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Day 18: No listening.

I woke up from a dream where my friend’s dad gave me money and a ride to their house, out in the country. My friend was coming to fix my car. I think that lines up with my one affirmation I was doing but haven’t done in maybe a week. I think that’s a good sign that I haven’t been hammering it every day that tells me that I’m not attached to it and therefore that’s where the magic is. Just what seem to be random passing thoughts end up manifesting effortlessly, and the things I try to consciously manifest never seem to. So for me that’s the trick, no attachment to where it really isn’t on my mind, I just have forgotten about it.

I had a dream about the ex, the ex wasn’t there but I think I was getting to see this part of me that got stuck on that whole bs. And maybe a week ago I had the very same situation in the dream. So why it’s taking so long to let go and be done with it I don’t know. But at least some light is being shown on the situation. I’ll just keep at it when it comes up and that’s what I’ve been doing.

Normally I’d have my walk done already. I just don’t want to walk today. 60 mins straight of walking, I alternate every minute with lateral walking both directions. 50 mins was easy. 60 minutes reminds me of what it was like getting used to my jobs. I still feel like I have to keep up with the Foundation Training, at least the bare minimum routine. So adding in the advanced exercises will get held off for another week or two.

I’m still looking forward to DRLD. I could use another dose of the anti-manipulation, energy protection stuff. Like I mentioned before if I’m feeling good and I see the good in people, I’ll even give them the benefit of the doubt and I don’t do the thing where I have to point out where they’re wrong. Like earlier I just misspoke, and if the person was really present and paused for a minute they’d know I just misspoke, something this person does a lot. I never mention it because I know what they mean and to me it’s not a big deal.

But that same kind of social generosity and good will isn’t extended to me. The programming comes out and it’s just where they talk to me in a way that they make me feel wrong. Like some kind of BS unconscious power play. I see it but again, I don’t fight about it, I don’t even get bothered anymore. I handle it with grace and I respond in a way that I hope they can see to shatter some of their unconscious programming and combative programming.

But it’s like even with obvious things that well, anybody would know, it gets fed back in a way to make me feel less than. But I’m definitely getting past all that most times. I know they don’t know any better. They think they’re in control but they’re really not. Kind of the people who will talk bad about others yet when they show up it’s all nice face, and I’ve never been a pretender. If I don’t like someone I’m not gonna pretend, to me that’s dishonest. So that’s why I really will be trying out Emperor: The Will to Power in the future.

There’s a couple books that are my favorite with dealing with people, and these aren’t people who leave people hating them or feeling worse about themselves, yet they still come out on top in their people dealings and everyone is satisfied.

I just can’t imagine why we as a people haven’t gotten better at communicating. Even the guys who talk about communicating, at least in my life, like bosses and people are actually poor communicators themselves and have this certain shittiness. I think that just comes back to the thinking they’re in control but actually aren’t, they want to be pittied and get attention for their perceived problems. Me, that’s why I use subliminals as one of my tools, I’m willing to grow and do the work. I think many of us find that it’s probably still not a majority who are willing to do that.

I often come to the conclusion that I need to approach this person tactically. That I kind of have to plan my approach and stop and pause before speaking. Knowing that is it worth whatever I’m probably gonna have tossed back at me? It’s not fights or arguments, but I’ve been around enough people to see that most people would argue. But I just have to stay in my good vibes and go on about my life, that’s what I was saying. I’m feeling good and tapping that harmony and it just seems I need to be more careful around people. I was in plenty of work situations where people don’t like that at all. Even if you’re in different depts, they just decide they can’t stand you and you’ve never so much as had a bad though about them. Then you can try to be what you know they want, and they don’t even like that either. Makes a case for Inner Circle, yet DRLD has some of that manifesting people and books, resources, and positive experiences, that will be much welcomed in my book.

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I only walked for 30 minutes. I’m in it for the long haul. That means taking it easy if my body says to. I work tonight anyway.

I also realized that it’s okay for me to take a break from KB starting next cycle. I can use my LBFH/DRLD custom instead. I didn’t give it enough of a chance the first time with it. I’d like to get some more input from some of those modules. So the new plan is to run my LBFH/DRLD custom with Paragon next cycle. 2 titles. Then I’m going to let it ride until the updated KB is released.

I just checked out what’s in the LBFH/DRLD custom. It’s not exactly what I wish I had right now but it’s close enough. I think it’ll shake things up after 12 cycles with KB. I think I’m more ready for it now though. When I made it it was kind of my Last Stand, lol. This is gonna be the custom to get me over what I need to, at that time, and it proved too challenging. It deserved a solo run at that time.

I encourage everyone to journal. It helps pave the way for insights. I can see how something like morning pages, i think it’s called. Just free writing for time or until you hit the amount of pages every morning. I can see how that would be great.

As far as modules, my Survival Instinct/Spartan Apex has more of what I wish was in LBFH/DRLD custom. Okay, I take that back. SI/Spartan custom is a little too intense for Christmas season. I just want energy development, winner’s mindset, the luck module. LBFH/DRLD has more spiritual modules which will be good. Also will give me more time with Love Without Attachment module, which should help me get over the ex.

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Day 19: 15 mins Sanguine, 15 mins Paragon.

After sleeping 10 hours, the last 2 nights I’ve slept 7 1/2 hours. This despite being extra tired and ready for bed at night. But I feel pretty much wide awake, no going back to sleep.

I woke up with like this feeling of love. Maybe I stirred something in my unconscious from back when I briefly used my LBFH/DRLD custom or previous LB use. I don’t know.

I woke up from a dream and I was with this woman from my past. It was an interesting thing, back when she was still in my life I was consciously releasing because I didn’t want to get attached and end up heartbroken and have a double mess like with my ex on my hands. That was what I’d called a Transcendental Connection, but I was more attuned to it than she was. She ended up disappearing four years ago, not literally, just moved and focused on her work and making money because she couldn’t travel during the times about 4 years ago.

Anyway so I don’t take the dream literal. I take it as she represents my ideal relationship. In reality she did not, she didn’t have that connection and was caught up in her own programming and wasn’t able to see beyond her personal reality experience. Who really is though? So I released consciously because if nothing ever happened I wouldn’t have all this baggage. And even up to a couple months ago I was feeling happy and good because I had zero desire for her and since she had disappeared that was definitely a good thing for me. She’s not someone I expect to ever have back in my life. She’s not even someone I would take back. But I would say anything is possible but I just don’t see it kind of thing, I would even say I’m not interested in that.

So for whatever reason I woke up with this feeling of love after hanging out with her in my dream. Just interesting. I think it’s also that a part of me is really excited for another run with my LBFH/DRLD custom. I’ve got all the love modules in it. Love without Attachment, Chosen of Venus, Depths of Love.

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Day 20: No listening.

I had to run to the bank this am. I drove though. I saw a couple hot women at the gym. I was feeling confident and grounded. It was nice. My sexual energy has also been high the past few days, especially when I wake up in the mornings. That makes me think I’ll miss KB, but I’ll get back to it soon enough. Plus I may very well get some of that bloom effect. So it’s not like any gains will disappear immediately.

I’ve rolled back my daily walks to 30 minutes. I replaced the other 30 minutes with mobility and dynamic flexibility. It seems that’s important too. When I got to 60 minutes I had to add back in the mobility to stay loose after walking. So I’ve lowered the walking time and will restart my goal to get to 60 minutes.

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Day 21: 15 mins of Khan Black stage 4.

For good measure I did the whole loop. Now for a 5 day washout. Next cycle will start my LBFH/DRLD custom and Paragon.

Will get back to KB4 when the updated version comes out.

It’ll also be nice to take a break from KB. Work out some of those limitations and get back to it.

I’ve been sore from Tuesdays Foundation workout. So that tells me that I can either do it 1x every 2-3 days or I could try 1 set daily as the first thing I do when I wake up. I kind of lean towards doing 1 set daily just to grease the groove and master the movements. 1 daily set probably wouldn’t leave me sore. I think doing it daily to start the day would reinforce proper mechanics and keep me out of the chiropractor’s office.

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Day 1 of 5 no listening.

The trend is that I get really tired in the late evenings. I suspect that my circadian rhythm would ideally like to sleep earlier and wake up early. My job schedule doesn’t permit that at this time. The other night I was so tired I finally decided to go to bed. I got in bed and just rested and when I got back up I was feeling good again.

Considering taking maybe 2 weeks off instead. Or just do Paragon solo for 1 cycle.

My body is trimming down nicely. I plan a week off the diet for Christmas- there will be plenty of leftover goodies.

I did one set of the Foundation Training as a warmup before my dynamic warmup then did a 20 minute walk. Then I did mobility afterwards. I feel good and refreshed. I think that’s the way to go. I don’t need to be super strict on things and I like that. Previously I was being strict and if I couldn’t get a workout in then I wouldn’t do anything at all besides work.

I think the plan is to do Paragon solo for one cycle. I will probably listen to Ascension Chamber once a week too. That will give me some space before I start my LBFH/DRLD custom. I’ll get back to KB in the spring, unless I really feel like 4 cycles of Paragon is good for now. But after 2 cycles I think I’d want to spend more than 4 cycles with Paragon.

Lol. I was feeling a little low and looking at all the exciting titles again. Then I remembered, recon. And now I was able to laugh and feel a little better.

And as usual after getting to work I had a clear mind and focused on my work and feel better.

End of night:

Ended the night a little low. But I take it in stride because of that 15 minute loop of KB4 I did yesterday.

I can see how the low feeling was trying to attach to something, first it was all these exciting titles I wish I could be on. Then the feelings came up again and they’re just feelings, I don’t have to have a story attached to them, they eventually move through.

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Day 2 of 5 no listening.

One dream I half woke up laughing. Another vivid dream when I woke up for the day. The dream I woke up from to start the day, seemed to be showing my insecurities/anxieties that I wish to eradicate. So I take it as a positive sign, those very things being faced by the other than conscious mind.

I’m thinking of going with 2 titles next cycle. I’m putting KB on the shelf until the updated version. I think I will just continue with Sanguine and Paragon for one cycle. That gives me somewhat of a washout from KB, so then I will bring on the LBFH/DRLD custom.

I’m taking the conservative approach, it is Holiday season and I don’t want to risk too much recon. One cycle of Sanguine and Paragon will get me to the next year.

Yesterday I worked without my knee supports. No pain at all. It’s taken awhile. I attribute it to this isometric squat I do as part of my pre walk prep. 3x 30 seconds of a squat where u kind of rise up off your heels but not a full calf raise, then you just squat down. I like to go down as low as I can and hold making sure I have good form and muscle activation. It works the legs, knees, ankles, calves. Also helps the tendons due to it being an isometric exercise. I also found one for my elbows that I haven’t added in yet. But I think I found my main exercise to get rid of this elbow pain.

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Was not a easy day at work. Just a little tired. Feels like when I first started, my body had to adjust. So even though I’m not doing what I think is a decent workout, it’s still a challenge yet. No walking today. Day off from exercise.

Also might have a strained back from a few days ago. I was moving some chairs at work. Light work to me but just odd angle torque kind of thing. One of my knees was a little snappy so after about an hour I put on the knee support. Just gotta take it slow and steady to get back in tip top shape.

Was also I’d say reconny. Nothing explosive. Just lower mood again. I was ready to go for SSX again. Or a seduction title. Then a moment it was I gotta do Heartsong. So due to the nature of my recon, it seems to be the same type of thing. I will go ahead and get on my LBFH/DRLD custom. I’m just going to use it for 30 seconds the first cycle. Sanguine is great I just think I need that extra help from DRLD and my modules will help open up more possibilities in terms of meeting some ladies I think.

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Day 3 no listening.

I had a bunch of healing dreams last night. Working through some I’d say sexual hangups.

I also had a dream where I was walking around with the idea of the LBFH aura effect.

Now I’ve been rethinking my listening plan. I could stay with KB4. I could even keep everything the same for the next cycle. I would want to keep KB4 to 1:30 or less, no full loops during the rest of this month.

I was also leaning to Heartsong again, and DRLD. I think the best thing is to stay one more cycle as is. Just to get me past the holiday season.

My body is saying today is a rest day. It’s interesting that just adding one move (exercise) can require an adjustment from your body. Ankles are feeling sore and achy, but that’s also a good sign. I felt like my ankles needed some bulletproofing and they’re getting work now. Well I am 42 now so I started Paragon because my body seemed to need the help bouncing back and staying pain free.

I’m just tired today. It’s a recovery day. After the mental recon seems to have lifted, I’m thinking to drop KB4 and go with DRLD. I wanted to keep the energy stuff going but after 12 cycles of KB I think I can afford a cycle or two off. I do plan to keep DRLD loops really low, depending on my tolerance. I want minimal recon for the rest of this month. DRLD instead of the custom because I want to keep the volume low.

I think DRLD is the best choice for now, as much as I would like to switch over to new Mind’s Eye. I really like the reports coming in. Seems like it could replace Sanguine and give extra benefits such as removing limiting beliefs via visualization. So could partially cover some DRLD.

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Day 4 no listening.

Lots of vivid dreams again. My crush who I found out has a man, was a main feature. I didn’t wake up feeling good or anything. Just neutral on the whole thing. I don’t seem to have much attachment to it, even though there’s still this energy when I see her. It’s just nice having zero attachment.

I also came back around again- I plan to use Paragon and my LBFH/DRLD custom. The custom will only get 30 second loops, I plan. I just think being that it’s a custom with all the modules, I just gotta go that route. 30 seconds because it is a fully loaded title, so I don’t want any overload or recon at least the first cycle. I’m sure I’ll probably end up doing 15 minutes on that last loop of the cycle.

I also wanted to mention that I felt bored. It was the other day and maybe today. But it was so momentary I forgot to mention it. That’s such a rare feeling for me I think the last time I felt bored was like a year ago, I remember mentioning it in my other journal.

I think I’ve got to start working my hamstrings more. Maybe some reverse planks or stability ball hamstring curls for the tendons behind the knees.

Evening update:

I was so tired today and prone to crankiness. But I finally ate some string cheese and some ribs, early dinner. Now I feel good again. Earlier today I was even considering to take 10-15 days off instead of 5. But I think it has more to do with the fact that I had two days of eating whatever I wanted. That gives me 2 weeks of keto again before Christmas. Now I’m not looking forward to all the good food because if I get tired and cranky that’s not fun. Now I’m like zipping around. Might get that workout right before work after all. No walk today though won’t have time after letting the food digest a little.

I guess the error I probably made was not eating much protein. It was all the high sugar junk food. So come Christmas I’m gonna make sure I get in the protein also.

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Day 5 no listening.

I was feeling ready to start back up on light kettlebell swings and turkish getups. But first I think I will try a set of the advanced exercises from Foundation Training. I’ll use those as a warm up circuit. But I think I’m gonna take it slow yet and add in this other routine that will start reintroducing better movement patterns first.

I’m gonna start my next cycle tomorrow. Paragon for 15 minutes. I’ll plan to do only 30 seconds of my LBFH/DRLD custom on the other day.

I think I’m already back in keto, or just about there already. For me it just is what my body seems to prefer it.

Starting the day tired again, would like to just sleep a few more hours. Went to the store feeling a little off. I also do intermittent fasting where I don’t eat until 3pm at the earliest. So we’ll see if getting some food in is the trick.

I did notice I still have moments where I’m led to believe that I must have some of that KB magnetism effect going on. It doesn’t hit everybody, but I still get attention. Nobody comes up and talks to me yet.

I’m still surprised when I think I over did it on a ‘refeed’ day. Where I eat too much of anything. Then sometimes a day sometimes a couple days I look in the mirror and I just look better. Just now noticed that my shoulders and upper body are making me look like I have a narrow waist again. I don’t think I’m as trim as I was last year. But I will be probably the trimmest I’ve been come summer time. About a week ago I was looking in the mirror thinking how I just don’t have the V taper anymore. Now that kind of silhouette is back again.

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Day 1- 15 mins Paragon.

I tried just the Advanced Exercises from Foundation Training. They are actually the easier ones. They’re just building on the basics, which are the most challenging. So I will be doing them 3x a week as a warmup.

I have fallen off my walking streak. It’s like I’m starting over since I brought back on more of my other exercises. Now if I take 5 minutes between a set, I will just walk for that 5 minutes. So I can still get some steps in. I guess if I remember that walking makes me feel good I will just do it early in the day even if it’s just 20-30 minutes.

I’ve had this song in my head since I was out grocery shopping today. All American Rejects - Gives You Hell. I think it’s just the vibe. But it’s one of those songs I’ve only heard on a playlist or radio. I don’t even remember the last time I heard it. Just kind of a catchy song. That’s something that hasn’t happened in awhile, where I get a song that seems to randomly show up in my head.

I also seem to be getting better at not taking on other people’s energy. I can stay centered and they can be angry or whatever. Some people just have that cranky personality. I noticed that recently that at times I think I’m finally free of the empath. If people have an idea of what that is they say oh it’s a gift, but me I think it really did come from trauma and feeling unsafe.

So for me, it’s nice to be freer of it. Something that was very off putting to me was seeing myself act out somebody else’s energy. Like say what they’d say and how they’d say it, and it wouldn’t be a conscious thing. I think there’s a flipside maybe could call a positive side to empath, like say if you could consciously guide it have it work for you instead of it just being a thing that happens to you.

Lately the only people I talk to are really set in their beliefs. The one person who has MS, and wouldn’t even ask anything about subliminals or any other methods. He says basically it is this way, and so I told him that’s why beliefs can be so powerful. To us they are our reality and that’s all there is to it. So he sees no way out of anything besides resigning himself to his status quo. Other people as well, it’s so rare that the only place I’ve met people who do change work on themselves or use subliminals are on th internet. Even if I do meet people who say they’re into spirituality it’s all this candles, and astrology, etc etc. They skip right over the essence.

There’s a tv series that I’ve been watching again. Been having some synchronicities in my real life. Nothing major. Just interesting.

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Day 2: No listening.

Tonight I’m coming to the realization that emotional regulation/control/management is still my main thing. They talk about in sales/negotiation, really anything in life. The most basic thing is to have emotional control. I call it anxiety, something I’ve struggled with for pretty much as long as I can remember.

I’ve definitely made lots of progress. But I’m kind of coming back to that basic thing again. After seeing more clearly again.

That’s why I’m excited about getting a fresh start with my LBFH/DRLD custom. Sanguine is great and Primal is also one of my favorites, and I’m sure KB helped me get more grounded and free of the anxiety. For me it doesn’t get externalized, it was always more in me shutting down and being held back in life. I wasn’t a big talker or expresser.

I’ve got modules in my custom like Foundation, and Eye of The Storm, and Lion IV. Safety net. And a nice mix of spiritual modules. So I think I’m just really looking forward to the journey. Even though I’m only going with 30 seconds, I’m just really excited to see what unfolds.

Last time I ran this custom I think I was still on my Survival Instinct/Spartan custom. It was also in a 3 title stack. This time it’s Paragon and the custom. And I’m taking the conservative approach, just going to ease into it and let it ride.

No worry about my increased sexual energy decreasing yet. At times I still want to run a seduction title, lol.

My custom only has one seduction module, Long Range Seduction. Love Without Attachment says it can help with seduction though. I wish I had Focused Arousal. Then I think I’d be perfectly happy. But I’m sure it will be fine once I start getting my loops in.

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End of night:

I had my playlist ready to go but for whatever reason, I decided to double check. It seems I may have added my SI/Spartan custom to the playlist. So luckily I caught that, and will add the correct file to my playlist. I hadn’t named them and I can’t tell which is which, except by the dates.

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Day 3: 30 seconds of LBFH/DRLD custom.

Here we go!

I’m really excited to be back on my LBFH/DRLD custom. This time I can give it a proper run.

Here’s the breakdown:

LBFH Core
Path of Forgiveness
Solitude
Foundation
Eye of The Storm
Stonelike
Formless Clarity
Lion IV
Inner Voice
Safety Net
You Are Not Alone
Lifeblood Fable
Song of Joy
Depths of Love
Chosen of Venus
Love Without Attachment
Long-Range Seduction
Tyrant
The Merger of Worlds
DRLD Core

End of night:

I was tired and the second half of my work day wasn’t fun at all. Almost thought maybe I should have taken 10-14 day break between cycles. But since I’m only doing 30 seconds of LBFH/DRLD custom, I decided to start.

As I was running out the door for work I must have made my ipod glitch. It’s one with buttons only and you even have to charge it with a headphone type jack. Luckily they still make those. Anyway I accepted that it may have been bricked finally. So I grabbed my sansa clip, which I bought like 5 years ago when I had some other kind of glitch that just needed a hard reset.

Same thing happened to get me a few years ago. got me to buy the sansa clip, as a backup. but I was not gonna sit down and try and fix it as I was running out the door. So I was listening to what was on there and it was a lesson from a course on goals. The lesson was on love. As I was listening I was hearing it new. I remember last time I heard it I was, I don’t know, not into it. But this time tonight, I was hearing with a clarity and I was getting it. Even though my body was tired and I didn’t want to be at work that was a highlight.

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Day 4: No listening.

I think this LBFH/DRLD custom is going to be really good for me. My intention at the time I made it was to really target what I felt were my biggest things to overcome. I also may need to give it more than 4 cycles. So we’ll see how it goes.

Yesterday I felt like at times there was definitely processing going on. Things got shaken up a bit since it’s a new title in my stack. I also had some of the good feelings. But I think part of the journey is when you know what you want, those things that aren’t in alignment come up so we can see them. So we can learn something, or whatever and drop them and move past them.

30 seconds definitely seems like the right fit for this cycle. Recon not overwhelming and still getting some positives.

end of night:

I was having these like little mishaps that never turned into mishaps for the last two days. Slightly stressed but then after awhile I remembered that I have modules for this kind of thing. Then I think at some point they kicked in and was like you know what I actually do feel more relaxed in my body. This was after today, being a little jumpy when I got to work. That’s something that I dont know when I’ve felt like that, just a little on edge. Just some tweaks and adjustments I suppose.

I also had a few moments of silent mind again. Where I was still fully conscious but the mind had no action. I would guess some Formless Clarity module in action. Also could be Foundation and Eye of the storm influence. Even Lion IV.

I did have like 2 cycles with this custom, maybe 2 before LBFH got the NSE update, then I updated it and maybe did 1 more cycle before tapping out. So it’s already in there and the 30 seconds has something to work with.

For the most part still physically tired. I have held myself back from adding more exercises to my routine. Luckily I played it safe because by the end of the week, Sat/Sun are my two hardest working days. I was definitely feeling tired out, and will still take things slow and steady with my physical training.

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Day 5: 15 mins Paragon.

At some point this morning I was half awake. My mind asked myself something like what is the worst thing you’ve done? And a memory came up. I don’t think it was the worst thing, but a memory came up and I don’t remember what happened after that because I must have drifted back off into full sleep. So it seems like that could definitely be Path of Forgiveness at work.

I also remember a dream. From what I remember it was third person perspective. So it was a part of aspect that wanted a haircut. Last week I was wanting a haircut. I have a pony tail and I was wanting to get a haircut. But that want went away and now I’m fine with it again. In the dream I saw myself with a great haircut. I was third person perspective so I was looking at that part and what it wanted. I still don’t want a haircut after waking up. It’s just really interesting to get a glimpse into the inner workings of the mind sometimes.

I went to the drug store to pick up a Christmas card. I had to go to two different ones because something else I wanted was not in stock at the first place. I saw a lady and thought she worked there because of her christmas-y outfit. I couldn’t find what I wanted and went looking and she was there doing something at a shelf. And she had a nametag. So I just asked where this item was and showed her the photo on my phone. She pointed me to it. And that was that. She did have a kind of crabby vibe about her. After the fact now that I’m home I see how I could have brightened her day with some banter. But I fell back into the old habit of being on a mission, getting in and getting out. So at least I can observe myself more and also see where I can do things better.

I forgot to mention that when I was walking into the grocery store today. Sometimes I get anxious, but I noticed lately it’s been moving up the scale more to kind of a don’t mess with me vibe, lol. I remembered my custom modules, and then it was a cue for me to just relax my body. Good things already. I think it’s gonna be a good title for me. Things will balance out.

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Day 6: No listening.

Woke up from a nightmare, sometime early am, heart pounding. Don’t remember what it was about.

Still really excited to get my loops in with the LBFH/DRLD custom. Second listen is tomorrow. 30 seconds.

I ended up accidentally listening to LBFH/DRLD custom for 5-10 seconds. If I play my ipod without selecting a playlist it just plays songs in alphabetical order I think. And since a few of those first songs are on a playlist I usually listen to, I forgot I wasn’t actually playing a playlist.

I still seem to be in hibernation mode, yet I couldn’t sleep all day if I tried. Short days and I work at night. I feel better in the summer. So it’s probably just a winter thing. I might have to start prioritizing that 20-30 minute walk as the first thing I do in the day. It has been getting lost in the shuffle. If I do my other workout in the day then I plan to walk in the evening it hasn’t been getting done.

When I think about dating I still go back to either just having fun or I’d just like to find a cool woman who is fine with me and how I live my life. No need for games or having to argue and fight to keep her from being bored. So I’m still thinking about Heartsong occasionally. I think that’d be my best fit for dating/seduction. But I’m thinking Primal Seduction would be eye opening as well.

I definitely am closer to going back to a wealth focus title as well. I think the new Genesis Joy title has me leaning towards a wealth title also. But I’m sticking to my two titles for four cycles. I don’t want to add anything just yet. If I did it would only be at 30 second loops as well.

I have been noticing a lightness in my body at times. I’m talking physically. Like if you’ve ever trained or lifted or whatever. Sometimes your body just feels light, and you can tell your training is having a positive effect. Like I’m in the mood to get back to jumping and stuff but I will err on the side of caution and just stick to what I’m doing. I still am not fully conditioned to where I’d like to be just yet. But I did add in warming up with a basketball and tossing a ball against the wall. Definitely helps bring back some of that athletic quality to things.

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Day 7: 30 seconds LBFH/DRLD custom.

Some controversy just a quick quote from Eckhart Tolle, though it’s just a variation from any number of sages/enlightened types.

“Situations don’t make you unhappy. They may cause you physical pain, but they don’t make you unhappy. Your thoughts make you unhappy. Your interpretations, the stories you tell yourself make you unhappy.”

The thing is we’ve believed our thoughts that it is what we think it is. You’re doing it to me. I think it’s important to remember that nobody is doing it to themselves on purpose. Intellectual understanding is not enough, it must come via realization, a lived experience. You can tell people that all day, but only when they themselves realize it does it change their world. I see all these people who’ve argued with me and jumped on me when I said something while quoting someone else. Not here, just in general. So I always wonder what it would have been like if they got to talk to the original guys themselves.

There was a time in the early days before I ever tried a subliminal… I was a big believer in love and non-reaction. Like when somebody got triggered and would think they could take it out on me, I wouldn’t react. I’d try to maintain that love feeling. And many times the person saw the error in their actions and words and they probably never apologized but I could tell they realized something. Many even completely changed their tune with me, but luckily, in my opinion, I never saw any of them again. If I did someone else got to deal with them.

Had bosses who loved to do drive-bys. They just had this need to voice their displeasures and opinions, but of course they weren’t opinions they were the absolute reality. Well, they never realized that if it was reality wouldn’t we all experience it the same way? Would we all have the same opinion? I always thought upholding my values and all that was the right way. As time went on, I feel like walking away has always been the right call, usually. I tended to stay in situations seeing the best and hoping others would see I’m not the problem, existing is a problem? But I only hurt myself by staying too long and getting battered and bloodied against the ropes so to speak. Some of us just had to learn the hard way. Then eventually if we keep at it, we find our way.

Lol. Sometimes I still have challenges with this person in my life. Just like with the cat, when I think he’s a good boy he always lets me know that I must have gotten complacent. Nope, he not a good boy, he’s a cat. So I really do end up saying less to this person, but the other option is to really think about what I’m going to say. I have to carefully word things, so naturally, I do sometimes. Just like if I want to mention something off hand or ask about anything I’ll just go you know what I’m not gonna tempt that pandora’s box. I just asked a question and they kind of snapped back at me, of course in the tone that I was wrong and I didn’t know it, lol. But I didn’t react to it. Just got me back on my toes. I guess I will just have to be more clever and try things, but at the same time I don’t want anything besides just to make normal small talk sometimes. That’s why I don’t react, because I’m not trying to be right, and even if I know I still ask a question but it’s answered in a way that i’m wrong and i didn’t know that, even if i did. lol.

Ideally I’d like to stack Will To Power with LBFH/DRLD custom. I think the protective scripting and Love and remove and disconnect with toxic people from DRLD would pair up with The Will To Power. It’s not even that I want power over others. They just make it seem that it’s a necessity. Or the other route is just have total non-reaction and attain imperturbability which is really my goal. Which is why I have resilience because I know that’s not most people’s interest. They’re caught in the program and it’s not even up to me to get them out of it. I guess I might have some hints of the humor from LBFH or the laughter and I also have song of joy. It’s been awhile since I really had that humor as a part of my personality.

I didn’t take the previous interaction personally. I wasn’t even bothered. Bounced back and threw in some humor.

I’m also thinking that my next stack might be the new Genesis Happiness and joy title and The Will To Power. I think that will be important for me. It will have to come before the money and women. It’ll probably help me with that. Paragon now seems to be my set title for 12 cycles.

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Day 8: No listening.

Had more dreams. I have the sense that parts are being resolved. I don’t remember the details just that after waking that is the idea I had from the dreams. Like maybe those not so helpful parts or beliefs, identities, are being taken care of and won’t be a problem or something like that.

I’ve heard vernon howard and others talk about don’t help people. I was under the impression since a kid that we came here to change the world. I found that it seems to be more about changing ourselves because we are the world kind of thing. I want to recommend things that helped me books, programs, subs. Yet I don’t think offline anyway, anyone has ever taken me up on a suggestion. So the route of me looking at the outside world and deciding what’s wrong, it’s not even that there’s no decided it is wrong! Is really not the way to go. If I depend on the outer to be the way that I want then I am a slave to it, I am at it’s mercy. Yet that is never true if I have discovered the inner life. Something beyond thoughts and ideas and right or wrong etc. Yet one can never truly convey that to another, it’s a realization. Oh, and the other part of don’t help people that many have said is, if they come to you for help then you can help them of course. But even then people will ask you for help as long as you don’t have time, they know it’s a no. But when you have the time all of the sudden they don’t want the help.

Yea just being non-reactive and lightening up is nice. I like that way of being.

I’m thinking now that Quantum Limitless should get serious consideration for my next long term major. To have that would also go a long way in helping me in any direction. Money, Learning, Understanding, Dealing with people. Helping get the brain in tip top shape. I think it would be way better for me to start off with that instead of going to the power or sex or anything else. I’ve tried those routes and have grown but after Khan Black, Quantum Limitless seems like the next right step.

As far as physical it seems to be a bit more of a rest week than I planned. I’d rather be hibernating more than anything. I will make an effort to do my physical exercise one of the first things I do in a day. The later it gets the less chance I will do it because I’ll be tired.

It appears as though I’ve planned my course. After 4 cycles with LBFH/DRLD custom. I will switch over to Quantum Limitless. I will use the new Genesis Joy Happiness title for the first run through. Second run through of QL I will onboard Alchemist Singularity.

My first post Christmas listen of LBFH/DRLD will get nudged up to 1 minute 30 seconds. I plan to finish out the cycle at that. Then I will incrementally increase listening time on it next cycle.

End of night:

I guess I had a few people I gave audios too. The last person I thought was my friend from work. I gave him a couple audios, but he ended up ghosting me either because he didn’t get my sense of humor or he fell victim to other people who fell victim to the rumor clique bs. Then another guy I used to work with a long time ago I gave him some audios to help him with dating. He actually listened to them too. Then the last person I tried to tell about subliminals, many years ago I had this course on learning or genius or something and a few other things. He listened to them. Never did the exercises or really studied. Never got any thank you that really helped me though. I just felt like yea this could really help this person. But nowadays not so much. I wish I had eventide module in my custom. I’d like to be more private and just keep things to myself more. Not that I have a bunch of people to tell stuff to anyway.

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Day 9: 15 mins Paragon.

Had lots of dreams again. It really seems like even at 30 seconds I’m getting effects from LBFH/DRLD custom. I was surprised by the dream I woke up from to start the day. It was one of those I didn’t know that was in there kind of things.

Now, it has a couple past cycles to work with, however. But that was like a year ago when I last listened to it.

I don’t have any signs of recon from it at 30 seconds. Looking forward to bumping it up next week to 1:30.

Also, this AM I’m really wishing I was on a seduction title. KB sexual energy still high.

Still in hibernation mode. Gotta really push myself to workout. Also may have to just do the bare minimums again, coast through the last 11 days of the year. It was just last week when I was feeling like I wanted to start up kettlebells again, and the last couple of days where I could at least jump rope again. I did add in some very brief high intensity but light athletic stuff. Throwing a ball against a well, like a chest past focusing on speed and power. Some ball slams. That’s probably what it was, I need to get used to high intensity again.

I don’t want to add a third title to this stack. But if in a few cycles I feel it worth experimenting with, I’d probably choose TWTP. I wouldn’t want to add any extra healing, and I could finally sample TWTP. It’s been on my list for a long time and I think this custom would be what I’d want to stack it with. I’m definitely still planning for QL as my title to run for 12 cycles, so all of next year.

I think I’m just going to be quite happy with my LBFH/DRLD custom this time around. Because it’s only in a two title stack. I’m also starting slow and taking it easy, letting Paragon be the priority.

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Day 10: No listening.

This AM is the first time I’ve gotten what I call that LBFH goodness. Feeling the love and feeling good.

End of night: Had a good night at work. Been awhile. I was focused and mind mostly quiet. I could say I may have seen hints of Formless Clarity and Inner Voice today.

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Day 11: 30 seconds LBFH/DRLD custom.

I’m really curious to find out how Long-Range Seduction will play out in my custom. I randomly thought of someone from my past, and it was about how we were sort of courting. I guess now it’s called a situationship. But she’s married with a kid now so I don’t entertain that anymore.

With how that intuition works when I’ve been dialed in, there were times in the past if I randomly thought of someone I would be expecting them to be the next person I’d see, or stuff like that. It tended to happen that way. It was really subtle but it would happen so much. Or like when I used to have regular friends I’d message, I’d randomly think of them right before they’d message me. It still happens but not to the extent it used to. I haven’t had any really good intuition moments for awhile, but I also don’t have people that I need to talk to on a daily basis anymore. That’s probably one of the factors I’m thinking, if it’s people I’d see or talk to regularly. Although now that I think of it, meditation used to be a regular thing for me. I don’t actively meditate anymore as a practice.

Evening:

I seem to be having some of the healing effects. Slightly raw but not intense emotionally. I would guess Path of Forgiveness has finally come forth consciously on some level. Though LBFH and DRLD cores probably have their own healing as well. There’s been some seeing situations in new ways, I don’t recall specifics and that was just in the last couple of hours. I was also watching a tv show so some of the mood music brought things up at times.