Day 3 of 5 no listening.
My hip is still sore and my mid back. Just lingering soreness from the adjustment and the mid back is from the spasms. I think Monday I’ll be pain free for sure.
My knees don’t like heavy steps. So I have to be more mindful of how I walk. A little more gentle using those muscles for the support and shock absorbtion. I got humbled last night doing my knee pain stuff.
No weights just like quad sets, extending the leg and flexing the quads for time. Some ankle movements and unweighted quad extensions and hamstring curls. But those are exercises I don’t do at all. I can tell they’ll be good because I felt better after them. But I’m not even doing like a million reps. That just shows me those are what I need to work on for now. I even did some standing air pushups! The focus being on the back muscles for the pull, to warm-up and get rid of that shoulder pain from doing pushups. Cranked out a hundred reps of standing twists and side bends. Just to get some core work and blood moving through there. Just slow controlled stuff that I could do every day or do as micro workouts during the day.
I was talking with one of the people I chat with online. But they’re kind of a complainer and one of those who think they need to change the world. But complaining is their action for that. They have a belief and if yours is different well you’re racist of course, lol. I did get mad and shot back at them. But the anger passed quickly. I still need to master How To Win Friends and Influence People. At the same time there are just people we don’t need to have in our lives. The people I let in my life are people I accept unconditionally but it’s rare that that’s extended by others, at least up until now it’s been my experience!
So I think I’m going to let this person drop off my social radar. Luckily I have solitude and I think that’s helping to get me to start focusing on studying more and making good use of my time. I actually kind of prefer solitude. I just saw a post and someone said like it wasn’t fun at first but now they can be social when they want and their solitude keeps them living in a bubble of heaven, lol.
It also makes me wish I had a more right people oriented title in my stack. Like Inner Circle, Heart Song. Even Chosen but I just don’t want to lead people, I’d rather they lead themselves. I do have You Are Not Alone, in my custom. I’m still waiting on those results.
Dragon Reborn Limit Destroyer says it has scripting to help detach and protect your energy from toxic influences and people, and LBFH has a light protection aura. My first custom I had a bunch of those kind of modules in it. I had no friends or close people. I think DRLD/LBFH is the better balance. I still get to see those who appreciate my energy and well I still get to more consciously remove myself from the negative influences and people.
I offered to give my hard copy of How To Win Friends and Influence People book to this person who complains. Haven’t heard back yet, lol. I find that lots of people want to be told what to do, yet they want to tell the world how to live. They could really use some of that Alchemist Singularity and all the great titles at subliminal club, but I also have found that they not open to that either. lol.
I would love to add a 3rd title but I can’t tell I’m slightly reconny at times. So it’s best to stay as is for another cycle and check back in.
The person did not take me up on my offer of giving them my book. They don’t like reading in English. Also will not pry themselves loose from the victim, helpless mentality. But I also realize it may be a time waste on both of us, I cannot solve his problems with the world, and his complaining does not serve me. Other than for entertainment, which doesn’t progress me further in the life I’d like to live.
Now that I’m doing my rehab training. I realized my own mis steps in dealing with other people. I can see his side of the story. A friend I had to move on from because he couldn’t see my point of view. But I can see now that he probably felt the same. That I was complaining. He was telling me the same kinds of things.
Like I should tell them, as in the people who can do something about it. From my point of view I was just confiding in an old friend. But he has his own job and family and yea, we parted ways.
That was also further back in my journey when I was still overcoming things, when I finally realized that waiting on others to change or to see the truth, wasn’t gonna happen. I had to walk away. I didn’t like that, but nowadays I’m okay with it. I think it’s better to be alone without any others input, especially when they don’t have much empathy either. I guess I didn’t understand it because I was struggling with being like others, when I looked around I saw them complaining and gossiping. Yet it didnt’ go over well when I did the same. So I still don’t and stay away from those who do.
End of night:
Lower mood at work. My knees were hurting when I went down the steps today. Felt like tendons. So I worked slow and wasn’t moving like I like to again. But I did get work done without any pain. Being fit and moving well are important to me and was feeling a little disheartened. I was probably also a little lower energy because I did my rehab again. It actually feels like it’s helping.
I’ll just have to keep doing it daily and take it slow. I can lay on my back or roll to my side pain free again. So just a matter of time until I’m back to normal. I don’t know why or how my knee tendons decided to get a little painful same time as my back. 3 months ago was the first time and now once again it’s been both same time. But my rehab routine is helping. I’ll definitely add the ankle weights as I can do more reps. Crazy how the simplest things can be challenging.
