ABC333 Khan Black

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#321

Day 10: No listening.

Woke up after about 7-8 hours feeling like I would be up for the day. Went back to sleep for another 3 hours. I have no prob with getting in a few extra hours of sleep if I can.

To me that 3 hours was worth it, I had a lot of dreams tonight again. I don’t remember any being nightmares. Well I guess even though this was a fun dream and I got to hang out with this famous athlete chick, at the end of the dream we were in my car driving around trying to find her to meet up again.

And somehow my car window broke and the top of window fell off so i had to hold the window in my hands. Probably some anxieties showing from my real life where my car has been aging as well and if I had the money, I’d be replacing it and/or making some repairs that I’m putting off. Also the other side of the car power window motor is actually going out but still works for now. It’s a thing where I won’t even roll that window now because we’re so close to winter and I want to make sure it stays closed.

I notice I have more instances of just being in a good mood every day. Not all day but certain in the mornings and at other times. Sanguine is a keeper.

I was just thinking I should get some kind of sales job where I set my own hours. It would double as a source of income and social interaction. I’m not always big on hanging out and doing all that. I think the right sales gig could fill 2 for 1 slot in my life. Not really high expectations on the social front, it’s more business oriented so it’s not like I’d get bored and wish I could talk to my clients lol. I’ve always wanted a sales job and yet I’m not sure I fit into the standard 9-5 you have to be there all day on strict rules kind of job anymore either.

Have a very mild headache tonight. So it seems I’ve been on the verge of headaches mostly later in the night, tonight this mild headache is a bit earlier. It reminds me that when I was a kid I used to have lots of headaches. I never had migraines though once or twice I may have and it was more triggered by getting overheated from a vehicle that was too hot in the middle of winter.

So I guess it’s possible that Paragon is working on something there.

I got my workout in before bed. I hadn’t done the core training program since I had my painful shin top of foot fluke last week; the “last straw” that got me to swap Love Bomb for Paragon. So it’s been like 5 days since I did the core workout. I was able to work and have been doing a few reps on my new exercise machine without any pain. I worked out and felt the best I’ve had since I started that program again. Felt really strong and gave me more confidence at least with the back. I probably won’t do any impact for a few more weeks though.

#322

Day 11: 15 mins Sanguine, 3 mins Paragon.

#323

Day 12: No listening

I seem to have gotten into some slight recon. I’m not feeling relaxed and at ease around people today. Old negative thoughts are coming up when I’m around people. I’m not identified with them so they’re no trouble. Outwardly though it isn’t affecting my demeanor or behavior. A little tired today too. May take a nap later but I’m on an errand mission today. Gas, groceries, odds and ends. I sat in a line at the gas station, got to the pump and realized I’d left my debit card at home. So now I’ve got to go back and hopefully the line is gone, but gas is not optional before I do the rest of the stuff. Still feeling good and resilient and I know any discomfort and negativity is only temporary.

So it seems even though I’m feeling a bit cranky. Having some internal recon, it didn’t appear to affect others reactions towards me. If anything the people that did notice me had a positive or neutral reaction. Even a couple instances of the thing where I only noticed a couple women checking me out because they noticed me first. From my perspective the way it feels is a stay home in bed kinda day. But i finished all my errands.

Back at home now and chillin. Feeling good again. Still tired. So I’m pretty sure the recon around people is just reconciling some things, which is good.

Yesterday I had a moment that when I’ve seen in others, it was something admirable in my eyes. It was just one of those moments when somebody kind of shot an unconscious arrow my way with their reply to something I said, and it was like I was permeable or just space and it passed right by without me getting any kind of twinge of reaction. I saw it and just appreciated it. It’s like when someone says something to someone, they’re throwing a barb and the other person just doesn’t register it in their emotions or vibration and it just passes right by and the other person is so confused they don’t even make mention of it. Well in my case the other person didn’t notice that they were just acting from their own programmed reactionary habitual stuff. So that was a really cool moment for me.

There was, at least in my perception, some moment of the person telling me or complaining of something they’ve told me probably a dozen times, where they kind of stopped for a moment. It seemed maybe they sensed on some level that I wasn’t lowering my “vibration” to sympathize or empathize with their statements. Later, I calmly reintroduced something I said, probably a month ago. I pointed out to the person that we humans are so good at focusing on what’s wrong or what we don’t like, not that we’re doing it on purpose but that’s how our brains kind of get us.

So what I did was just ask the person what’s good? is there anything that’s good? What do you like? Is there anything that you like. On both counts the person could not come up with anything. And I wasn’t doing it with any attitude just trying to plant a seed I suppose. I’d like the person to at least start to get and see for themselves that if happiness depends on the world and others changing, we will never have it. Even if the world is good, we can find any examples but it might be hard, seemingly impossible, but eventually we can come around…that even if the world is good we can still find ourselves unhappy, and happy or unhappy, despite our best senses, really isn’t dependent on anything, “out there.”

I got ahead of myself again with working out. I finally got to the advanced routine of Foundation training. That 5th and 6th weeks is really challenging. I move up to 60 of their foundation squats and the whole workout is supposed to take like 40-45 mins. I take 5 mins in between circuits though because it is so challenging. I probably won’t be using my cardio machine like I planned. I won’t need to for now. This program will get me pain free and will actually get me in shape, the kind that transfers over to my work life, more stamina is the main thing.

#324

Day 13: 15 mins KB 3, 3 mins Paragon.

Day started pretty good. Then I got a lil cranky. Now feeling like a nap. I’m sure I’ll feel better after working. My month long layoff from my other part time job has ended, so I get to do double duty today and get paid already.

#325

Day 14: No listening.

#326

Day 15: 15 mins Sanguine, 3 mins Paragon.

I’m really tempted to try 15 minute Paragon loops. I seem to have a resting heart rate of 100 bpm. I would really like to get that much lower. Since I haven’t been able to do cardio for the last month, I could also use some enhanced recovery ability. I did just start my second part time cleaning job again. So that’ll give me back my baseline. Cardio will probably become more of a priority once my knees feel good enough. I’ll also have to find some other work arounds, I may have tennis elbow as well. I’ve still got to take it slow since being able to do my cleaning jobs is my number one priority. But it should only take a few weeks to a month to get back to speed and the body adjusted to the work load again. I didn’t get too sore from my first day back. Just my calves and knees are a lil sore today, elbow usually has some level of soreness, nothing major.

I actually did 5 mins of Paragon.

Did some quick errands. To the drug store to grab some baby aspirin. I’ll take that regularly just for some peace of mind.

I was driving and I past one chick, lady, woman, if there around my age I like to say chick. So I passed this chick and we made quick eye contact and I noticed she was smiling kind of giggling to herself. I’m sure it wasn’t because of me but to me I think she was eating something and just having a moment I guess. Then on the way home I passed another chick and she had sunglasses on so I can’t say we made eye contact. But she also kind of smiled to herself. I won’t say it was because of me per se, I’ll say that it’s probably some shift to where I’m now noticing people on a different vibe, I guess a more happier kind of positive vibe. Like it’s probably always there but it seems like a new thing to me, so a perceptual shift.

I’m also noticing a still high sexual energy and libido. Adult warning, and had killer morning wood today, so my circulation is good.

“generally speaking, having morning wood is considered a good indicator of a healthy heart, as it suggests proper blood flow and functioning of the cardiovascular system, which are key factors for heart health.”

I gotta say that in my experiences it’s almost like vibe outweighs appearance. I have a scruffy beard and can’t grow a full beard. I haven’t trimmed it at all. Yet I seem to be getting positive reactions from people when they notice me. But I’m actually feeling a little tired and not in a social mood. For me getting my body healthy and pain free is kind of my priority at the moment.

#327

Day 16: no listening.

Seems like having some of those life storms again. It’s not comfortable. But I’m not putting any extra pressure on myself as far as what’s already there coming up.

Trying to buy a used car. Family is helping out there. Just not fun dealing with them sometimes.

I don’t want to self diagnose but going back like 10 years ago I got this pain in between my ribs. I thought it was from doing turkish get ups and pushups. But it seems like it could be this thing called costochondritis. It’s just where the chest wall, the ribs sternum gets inflamed sometimes. It hasn’t been too bad but just worries me sometimes. Especially now with the what I think is a high pulse of 100. So relaxing and getting rest and starting back up on some kind of cardio training is my main focus right now.

I’m still losing weight and trimming down despite not having been able to do cardio for the last month.

I’m also stopping caffeine so I plan on 30 days off. But that depends on if i get my resting pulse down. So for now I will stick to no stimulants. But I will try increasing my maca intake from 1 teaspoon to 1 tablespoon a day for some extra energy. Maca can help lower blood pressure and give a mood boost. I could use that been a lil crankier lately. I’m a little concerned about any increased libido with increasing my maca intake. But I think I could put the extra energy to good use.

Towards the last half of my listening cycle still seems to be where I get a little recon, nothing major. I’ve only got 5 days left in this 21 day cycle. I’m not sure if I’ll try out KB 4 again or stick to KB 3.

Had a headache all day. Not a bad one. I didn’t take any tylenol or anything. Gotta be one of those quitting caffeine headaches. I have been doing my best at taking 30 days off caffeine every 3-4 months anyway and never had any problem. But this time I was enjoying the caffeine and I do like to keep it to 150mg or less. If I take 300mg of caffeine at a time it seems like I always feel like I want to sleep and crash out after a couple hours. But then I remember I would only take 300mg if I’m really tired, so maybe a combo thing I dunno.

I am not into the swing of things with work yet. I got used to going to bed earlier and waking up earlier in the month i was laid off. So yea, may take a few weeks to readjust to the routine again. I will be staying up slightly later and waking up a little later.

#328

Day 17: 15 mins KB 3, 3 mins Paragon.

It felt good to be at work last night. I worked up just barely a sweat, no huffing and puffing.

I think today I’m starting at least a walking plan. Gonna walk for 20 minutes before I do my Foundation Training. I’m not sure I want to risk getting back on the trampoline just yet but my knees feel good, after a month of setback on knees and back.

I also started doing some squared breathing to start the day. I haven’t been able to get 3x a day in. Also gonna be 3x a day with hibiscus tea as well. Heart healthy drink that can lower blood pressure and just a long list of things. I think it’ll be easier for me to add in 3 cups of tea a day than to add in 3 focused breathing sessions a day. Maybe some resistance there. Although I just had an idea, while i’m waiting for the tea to brew I could do my squared breathing.

I think finishing out this cycle will be good. I’ll get that 5 days off. Then I would expect to be back to those feeling good vibes again. I think I’ve gotten into some recon and the good mood daily isn’t so apparent as it was.

I’m also considering moving on to stage 4 KB. But start at 30 seconds and increase by 30 seconds the whole cycle. I want to test out Paragon at 15 mins.

So I’ll also be looking at finishing out KB 4 and maybe doing a cycle of Paragon solo. That would end/start the year for me.

My first 20 minute walking session is in the books. I think I’m going to like doing cardio actually. I kind of have a mission now. It’s also like this idea of roadwork that I heard. When boxers or fighters do roadwork every day, it’s for cardio and stamina, endurance yet, but they said the main point was to do it as kind of a meditation. Just keep your mind clear and do your roadwork. So you’re also training the mind to be clear and silent.

I didn’t go really intense just a light pace comparable to work. Got a little sweat going raise the heart a little just take it easy now just to stay consistent. Might do mornings and nights at a nice slow pace but enough to get a lil sweat and raise the temp a lil.

#329

Day 18: No listening.

A new trend has started since Sunday. I live in a state where we changed the clocks back one hour. So ever since then I’ve slept about 8 hours exactly and I’m up for the day. I also still want to sleep earlier just can’t on the nights I work.

I finally felt really good again. It was like things just cleared up. I think part of the reason is that I got back into ketosis last night. I think the previous week for whatever reason, I didn’t get into ketosis like I had been. I think my fat loss will pick up again since I’m doing cardio and have started working an extra 3 nights a week again.

That’s one thing that used to happen all the time- whenever I got into I guess a deep ketosis at some point during the week I would just feel better. I might not sleep that much that night either. Last night I did stay up later than I wanted to. I still got 8 hours of sleep though. I think it’s just when my body is switched over to using fat for fuel, at least for me, it actually does make me feel better, more energy. Everybody is different though and some people do better with the carbs. But keto is one diet that works well for me and I think it does help with anxiety as well.

Got a used car last night. It came together pretty effortlessly. No hassles. Straight forward. Surprised I got such a good deal on a little older car but it has low miles, about half of what my car has. It’s in better shape than mine in every way and a couple years newer. It’s also a car that when it hits the miles my car has, it’ll be in much better shape I think. So things look like they’re taken care of on that front.

I’m surprised but not really that walking 60 minutes is actually kind of challenging. It’s not overly stressful but my body just isn’t conditioned to it. So I think the challenge will keep me interested. I’m not doing 60 minutes straight right off the bat. But I do plan to walk every single day this first week I’m only doing 20 minutes just to get a feel for it and ease into it.

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#330

Day 19: 15 mins Sanguine, 15 mins Paragon.

I wanted to try out 15 minutes of Paragon. It was my first time. I felt good after listening.

Based on this first impression of 15 mins Paragon. I’m going to do next cycle as a standard 3 cycle stack. I will listen to paragon for 15 mins every listen day, I’ll listen on the days I listen to Sanguine. I will also move on to stage 4 Khan Black, for the sake of completing my second run through of the whole program. But, I will start at 30 seconds and increase every listening by 30 seconds, until I get to 15 mins. I want to do that because it seems that the updated Khan Black could come anytime. And now I’d be willing to switch to the new Khan Black when it comes out. So I’ll have 2 cycles of KB completed, 3 cycles each stage. I’d like to get one more cycle in, but if new KB comes before then I’ll switch over.

Been having lots of synchronicities lately. Hitting those angel numbers as some people call them again when I look at a clock. Saw a random license plate never that I haven’t seen around before and it was relevant, nothing big. Just seem to be in that synchronicity mode at times. Things I don’t intend to manifest they just happen to pop up. Like you think about something and it’s not really an attachment or intention yet it shows up kind of stuff.

Also it seems like some people just wanna look at me.

#331

Day 20: No listening.

Next cycle will be cycle 4 of Sanguine. 2 of Paragon. 3rd cycle of KB 4, second run through of KB all stages.

I like walking but my knees get a little cranky so that helps to keep me from going too fast. I already feel like I have more energy from daily walking to start my day. Only have done a week of 20 minutes walking daily.

There’s a study that shows that 2:1 breathing results in lower cortisol, lower heart rate, and lower blood pressure over 12 weeks. All it takes it 5-7 minutes twice a day. What that is is just set your timer to your desired time. Then breathe in to a 4 count and exhale for an 8 count. You can adjust that just keep it a 2 to 1 ratio of exhale to inhale if it’s more comfortable.

#332

Day 21: 15 mins KB 3. 30 seconds Paragon.

on the 16th I start up a new cycle. now it’s 5 days off.

Today I saw a woman who I was really attracted to. I haven’t felt that in so long. She’s happily with somebody so it’s whatever. But a while after that it kind of triggered some more feelings from my ex/bad breakup from 3 years ago. I was able to release a lot so it was definitely a win.

I thought upping my maca intake to 1 tablespoon daily might turn me into a horn dog. It hasn’t. If anything I feel more grounded and since I felt that I don’t know how to explain it, that attraction I am kind of wishing I was still on S&S. I saw another cashier later in the day, and there seemed to be some kind of connection. But I haven’t taken advantage of those because I guess my own hangups. I’m not looking for a forever partner but it was like, maybe I could play the field if I really wanted to. So I think that’s some progress on Khan and helping me move past some of those sex/dating hangups showing itself.

Also after the first 2.5 days of no caffeine, no more headaches. I feel a lot better than I did last Sunday. So the breathing and the walking and everything seems to be having positive effects already. I was planning to try walking a half hour this week, maybe I will. It’s always gonna be walking at a nice and easy pace every day. I think that was the missing key in my routine all this time, nice and easy daily walking. One of those things we just never think of until maybe we find out we have high blood pressure or high resting pulse or something.

I just checked my pulse and it’s at 85bpm. So that’s down from 100 bpm last sunday and monday. I stopped checking it and just walked 20 minutes everyday and did the breathing every day. at least 2x a day of boxed breathing and 2:1 breathing. Also was been doing 3 cups a day of hibiscus tea. Also added in some liposomal Vitamin C.

#333

Day 1 of 5 no listening.

Pairing Paragon with Sanguine and Khan Black stage 3 has been pretty great for only one cycle. At first I wasn’t sure it was doing anything but after doing things I thought would help my situation, and at the end of the cycle I feel like I improved in areas I wanted to, I improved a lot more with Paragon in the mix. So I put my money where my mouth is so to speak. I took the actions I thought were necessary and had way more success quickly because Paragon was in the mix. I knew what I wanted and I took actions and it all came together.

At some point I will probably try out Heartsong instead of Sanguine. I just did a quick internet search of ‘health benefits of being in love’ and a long list comes up.

So I have just been considering that idea of using Heartsong in my stack to really boost healing. I think it would boost everything. But at the same time so does Sanguine. I’ve tried the Love Bombs and for whatever reason, they didn’t hit for me like I thought they would. I have always pushed off heartsong because I’m not necessarily looking for that person, or things aren’t ideal for a relationship. But after hearing some reports on Heartsong just for the self benefits, I am looking forward to trying it out. Plus if I met someone and it was mutual I would be okay with that.

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#334

A few weeks ago when I got Paragon, I told someone about it who has MS. They didn’t even ask one question or even continue the discussion. I’m still at a 0, not takers when I’ve told anyone about subliminals.

I’ve been able to fall asleep right away. I would say the sleep scripting from Sanguine has worked. Even if I wake up in the middle of the night I can get to sleep right away. I just woke up from a 20 minute nap. I don’t think I’ve ever been able to do naps let alone a 20 minute nap. I woke up after 5 hours of sleep today I guess because that’s when the customer service line opened. I had to call them because I ordered something and had the wrong shipping address. No hassles they are sending me a new order, they said. It’s sale items and haven’t gotten shipping confirmation yet so either way it’ll work out- I’ll get my order or my money back. I didn’t set my alarm I just happened to wake up right when they opened for business so I stayed up about a half hour to take care of that on the phone. Then I went back to sleep for 3 more hours.

8 hours still seems to be the exact number of hours I sleep for the second week now.

I wanted to mention that after my nap I’ve got a few hours until work. Nothing I need to do. I was feeling some of that wishing I had a good friend to hang out with. So that’s a sign for me that I’m going to need to channel that into some reading/studying doing some inner work/meditation. Just a reminder for myself when I’m seeking that external stimulation, I probably have some things I could work on instead of looking for the next external dopamine hit. One of my things is shopping the local ads, yea I find good deals but I don’t really need more stuff.

I stopped at the store to get out of the house and pick something up. As I was leaving I almost walked into this hot cougar. We didn’t bump each other but she was grabbing a basket and that is right what I was walking by, didn’t expect anyone to come around the corner. But it was like instantly she was kind of ‘struck’ or intrigued by me. She didn’t say anything. But there was a little lingering in her attention. She liked the KB vibes I guess, KB/Sanguine.

#335

I went to a couple of stores today.

I was just walking at a casual pace much slower than normal. It was like as long as I was just going about my life women would look at me. Then when I noticed they would look away. So it seems it was a matter of consciousness. When I was just living my life it was like they were interested, but as soon as I focused more outer and was looking to see if these women were actually into me they weren’t. So to me that’s just an example of consciousness and when I shifted to wanting something then they weren’t interested.

I also saw a couple of people smile at me. I was walking out of one store and a woman smiled at me, but I was able to just observe and be present and I noticed how I felt better because she smiled at me. Even though it was one of those friendly acknowledging smiles in passing, not someone interested in talking or anything.

I also noticed that I probably appeared more serious yet underneath that I was still aware of some playfulness and sometimes the good feelings of just being would flow through. So that was interesting. Sometimes I would almost laugh to myself because being present and not wanting anything just feels good.

Now that I’m home I have some feelings coming up. It seems to be about socializing and maybe not having a goal to channel my energy into working on. I also will probably try and take a nap. I woke up early because I thought an appointment was today, but it’s not.

Now I have my eye on trying out Limitless. I think it would help me with reading/studying and applying a lot of the knowledge I have. I’ve read lots of sales books and just dealing with people but wasn’t that great at applying it. I noticed lately I’m started to see more clearly and I think that’s thanks to Sanguine.

Just that I want to give Paragon a few more cycles. I also will chalk it up to the sneaky title switching recon. I feel like I have more to gain from Sanguine but I want to fit Limitless in there actually above Heartsong at this time.

The introspection and longer journal entries has also gotta be Sanguine’s influence.

This is only the second time I’d say I’m having any type of recon on a 5 day washout. There seems to be some work going on, resolving the negativity- Sanguine doing it’s job. Probably backed by KB 3, and Paragon may be helping to target anything influencing that physical healing as well.

I haven’t had any wanting to switch recon in quite some time. So I think this is a necessary process and I’ll just stick with it. Same stack next cycle only difference is going to be moving to KB 4, and starting KB 4 at 30 seconds every listen until I get to 15 minutes.

#336

Got 10 hours of sleep had some vivd dreams, though I don’t remember the content.

I am going to say that I needed the 10 hours to process whatever was reconning. I do feel better today, just a little tired. Like a little weight off the shoulders after my long sleep.

Seems to be whatever was coming up, was just a log jam. Now I have more things coming through but they’re not as heavy or dense. Just things I can consciously process with ease. I would say it was more some resistance or a block to letting some junk come up consciously.

So for me, I think there’s definitely some healing type component to regular Sanguine. To be Sanguine there’s just things that need to be reconciled for me to really flow with it and that seems to be happening. Mostly it is more of the good mood vibe but then at times I get surprised because it seems to have some depth and I gotta move through some stuff before coming out on top again.

Was able to do my 30 minute walk with knee support only on my left leg. Both knees were sore but finally it’s just the left one I gotta put on the support for the walk.

I also wanted to try out the new Spartan Apex, but I think since I already am having to hold myself back and take things slow, I’ll hold off on that. Paragon will definitely be the right title for the next few cycles.

For now I think Sanguine is really my title to stick with, and Khan Black won’t go anywhere. Paragon I think I’ll give it 4 cycles.

I previously had an idea for a Sanguine custom right before I got caught up in that title switching recon. But now the idea was that I’d maybe do a Sanguine/Mind’s Eye custom. I’d like to add in elements of Limitless, at least the connection between the unconscious/conscious mind, some spiritual titles. The Love Without Attachment and I forget the other Love module.

I haven’t put together a prototype yet but I think I will do that just to get the wheels rolling. I’d really like to stick with Sanguine maybe indefinitely. And that only leaves one spot that I could switch, the Paragon slot. I’m definitely eyeing Limitless or Emperor Daddy, Heartsong not so much anymore.

I really like the idea of being more general in terms of Sanguine and Mind’s Eye, those would really impact all areas of my life based on whatever I need at the time. I think those two would most impact my life, especially since they would work with whatever the circumstances are that I’m working on at the time.

It was a nice check in to start brainstorming a new custom. It shows me that things that seemed so urgent and pressing aren’t really problems anymore. I don’t feel any need for fearsome, fenrir, limiting people remover, etc. It’s like I can more focus on what I want rather than keeping away or getting rid of what I don’t want now.

#337

Yea I am pretty sure I’ve got my Sanguine/Mind’s Eye custom all worked out. So my new plan is to have it by the end of the year.

I just feel like I would like to spend a whole year with Sanguine and adding Mind’s Eye and all the modules will just give me something really good.

It’s not as spiritual as I wanted but it’s more oriented to taking advantage of Sanguine and Mind’s Eye. Just a feel good, a little more customized healing and success oriented banger. I’d say it leans towards my idea of Daredevil just being more general with the success feel good love adventurous leaning modules, with the Mind’s Eye for the manifestation touch. I’m even diving in and finally going to utilize the Furious Ascent module just for good measure, but I also have Safety Net for that balance.

Mind’s Eye is another title that doesn’t have many reports on it, at least the latest version. Hopefully I won’t be in the same situation as my last custom. I made it and like a month or two later the new version came out. That happened with Spartan Apex. I guess I’ll just be patient and plan for the end of december to have it made.

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#338

You know yoy can still buy minds eye in a custom and when the new one comes out you can just update the custom to have the latest version

#339

Last time I did that I still had to pay extra for the update rebuild.

#340

Yeah it costs 50$ but atleast you will be able to process the newer one easier as youve listened to the older one already