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Day 9: 30 sec LBFH/DRLD custom

Thinking about doing a 3 stacker. Just 30 seconds of Paragon, 30 seconds of LBFH/DRLD custom, and 3 mins Spartan. I might do 30 seconds of Paragon before bed tonight. I’ll just alternate listening days. I just feel like Paragon would still be beneficial for me.

30 seconds LBFH/DRLD custom in the am and 30 seconds Paragon before bed. Next listening day 3 mins Spartan solo.

Still a little bit in slight recon territory. The 3 stack would also let me have some more space between titles. The 30 second days would be just those micro loops for refreshers.

Back to the drawing board for my workouts. I’ll drop back to 1 round of FT, and do the knees on the same day. I guess I’m still not conditioned to the workout just yet. I need more recovery than I’d like. I like to work out at least 3x a week. So that means less intensity and volume until I build up to where I want to be. Since FT is kind of full body and the knee program are the most important things, I’ll have to take that compromise and apply the less is more philosophy to my workouts as well.

Good Nights:

I’m bringing back Paragon because I’ve had a very slight sore throat the past few days. Also some phlegm in the throat. I also still have dry scalp, and those occasional aches and pains.

I was at work and it just came up that I’m doing Khan Black again next cycle. I’ll do Khan Black, Paragon, and Spartan for the 4 cycles of KB. I had previously hesitated running Paragon and Spartan due to energy demands. If I have KB in the mix, I think that should take away that problem.

Then I could come back to LBFH/DRLD if I want. Plus I don’t think I got really deep with KB. I’m curious to see what will come up after my time on LBFH/DRLD, after some limits got destroyed.

I had a couple moments of being in anxiety today. It took the custom 3 cycles to get pretty deep. I’ve had what I’d consider some Paragon bloom. At least in terms of knowing what I need to do for the sore throat/phlegm situation.

My hamstring tendons were hurting tonight. I don’t think I have tight hammies. Could have been from doing traction last night. The back was a little sore today. But I have been doing hamstring walkouts and curls when I roll my back on the foam roller. I was doing those daily in my mobility routine.

Decided to let Paragon bloom and I won’t run it at all this cycle. If it seems like I really need I’ll come back to that when it’s time.

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Day 10: No Listening

Feeling really nice today. Got a good night’s sleep. A full 9 hrs, I can’t remember the last time that happened. Not counting the time change because I was still up when it changed.

I think maybe I’m experiencing some of the tranquility scripting in LBFH today.

It’s probably still to early to be planning next titles. But if I’m able to keep LBFH/DRLD custom to 30 seconds and still have results, I might just keep it around. I think it’ll still be a battle deciding on Spartan or Paragon. But maybe that will change after I get some more time with Spartan.

I would try KB again for 4 cycles going through stages 1-4 for a cycle each. That would get me to July. I think I’m okay with that.

So perhaps yesterday’s anxiety was simply more limitations being destroyed, around the tranquility scripting.

Good Evenings:

I got to work and I had energy, but it was a grounded energy. Usually I get to work and slam the pre-workout and then I have a sense of urgency/anxiety. But this was nice. I was dialed in and had energy just without the urgency/anxiety.

A little sore and I’d like to have that enhanced recovery. I think that’s the main thing I’m looking for.

I started oil pulling again, and more focused on things like oral health and also am wanting to research things to improve my facial skin appearance.

I looked in the mirror tonight and noticed I have more stretch marks towars the upper shoulder chest area. I have never gotten huge, or think I have but I get stretch marks if I start lifting weights. I think this is just from the wall pushups and standing pulls of all things. To top it off I haven’t even done the pushups or pulls for a over a week since I had the strained rib joint or whatever that was.

I was at work today and at one point I got a side stitch. I wasn’t breathing hard. But I was working at a good pace to where I was sweating more than usual. But I wasn’t breathing hard and to my estimation I wasn’t really straining either. I’ve only ever gotten a side stitch when I start cardio after not having done it for a long time. It wasn’t a bad one or anything. I just had to stretch it out a little.

If anything it’s a good sign that I’m getting back into shape. I can work up a sweat at work again.

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Day 11: 3 mins Spartan

Feeling a little sore. But I think I’m feeling mostly recovered.

Today is another restart on my workouts. I’m lowering the intensity so that I can exercise 3 days a week. I prefer that over working out 1-2 times a week because my body feels like it needs recovery time.

So lower intensity it is. I’ll restart wall pushups and standing pulls as active recovery on my days off. I feel like those are low intensity and shouldn’t build muscle with the high reps. But I’m seeing a little bit of muscle growth from those. I wasn’t expecting that.

Good Afternooners:

My left knee is clicking. No pain. So I’m going to have to do some research on that. I’m someone who likes to try the self fixes through exercise.

I have my sights set on a Primal, Love Bomb stack for the future. I’d keep Spartan, of course. Still want to custom it. I will play with the idea of a Spartan, Love Bomb custom. Then when I bring Primal in the mix I can keep it to two titles.

What really intrigues me about Primal, Love Bomb, is that it’s more in touch with how I naturally am. I think it’s also the reason I had haters in the past. I was always a quiet dude, but it wasn’t from thinking I was above anyone, it was the opposite. I didn’t have that inner fortitude, or confidence. I was repressed with low self esteem, shyness, probably traumas and limiting beliefs, and all that junk.

Primal, LB would turn that right around for me. I would get to be what I naturally am, just this time around, having all the right inner game and inner world in check. To me, that’s the most important thing. Instead of trying to go to a social title, I just go with Primal, LB. Because that’s what I’m kind of going for anyway. Especially when it comes to women, that’s probably a big reason why these women were attracted to me. Because I wasn’t trying to be the social life of the party or anything, I was more just no need to impress and it didn’t appear that I was seeking any approval or outside validation. Yet my downfall with the women was when I liked them, I got attached and some of that neediness and weakness came up.

So that’s my dream stack, Primal, LB, Spartan. Although it doesn’t have that money focus, I think it would still help me. I could also swap out that LB if I was really ready for that wealth focus and drive. Primal, LB, Spartan covers everything I’m about. With LB, that would help me because it would definitely help me focus on my needs, because I love myself. So naturally, having more money and freedom etc. is something that would help me to live a fulfilling life.

So I think my shyness, and lack of social ability actually served me. Instead of being the loud fun life of the party guy, I got to be the self focused, inner fulfilled type of spiritual and inner work focused person. Yet there’ve been times where I was the guy who could make people laugh and was fun. One time in high school I did get this chick. But she wasn’t even on my radar, I was just being non-inhibited and entertaining myself. One of those times when I was more willing to let loose. So I can do that too, but generally I’m more of the no need to get approval from others guy. But at times I certainly would like to get back to that type of bring the fun and brighten someone else day vibe. I think that’s something that could take a person far and open opportunities.

I’m still trying to find the balance and fine tune it, with being able to transfer the not needing approval type of attractiveness, into meeting women. It’s like well, still something I haven’t broke through on yet. I see the women who are interested so maybe just having a direct game would be good for me, to at least practice.

Doing KB for another 4 cycles would just help me express Primal better when I get back to it. I think pairing it with Spartan would also be a fantastic idea.

Good Evening:

A little reconny today. I was in the feels a bit, a bit now too. I had some anxiety come up.

Chalking it up to the custom being deep at work again. This from only 30 second loops this cycle. So it’s still proven to be a potent title.

I also think there me be slight recons with Spartan, just squeezing out anything not in alignment with it. So the whole combo just brings those feels up and we’re moving towards greater alignment with being the version of me that I really am and want to be.

I am still being open on what my next cycle will be. 100% taking time off the LBFH/DRLD custom after this. I’m kind of thinking regular LB will be good. If I start Khan Black again, I really don’t want any other healing with it. If I had Sanguine Elixir I’d probably just run that. So LB is what I have. I also have Phoenix, but I’m still hesitant on that. But it could be just what I need. Also toying with the idea of Chosen From Within.

But my sights are set on Khan Black, Primal, LB, and continuing Spartan. So it’s just a matter of letting things work themselves out and I’ll decide my next cycle when it’s time. At this rate I’ll decide a few more times, lol.

But for why I don’t want to give up the custom and push through, Primal would be the ticket. But I hold back because I don’t want to get distracted by women, and I think that’s definitely a big part of Primal, and why my first run of it wasn’t spectacular. I really want to bring back some of that unbotheredness of Primal though, and after this reconny last couple cycles, that seems like it’ll be good.

Good Nights:

Some more anxiety came up. I worked on some self love so now I’m feeling good.

The title I consider best for anxiety was Primal. So yea, I wanna get back to that. I remember I still had some anxiety about being on Primal last time. I’ve grown a lot so I’m in a much different place now. So I’m just looking forward to it. I could think of it as my sword and shield. The sword is Spartan, the shield is Primal, yet it’s also way more than that. But that’s what I most looking forward to, that shield effect from the fear or rejection or social anxiety. Also the masculinity will feel good too. Nice and grounded.

I’ve got Ascended Mogul on tap also. But to me, Primal is just more attractive. It’s an updated title. Plus it has more fun, at least I would think, than AM. Plus I think Primal is just going to be less pressure for me. I’ll be action oriented with Fitness and Health and I’m sure other things will come up with Spartan.

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Day 12: No listening

Feeling nice and even keel. Not high, not low.

I was going back and forth trying to think of how I could keep running the LBFH/DRLD custom.

I’m still heavier on the side of, it’s served it’s purpose for now. And a new direction is the way to go. I think I will just grow more with say, Primal. The custom can be something I run for 3-4 cycles a year for that change of pace and blast through any limits.

Primal and Spartan seems like the premier stack for me to really tap back into my masculinity. It’s not a wealth focus, but if I custom Spartan, I will move further in that direction.

Plus I still have some hangups around women and dating, so Primal seems to be the top candidate. Also is said to develop traits and abilities that would transfer over to things like business. Social game without having that need to socialize will be great for me. The boosted power and confidence and centeredness are the key pieces for me now. While still maintaining that sense of fun and carefree, enjoying adventures on tap.

I cut back on the volume of my workout. I still feel like I got a good workout. Now I’ll be able to exercise on m,w,f. Which is what I prefer just because that’s what I like to do. Today will just be some walking and I’ll try out the pushups and standing pulls again. I plan to keep the pushups and pull up progressions to 2 days a week. So far they’re still really light work for me. Yet still effective.

Afternoons:

I had to run to the store to pick up a couple of things. I stopped at the drugstore first, I had $10 off anything coupon. I was leaving and driving away, and this I think it was a chick. That thing where my attention goes right to them because they were looking at me first. So as soon as we we’re going to make eye contact she just looked away right away.

So I thought it was kind of funny. Then I was kind of in adventure mode. Then I was more curious just kind of seeing if that was gonna keep happening or what. When I was at the drug store I wasn’t people watching. But when I walked in some guys were leaving and I knew where I was going, so there’s no rudeness. I tend to go around, but that guy wanted to go around me, but I got there first. I didn’t know he was gonna go there until I was already there but he didn’t bump me, no hard feelings or anything. It just kinda had me get into a bit of that adventure mode vibe, nothing serious.

Got to the store and I gotta say I had energy, was feeling like pre-workout and I haven’t had caffeine yet. I got home and I’m feeling energy and good.

I wish I had Spartan back when I was playing sports. I was feeling like I could go for some jumping and running type training. Just kind of like hyped for the big game, lol. Spartan and Primal is going to be really good I’m thinking. Spartan for that energy and mindset and Primal will channel it into the right kind of mindset and be able to utilize it.

Or Spartan and Limitless would be a killer combo also. Study with that energy since it’s not a training day.

Since I’m feeling good today, now I’m like I want to keep going with the custom. I’ve always had a 4 cycle minimum for any title I listen to. I’ve also listened to a previous custom for 12 cycles. I did KB for 12 cycles. So I think it more depends on the title and one’s personal goals.

I like these moments of nothing special just feeling good. But when the digging gets deep, I want to take a break from that. Today I think I could go another cycle, and if I went 5 I’d want to go 6 on the custom.

Spartan does add that right touch for me. So I think I’ll have more great moments with this combo. Either way it’s going to be a good next few cycles. Whether I stay with the LBFH/DRLD custom or move on to Primal.

Good Nights:

I forgot to get something at the store earlier. So I went after dinner.

While I was driving I had this cool insight. It was that you know we like to ask everybody questions. Say like a life coach or anything. We seek outside ourselves for that answer. So even if we ask somebody, all they can do is ask you questions. Where do those answers to those questions come from? I mean, you. Even like a salesperson will ask questions, to find your needs and wants etc. But the answers are always coming from you. Even if you get the answer from them, you’re the one who accepts it as true or false.

Got to work and for the first few minutes I was starting to get into the mentality of not wanting to be there. I just became aware of that. Then my mind went to the positives from the day or just better things.

I really like it when things are natural. It’s not like oh, I need to do this. I shouldn’t think that, or whatever. It’s not with words it’s more beingness, knowingness. You just are aware of it and suddenly it shifts itself. Like this one guy who was enlightened, he talks about it’s all thought. But it’s not just think a better thought. You just realize in the moment, that is this feeling coming from what is happening, or is it just my own thought? If you realize that then it changes on its own, and it does anyone. Like they say it’s just this river of thought passing through consciousness at all times.

So he says you wake up, but then you go back to sleep. You just change the dream. By realizing it’s a dream and the dream changes. But of course it’s not like what we think. Yet it’s all what we think, but we just don’t know that. But each glimpse you get changes your world.

I’m a little sore yet. So I might be in another back off week. So I’ll save the pushups and pulls for tomorrow if I feel like it’s best to take the day off the other stuff. I’m in the mindset of I’m in it for the long haul. So that means listening to my body. It surprises me that I can get results with what I’ve been doing. It doesn’t seem like a full workout routine, but I’m 42, so what seems to be the main factor is just consistency and of course listening to the body. If I need more rest, that’s just what I gotta do.

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Day 13: 30 seconds LBFH/DRLD custom

Feeling a little sore in the elbows and knees. So it’s gonna be a really light day. My feet have been sore too lately. Getting the steps in daily for like a month. Now I gotta rest them up a little. So I walk every other day.

I’m thinking I’ll do my best to stick it out another cycle with LBFH/DRLD. At times it’s my favorite title, at other times when I get some recon, I want to take a break.

If it wasn’t for this custom, I would probably try out Phoenix already.

Primal can wait since my priorities are not meeting and dating women. But to me, it’s just a well rounded beneficial title, even if one isn’t interested in pursuing the ladies. I still felt it was my favorite title I’d tried at the time. For me it was the anti-anxiety, grounded, unaffected title.

GLM is attractive for the masculinity aspects, so maybe it’s lighter. But I want the full package of Primal when I go that route. The fun and adventure stuff is something I don’t want to give up.

KB is on hold as long as I stick with LBFH/DRLD custom. I don’t want the extra KB healing. That would be risking too much.

By default I could be looking at Limitless again. Say I have day where I need to take a day off working out or just stay really light. Limitless would keep me busy with that study drive.

I have had some moments where it’s like I’m lacking that brain power. I think that is just due to the adjustment to Spartan, and it’s a good sign. Also tells me that I don’t want to be looking at other titles for another cycle. It’s like all the changes happening, so that’s expending resources.

I’m also seeing 3 minute loops in a new light. I would only do them as a means to get up to the full 15. But I’m finding 3 mins, heck even 30 seconds with the custom is actually great. No need to go to the 15 just for the sake of it.

I was really looking forward to that pre-workout today. Maybe just a black coffee day…

My social prowess seems to be increasing yet. At least my awareness of my own follies in communication. Say I spoke to someone and I saw that it wasn’t the right time, they were still in their own world on their own track. Or other times where I didn’t give the needed details and wasn’t specific enough for the message to be properly understood.

I could attribute that to Lion IV custom module influence.’

If I’m settled down and in more of the Inner Voice, Formless Clarity custom module vibes, I see that my stack is currently everything I need already. It’s that pesky monkey mind that wants to get to the “good stuff.” The next titles, and this and that, lol.

Good Evenings:

My chest wall is sore and my shoulder. I forgot that I did some extra reps of simple band work. Band dislocates with chest and lat activations. That really his the inner chest along the sternum. I also did some single arm pull aparts followed by regular band pull aparts. I did them slow and it’s just a warm up exercise, so I thought. But I hadn’t done that many reps lately.

I guess it shows me that even with simple exercises I can still get effective work in. Doing things slow and focusing on form really works. I’ve also got to start adding in some speed/athletic work soon.

Also wish I had a bike something for non-impact light cardio. Especially when I feel like I need a break from all the walking. I’m sure as time goes on the Spartan will give me more physical benefits, so just a matter of listening to my body and not worrying so much if my body needs some extra rest days.

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Day 14: No listening

Chest soreness has gone down today. So I definitely overdid it with the band exercises. After taking a week or two off any chest work. So it’ll be 2 workouts this week. Tomorrow I’ll get the next one in.

I went to the petrol station today. The woman in front of me, had I guess kind of sexual vibes. But she wouldn’t look at me. She was playing with her hair and there was some tension. Then I noticed the other cashier chick, who was helping someone else, was just looking at me.

So I seem to have some sort of attractiveness. But it still seems to be that the ones I’d like to be into me just don’t seem to be. I feel like Love Without Attachment is the perfect module for me. Because I tend to love love. Like, I fall in love with women but that’s not actually what gets the ones I want. So I still have work to do with that module. I think that’s definitely a foundational module for my dating seduction life.

I’ve been staying up an extra hour since the time change. Ideally I’d like to go to bed an hour earlier. But that might mean I keep waking up at the time I want, then the sleep time will take care of itself. I’ll just have to deal with the tiredness until I adjust.

I’m actually hungry, it seems as though my appetite has increased slightly in the last week. I don’t know why but I look my best after a refeed day. One day a week I’ll just eat the pizza or whatever I feel like. But it’s just a couple meals since I’m at work most of that day.

My shoulders seem wider so that helps. Definitely looking more and more like someone who is fit and works out. I’d rather have the sleeper build, not so much muscle but strong as hell and athletic, but you might not know it. But I seem to have the put on muscle easily build even if I’m not trying to.

End of Nights:

My mind was pretty settled at work tonight. Not much on my mind at all. Just clouds passing by. No rushing to get done either. Still got done in one of my best times.

I did have something I wanted to mention, but it’s not popping up.’

Oh, I was skimming through the LBFH thread today, it’s helping me stay positive. It’s got me feeling good about sticking with the custom. Even if I do 30 seconds that’s still progress.

I found a podcast last week. I really like it. I also like to go all the way back to the beginning and pick and choose episodes. I was listening to one and it’s from like 2018, they were talking about the Spartan movie. And another episode has that in the title. I didn’t see that Spartan movie. I saw the newer 300 movie in the last two years-I didn’t realize those movies were so old. 2006 and 2014.

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Day 15: 3 mins Spartan

Lots of dreams. Maybe due to the full moon eclipse thing. lol.

The last one we were looking for somebody. I don’t know why. But we came upon this clown near a body of water. If you played a game and he beat you, he would give your quarter back. Well, now I don’t remember but either way you played him a game and he gave you your quarter back if you won? I don’t know. lol.

So just different kind of dreams than I remember having. Not my typical kind.

Oh another dream I met and was hanging out with this mind coach type guy I used to listen to.

There’s this hot chick who used to work at this office. She keeps popping up on my people you may know. Even after deleting her. So she popped again today, and it’s like I’m just using that energy and channeling it into life force energy or something, lol. Like she’s so hot, but I’m not gonna chase her and I’m not attached, so I just get some energy from that.

Good Afternoons:

Had to run to the wal-mart. I wanted to wait until Monday. But I did it anyway. I had lots of energy and was not grounded. So I was in my head on the drive. I was at a yield sign and I looked both ways and turned and there was a vehicle, that I could have hit. Luckily they were aware. So no honks, I waved awkwardly and had to keep it moving. So that kind of got me re-focused.

Normally I do like the squared breathing before I go out. Just to get grounded. But I wanted to get home by a certain time. When I got out to the store, I remembered that there’s just a pace to the things going on. So I can kind of just blended in. But I forgot about the contrast effect. I’m at home at my own pace and then you get into the world and it’s like what in the heck is this? lol.

But at some point I felt that sense of fun and adventure again. Just doing normal things can be fun.

I did see a chick who it may have been a mutual “vibe” with. She saw me when she was going into the store. She also noticed me walking in. I was more flowing with the movement of the people. Not getting in the way, and lol it’s more like instead of being social I was just like more practical. I need to stop because they’re doing this, and just knowing where to be so i could get get to where I needed to be. But chill about it, lol. But I was on a mission, lol. Then she saw me when I came out but I was already in my car backing out. I think it’s those spy kind of movies I used to watch. I liked that kind of thing, you gotta blend in but you’re there on a mission. lol. Like the new Ocean’s Eleven movies with kind of that fun vibe, that was one of my favorites.

Internally I felt that socializing would be no problem. I guess some of that edge was removed. I used to deal with the social anxiety and just be on edge a little around people. But I haven’t built the habit of socializing yet. Spartan seems to be adding just the right touch to my experience. Once I kind of calibrate to the increased energy and adventure sense that I get sometimes, I’ll be golden. It also doesn’t have the fear or anxiousness component. So it seems to be a perfect stack for me.

End of Nights:

Still feeling like a rest day. I’m not fully adjusted to the time change yet.

I haven’t mentioned it until now, that my cardio/breathing muscles seem to have been sore lately. Even before I over did it with the warmups on Monday. I even had the side stitch at work last week. That’s probably a sign of the cardio increasing. Some evidence of physical shifting perhaps.

I used to use this breathing training device that was created by an MMA legend. I haven’t done that in probably a year maybe. So I’ll want to get back to that soon as well.

Still having occasional social recon as well. Just how people seem to be. They’re always right. They mostly tend to be on their own track and their world is the world kind of mentality. But that kind of recon has always been with me even before subliminals.

So I think this is where LBFH can do some really good work. I’ve had periods in life where I was in like unconditional acceptance and it was kind of magical how doing nothing would get people to change themselves. So that’s something I’d like to see again in myself. But that doesn’t mean being a doormat, and somewhere I took on a limiting belief. At least intellectually I know the two are not one in the same. That’s an area where Spartan will help in my stack as well.

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Day 16: No listening

Dropping to 30 seconds of LBFH/DRLD custom seems to have taken care of the recon. Maybe next cycle I will try 1 minute loops.

Good Afternoons:

Had more of the wanting to switch titles today. Spartan is solid, maybe because it’s the first cycle. I was ready to switch out the LBFH/DRLD custom for Wanted. I would like that physical shifting boost. The attraction would be nice. It’s just that since being on Spartan instead of Paragon, I’m getting the energy boost sometimes. I really like having energy. I think adding more physical shifting could be more energy consuming.

Today I’m seriously considering trying to have a fruit breakfast and then go back to keto style the rest of the day. I see people talk about how keto raises cortisol. They also say it doesn’t matter and that carb diet is just as effective according to the studies. Yet, I tried the counting calories eating whole clean foods and keto was the only thing that worked to get the fat off. I don’t think I’d gain weight on a fruit breakfast. If anything I’d expect to maintain. If I feel better I might stick with it. With Spartan on board I think I could make that work and still probably lose a few pounds.

Still not used to the time change, staying up that extra hour. So I kind of have a headache today. Slept a full night finally. Had more dreams that weren’t my typical fodder. Worked out last night. I didn’t feel as strong as I had been. So it seems lower volume is how I need to go again. I do make each rep count, so my intensity is probably deceptively higher than I estimate.

I think the plan is 6 cycles of LBFH/DRLD for sure. Primal would be the next title I think. The masculinity wins out over anything else for me. Then I would just boost up my Spartan by customizing it.

I was holding back on adding I.Q. Cognition booster to Spartan, but I think I will throw it in. Having that brain boost always comes in handy. It would certainly help on those low energy days when sleep isn’t yet on a set schedule.

Good Evenings:

A video came up while I was scrolling. It said if you have pain in your shoulder from pressing, it’s rotator cuff. And for some reason I never researched on that pain. I just didn’t do any chest work for a long time. Then I started pushups and had the pain. So I switched to wall pushups and no pain. So I guess I will also include some rotator cuff work for warmup on the wall pushups standing pull days.

I did an edit on my Spartan custom modules. There are zero seduction modules. Since Primal is the plan, I won’t need any. I was also able to add both I.Q. Cognitive Booster and Energy Development XI into it. I had Energy Development module in my SI/Spartan custom. I think it will add a nice touch. Also decided to add in Joie De Vivre module as well. It’ll help me feel happy about working on my goals and life. Just a nice bonus since I won’t have all the feel goods from LBFH/DRLD custom.

Definitely a more of a go getter, flawless decision maker vibe in my Spartan custom plans. Also had to keep Lion IV module for the chill, social stuff. That’s the one I’m keeping in from LBFH/DRLD. Although now that I mention it, Primal has that in boat loads already. So that could give me a spot for Harmonic Singularity which I’ve been wanting to fit in.

I just kind of saw that all my reading sales books and trying to learn about social skills… When I really consider it, all the people I was around back then, weren’t people I wanted to be around any way. I was forcing my self to fit in. It was the square peg in a round whole situation. So that could also be why I never applied it and let myself succeed in the social arena. Now I don’t really care about being a social butterfly or master, and thus I’m understanding it more. Also coupled with more self understanding, more and more things just start to click for me now.

End of Nights:

Today I felt like maybe I was coming down with something. Got to work and I was in all this resistance, and I guess fear. But I didn’t have a story about it. It was maybe just that stuck energy in the body or something. So I got to work and got back to the now moment, aware. It didn’t take much. But by the time I was done with work and still now, I’m feeling like a new man. Like just cleared up. In Neville Goddard speak, I was in the old man, and then I got into the new man, lol.

I mean I was still thinking about it. Because that wasn’t fun. So at work I was once again decided that I’m stopping LBFH/DRLD. Yet when it all settled, I saw that that was the perfect case where the Foundation module could do some work. So it’s probably a good thing that it came up and dissipated. That’s one of those things that I’m sure was holding me from being at ease in myself, in this world. There’s probably more to come. But feels good for now.

"In Neville Goddard’s teachings, the “old man” represents the old, limiting beliefs, habits, and patterns of thought that hinder your ability to manifest your desires and live in a state of abundance. " - from the google search, AI.

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Day 17: 30 seconds LBFH/DRLD custom

I’m feeling the love bomb as I was waking up today. I always expected it to be like euphoric bliss. It’s not really that at all. It’s kind of a grounded, new baseline of love or something. At some point I’d expect to be back in the trenches but for now it’s pretty good.

I was considering testing 3 mins again. But I may as well finish out the cycle with 30 seconds.

I am able to work at a pace that gets me all sweaty at work, but not breathing hard. So if anything work is my cardio. I still think I’m a month out from trying to jump rope, or hit the heavy bag for cardio. I could do some upper body cardio but I want to train the body as a unit.

Normally on my free eating day I don’t even eat whatever I want until I’m home from work. But today and this week my appetite has been on the uptick. So I’m going to pick up some food to eat. Work is in about 90 minutes.

Sometimes if I get up fast or something, I feel the ligaments or tendons in my knee. No pain, but keeps me cautious.

Good Afternoons:

Talked to my buddy today. It ended when I ended it. He got on a track and ended up super angry that it’s this country’s fault. With either party in power his life would be the same. But in his mind he’d be living in heaven I guess if was the other side. I just immediately excused myself with a well it’s been nice talking to you, I gotta get to work now. Sometimes I see myself more willing to try things and note the data.

Could still be some How To Win Friends and Influence people stuff. It’s more that you can read a book but you still have to practice it. Take notes, okay so if I approach it this way, this is the reaction I get kind of thing. Other times it won’t matter because people are so in their worlds that they’re on that track so anything you say gets pulled into their tornado and spat out.

I really like the detach from societal expectations and pressures kind of scripting. I think that is essential as any Love Bomb Scripting. LBFH hasn’t made me soft or weak at all, even though on the surface I knew it wouldn’t. Experience tells me it only makes one stronger. It definitely doesn’t make one stupid, and I know there are people out there who believe that way. That the only value in Love is flipping over tables, heck, forget the love and just flip all the tables. Don’t truly know yourself and your relationship to this world, just believe you do. It’s everybody else that’s causing your problems, it’s them it’s them. I like being free from that stuff.

It also does make me an outcast. When you know that people like people like themselves. And the other side people dislike people who are not like them. So if most people aren’t living authentically, one can see the results play out. I feel like I’d have a better time in a managerial role or something. At least people wouldn’t feel like they have to harass a person for simply existing. Then when their real boss shows up they point fingers and kiss ass, and they don’t see the absurdity in that kind of thing.

That’s also where Primal comes in, that authority or perceived stauts without it being too kind of in your face attention, that I felt with Chosen. Not that that’s a bad thing, some people thrive in that. For me, I just want people to let me live my life, like I let you live yours. No problems here. But that’s expecting too much from others. So what I expect from myself is to get to the place of not being bothered with how other people are. That’s a waste of energy anyway.

I still at times would love some extra power to any inner circle type scripting. I have You Are Not Alone module, yet still have to find that one friend. I’d be fine with one friend. A friend would benefit me more than a woman because there’s just certain things a guy has to do with women. With a friend, a true friend I think you can just be yourself. And if it’s a true friend, I’d also think they’re at least on your level and have their stuff together, so it doesn’t turn into tirades against the world and the thems doing all this stuff to me, causing my experience of life. lol.

I’m going to work late today. In no hurry. I’m just curious to see if I’ll be all sweaty again, working hard but not winded. I just find that really interesting. I’m thinking so I have cardio now, but we’re still waiting and working on those knees. They don’t hurt anymore and haven’t for awhile. Elbows, back have been fine too. Occasionally I get a little jammed in the hip, but twice a week of the self traction takes care of that.

End of Nights:

I realized that I actually get paid to do cardio, 5 days a week. I don’t know why I was so concerned with getting in more cardio. So I don’t need to make it a priority outside of work, for now. 20 mins a day walk is enough.

I did have some in the trenches moments today too. I couldn’t even tell you what it was about. I don’t remember. It’s almost like it never happened kind of thing, but I know it did. So LBFH/DRLD is still a winning combo. The low wasn’t too low this time, lol.

I also had memories surfacing, and eventually I could see that it was probably related to Song of Joy/Laughter scripting in LBFH stuff. It also had the LBFH influence too. I had more of that sense of love and appreciation, and actually got to see times when people said I should have been embarrassed, or that would have been the social norm, yet I wasn’t embarrassed in the least. It was more that sense of freedom.

There’s also been more of this kind of thing where people have said like I woke up to find out everybody is still asleep. I have some of those moments too, a lot of time in social situations. I don’t think it’s that I’m a good actor, but everybody is so completely identified in their roles, that I find it difficult to understand and relate to at times. That’s coming from those moments of being in touch with that inner freedom sense, that can’t really be put into words. Not superiority either. Just like huh. It is what it is man. lol. Those moments go way back to when I was a kid. I didn’t have a lot but a couple memories of that, where I was pretending but nobody knew because they were completely identified with their roles. Like a kid maybe purposely does something not right to get a laugh, and everybody laughs because they thought that really happened, the kid really was clumsy or whatever. lol.

I’m just a big fan of my LBFH/DRLD custom and Spartan. I think it goes deep and removing limits and healing. It’s the whole package for what I’m after. I favor being a natural, beginner’s mind kind of things. Can’t really explain it but every person has their own ideal stack or path or whatever. I feel like I’ve found mine, maybe I’ll stay at 30 seconds with the custom. Results without overwhelming recon.

Guess it’s bed time. Social media break. When you open social media and somehow your on the rice argument algorithm. And plenty of the No. It’s this. No It’s this comments. No, that’s not for me. I shut it off. Goodnight!

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Day 18: No listening

More dreams. Don’t remember them. Slept a full night’s sleep. Still going to sleep like 2 hours later since the time change.

My dreams are changing though. My role in them and feelings used to be more of the insecurity type stuff. Now it’s not there. Like maybe I used to be chased or feel like I was, now instead for example, I’d be looking for and trying to find somebody. I don’t know why, not because I need them. More almost a matter of fact type situation. Almost from an authority type perspective but not that overt like say the law or something.

Good Evenings:

I’ve gotten in my feels again today. My sense is that all this feeling stuff that comes up, is nothing new. It’s from the past. So we’re just dissipating it, at least seems to be the case for me. 30 seconds of the custom is the right level. It’s challenging but not overwhelming, and other times I still get those feel goods.

My use of the titles is more to get back to my zero point. Hence, my not sticking long term with any of the “archetypes.” That’s why I’m leaning more towards Primal as my main title, masculinity as the “archetype.” It’s also why I like my current stack so much. It definitely has enough healing to keep me busy for awhile. Also the benefits are more generalized and could apply to many areas.

Good Nights:

Sometimes I catch my replies from like two years ago and I laugh. Because now I feel like I’m more in my masculine and just a different person. lol.

Oh I know what I forgot, I wanted to mention that me being in my feels earlier…Some of it was around I guess dating/women. So I think it’s that Love Without Attachment module doing more work.

I’m already seeing some of the effects of me being in my masculine, and grounded. I don’t get walked all over, so they may not like that. Not getting angry. But more in the sense that they may feel like they can’t win.

I think it’s the thing where generally people see the world the way they see it, and if you’re not in line with that, they can’t really handle the cognitive dissonance. It also seems to be yea, the lack of proper communication skills, on both sides. It seems like they just want you to feed back to them their own beliefs and way of seeing the world. Rather than giving them a “real” answer. The sort of misery loves company cliche’.

The principle is the never tell people they’re wrong thing. Everybody’s right so you telling them they’re wrong isn’t going to get the whatever it is. But it’s not even coming from a domineering kind of place. It’s more like, I thought we were just talking?

It was a female though, so naturally I don’t engage in the drama side of things. I’m not into putting the blame on others kind of thing and getting joy out of focusing on what’s wrong kind of thing. Not that all females are like that, I would like to find one who doesn’t need the drama chaos stimulation. So that’s why if anything I hope to meet a real friend, lol. Just one would be nice. lol. I don’t bring the chaos and drama so naturally I don’t get the women I want. Yet I get the ones I ignore and am not interested in, interested in me. So I still need some work in that whole department. Is that a limiting belief? I’m sure it probably is. lol.

I see how I get into a conversation and their style kind of dictates how I respond. I still haven’t mastered the How to Win Friends and Influence People principles yet. I think that also is the thing of you’re like the people you hang out with.

So if none of them have any inkling of How To Win Friends, it takes more brain power and self awareness to be able to master those skills anyway. And the pay off is if you do master them, some of that will rub off on the people you spend your time with. I think that’s kind of the best I got for now.

I am still in the in between stage as far as hermit mode. It’s like do I really want to get out there, well yea not everybody is the same. There are good people in the world. But like everything else it might actually take some work. I think I’m going at a good growth pace as it is. All I need to do is to stay the course.

Heartsong or Inner Circle bro, come on. lol. LBFH/DRLD is enough healing load. Once I feel like I’ve got the growth I wanted those are options, but only after.

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Day 19: 3 mins Spartan

Slightly considering Chosen again. The thing is, I want to be long term minded. At the same time it’s only a couple months until I get my Spartan custom. So I actually have a tester slot until then. For the next couple cycles, if I really want it.

Noonerville:

So if I am aware of my own body-mind. I would say a brain boost would be of most benefit in my stack. Although at first glance, of course I’d go what about S&S? I’m more interested in other things. Learning about the male-female relationship dynamics being one of them. But not enough to justify S&S in the lineup.

I like how Spartan seems to give me some kind of mindset and focus. I was thinking about an old incident with my boss. I quit but it was just a high point for me. I finally was standing up and not going to take the kind of disrespectful type of treatment in the work place or any place. My boss was insecure, most probably are but they put on a front. It was just a funny moment because he thought he was going to get an ego satisfying argument to feel his importance, but it turned out that because I wasn’t interested in that, he went to the staging area, where we go when we put our stuff back. But my bag was not there. So I was walking straight for my bag and he flies right by me to get to the spot, so he could argue with me. But my bag wasn’t that way. I grab my bag and go. At the time I didn’t realize what was happening. I just knew what I was doing. He knew what he was doing and it wasn’t the same thing haha. Just really funny. He was mad because I left a 2 week notice, and he said no. That’s not gonna work. Then I said I’ll quit right now then. Well I said F you first. Then he says you already said you quit, lol. This guy was just confused and not a grounded masculine man. Neither was I, well I just stepped into the standing up for myself so I was kind of on that end of the spectrum. Nobody would put up with what I did and certainly not for as long. Don’t put up with things for too long expecting them to change. What happened for me is I really need like months if not a couple years to get my nervous system back to calmed down. And I’ve tried to get jobs since then but at the first sign of the unwanted type of attention I just won’t ever do that again. I would love to work a job, but for me I’d put up with people’s nonsense that I used up all my tolerance. That’s why I clean, I work alone and basically I get paid to do cardio and listen to How To Win Friends and Influence People. I feel like me trying to get a normal job still wouldn’t be ideal. As long as I can work alone, that’s what I’d like. But that makes the case for Inner Circle for sure. I do see Chosen in a positive light and since I’ve seen people say that it’s relationship building and stuff like that, I definitely have it on the back burner yet. I was going to split this up into nice paragraphs. In the past I’ve had somebody just complain with me about not making it easy to read. Well, this is my journal. That’s tough, man. I’m leaving it as is because it’s a bit more personal and it’s not supposed to be easy to read. It’s for me.

I went off on a bit of a tangent. But for me when I talk about past things, to me that’s always signaled that I’m over it. It doesn’t affect me anymore. When I was thinking about the boss thing, I was in the shower and I just had this genuine laugh about it. I was like wait a minute, that’s like one of those hero sounding laughs. lol. Spartan strikes again. Spartan, LBFH/DRLD is a nice package.

I’m still trimming down. I noticed yesterday when I was putting on a pair of shorts. I’ve never had to tie the string. Today I did. Last time I got to my trimmest I was also on the old Spartan in a custom. It seems that was the missing ingredient. I hadn’t even thought of that at the time. It just seemed natural.

Wednesday is going to be the wall pushups and standing pulls day. I doubled my reps on my knees workout yesterday. My FT training, I was just maxing out those holds, and even though it’s body weight, it is actually an intense workout. So 2 days a week it is. 1 day a week I’ll just focus on those summer muscles that aren’t getting work on the other 2 days. I did feel stronger in my work out yesterday. That tells me that 2 workouts a week is enough. In a few more workouts I’ll even start adding the progressions and progressive overload.

I still do the inner work on the daily.

I had a dream last night about me banging this chick from my past. It was another one of those situations she wanted me when I didn’t want her and vise versa. She turned out to be rather permiscuous and had no standards at one point. So I really dodged a bullet on that one. But I saw her recently and she is physically attractive. I just would never.

I felt like I was invisible today. Just the way I like it. But in certain situations people were still giving me the right of way kind of thing. I haven’t really had that from LBFH, so it must be slowly rolling out finally. There have been periods in my life just from doing inner work that people would give me free things and I’d just have lucky experiences. A lot of my inner limits and junk has been removed and I’m not done yet, but what matters to me is the inner. I feel like I’m always getting better and better, even on those in the trenches in the feels days. I know they’re temporary.

Good Nights:

I had to check my downloads and I do! I have the new Emperor: The Executive in there! I’m going to have to read through the copy.

Work was alright. I’m definitely getting paid to do cardio. Probably like zone 2. I get all sweaty and up the pulse a little bit but not winded.

If my test run of Emperor: Executive goes well I might just custom Spartan and Exec. I’ll give it a couple cycles though. Last listen is tomorrow then my 5 day break.

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Day 20: No listening.

My biggest limiting factor seems to be sleep. I stay up until 4am since the time change. I was going to bed by 2am. Waking up earlier didn’t help. Now my sleep is adjusting to where I wake up way later. I also am not feeling tippy top.

Emperor: The Executive has sleep stuff it. Seems like the ideal package for me. I slept 9 hours last night but getting anything done is gonna be tough. Groggy and such. I’d prefer to wake up by 11am at the latest. Today I woke up at 1pm.

I really like a 2 title stack. But Emperor: The Executive just covers all the bases I want improvement in. Even to the point that I’d probably drop LBFH/DRLD if I had to. But I’m going to try all 3 titles starting next cycle.

Good Evenings:

How to Win Friends and Influence People seems to be more towards how to be a leader in professional situations. The principles can apply to all relationships, but it’s more up to the individual to internalize these principles and apply them in more situations. That’s kind of why I lean towards I’d have better success with people in a business situation where I’m a manager or something.

Plus I’m not sure I want lots of friends anyway. If anything I’d find what I love doing, something that I work hard at and spend my time doing, but it isn’t work. I never wanted to be a busy person yet I know it’s probably just from mis-beliefs on what it is. The old getting caught up in what I think something is rather than through doing.

So Emperor: Executive will prove to be challenging and rewarding. I’m sure I’m in for many surprises. Many of the distractions it seeks to overcome, are things that are probably just commonplace in society. Myself included. I get pulled away by checking the social medias, and maybe overthinking analyzing, talking myself out of it rather than doing the things. Excuses begone!

I don’t have the get it done when it comes to my workout today. I’m procrastinating. But getting other things done during that time. Intellectually I don’t want to waste time with too much social media and unproductivity. Also I know that rest is important as well. Sometimes when you’re completely rested, you get those right ideas and spurts that you just get something done without forcing yourself. I like that kind of vibe.

I’ve got some cleaning and straightening up to do. A few weeks back I was doing things and getting things done. So we’re just in a lull with that kind of thing. For me it’s get my sleep schedule back on track and things will take care of themselves. I’ll be back to that get it done mindset.

I’m not scared of Emperor: Executive. I’m more curious. When I switched to Spartan from Paragon I had this kind of fear of success. So it’s probably that Spartan mindset that has me more in the mentality of just embracing whatever challenges arise.

End of Nights:

I didn’t feel like I got anything done today. Definitely a rest day. I did mobility and I still need to do pushups and pulls. I’m still getting progress though. So it’s not a matter of doing more, it’s just listening to the body and taking it easy with more rest days. I didn’t have the mental energy for any study or anything. It was a lot of meditation you can call it, inner work.

I was planning on using wednesday for ab work and maybe an interval session. But nope. Not today.

I can’t feel too bad since I doubled the reps on all my knee exercises on Monday. Again, it’s a case of sticking to the programs I’m on and mastering them. Then I can do the minimum on those to focus on say interval training for some speed and power.

I did 4x25 on both wall pushups and standing pulls. I’m only going to do those 1x per week. So I’ll definitely go closer to failure. It’s possible I could hit the progression next week of 3 x 50 and move on to the next progressions. But I will probably try for the progression and do that a couple weeks for conditioning purposes.

I was going through TWTP thread and man. I think I need some of that. If I go with TWTP, T:E, and Spartan. I’ll be a whole new person by the end of summer.

I do have a Chosen/PCC custom I never updated. I think I’m more in the mood for a Spartan TWTP if anything. I have something to chew on. Alright I thought about it and maybe not. I think I naturally have some of that TWTP stuff and so it’s not that I’m not good with people it’s that I don’t want to be. Just knowing generally how people are and seeing motivations and stuff. TWTP could be overkill for me. My original Spartan custom should be more than enough for what I’m going for.

My SI/Spartan custom was kind of a PCC themed creation with a lot of the modules. Did a lot of social healing and realizing things and all that. So TWTP might actually help me. I’d definitely want to be running it if I ever have to work around people again. Just the manipulus module showed me a lot of things. With the certain family member how she was a bit manipulative. I uncovered a lot of why I kind of was the way I was socially.

TWTP might actually get me willing to play the social game again, and I’d come at it from that angle rather than the social titles, because I dont’ want to be a social butterfly and I was a nice guy who was on the receiving end of people’s BS. Just having the grounded masculinity and confidence seems to be keeping that at bay now. Where even if it’s there I snip it in the bud and it gets no energy or participation from me.

Alright, I’ve got 5 days to consider. Being that I’ll be around people more now that it’s officially spring. TWTP could be really useful to me. I’m more of a How To Win Friends and Influence People guy, but based on past experiences with people, TWTP will probably be huge for me. I’ve faced many hard truths and will continue to do so. For me I’m more like I don’t hate the player, or the game. I just didn’t want to play.

LBFH/DRLD has done some great work. I’m sure I’ll continue to benefit if it’s time to move on. I’ll come back to that one though. I like it as a fall/winter title. When it’s more stay home and go to work times.

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Day 21: 3 mins LBFH/DRLD custom:

I think I will take a break from the custom. Next cycle Spartan and Executive only. Then after that I’ll try out TWTP.

Another day where I’ve woken up at 1pm. It seems I’m adjusting to staying up later and waking up later. Rather than staying at the same time as before the daylight savings time change.

My Spartan custom seems to be the safest bet. That way I have 2 (if I really want them) slots open for say The Executive and TWTP. Although I could potentially add The Executive in the Spartan custom. It seems like that’d be my new base title.

I would like to maybe do TWTP and a softener. Maybe keep store LBFH in the 3rd slot. I don’t want to lose on that feel good and fun aspect that I get with love bomb.

But for potentially the next 2-3 cycles I find out what it’s like with no LBFH in the mix.

I got some things done. Had to run to the gas station. Also did my breathing and some inner work. Not feeling tippy top again. It’s more like my body will go through the actions and I’m kind of watching myself. Not in a disassociated way though. It’s more like the mind is just in observer mode. I do like that component of maybe the Formless Clarity module.

I’ve been going to bed and just doing some inner work. No regards to time since I don’t have to be up at any certain time. Before I knew it it was after 5am this morning. But to me that inner type of work is a bit of a priority.

I’m just not feeling the drive today. I have been putting off maintenance cleaning tasks in my place. Like right now i was looking at my computer screen. It’s so easy to go grab the cleaner and wipe my computer screen. But yet it seems like so much energy that I’d rather just sit here in this chair. lol. The Executive will probably change my ways a bit. Even though I’d been starting to become a guy who gets things done and goes for what I want. I actually like getting those tasks taken care of right away and then I really can just rest if that’s what I need. That feels good to have things done.

Waking up so late does have the downside of feeling like the day gets away from me. Like I’ve only been up 3 hours and it’s already 4pm.

Evening Updates:

I vacuumed and swept. Now I just have a bathroom to do for today. I just did it. Not really in the mood but might as well get it done.

After skimming over the copy for TWTP, it seems like the next logical step. I started at Sanguine, and it didn’t have enough power. Then I went with DRLD, power, confidence, removing limitations, some healing. TWTP seems like the next rung on that ladder for me. I might actually be on a path towards Emperor, but I still think Primal is maybe that full alpha title for me, and Chosen. But for now I’ve got my path forward. It just feels right.

Alright I got my Spartan/LBFH custom lined up. I plan to use store LBFH next cycle along with Executive and Spartan. DRLD is amazing, even though it can be a bumpy ride. It’s just time for my next phase of growth. I don’t know what kind of recon Executive could bring on, so DRLD is taking a break.’

I decided again. I’m going to double Spartan for the custom- Spartan Apex and Spartan Legacy for the cores. Now that I’m seeing changes in my body again, that kind of gets me going. No chance of me falling off the wagon.

End of nights:

After I ate dinner tonight, my body temp has been up again. Almost sweating with no activity. I would say I’m definitely getting increased metabolism effects as a result of Spartan. If I add in Legend I might have to start carb cycling at the very least; instead of strict keto.

I’m also curious to see what the next release will be. Even though I’m pretty much set in stone on a Spartan custom and my stack moving forward. I think I would still choose Executive over Beyond Limitless. Getting things done is probably one of my main limiting factors, along with whatever blocks stand in the way.

For the last week I’ve been wearing normal shoes again. I’ve been wearing the minimalist barefoot shoes probably for almost a year. But all the walking had me going back to normal shoes for the cushion. I still wear the minimalist barefoot type shoes to workout and just around the house. But if I go somewhere I’m wearing the normal shoes again.

That warrior mindset must be kicking in lately from Spartan. I can tell I’m more determined and willing to jump in. Like how I’ve decided to change up my stack. I really will be a different person after some time with Spartan and Executive. Then add in TWTP I won’t even recognize myself, by the end of summer.

I got to work. What do you think came up in mind? The women and limiting beliefs around that. Primal seems to be the remedy, just have to run it long enough. I’ve ran Primal for 4 cycles. I did Wanted for 4 cycles too. I tried Primal Seduction a few years ago. S&S. It’s funny though, running Heartsong did not come up until I started thinking of what I ran already. The problem seems to be not running them long enough to make those deep overhauls in personal reality.

I’m thinking TWTP will also help me even though it’s not for that specifically. Just tapping in to my masculinity and personal power seems to be doing great things for me. Coupled with action on my goals, and the right focus is really my direction anyway. Executive, Spartan, and TWTP is what I need most right now. Before I get to the dating and seduction stuff.

With TWTP I’m looking to to really overhaul my personal power and frame, and take my whole social game up another level. I still prefer solitude but that seems to be more about not wanting to deal with all the games people play. That and a lot of times they don’t know they’re running on programs as well, that may not be the most useful for them or the betterment of society as a whole. My goal isn’t to change them though. It’s more to be grounded and in my frame. Which is still live and let live, with WTP to back me up, I think I can pull that off.

I found a penny today after work. In pretty much the identical spot I found a whole pile of pennies about a year ago. It was just a nice wink, that’s how I took it.

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Day 1 of 5 no listening

I’m feeling that love bomb today. 3 mins of LBFH/DRLD custom yesterday.

I guess I’m gonna have to keep LBFH/DRLD in the mix. I’ll just go with 30 seconds of Executive next cycle.

Spartan, LBFH/DRLD custom, Executive next cycle.

Lovely Afternoon:

Man it feels good to feel good! I definitely feel Executive will be the right touch for what I need. I’d also like some more of that personal power oomph of TWTP. But I won’t drop Spartan, that’s probably a permanent title for me now. LBFH/DRLD is really holding on as well.

So I might have to go ahead with the Spartan custom and just tweak the modules to lean it more towards what I’d like to gain from TWTP. Yet at the same time I do plan to run TWTP so maybe I’ll go for a Primalized version of Spartan, which probably fits more with Spartan’s vibe.

Lol this buddy of mine. He’s a downer but the high IQ type. Rather than use the IQ to his advantage he uses it for his continued victim mentality. I was always though of as smart, and yet it was those who didn’t seem to have the brains who got to be successful. They didn’t know any better, lol. At least more successful than I was.

Good Evening:

Alright I got my Spartan custom ready to roll. Now to sit back and enjoy my next couple cycles.

I went for a more Primal themed Spartan without using the Primal core. It’s about success and the Primal Masculinity and Spartan covers the fitness base. It’s not the decision making type masterpiece I’d originally envisioned. With The Executive being released, I think that’s going to take care of a lot my most pressing needs.

I do have 2 wealth modules since that’s the only thing I lack in my stack. Treasure Finder module, is in the wealth category but could apply to other areas. The Worthiness Recalibration will cover what might be my most urgent need as far as opening myself to wealth and abundance. That would also be the only “healing” module in this custom. Since I plan to keep LBFH/DRLD custom as long as I can, it makes sense that I don’t want any healing modules.

I’ve been feeling a little lower energy this week. And I haven’t done any stretching. One of those stretches is my feet! Where you knee down and kind of have your toes on the ground and lean back a little. I suspect that’s why I’ve had sore feet. One thing I found about working out is that I’ve got to find the balance between frequency and rest. If I take too many days off then I can get pain from not working out enough. If I work out too often then I don’t make the progress I want.

I wish I had pool access. Unfortunately the pool I’d have access to is where I used to work. I quit because of just low quality people and drama and I won’t ever go back. There’s no need in me to want to be around them or even to walk in and dominate with my new presence and mindset.

There was a few chicks who liked me but I did not entertain them due to the sort of bombardment I was receiving. I liken it to a flag being torn and tattered in the wind kind of feeling.

I guess I had to walk away and let my nervous system reset and thus allow my energy systems to recharge and repair. Yet I persevered too long. And now I don’t want to go back into the people world, definitely not in jobs yet. That’s where TWTP will surely aid me in that comeback.

It just hit me that maybe I ought to consider a Primal Spartan custom. I felt like Primal was my favorite sub when I used it. I certainly didn’t touch on its full potential. It’s also a title that I’d run for a year. In many ways it would negate my need for TWTP so urgently.

What holds me back is I’m planning to keep LBFH/DRLD on for as long as possible too. For me that wouldn’t leave room for Executive. But at the same time I want to keep LBFH/DRLD for the foundational stuff for dating. Primal would cover that and it includes fun. At the very least I’ll get 6 cycles out of LBFH/DRLD for now.

So yea, I’m always changing up. It’s not the recon talking this time. It’s more that I really want to get to my most pressing needs. I forget about my dream titles and all that. It’s just what do I need now to get me to the next level.

Primal Spartan and Executive? That feels like my hero’s journey for the rest of the year. Although Executive is a wild card because I’m sure I have some things to work out.

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Day 2 of 5 no listening

I slept on it and now I’m still not decided. The only thing with Primal is that I thought it was the best title while I used it. But I’m not interested in dating/seduction at this time. Perhaps limiting beliefs.

I think I’d like Legend of the Spartan for more body shifting. So I could still make a double Spartan custom. Also TWTP is still attractive, maybe more than Primal because it is not geared for dating/seduction. It might still be more beneficial to me to run it before Primal. TWTP might be something I just need to improve on before I start on the dating/seduction, anything with people path.

I credit Spartan for my new approach. Especially for my approach to choosing my next stack. It almost seems Achilles’ Heel styled. Where I’m looking at what is my weakest area and what is going to shore that up.

If my new stack started today, I would go with TWTP. Personal power and the social arena would be my biggest lack. I have seen myself identify with someone who gets things done and goes after what he wants, thanks to LBFH/DRLD. Now with Spartan there, I think that will get even more of a boost.

Afternooners:

Finally got to sleep at 3am. That’s a win. I’m just feeling tired though, like it’s a nap day. Woke up at noon. So I just gotta keep that going.

I skipped the knee program yesterday. Slightly tweaked my knee just trying to pick something up. A slight hyperextension. No pain but I decided I didn’t want to aggravate it and hit the program on Monday.

I tried to up my reps on the Foundation Training, more on the philosophy of going for high reps with all good form and control. I only got one more rep than I had been doing! So that is not an easy program, but it’s in my routine to prevent any of that back pain that set me back a few months ago.

I’ve been toying with the idea of doing 2 days a week of higher carbs, and keto the rest of the time. It could help with energy levels and recovery. Between work and what I think is minimal training, my body is needing some more assistance in the energy department. That would mean instead of one free day, I keep it clean, and simple with the carbs. Although some keto plans give you 1-2 days for carbs. But that’s in a row. I would consider that.

I’m more maintenance minded, and since I’m probably underestimating my body’s activity levels I might still be dropping a little of the fat. No six pack yet, but I’m hovering at the closest I’ve ever gotten. I’ve never been the super lean type of body though. Endomorph is my body type, that’s why I have done best on the keto plan. Yet at times my body looks even better after a carb day, like I actually look more trim.

I am still eyeing the Legacy of the Spartan, I feel like that’s one of those basic things. Would give me a psychological boost since I always wanted a nice physique, just was never dedicated enough to make it happen. That’s mostly with the diet aspect.

The vanity aspects of Legacy Spartan are really appealing to me lately. That’s why I didn’t want to run it initially, that wasn’t something I cared about. Results with Spartan got me wanting to go for it. Also LS has relaxation scripting and that’s something I would always benefit from. Also excited to test the magnetic gaze factor. It’ll come in handy when I see the ladies check me out, instead of ignoring them I can test the gaze hahaha.

If anything Legacy would get the nod next cycle. Then I could just let LBFH/DRLD continue to blast through limits and go deeper. Because the fitness body shifting seems to be something I’m already primed for. At the very least I could run it through the summer and then switch gears to get back in the trenches a bit. That would mean TWTP first. Since my current work situation is just purely physical it would actually provide most immediate benefit to my life as well. I don’t have plans to take on new work or jobs just yet. Also my life isn’t set up for any social or power struggles besides random encounters. LBFH/DRLD is still doing the heavy lifting for my inner game.

I seem to be naturally a type who would benefit from HOM, if I was living from my highest truths. Chosen also, DRG, also. But I’m still in the trenches, so to speak. Making my way up the mountain, conquering the limits of the false self, as they say.

Yet ultimate freedom is one of my greatest aspirations as well. Not this or that, but a true expression of that which isn’t limited by labels, or conditions, yet is free to navigate the practicalities and necessities of daily life.

Good Nights:

I feel like I’m lacking cardio again. For my purposes I’ve found that more intense shorter cardio, more athletic based seems to transfer over really well to daily life. Walking not so much. So I did experience some of that tonight, where I could tell I would like to bring back some higher intensity cardio soon.

LBFH/DRLD seems to be the perfect combo to feel good and work on those internal limits. I consider it my shield as far as unwanted attention goes, so that I can continue to just be me without hassles from people. I did get some slight thoughts of what if I’m feeling too good, people didn’t like that in the past kind of thoughts/feelings.That was after I was feeling good again yesterday. But I’m willing to let it ride because of Spartan in the mix.

I really would like to get a full year on LBFH/DRLD custom. As far as feeling good and feeling the love within, It wasn’t all negative from people though, it was really a mixed bag, the whole gambit if you will. I dont’ think I ever got to the free things from people stuff either. So I was happy to see they added the light protection aura in the latest edition. Also the disconnect from negativity from people and self in DRLD is something I like for sure.

I’m also kind of settling in on taking LOS for a spin. It does have the organ healing from Paragon and other reports make me think it’ll be great for my purposes. I mean, beyond the vanity aspects.

My instincts were right. By the time I got to work my cortisol levels were spiking. Same thing last Saturday. So I might have to either do carbs on two days, or just try out post workout carbs. When I first started keto I always did PWO carbs with protein shake. I’ve just been doing keto no carbs, just the one day a week. There were times when I first started I found I could do 50 grams carbs and be fine. It’s time to start doing that again.

I found another penny. Same spot. I just happened to notice it as I was getting in my car to leave from work.

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Day 3 of 5

Still feeling lighter as in feeling wise. Heightened kind of energy vibration, if you will. There’s the ever so slightest thoughts and feelings of, that what if I’m feeling too good again. I’d like to avoid the people hassles and just be a private person that just gets to go on with his life without the comments and attention. But that’s impossible. That’s what people do. They must comment. They must narrate. I was listening to a Joe Dispenza interview, and he talked about something I kind of forgot about.

Years and years ago it was so clear to me that people were addicted to the way they were and the feelings and chemicals the body produces in relation to those states. Well Dispenza also talks about that. I’m more interested in reading one of his books. But it’s still not about changing them from his perspective either.

Good Afternoons:

My hip hasn’t bothered me this week. It’s the sacroiliac joint that seems to be the cause of any low back pain issues I’ve had. This week only the ever so slightest hip of anything going on. I haven’t even done the self traction device this week. I will tonight before bed just for maintenance though.

Knee was a little tweaked again at work, because I had to bend over and pick some things up. But it seems to have been temporary. No pains since. Just the other day I was testing out some jogging in place and no problems. More like jump rope style bouncing. So I’m right there as far as maybe adding that back in, just light jump rope type stuff. I don’t feel confident about any hitting the heavy bag yet, the rotation and pivoting stuff. So I’ll start working in some rotation exercises for the core at least.

I got to work and I was moving smooth. Even though I felt like I would still like some extra brain power. I was in a flow state at work. None of the wishing I had more cardio. I think that was due to the cortisol spike yesterday. I’ll just have to increase my carbs, first experiment is just do post workout carbs and protein.

The energy from LOS will be nice though. I think that should get me over the hump as well.

I have also been noticing that I’m at a new level of being over the ex. I think the cord has been cut so to speak. It’s almost like one of those visualization techniques, where you take an image and you remove all the color out of it, maybe shrink it down into nothing. And also you could say the charge is gone finally.

Energy and relaxation just puts LOS over the top in my book. That’s the title I’m going with.

Lol feeling a little bit of a pull. Like kind of wishing I had a good woman to talk to. So I guess it’s wanting that Heartsong vibe. The right kind of woman without having to play the games and all that. Also some desire for what to me is maybe a flashier title, like the new Executive or TWTP.

But LOS wins. I had a little bit of pain in the back of my knee today. Not all day just where it feels a little sore, probably from the tweak a couple days ago. It’s behind the knee so I may have to start doing those hip airplanes and figure out how to do some high rep hamstring curls at home. I should be able to set up some resistance band somehow. or maybe standing with ankle weights.

Executive and TWTP are my next two titles for sure. Just a matter of when. I won’t set LBFH/DRLD custom down yet. Between the custom and Spartan LOS I should be getting some energy and also just be able to relax free from tensions. I think that’s still what is going to benefit me the most now. Just get used to being relaxed and yet still be able to just work hard at work and workouts when it’s time.

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Day 4 of 5 of no listening

A few days ago I was thinking of how I haven’t had the urge of wanting to live come up lately. I mean like this wanting for something more kind of thing that I used to get. Well it seems like it’s come up a bit today. Like there’s this maybe life that wants to be expressed. But I don’t have a direction for it. So working out is definitely a great outlet to sort of use that energy and to also clarify it. I think Spartan with Khan Black would really help out KB in a stack. That would be my plan whenever I get back to Khan Black.

The LBFH/DRLD custom, I’m more into holding on right now. I don’t want to give it up. There’s the case to stick with things long term and there’s also the case for changing directions so as not to stagnate. Potentially I do feel maybe I’m holding on out of fear of success, at least to the custom.

I’ve got today and tomorrow for any last second changes. But currently there is some sort of nudge coming up to maybe switch directions for a bit. That’s probably why all the going back and forth over my next stack. Primal lost out because I’m really not set up for dating and all that. Executive, I don’t think I’ve uncovered my direction just yet. TWTP yea, but maybe in another 4 cycles. KB would do me good.

So my last minute change seems to be switch out my custom for KB. KB would also boost the energy needed for any physical shifting in LOS.

Spartan, LOS, KB for the next 4 cycles. I don’t have the this is foundational sense with this stack. It’s just more like this is definitely the right thing for me now. It’s kind of working on my physical reality, in the sense of mastering my body, and mind. No worrying about defending from people or necessarily gaining anything from the external. To me it’s kind of like my version of Emperor Black, just focused on building my physical body and mindset. That’ll be my main focus. Just going to work and building my physical body. Just to really have a good focus and eventually help me clarify my direction. While also building those qualities of discipline, strength, resilience, etc.

Good Nights:

Alright, the playlists are locked and loaded. KB 1, Spartan, LOS.

I may take 10 days off from any listening. Since I’ll be starting 2 titles instead of 1. Even though KB isn’t technically a new title for me. Just would be smart to get a little buffer coming off the custom.

I hit 25 reps on the exercise I only hit 16 on last week. The 25th rep was easier than the 16th on Friday.

2x per week is giving me enough time to recover. I’m after results, I’m not actually trying to build muscle. For me it’s all about performance. I’m not too optimistic on the wall pushups and pullups since I’m only doing those once a week. But if I go to failure, or hit the standards then I can move to the next progressions. I’m not sure if things will go as quickly on the pushups and pulls, but I’ll find out Wednesday.

Knee workout wasn’t as smooth as last week. But it has been a whole week since I did this workout. I still hit the same reps. I didn’t do the knee workout on Friday due to a slight tweak.

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Day 5 of 5 no listening

I got a little in my feels last night before bed. It was a different flavor. Not like the usual recon stuff where I just want to be done with it. It was kind of easier to face and of course went away. But I realized that I want to stick with LBFH/DRLD yet. Plus that means I would just start the new cycle tomorrow, just adding LOS.

I think the LBFH/DRLD is making some deep changes for me. Thus I almost talked myself out of staying with it. KB would be highly beneficial, but it also entails healing and a hero’s journey. I decided to stick with the one I’m on. I’m just facing some things at time, and those are the limits. I also feel a lot lighter at times. I guess that’s an effect of being free from the limits. The weird thing is sometimes if you drop limits you’re kind of lost almost. It’s the recalibration, the perceptual shift type thing. Maybe that’s what I’m going through after 4 cycles of LBFH/DRLD custom.

Afternoons

Had some more feels come on awhile ago. Still some of that healing going on. Emotion limit destroying whatever. It’s a different flavor now. I think Spartan has me embracing the challenge. It’s just different, like instead of wanting to take a break from LBFH/DRLD I see it as a reason to stick with it.

I’m probably going to have to increase my calorie intake somehow. Just for the sake of recovery and progressive overload in my workouts.

Sometimes I feel like I need True Sell just to have normal conversations with people. So much of this stuff of people stuck in their own paradigms that trying to talk to them is just like what a waste of energy. It seems like many people are so down and given up. No wonder there’s such a mismatch between me and them and trying to even work a normal job around them. I don’t judge them. But that doesn’t work both ways. Still tricky situations. HOM would be good, True Sell, TWTP, I can even see how Stark would be beneficial. When you’re creative, or just outside the paradigm, you gotta deal with all the others yet. Get them on board, with the vision, if only to see the good.

I’m also feeling a little more of the free and clearness. I see and sense that there is so much possibility, even when I talk to people and am left reeling, like how do they live in the worlds they do? It’s dark and dreary and really a big negative for them, but I can go on with my life, without being attached to their energy.

Generally I think I’m getting more benefit from LBFH than anyone I go around.

Oh, I do have some extra energy today too. Like I would like to workout but it’s just 20 minute walk day. I am planning to maybe do my stretching on my “rest” days.

It’s almost like generally what brings the average person to life is having something to fight, not even that, just something to complain about.

Good Evenings

I’m going to nickname my LBFH/DRLD custom, the gauntlet. Because it is. But if I stick to 3 minutes I don’t get overwhelmed, still challenged at times.

With some of the recon I can say this is this module or this influence. I had some more of the solitude module healing come up today. I can also see some love without attachment module influence in the recon at times. I probably have had some forgiveness module healing come up, but it hasn’t stuck out to me. Maybe it’s just that it’s not about the other people wronging me, it was more letting myself be wronged kind of thing. At the same time I wouldn’t hang out with most of the people from my past either. Not because I still hold grudges, but because I won’t subject myself to them any longer.

This time instead of getting the love bomb, which may come tomorrow. But I got confidence this time, after the recons passed.

Lol, when I was feeling the confidence earlier, it almost seemed like it was on the verge of cockiness or arrogance. I’m sure that will level out, because that’s not what I am. But at the same time that’s probably what it was those times I did get the chicks. One for sure was but another time it probably could have looked that way but it was more just me having fun not even trying to hook up.

I feel like I’m still doing the uncovering my self. I mean all the traumas and that kind of junk that got dumped on top of the natural me. So they’d probably say DRR would be the ultimate. But I think LBFH/DRLD is already challenging as far as the healing goes. So the plan is still to let LBFH/DRLD custom ride out the year if I can. When I see Primal mentioned as the fun care free type, that gets me going that’s what I want to get back to. Then I see Wanted and I’m like yep, I can see how those traits would work to attract the women also. But first thing is first. Just letting DRLD work in the trenches, and LBFH to hopefully spread some goodwill and between the two keep away the nonsense.

I also have wondered if Spartan has the invincible presence.

End of nights

My new routine is 8 oz. of tart cherry juice after work. It’s said to help sleep, recovery, and inflammation. Plus it has 30 grams of carbs. So instead of post workout carbs I’m trying this out for awhile.

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Day 1: 30 seconds LOS, 3 mins Spartan.

Woke up late. Was up til 4am, even though I woke up early yesterday.

My knees are feeling good today. Like they’re strong. It seems like I really have to just high rep those hamstring curls for a bit for the backs of the knees, and do the hip airplanes for the popliteal, the small muscle that wraps behind the knee.

Afternoons

I’m thinking my relaxation will be bumped up. LBFH/DRLD custom has Stonelike module, and LOS has relaxation scripting. LBFH also has tranquility scripting. So I’m looking forward to that. A great blend of energy and relaxation. I think that’ll hit the spot.

Good Evenings

I have been using a xylitol capsicum aloe nasal spray to clear out my sinuses. Not a cold just a little stuffed up. I ran out and wanted to get another bottle. I stumbled upon bee propolis nasal spray. It has so many great properties I figured I’d try it out. Well after using I found that it helps take the edge off anxiety also. So I got the throat spray version too. I wonder why more people don’t know about this stuff. I used to take cbd but never noticed much in terms of anxiety relief. This stuff works better for me. So I also found something to keep those cortisol levels in check if I need it.

End of Nights:

I was really not feeling like a work out. Sleep got off schedule again. But when I started moving, just doing the walking it was kind of easy and I got in the zone. Then I did some mobility that I wasn’t going to do. Now to check out the wall pushups and pulls. I’m not too optimistic that I’ll hit the progression standards but I’ll find out.

As I was sitting here I just noticed that I had some slight pain in my jaw. Higher up towards the ear one one side. My jaw feels slightly tired now. I’ve been oil pulling 10 mins morning and before bed for a month. But that means I’m using those muscles so they may be primed for any of that facial physical shifting. I hadn’t had any jaw pain or tiredness so it kind of stuck out. This after reading some others reported that when starting LOS. But I wasn’t expecting much from 30 second loops of LOS in my first cycle with it.

I hit the progression standards. 3 sets of 50 on wall pushups and pulls. I’ll want hit those numbers at least another 2 weeks for conditioning purposes. Then I’ll move on to the next harder progressions. 1x a week sessions on those, so far so good.

150 wall pushups with perfect form and at a slow pace. Whew! I had no idea. I might rethink how I want to do this. Maybe I’ll stick with 150 1x per week until it’s easy. I only started over with wall pushups because my shoulder was hurting on regular pushups. So rather than do no chest, wall pushups was the solution. Kind of rehab. Plus pushups actually help my elbows stay pain free. I can see how the high reps will show you your weak spots. I could definitely use some conditioning. My plan is to be able to do dips and pullups as my upper body exercises. For now it’s more conditioning focus.

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Day 2: No listening

I had a dream where I think it was one of my friends, they were looking old and kind of shriveled up from drugs or something. lol. So that could be possibly LOS already making an impression. But it was only 30 seconds and 1 listen.

Not really sore from the workout yesterday. More that I can tell I have some conditioning to be done yet. I think it’s 5 progressions until full normal pushups. The first 3 are easy. It’s wall, then 45 degree with a table or chair, than kneeling. But each progressions the reps go down a little, so it won’t be a goal of 50 reps x 3 on all exercises. It works up to one arm pushups, and pullups if you want to take it that far.

Good Afternoons

Ran over to the gas station to get my nic pouches. I had one of those positive experiences. Just not feeling anxious. I got there I felt like grounded and at ease in my skin. Like I belong anywhere kind of thing. The chick I’ve seen before when she was low vibing not paying attention to anyone but here phone was there. All 3 cashiers were like in a good energy. I really liked the one chick, it was cool to see her in a good vibe. I don’t think I was influencing any of it, but just being able to sort of fit in I guess. Just something to get me feeling better about being around people. I would say maybe an LBFH/DRLD positive experience manifestation that things can just be on a more positive level with people.

Good Evenings:

I was skimming over 48 Laws and wish I could be on to TWTP already. But then I remember at the very least, according to the description DRLD has some anti-manipulation scripting. I’m generally a decent, trusting person but unfortunately there are those types out there who are not. So that’s one thing that wins me over to TWTP as my base building social title.

I finished listening to How To Win Friends and Influence People 30 times. I haven’t mastered it at all. It’s one of those things that requires actual practice in the field. Plus I’d only read it once like 10 years ago. Other books I’ve listened to repeated times over the years and noticed that I end up putting them into practice just because I’ve listened to the material so much. Not the case yet with HTWFIP.

I might checkout 48 Laws for my next book. The books is so long though. I’m sure it could just help me out in terms of dealing with people and not getting burned at least.

My current stack really does have everything I need for now. It’s just a matter of riding out the storms and sticking with it, as usual. The only titles I sometimes wish I had were Primal and TWTP.

It seems to still come down to knowing what I want. The best for me has been just to have fun. Yet getting tangled in other’s webs and bubbles tripped me up. I’ve gone through a lot of the material where they ask you, if you had all the money you could ever need already, what would you do? Well I used to say I’d keep working. But no I’d quit my job, workout and do what I already do. ahahaha. Maybe travel some more and things like that. Have my own gym and sauna, and house etc.

I asked other people well what was something you always wanted to do or what’s your dream? And they tell me things that can’t happen. Like one guy wanted to be a racecar driver. Another guy who has an injured foot and is physically handicapped wants to be a surfer and live on the beach. So that got me thinking that to most people, dreams and what you really want isn’t something that’s even possible. So the limiting belief is already built in. So what they do is live from that place of lack. That also helps me realize that I really can’t change them. If they can never go beyond their own filters, that’s where they’ll stay stuck. I’ve gone beyond many of mine so I know it’s possible, but even trying to convey that doesn’t do much. It’s more just realizing that yea, even though I don’t have friends like I’d like, they’re out there somewhere. For now I’m just going to keep living my life.

Good Nights:

A little in what I call the trenches tonight. Thoughts and feelings about the past. A little bit of that lacking any real connections.It’s not the actual reality of the situation, or lack thereof, it’s of course my own paradigm or filters/beliefs about it. Since it still comes up I think I will partake in some targeted work on it.

I am going to test out 3 minutes of LBFH/DRLD custom tomorrow. I’ve never had probs from that time amount. It’s only when I tried doing 7 minutes because I wanted to get to 15 that I dabbled in some recon hell. lol.

This would be day 7 of not listening to LBFH/DRLD custom. Definitely some processing yet. I just had a memory come up that I hadn’t thought of in maybe 20 years again. It was when I was in school. There was this chick I thought was hot at the time. Kinda goth. We were in physical education class. It was like dancing day or something. I’d never danced before, it was a new school a new city for me too. But the way I remember it is everybody was already partnered up so I see her and well we’re supposed to pick a partner to dance. So I forced myself to go ask her to dance and she turned me down. Then I got in trouble from the butch p.e. teacher for not having a partner. Then I got to dance with this other hot chick but she didn’t think I was into it, lol. I had a few teachers in the past who thought I was a bad guy. Teachers really gotta watch how they treat these students though. But of course if you can make people laugh, you’re the bad guy in school. Or even if they think you don’t see them as the ultimate authority figure either, not even making any trouble. Like they know you’re smart and maybe can see through things on some level. Like maybe you’re a thinker or something. I don’t remember ever seeing that chick again. But I had to laugh when I thought of that. It was like a year after I had this chick ask me out, and at that time I’d forgotten about that.