealing with their own issues. But of course they didn’t see that, it’s not me that’s the problem it’s them. That’s kind of been one of the issues I’ve had with people. The filters and lack of that self awareness and knowledge. But it’s had me working on myself first and foremost. Not working on myself just undoing more than anything. Because that’s what matters. Even if you help people, well, you’re not really helping them. Or your just making more problems kind of thing. Plus being a nice guy and all that kind of stuff.

I was out today a little bit and even though I’m not feeling my best. It’s like I wasn’t worried about what others thought of me. That’s always a bonus for me. That others’ perception of me isn’t my problem. They lack self awareness anyway, and if they had any they wouldn’t be as judgemental and just let people be kind of thing.

Good Nights:

I’ve been feeling lately like KB’s influence is still alive. I just feel like lately my sexual energy is high again. I guess it would make sense since I used KB for 12 cycles. And this is just an idea but maybe any energy scripting would have the easiest pathway through the sexual channels, since that ground work has already been laid. And it is the sort of energy of creation, if you will.

I’m feeling pretty virile and good in my body again. It’s just that those weak spots still aren’t 100%. So I’m conscious of that and can still move well without pain.

I’ve kind of fallen off the Spartan/LOS custom idea. I still plan to use both for 12 cycles and one or the other probably has a permanent spot in my stack.

I did notice earlier some thoughts come up like, “Bring it on.” lol. I would say that’s the Spartan influence. I was doing some inner work.

I decided I’m going to try out 5 day workouts again. I feel like I’m finally bouncing back after getting conditioned to my workouts. So I’ll try out my original split this week. Instead of the 2x a week workouts.

I’ve eased off on the self love releasing. I am going to focus on doing my releasing work on more practical matters. Though I think self love is the most practical thing. But since I’m naturally easing off it, I’m going to try a goal again. I realized I got one goal. So now I’m going to see if I can level that up to the next level, something that’s eluded me for years. But since I’ve grown so much, it could be that it’s now in the realm of possibility.

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Day 7: 3 mins LBFH/DRLD custom

So far it’s been a slow cycle. With experience that’s a good thing to me. I think it’s like the Joe Dispenza thing, he says you gotta practice the feeling of the future you want. So in the past if I got crazy results, it was like maybe the nervous system wasn’t ready for that.

So I switched titles a lot. But the beauty of more gradual or even NSE type titles, is that it’s at your own pace. So it won’t be like a complete shift, going from no lights to bright lights and lots of activity. lol Unless that’s what’s best for you. But I like the idea that it works with your own level of development and to me the idea is that is graduates at an optimized level.

In the past when I’d go for those 15 minute loops, I was like time seems to be flying by. But so far this cycle it’s not too fast, not too slow. Just kind of is a nice medium, normal pace.

Good Afternoons

Was up extra late last night, 3 hours more than what I usually am. I’m also up late.

Just listened to my loop and I’m already getting some of the feel goods. I don’t normally do caffeine when I wake up, but I’m going to try that and see if I can get to sleep any earlier.

Had some slight uneasiness about stuff coming up. Seem like the limits are on shaky ground, and it’s just the thoughts and feelings that come with that I guess. 3 minutes seems to be my top end as far as results and recon with my custom. My sweet spot for what I think is manageable for me.

End of Nights

Had some slight feel goods. Also got some anxiety today. DRLD is hard at work, working on those inner limits.

I am currently eyeing CFW or LB and TWTP as my next subs or custom. But I’m only on cycle 5 with my current LBFH/DRLD custom.

I am still planning to go for 12 cycles with the custom. I guess 6 cycles would be a good number. Then I could take a tester cycle or two if I so desire. That might be Heartsong and TWTP which have been sitting in my downloads but not used yet. I have been slightly questioning if maybe regular LB would have been the way to go. LB, TWTP might be a good tester cycle. Though, it’s one or the other since I only have 1 slot that would be open. If that’s the case I’d probably try CFW again.

It seems it was just a little recon pre-work again. After the feelings subsided the monkey mind got busy. So that feeling energy was broke through, then the busy mind. Nothing major.

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Day 8: No listening

It seems like maybe deeper limits are being eliminated. Just feels like that perceptual shift. Like I’m on shaky ground. So the foundations of the limits might not be so solid anymore.

I went to the bank. There was a hot chick. To me the vibes were like she could fall in love with me, lol. Then I went and met some other chick, to buy a couple books from her. Vibes were chill. Definitely feeling much more at ease with people. I noticed a few days ago that I’m looking at people again. Ever since Primal, I really liked the vibe of not paying attention to other people and just doing my own thing. But lately I’m starting to be more open to people.

Good Evenings

I tried out single leg work for my knee workout yesterday. I didn’t hit the reps I wanted but it has been months since I tried single leg work. I should be doing the full workout in a month if there aren’t any setbacks.

I’m going to try the pushups and pulls again today for my weekly upper body workout. This time I’m going to try to make them harder by stepping a bit further from the wall on pushups, and I think feet closer to the wall for the pulls. I don’t think I’ll hit 50x3 but we’ll see. It was nice just to know that I hit the absolute basic standards. Now to start with the next level of difficulty before I move on to the next harder versions.

End of Nights

When it gets dark out I like to shut the living room blinds. Today that changed. I shut them because I don’t like people to see in. But I closed them then sat down, and I wanted to see out.

At the end of the year I remember wanting to start up daily vocal exercises again. I don’t sing but there was a time where I was doing vocal exercises daily. I felt like it helped me out just to feel better about expressing myself. I hadn’t thought of it again until just now. But, birds sing in the spring.

I think that staying up all night the other night, has caught up with me. I don’t have motivation today. I haven’t walked yet or done my pushups and pulls yet. So hopefully that second wind kicks in soon.

Today turned out to be a rest day. I’ll hit the pushups and pulls tomorrow. And double stack for Friday which is just what I was doing anyway. So it works out. Maybe 4 days a week workouts instead of 5 like I had planned.

I am intrigued by Primal Seduction once again. Based on my recent experiences. My LBFH/DRLD custom is just the whole package when I consider it. It’s modules make kind of a Genesis title for me. Like I would like to switch but it has Long Range Seduction and Lion IV module, covering the basics of attracting women. LBFH/DRLD is really that foundational combo for me and provides its own magical moments at times, which I would say does contribute to any attraction. With LOS getting more time in, I’m sure attracting women will be fine. Couple with the limit removal of DRLD, the sky really is the limit.

My interaction with the bank chick was like the last time that happened kind of. I just needed to break a bigger bill. So I asked for her what bills I wanted. She said of course, but it was just that vibe like she could fall in love with me. lol. I forget where that happened last time, it was a few months ago. Actually that was like a year or two ago, this cashier at one of the gas stations. She said the of course thing with that vibe.

I’m trying to run through the copy of DRLD and LBFH. I’m trying to see which one might have the gratitude scripting. I was just finding myself looking for things to appreciate and just have that feeling sense of it. It definitely wasn’t a forced thing like this is the technique I have to try thing.

The gratitude scripting is DRLD, from the copy.

“That’s why we’ve included all new, rewritten from scratch positivity scripting, helping you cultivate immense joy and gratitude for life and the overcoming of obstacles. Gratitude is a powerful force that allows you to see the value in every experience, no matter how challenging. By embracing joy and gratitude, you change your relationship with the challenges you face. Instead of seeing them as burdens, you begin to see them as opportunities for growth and learning. This perspective shift is critical for breaking free from limits — as it empowers you to approach life with a positive and open mindset, which is fertile ground for endless possibilities.”

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Day 9: 30 seconds LOS, 3 mins Spartan

I feel like I did unlock a little bit more from DRLD. This in my 5th cycle. I’m sticking to 3 mins.

Up til 5 am. 7 hours of sleep. Not feeling my most motivated. I’ll just do my walk now and it’s pushups and pulls day. Maybe that extra oomph will kick in after just starting.

Evenings:

Some slight emotional healing going on. Healing is just a word. It’s resolving old emotions ideas. More words.

Procrastinating on finishing out my workout. Also had some resistance around that. So it’s all good.

I’ve also noticed a change for me. I used to always find women I really liked but they lived far away, like livestream types. But since yesterday with the bank chick and this other chick, I’m finding more appeal in women from real life. Like it seems like that’s more possible and real for me, especially for now. Instead of finding these women online and feeling like they’re great but couldn’t make it work due to the distance factor.

Money has been coming up. But nothing that seems like progress yet. It’s more that my check is going to be late again. I haven’t heard back from the new boss, who I do work for. Messaged her on Monday about my check, since it was the first. And I’m hoping to get paid by Friday. So when she does get back to me I’ll just have to be clear and see if we can get agreement on how to proceed in the future. The old boss would get back to my emails sometimes even after hours.

I like my work, it’s basically me getting paid to do some light cardio. But I could definitely use more money. If I had gotten paid I might have my taxes sorted and paid, and I probably would have invested in this course that teaches you how to start making money online. I still haven’t focused on any money mindset besides continuing to read, The Energy of Money. I’m almost finished with it. I’m just focusing on moving through whatever comes up in the moment. So I can just work with my feelings about the getting paid, not getting email response situation. I did some work on that already.

I’m definitely happy with my progress in terms of the titles I’m listening to. It does just get better and better, nothing major but it’s at the right pace for me. It’s like the tortoise approach, slow and steady wins the race. In a few months, who knows how much better things will be for me. I’m sure I’ll be more open to getting out in the world a bit more and feeling good and confident, unlimited. All that.

lol. I’m laughing because I was feeling a little sappy without like a solution or direction. This chick that I missed out on from Jr. High, the one that asked me out has a bf again. So I’m guessing she got back with her ex. Seems like one of those things. I don’t really care about it though.

I guess it’s just a little mourning of the past or something going on. Nothing in particular. A little rain to grow the grass.

In the last few weeks I saw two of my ex’s friends show up as suggested friends on FB. So that would lead me to believe she had them check up on me. lol. Saw another chick who used to like me at my old job. That was when LB first came out. Glad to be out of those times I was in, more with being around the wrong people. So I don’t know what’s going on. My vibe must be changing or something.

Oh, and I’m kind of averse to doom scrolling on the tt app now. So yea, changes are happening for sure. I think that’s some disconnect from toxic influences coming up.

End of Nights:

I was not even close to 150 on the pushups tonight. Just that little bit of difficulty increase, probably has me starting over the beginner standard. Either way the most important thing is to be back to doing pain free normal pushups. It’ll be good for my elbow pain to take it slow. I might just do some reps daily to maybe speed things up.

The pulls are easy. I’m probably ready for the next hardest version. Horizontal pulls is the next level. I used to do those but never got high in reps. So I guess I’ll be trying those out next week. Maybe.

A Spartan/LOS custom is looking more attractive. Especially since I see this as a long term stack. With all the great titles and updates, I’m going to stick with these titles. I might not max out this custom, just put some essential custom modules in. But, we’ll see about that. lol But that’s getting ahead of myself as I haven’t gotten paid. Once again I’m feeling in limbo with the work situation. But I think I’m already, just hopefully 3 days late, if I get paid tomorrow.

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Day 10 No listening

Woke up from another dream, since starting LOS, about some of my peers looking old now. So we have some things being worked out there. I gotta think LBFH/DRLD custom plays some influence for digging deep.

The dream ended when we talked about a friend who passed when he was like 18 in a car accident. In the dream it got windy and we said thank you. He’s the wind now.

Then one of my friends from back then was getting in a fight and he got stabbed. I think that could be Spartan influence. That never happened. But in the dream it was that we were watching something that happened just from an angle we hadn’t seen. I can also see how the dreams were influenced by some social media I was scrolling shortly before bed. Also I can see some The Merger of Worlds custom module influence.

My inbox is empty, no email confirming my pay check is ready. So I sent off another email.

Afternooners

I had to pick up an order at the drug store. There was one chick who was really low key. I could feel her eyes on me the whole time. I thought she was a teenager so I wasn’t paying any attention. But when I left she’s was probably 20’s.

I got to the gas station. I feel like maybe some Lifeblood Fable. I figured out at 3pm it’s only one guy working for awhile. Last time I saw him I almost felt like he didn’t like me or was maybe in a bad mood. But I just walked in like normal and kind of care free vibe. There was definitely more warmth from him this time. Also seeing little hints at how things work sometimes. That’s probably some Merger of Worlds and Tyrant module influence.

The song of joy and whatever feel goods have been the most obvious effects from my stack. As time goes on and I consciously notice new attributes arising, it definitely shows me the value of sticking with a title for longer term. Of course I wish I was a guy who could switch titles because that’s how my life is. But for my life, long term listening seems to be the best course.

I do think if Genesis Joy was around when I first started and I just stuck with that for a year to start with, that would have been huge. But my first title was Sanguine. Which I’ve never stuck with long term. Just 4 cycle stints. I’m guessing I switched because it was starting to change things on that deeper level maybe. That’s what experience has shown me. 4 cycles just isn’t enough unless it really is like a period in your life where you have a specific goal or thing you’re working on, and a title will support that. I like the deep core level changes, which seem to take more time. And I’m seeing that yea, the more time goes the more things unlock and just gets better. So take the lulls and recon, the ups and the downs in stride.

Somebody mentioned it took like 10 cycles to see the sexiness modules start surfacing from their custom. For me I think it’s any inner circle scripting that seems slow going. I guess that’s just from being let down by people. Or being wronged or misperceived by people. Everyone’s got their own issues, and generally they’re doing their best. The best they can. But also it seems like generally most people don’t change, yet there are those out there who surprise you.

Definitely more of the feel goods today.

End of Nights

I got my check! They just don’t like to reply to emails for some reason. lol.

I finally heard this numerology guy talk about my birth day. He just goes by day of your birth. So my number he says is a traveler, you’re good looking, and you have high sex energy. Or maybe if you don’t like travel you like to move around a lot. Say with partners or whatever. I moved around in jobs because I didn’t like the matrix people, but I would have stayed at one job if they’re were “good” people.

I would say I have no interest in traveling. That’s mostly due to the people reasons. But I would agree with the high sex energy. I’ve always had a high sexual energy. So maybe that’s why I didn’t have problems with my 12 cycles of Khan Black. I feel like I could use more clearing at times if anything. Just some old programming around it I guess. I was never someone who slept around though. I was always after that one. But that’s why I never got the one, lol. I almost used to look down on the guys who would sleep around. After having some years on me, I feel like maybe they had the right idea after all. I thought I was going from a higher moral ground, and yet all that programming was what kept me from being successful with the women I wanted. Also why it makes sense that if you act not interested, they’re interested.

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Day 11, 3 mins LBFH/DRLD custom

Halfway through another cycle.

Good Afternoons

I got to sleep around 3 am last two nights. So that’s where I want to be. Today I woke up at 1. 10 hours of sleep. I think that’s my body wanting to catch up. Normally it seems like 8 would be fine if I could make that a steady thing.

I didn’t work out yesterday. Was a recovery day. I guess my body needed the rest as evidenced by my sleep.

I am hungry today. First time all week that I’m just hungry. I’m not so sure on the 2 days off keto. But I do feel like I’m more at the maintenance point anyway. I dont think I got back into ketosis until Friday. But again since I’m in more maintenance mode, not a big deal. I’ll probably take 2 days off keto again this week to get some more data. Either way I think it’s good to take a little break from routine once in awhile. This time I don’t even want to, it’s more for practical purposes.

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Day 12 No listening

I woke up this am, well I was half awake. In that hypnagogic state as it’s called. My mind was saying something about my opponent. It was like nonsensical to me. But today after work. Work was easy again. I’m definitely feeling the warrior coming out in me today. Memories of the past people bs. Like if you have a pure heart, people will do all they can to stomp it out of you kind of thing. That was my problem I guess. Getting all that nonsense just for existing. Well I know I wouldn’t put up with it or take it today. Feel like I’d get a great workout in if it was a workout day.

I’d really like to go full on TWTP but I’ll just plan for that Primal’d Spartan/LOS custom.

I might just do a wildcard play. Spartan/LOS cores with Synergy: At The Top, for the Primal flavor that I want. And Synergy: Inescapable Gaze, just for something new. The one gaze is already in LOS but I figure why not try something that I might not go for. Plus when I get to TWTP that groundwork will just be a bonus.

End of Nights

I got some brief love bomb vibes today too. I’m interested to see if the whole stack meshes at times. lol. The loving unlimited beautiful warrior. haha.

I also realized that me wanting to look and see more is probably the gaze scripting in LOS. To me it hasn’t seemed a seductive flavor, it’s more so that it’s just kind of opening up to whatever it is. Just like a preview. I guess I’d say just exploratory for now.

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Day 13 - 30 sec LOS, 3 mins Spartan

I did a little drive today. I was feeling like this is what a normal, grounded man is supposed to feel like. Then I thought of something else and I was in that like playful almost childlike energy.

Now I’m feeling the LBFH feel goods. Gotta work out now.

Oh I stopped at the bank to deposit my check. I had a nice full man voice as well. That used to be a thing with me. When I first started sub club, I had to drive like 45 minutes to work. So I’d work out before work and I’d almost lose my voice after a vigorous workout. So I used to be really self conscious about my voice at times.

Probably just the relaxation and some of that alpha masculine influence.

Good Evenings

LBFH vibes still coming in and out today. None of the lows. Maybe the slightest melancholy, I see it as just the old reality of limitation.

LBFH/DRLD really seems to be a heavy duty title for me. That’s why I plan to get 12 cycles out of it. Then I’d like to do Heartsong and TWTP. I think that will definitely be a healing combo for me, and not sure I’d want that right now. I would like to think LBFH/DRLD custom is just paving the way to that next step.

Man I still have this kind of procrastination when it’s time to workout. I’m thinking I might have to get myself to work out first thing in the day. I tend to get errands done first if that’s what I need to do. Then I take the pre-workout. But even that doesn’t get me in to gear most days. I think it’s just that I haven’t found the right one. I noticed that I like some of the thermogenic or fat burning type pre-workouts. Other ones I’ll take and just kind of kick back and end up wanting to chill, lol. I also think the sleep situation is a contributor. Like I stayed up til 4-5 am. I’d like to be asleep by 230 am ideally. Then I’d wake up before noon.

So it seems like I’ll be awake and feeling fine for a few hours, and hit that early evening slump when it’s time to work out.

Yesterday when I was in workout mode was in about an hour from now. But that’s too late for me to take caffeine. I keep mine to one dose about 2-3 hours after waking. Then no more, hoping that I’ll get my sleep back on schedule.

End of Nights

Haven’t worked out yet. But since I changed to 4 workouts a week. Mon/Tues are short workouts.

I’m feeling a little low tonight. Some kind of loneliness. Still processing the ex thing, and I would say it’s probably just Solitude module doing some more digging.

Did some inner work. Finally got back in touch with that inner spaciousness. I usually start laughing too. Touching on the joy of being type stuff as well. Don’t feel all done. But definitely pulled out of that low.

Just found out I need a new favorite pair of sweat pants. I’ve had these for, could be 20 years. lol. I really like them.

Lol. Now I gotta do some inner work before going to sleep. I’ve moved into some anger type energy. It was just one of those things. Talking to a family member. Like they say if you think you’re enlightened go spend a week with your family.

It was just a conversation and the family member immediately started to react, in that old way that implies that I’m bad. I was just having normal conversation, and a certain topic of some family members visiting for a month this summer. We all only see things through our filters. Many think that things never change, to them it’s still as if people never change. They’re right, maybe most don’t. For all the work I’ve done and none of my family works on themselves. So I still don’t have much relationship with them. It’s just one of those things I guess. I’ll just be the odd man out. But for them whatever, it’s more important that they get to see their family. That’s how they talk. Like I’m not a part of the family? lol. I’m here all the time and I help out and all that. But it is even in say the bible, there’s a story about a guy with two sons. One has gone off in a bad way for years. But he comes back one day and his dad is so happy to see him despite all the wrongs or whatever. And his other son sees that and of course is like wtf. I don’t know the whole story but that’s kind of the gist I guess.

I’m really excited about this Spartan/LOS custom. I kind of want to do the other titles, when I read the threads. But I gotta remember why I’m on Spartan/Los in the first place. I want my body to be in tip top shape and pain and injury free. I’m still not back 100%. Knees have been slightly sore, and I finally had enough confidence to walk down stairs normally. I still hold the railing. The addition of Synergy: At The Top will be just what I need. Some more of that care free-ness, and just being someone who is higher status, so they don’t get the idea that I’m their doormat or somebody to be treated like dirt for existing. Synergy: Inescapable Gaze is something I’m getting more excited about as well. Just that new wild card experience for me. I’m sure it’ll be good as I’ve always been perceptive, but it’ll just bring out some good stuff for me.

Also I’m going to add that Carpe whatever synergy in the custom. I love Joie De Vivre and want that back. But I also want Carpe Diem because I could use that get things done aspect.

I also noticed I was enjoying that relaxation when I woke up today and for awhile. Like stretching where it just feels good, I guess I hadn’t had that in awhile.

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Day 14: No listening

Last week of this cycle.

I was processing the ex situation again to start the day. I was also thinking I wish I had the Pride Unbroken and Code of Loyalty modules in my stack yet. But that would probably be too much healing. I’ve got enough already.

My physique is coming along yet. I seem to be looking more dense. I was worried I was going to start bulking up. But it seems to be more like what I had in mind in terms of build.

I went to the gas station to pick something up. It was another cashier I don’t see very often. Last time I saw her she seemed like the peoply, talkative type. So I was talking to her and speaking up. She wasn’t in that mood I guess. I could tell we weren’t really connecting. Then another woman walked in right as I was turning around, lol she had the vibes of someone I could pick up at the bar if I was in one night stand mode. So yea, I think I will quite enjoy the custom module, Synergy: Inescapable Gaze. I realized that’s kind of my default mode anyway just noticing things, and I’m sure it’ll up my game.

I guess I have noticed over the years, that it really is a kind of dynamic where if you want it, they don’t. Like if I’m open and wanting to socialize, others aren’t so open or welcoming to that. Then other times when I’m not in that mode and don’t want to socialize, others want to socialize with me. I guess it’s probably that sort of thing, where it’s like they have the program that if somebody is trying to talk to you they want something from you. And also people value and want what’s not easy to get. So at least I can see that and that I could develop those skills to help me overcome those kinds of problems, or probably better, just to be able to use those things to my advantage. I just don’t have any real need for it. If I am making small talk it’s not to get anything anyway. So at least on some level I’m still learning the kind of social interpersonal dynamics at play.

Good Evenings

I woke up a half hour earlier. So that tells me that I’m reaching homeostasis as far as my sleep schedule. So I get to sleep about 4 am and will wake up around 12. I want to be on like a 2:30 am sleep and 10:30am wake up schedule. But I work nights anyway.

A little cranky tonight. I think it’s still the sleep situation, lol. I had to go somewhere to pick up food for somebody. I did not want to be around people. I got to the place and there was nobody there. So I felt better. I just realized it could also be that I haven’t dropped a deuce today! Probably due to the change in diet. 2 days off keto every week this month to see how it affects things.

End of Nights:

I am really tired tonight. So it seems possible that I will hit my goal of sleeping by 2:30am tonight.
I didn’t hit the workout today either. I added a couple of the advanced FT exercises in yesterday. I don’t know why but they got my calves sore. So I’ll hit the knee/calves tomorrow.

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Day 15: 3 mins LBFH/DRLD custom

Well it seems this is my daylight savings sleep schedule. Sleep at 4am, wake up at 1pm.

I did get in bed last night tired. But I also knew that it was going to be a good meditation inner work session. I released a lot of junk and feel much lighter. I guess if anything that might be the best time for me to do that inner work, when the rest of the world is asleep. Yesterday in the day I felt like the inner work just wasn’t very productive, although nothing was productive besides work.

I am in keto already. That’s 3 days. So I think I will definitely go this month with 2 days off keto a week. I’m feeling hungry right now and was last night. So I think if anything it’ll boost my physique results. Maybe recovery as well.

Afternoons

Feeling some light LBFH vibes. Definitely got some good inner work in last night before sleep.

So it looks like Spartan is the title I’ve used most in my time with Sub Club. I used it for 12 cycles in my previous custom. Now I finally got around to the new version.

Any title change won’t be for 6 cycles now. But I still feel like TWTP is just the next necessary component for me. Maybe I’d do TWTP & LB instead of Heartsong.

Evenings:

I am hungry today. 2 days off keto was a good plan. But I may need to increase my calories on keto days too.

Emperor: The Art of War dropped today! That could mean I would just stack Spartan/LOS custom with AOW and TWTP, lol. That’s probably the side of myself that I needed most to develop anyway. I’m sure it would have let me have if not an easier time with people, at least a more successful time. I mean, in 6 cycles. I still am staying the course, continuing to extract the priceless benefits of staying with LBFH/DRLD custom for 12 cycles.

Last week I picked up another copy of The 48 Laws of Power for $1, locally. My policy is if I see a used one for sale in my small city, I’m gonna buy it. Hahaha. Maybe that’s some kind of law of power maybe? I don’t know I haven’t read the book. I also picked up The Art of Seduction last month locally.

As far as books, I have this idea that I’d like to be able to purchase copies of How To Win Friends and Influence People. I’d give them to friends and associates as gifts.

I’ve been listening to this short LOA book. It’s from like 1912, I think. It’s short but some of the stuff is put in a way that I like, for me. Since it’s so short I can listen to it and finish it mostly while I’m at work.

I’m thinking my next book will be this, Bob Proctor “book”, called Change Your Paradigm. It’s not an official book I think it’s him have a discussion with someone and talking about the paradigm. I think it will complement my listening to DRLD very nicely. I know I have some old paradigms to shift, but who doesn’t.

End of Nights:
I’ve been going through it a bit at times over the ex situation. Kind of makes me glad I didn’t decide on Heartsong. Also makes me think after I finish my run with this custom, I’d feel ready to try it out. I think it’s that LBFH, DRLD, love without attachment module, Chosen of Venus, and Depths of Love modules. I do wish I had Blue Skies in it. But it’s already potent as is. Plus Path of Forgiveness Module, and Solitude module, making it an already potent package.

I did the knee program workout tonight. Last week I tried single leg work. I did again today, my reps got better. Should be a month or less and I’ll be where I was before I had all the pain in the knees and back. The big thing was my stability came back. Last week I was pretty shaky, but definitely improvements this week. Pushups and pulls tomorrow.

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Day 16: No listening

Last night I tried the exercises that produce the body shakes. I did not shake. I even did more reps to see if anything would happen. It seems I released a lot the other night. I mean like TRE body releasing type shakes. There is nothing evil or wrong about releasing tension from the body, disclaimer.

Woke up at 2pm today. So I think I’m not concerned with it anymore. It is what it is. It’s my summer schedule.

Had some thoughts come up about the ex situation today, may be Inner Voice module, changing the script so I feel better about it.

Evenings

Yea I think I’m in a place now where my stack cannot be broken. In the past yea I jumped onto a new title with the latest upgrades. But now it’s like I did that and found out that just staying the course is the best course. Since my stack is what I needed most, that’s why I chose it, I’m gonna ride it on out.

Daredevil True Social definitely looks more appealing with the newest update. I think it’s more in line with how I see myself operating socially. I think TWTP is still a necessary next step for me though. I might even be leaning more towards True Social now than Art of War.

A little cranky tonight. I blame the sleep once again more than anything else. No highs or lows today. Just kind of normal except for the crankiness because I feel like I could take a nap. But I gotta go to work instead.

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Day 17: 30 seconds LOS, 3 mins Spartan

Back is sore today. I was feeling like it was time for a self traction session last night. I hadn’t done it in like 2 weeks. Still planning for the back workout today. I’ll throw the pushups in for warmup since I’m down to one set beginner level. lol. I haven’t had that motivation for pushups and pulls lately. Maybe just doing a the pushups and pulls as warmup, will get the ball rolling again.

My core seems to be tightening up. It’s gotta be the stomach vaccums and these back flattens. You lay on the floor on your back with your feet flat on the floor. And you flatten that space between your lower back and the floor for reps. That was causing me TRE shakes after a few reps. I maybe had stored emotions in that lower belly hip area. Anyway, yesterday I saw a video of a guy saying if you do 20 reps for 3 sets daily, you’ll see a 2 inch reduction in your waist. Lol I don’t know about that but it might give the appearance of it.

Good Evenings

A little tired. I fell asleep earlier last night, but woke up later and stayed up again. Tired but enjoying some slight mood boost. Workout is feeling good, just have to nudge myself a bit to get moving.

End of night

I’m at my lowest pants size. So I’m happy to be on my current stack. In the past when I would hit my goal, I’d just gain the weight back. I used to use food as my comfort. But with all the healing and growth, I’m confident that I’ll be able to maintain it. Even improve upon it this time around, to get the best physique I’ve ever had.

I’m ready for next week to get back to work. I only did mobility today. The back was still sore from traction. Now the goal is to just keep improving on the workout side of things.

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Day 18: no listening

I don’t even feel like I’m coming up to the end of another cycle.

Evenings

Woke up just before noon which I was happy about. But I ended up just being tired all day. I went to the gas station when I first woke up and that was it. I still have to get to work. Took my caffeine again just now and if I end up staying up late oh well. I’m sure once I get moving at work I’ll shake the cobwebs off.

When I was at the gas station earlier I was walking in and this guy was parked at the pump, walked in before me, younger dude like in his 20’s I’d guess. He was looking at me. He got to go to the register with the chick I really like- I have zero attachment though. So as I’m leaving he’s watching me again. Not sure what that was about. There were a few people around but he’s the only one that took noticeable notice of me. I didn’t get a read on him though. I just kept it non-chalant.

I think love without attachment is probably a key module for me. I’m still looking for the You Are Not Alone or any people scripting to kick in. Although Solitude module balances it out. I would opine that the masses aren’t our matches anyway, so maybe that’s why people had problems with something like Heartsong. I know as soon as I started to grown and wake up a bit, and good things started happening and having these experiences of something more. That I lost all my friends and just didn’t fit in with most people anymore. Even if I unconditionally accepted them, they were still running on that sort of victim, stuck, complainy, judge-y stuff. So naturally I accepted that I’m better off running solo until I do meet that soul tribe as they say. Though I’d like to get to the next level where I can live abundance rather than that seeming in between place of having grown, and had some great experiences, and yet not found my people or place yet. I guess i don’t want to fit in anyway, but just where I could be left alone and those crabs in the bucket just leave me out of it.

Since reading some updates from people who have tried AOW, it’s winning in my book again. I think it might be more my style than TWTP, yet I probably need both anyway.

End of Nights

Work went well. I’ll save the last job for tomorrow night instead. I’m not in the mood to stay up late. Hopefully I’ll be sleeping a bit early tonight.

Been a little cranky today. Luckily it wasn’t a social day, lol.

I think in June I’ll have my money saved for my Spartan/LOS custom. I’m still planning on it. I think Synergy: At The Top will just add the next layer or level for me. I think it’ll smooth out any remaining edges and give me some added confidence and not caring what others think. That seems important for me especially during summer months when there’s just more people around.

That new E:AOW title is looking more and more attractive as the initial reports start to roll in.

I did see some Foundation, Eye of The Storm type action in myself tonight. I was kind of getting into the anxiety and I was able to pull myself out of it pretty quickly.

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Day 19: 3 mins LBFH/DRLD custom

Woke up at noon. Definitely not used to it, lol. I think I’ll get used to it. No headache today. I’m sure I’ll be good once I get some caffeine and get to work.

Afternoons

I’d like to get better at the saying less than necessary thing. I used to think being open and vulnerable was the way. Not so much. That’s why I’m looking at TWTP and AOW as my next base titles for long term reprogramming.

I feel crabby, tired, and still clear and good sensations. I had to run somewhere and pick up some food. In the past I’ve got that problem that I used to have with people. Well I haven’t gone there in like a year. So I went a couple time in the last few months. But everytime I go I just kind of put on my armor and the I wont’ tolerate any funny business vibe. I’d like to go in open and feeling good, but in this place I don’t. It’s more kind of pick and choose for me. Say I’ve had problems with certain people or locations before, so I’ll adjust my vibe accordingly if I still go there. Generally I just don’t go there anymore. But if it’s the only place I’ll go once in awhile.

I think the crankiness is that warrior iron will type thing for me. Just integrating that with the kind of spacious beingness feeling good type vibe that I prefer.

I just had to run in and grab my order from the rack. I got it and turned to say thanks, but both the guys were minding their own business. So I was a little surprised. I guess they got the message, lol.

lol I just remembered… I also saw this biker, but he didn’t have that invincible aura vibe. He kind of noticed me but I could tell he didn’t want to make eye contact. I definitely don’t let something like that go to my head though. I’m not looking to dominate people, just more be left alone. That also reminds me I think it was last summer or the summer before, I was on Chosen. I stopped for some oil at this gas station. And there was a biker at the pump at the station across the street. He was like admiring me or something, lolol. For as many bikers that come out when the temps warm up and the snow is gone, I never see any of these guys in the winter. Kind of perplexing. That should in theory also give me one of those life changing insights- if I’ve gotten these reactions from bikers, why should I worry about the average joe schmo? I guess I worked at a gym fitness environment and that was not a good time. But that was also before I tried Chosen and Spartan. And I guess I could say something like, your average biker is well aware of real world consequences, and your average joe schmo who runs his mouth is probably not. Which is why regular jobs haven’t been places of positivity and good will.

End of Nights

This is cycle 5 LBFH/DRLD custom. Cycle 2 Spartan. Cycle 1 LOS.

I suspect I will try and talk myself into switching out Spartan for AOW. I almost did tonight. Especially when I consider that I’ve I’ve already used Spartan, in its previous release, for 12 cycles. lol. But I’m still planning for Spartan next cycle. It’s more important for me to get the workouts right. I’m not in any social position or necessity yet.

Some slight loneliness. lolol. I wonder if I should look at updating LBFH/DRLD with that new anti-recon thing.

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Day 20: No listening

Woke up really early for me. 11am, after not falling asleep until around 4am. So I was up later but awake earlier. Feeling fine so far. I think I’ll stick with noon as the latest I’ll let myself sleep. That should keep me on track with falling asleep a little earlier. I think I had trouble with getting on track after the time change, because 11am is 10am all winter. I think 11am is a good wake up time.

My back is sore. Moving chairs and bending over at work yesterday when it was still sore from traction. I guess it’s better than the pain of being hurt. I haven’t kept up on the self traction because it takes like 15 mins and I don’t think I need that much. But the downside is when I do need it I might be sore for a few days. So I may just do it for like 5 minutes 3 times a week just for a little stretch and maintenance. Still planning to work out. Gonna do my walk now.

I probably need to be more active when I’m not working or working out. Still mostly lounging. But I dont’ know what else I’d do. Today I did feel like I want to start reading a new book. I finished The Energy of Money, I think it’s a great book. The most benefit would come from doing all the exercises in that book. I just don’t feel like it’s the time for me. I probably need to get more basic. I just picked up a cheap copy of I Will Teach You To Be Rich, by Ramit Sethi, and that book definitely seems like it’s for somebody, who already has money coming in. It’s about setting up accounts and doing the numbers and things like that.

The thing is it seems like when I get inspired/motivated to work on some issue, it’s when I’m at work. But by the time I’m at home where I could work on it, that spark just isn’t there anymore. Like right now I’d rather start a new book because doing inner work or working on limiting beliefs and old emotions, just doesn’t seem to be flowing. That’s also where just getting a workout in can help, I think.

So I guess a little bit of progress if anything. I feel like I should get moving and take some action, but I don’t know what. My thinking is if I find the right info or book, to spark some sort of fire or lightbulb moment.

I have found some old memories surfacing. Like in the last couple of days I was feeling those good feelings of when I had say a best friend, from my high school days. There wasn’t the negatives, I was just able to appreciate those good feelings again. Like yea, that was actually pretty cool.

For so long I’d been kind of stuck on those unwanted/negative past experiences with people. That was probably my biggest blocker.

I also had memories of past situations. And me just saying something. Like what I should have said to people. It’s not usually nice, but I think it’s just my way of processing some of those situations and moving past them.

Afternoon Updates

lol. I didn’t realize how much I post sometimes in my journal. Like wow, that’s a lot of stuff.

I am considering that maybe I would go even more basic with my stack. Maybe I can fit Genesis Joy in there somehow. I want the Spartan/LOS custom, but maybe LB/Genesis Joy custom would be more beneficial. I still sometimes see that maybe I could use some more of that self image work. Yet I plan on sticking with Spartan/LOS for the rest of the year.

Got my first LB/Genesis Joy custom mocked up. It’s pretty basic. Should be easier to run than LBFH/DRLD custom.

Some more crankiness coming up. I think it’s tied to now being tired after the short sleep caught up to me. I also think it’s my mental landscape changing, dumping that negativity. That’s one of the main things I like about LBFH/DRLD. Cleaning house in terms of the junk/negativity in the mental landscape.

Evening Updates

My tentative new plan is to finish 6 cycles straight of LBFH/DRLD. That’ll give me like 9-10 cycles total with it. Then I’ll take a month off, and only use Spartan/LOS for a cycle. Then I’ll bring my new LB/Genesis Joy custom on.

I could use a break from the current custom. The new custom will theoretically also be easier to run. Same direction but slightly different angle. I’m sure I could use the Genesis Joy skills for sure. Making it a custom is way more attractive than the store title is, for some reason. I just had zero interest when it came out. So maybe that’s why I should run it. The new talk about it being one of the titles to start with also interests me. Genesis Joy and one or both of the Love Bomb’s seem to be the recommended starter stack.

I was kind of ghosting my buddy. He went a couple days without replying. So I just didn’t bother messaging back. Kinda sorry I did. lol. I responded with what I thought was a funny a video, and he comes back right away with stuff about himself. He didn’t even watch the video. Like How To Win Friends and Influence People says people’s favorite topic is themselves. He is like definitely one of the extreme examples. My experience says most people at least have some basic social skills, where they know enough to not make it all about themselves. So yea, I’m not that lonely. Maybe if I myself mastered some social skills, I could nudge him in the right direction. But for now it would probably come off as me being just another person thinking I know what’s best for everyone. lol.

End of Nights

It’s just making more sense to me that my latest custom idea will be great. I feel like I could certainly make good use of the skills of Genesis Happiness. Definitely feel like I could shore up some self worth, self image issues. I think LOS will help with that tremendously. Maybe it’s just that all this time with LBFH/DRLD has me going a bit deep and LB/Genesis Joy looks like the welcomed light at the end of the tunnel. Plus I plan to add that wealth worth module in there and will have the wealth motivation module. That will be a very much welcome change, planning on just Lion IV and Total Non-Chalance for the chill alpha vibes. I think that will be a much better title for me to be on during summer, with the potential for much more people interaction. I won’t be dealing with the occasional moodiness that can come with the DRLD. I’m also planning on not including any seduction modules, so maybe that’ll also ease up on any potential recon.

So the custom idea is chill, happy, self loving, wise, alpha with a slight nudge towards the wealth arena, to get the ball rolling. lol, but we have time. I still can’t help but think I’m still going for like a Chosen/Primal Lite vibe. So maybe what I’m really after is Emperor Daddy, lol. But I just still see myself as a youthful man, certainly not someone who people think is almost 43.

TWTP and AOW aren’t so attractive for my immediate use anymore. I realize I have no need for that just yet. I’m still a free agent, so to speak. I’m not locked into a job yet and don’t plan to be. So yea, it’s all up in the air yet. I want the Primal Chosen Vibe with a touch of wealth development.

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Day 21: 30 seconds LOS, 3 mins Spartan

My new plan is to stop the LBFH/DRLD custom. Take next cycle off because I’ll have some family in town for two months! So I’ll go with Genesis Joy instead. That way I won’t risk any recon, and I’m sure it’ll help. So any custom would wait until August.

So it’ll be a, to me, minimalist stack with low recon risk for a couple cycles. Maybe I’ll try to get a name embedded Genesis Joy with the Harmonic Conflux Synergy module.

Good Afternoons

I got an oil change today. So I took a short walk outside. It was kind of nature-y.

I am cranky today. It’s nice out and I guess I’m still working on aversion to people, based on old events/memories. But when I got gas and had only to drive home, I noticed how relaxed my body was. I also noticed last night that when I kind of meditate and let go before sleep, my body still had some tension. But I wouldn’t have noticed if I wasn’t relaxing my mind. So I’ll have to keep cue-ing myself to relax my body consciously throughout the day, and just notice how relaxed it is.

Almost forgot I still need to get my loops in.

Evenings

Post-loops, my cranky mood is all gone. Still tired. But more good vibes and chill-ness.

End of Nights

I came up with a new prompt for my letting go practice. It’s just asking myself am I safe now? Then just feeling the feelings and letting them go. Then I ask, is my body relaxed now? Then I notice what feelings come up and let go of any resistance. and just rinse and repeat.

I also found that it helps in action, I actually came up with it at work maybe a month or so ago. But this is the first time I’ve brought it home. At home I let go consciously. But when I ask the questions in action the letting go just happens and I feel good and come back to the present moment and what I’m doing.

Just a good simple thing to keep the monkey mind quiet and also practice the habit of feeling good now while dropping the “negative” feelings. It’s definitely not intellectual entertainment. It’s a presence practice.

I’m back on the train of doing a Spartan/LOTS custom. Genesis Joy could potentially make it doable for me. But I have one cycle where I’m only listening to Spartan and LOTS, to wash out from the LBFH/DRLD custom.

I would probably want to lean the Spartan/LOTS to relaxation and stress relief and being in the present. I don’t know if that’s ideal for Spartan/LOTS, but it also is, because all those things help in battle, and physical fitness and mastery.

I really want to keep the LB component. But Genesis Joy might be all I need for awhile. It’s only when I’d switch to TWTP or TAOW that I’d want the LB component back in. Just so many titles to choose from. Luckily I’m all set up for the next 3 cycles.

I read this quote earlier today. It was from a sales perspective. It was something like rejection is just part of the road. Most people aren’t going to buy from you. Most people aren’t going to marry you. Most people aren’t going to be your best friend. etc. So I guess it was pointing out that rejection is just part of that journey, and it’s nothing to take to heart. That got me thinking, that’s one of the aspects of Primal that I like so much. I don’t care about getting rejected or what other people think of me. Maybe that could go in the next Heartsong. That kind of goes with the track I was on the other night. I posted that the masses aren’t our matches anyway. So maybe that’s why people had a tough time with Heartsong. There’s so many people out there yea, but when you’re after that one match, maybe that whole thing is just bound to cause some recon.

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Day 1 of 5: No listening

Did the knee workout last night. 2-3 weeks I’ll be hitting all the numbers. I still will need to get more range of motion on the step downs. But everything else is going great.

I think it’ll be nice to get a washout from the custom. It’s going to be Spartan and LOTS for one cycle then I’ll add Genesis Joy.

I’m feeling like I want to get on with it already. So maybe some recon. I’m looking at Genesis Joy as a welcome surprise. My last run with Sanguine wasn’t the best. I don’t think I got all the benefits that I could have. But with Genesis Joy being a skills based title, I think that’ll be a really good thing. I think it will certainly support my letting go practice and give me some tools and strategies that will certainly up-level my happiness and all areas of life. I think it will even help unlock anything from LBFH, that hasn’t manifested fully for me yet as well.

I notice at times there’s like a freedom when it comes to dating and the idea of it. Like when I was getting my oil change, I also did some brief shopping. I was a little anxious and yet when I saw women, it was like there weren’t any hangups there and I felt a sense of freedom and open-ness. That if I wanted to, I really could open these women, at least to talk with them. I wouldn’t expect that I’d get positive responses though based on my past experiences. That whole thing where if I’m in the mood to socialize or wanting to get that date, they just aren’t into it. Yet when I’m not into it and basically ignoring them, they’re into it. But the point is that there’s no fear of rejection or attachment I guess. That it’s not about getting the dates, it’s more about being happy either way. So I’m looking forward to trying out Genesis Joy.

End of nights:

I was just thinking of maybe it would be nice to have a one two punch approach as an experiment. Say one title to clear and then the next title to reprogram and get into action. At first I was thinking of like a multi stage relationship/dating/seduction healing title. Right now I’m kind of open to Khan ST 1 even. There’s DRR and DRR gold and I’d probably do those, just one cycle each for a 4 cycle run. But Genesis Happiness and Joy might revolutionize my world. For 3 cycles I won’t risk heavy recon so that kind of leaves me the fall season and the start of the year as my 4 cycle deep healing periods, if I want that.

I did not work out today. I don’t know what in the heck. I haven’t had the drive this week. My work schedule changed slightly this weekend. I took had a harder Sunday than usual and so I was still sore Mon. worked out Tues. So it looks like I might only get 2 workouts in this week. If that’s the case maybe I’ll just do two workout days and just try to hit the walking in mobility on all the other days.

I think I got caught up into that old habit of if I can’t do the whole workout, then I don’t do anything at all.

I really need to do maybe smaller chunks, 2-3 times a day. I do walking as soon as I wake up. Then I can do mobility and do FT and the knee program on the same days again. I also have tended toward working out later in the day like 10pm since that’s when I go to work but I just can’t take caffeine that late, even if I take it earlier in the day it doesn’t get me going. I have been resting a lot though, and I guess maybe that’s something my body still needs.

I’m thinking Genesis Happiness and Joy will be a nice change for me though. This next cycle might be interesting too. I’ll only be doing Spartan and LOTS this next cycle. I’m actually kind of attached to the LBFH/DRLD custom. But yea, it’s just time for a change of pace, and it’s more due to life circumstances than anything. I’d like to have the ultimate stress relief stack if anything. It’s my third cycle with Spartan and more flow and results will appear, I’m sure.

As far as the resting, I still can’t take naps unless I’ve had consecutive nights where I got not much sleep. But getting into that state akin to sleep, helps. It’s like sometimes I can take a pre-workout and in my mind I’m gonna get to it. But then I start to feel tired, so I just let myself permission to fall asleep for maybe 20-30 minutes, and then I’m ready to go.

I did start reading a new book. It’s not practical at all. It’s about this famous Baba. I just like reading the stories. He never had teachings or wrote books, didn’t even let people record him talking. So there are just many stories of him. I’ve been really reading that lately. So it won’t take long to finish that book up. Probably finish that one in a week or so. Yet I’ve had Autobiography of a Yogi, 1/4 read for a few years, lol. I even saw Joe Vitale mention he just re-read it, and so I thought that would be get me to pull it back off the shelf. But not yet.