Day 16 No Listening.
Had lots of dreams last night. I don’t remember them but it was just like living another life or something. Kind of interesting.
Day 17: 15 mins KB2.
Again with the dreams, every night. I don’t remember what it was about. I guess just processing things and showing me that the work is still taking place behind the scenes. So still progress. I’m looking forward to moving on to KB3. I think KB2 might be a little rough at times. I haven’t noticed any increase sensitivity or awareness of energy this time around, well I’ve had a couple moments. I’m sure at some point I’ll have more insights.
Day 18: No listening.
I’m looking forward to my 5 days off. Then I’ll start stage 3 KB. So far 15 mins has been doable for me.
As far as what’s after 12 cycles of LB. I’m drawn to DRR. I wouldn’t tell everybody the healing path is for them when it comes to the subliminals. But for me and my inner bluerint, it seems the best next step. DRR instead of Genesis. I would plan to run only two titles if that’s the case- DRR and KB.
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Day 19: 15 mins LB. 15 mins Sanguine.
Day 20: No listening.
Day 21: 15 mins KB2.
Today I realized that I’m mostly over the ex/bad breakup thing. It’s been just about 3 years. If I’m not 100% over it I think at least I’m over the attachment to it. It’s not strong enough to keep me hooked anymore.
I also realized that I should have picked a healing title, any healing title and that would have sped up my process or time in getting over it. lol. I think at times I need to experiment, just like everyone else. So I think it was that I didn’t want to face the feelings and pain, and instead wanted to try focusing on the more positive side I guess. Meeting more women with Wanted and SSX and then Primal.
But I came full circle and am eyeing DRR as my next title. It will most likely be Spartan Apex first as I decide on the proper time to start DRR. I want to get my body healed up and in the best shape it can be in. I could use some help there and also help with getting my mind bringing me the right routines, exercises to help my specific needs.
Next up after 5 days of no listening: Cycle 8 LB, Cycle 3 Sanguine, KB 3(2nd run through at 1 cycle per stage).
I felt like I was a bit charged up today energetically. Not libido but high sexual energy, or just energy in general, not like get up and go but in terms of the flow in the energy system. on this last day of my cycle. This would be the first day I really noticed that this time around. I also have been on an unplanned 48 hour fast. But I just ate and now will probably get a good night’s sleep tonight.
First day of 5 no listening. I start back up on 10/21.
I got probably 10 hours of sleep I’m guessing. Almost seems too long but definitely feeling like it’s a rest day for sure.
It wasn’t until yesterday that I really noticed things energetically. I felt some more space at times inner space. So I feel like this really is a good title and just needs time, also my experience is that it may seem like nothing is happening or you might not notice anything then one day it kind of hits you. That yea maybe I still don’t know exactly what’s going on but it’s good.
I also notice that my stack has gotten me more relaxed in some interactions. Just a more it’s a nice day good mood kind of vibe. So I can’t say either way I’ll just say the combo of LB and Sanguine is nice. It’s also good for me to make a note since it can be subtle, yet I’m sure the benefits ripple through all aspects of life. Sometimes I think I need the sexier titles and that’s not always the case, just need to keep sailing along on course for awhile.
I was just talking with somebody, or trying to. I guess I was saying facts, and at first they weren’t paying attention. My first mistake, not realizing that they’re already on their train of thought along with whatever they were doing.
Then it turned into every time I said something of course this person knows all the answers, lol. Instead of being offended I realized what was happening. I decided a little experimentation was in order. Not out of spite or annoyance or anything, just curiosity I guess.
So I had to ask the person what the easiest way for me to make a million dollars is. They never had that much money, but of course they answer. Inherit it but there’s nobody to inherit it from, so I don’t know. So that got the ball rolling.
Then I just started asking questions that I knew would get an I don’t know answer. They weren’t offended but it was just interesting to see in real time how much we as humans can get so caught up in that mind program. It’s automatic and it’s like running us.
I just notice in myself that my default isn’t to be reactive and get going like that, mine is just to more contemplate a feeling, no so much contemplate but rest in just quiet mind. But I do have my moments as well.
Earlier today I was noticing how I was kind of getting caught up in things myself but I at least noticed it and it didn’t keep running my show outside of my awareness.
It seems that things are flowing again. I cleared out a lot of resistance and debris. So I’m having insights into just interactions. The Laws of Human nature if you will. I still haven’t read any of that Robert Greene stuff yet.
I was talking to the same person again this morning. It seems things are a lot smoother and so they’ll even be more softer in their communications. So seems like a bit of awareness maybe on their part. But it’s all so natural. It’s not because I pointed anything out or argued about it or felt like they needed to change. As my own stuff gets cleared up, my external changes. That’s what I like about self development.
When I first got into that kind of stuff it was all about me learning and reading as much as I could. Yet I was never able to really learn or apply much. I was so backed up with my resistance and programs and I felt like I was doing something I shouldn’t. That was probably my own programming and upbringing.
I learned about pick up, and sales, and changework etc. But now I’ve been having some insights and new experiences and it wasn’t from more reading or studying. It’s like a natural byproduct of having my own river flowing more smoothly.
So this will have big dividends as time goes on and just in my daily life. I still have some stickiness around dating because in my experience the hypergamy I’ll call it theory seems to be what it comes down to. Pick up didn’t seem to stand the test of time and it’s maybe not about falling in love with somebody and it being about what I thought. It’s more like you gotta do the opposite of your programming to get the women you want. Maybe in time I’ll really start to get it and be okay with it. Like how I’ve started to have insights into just general communication and relating stuff. It’s like why I had so many women who wanted me but I didnt’ want them, the ones I didn’t want seemed repelled. So it seems like you gotta be the guy the women want but it’s not about falling in love, and all that, that will repel them. Yet it still seems like there are people who fall in love, but at the same time over the years I’ve seen a majority of couples not last. Yet some seem to be able to fall in love with each other and they stay together, maybe I just haven’t seen behind the closed doors and it’s not all how I think it appears.
I’m still not sure about how to get my money situation right. I’d like to have more money but I don’t want more work. Things still seem like effort and being tired and trying to keep up my physical fitness. Yesterday I saw a video of someone who is definitely a multi millionaire who says she lifts like 1x a week. She found that too much lifting actually takes away on her energy and that goes towards the physical recovery. I think between my job and working out I can relate. So I might have to change up my mentality instead of trying to get back to the levels of my athletic days, maybe I just be more practical with my physical fitness. Find things that will contribute to my energy and performance in my regular life instead of things that are leaving with me less energy to, focus on finally making some good money and other things. So instead of my trying to be able to be explosive and athletic as possible, I might shift to more cardio with some strength, and do things that would get me in shape to do things like hiking and exploring.
I did notice yesterday that when I was shopping. I wasn’t checking any women out. It’s like I knew since I wasn’t going to be talking to them or attempting to get a date that it just didn’t serve my energy. There was one woman I saw as soon as I got in. She was with her son. I think she was into me. I went to get my things and it’s almost as though she was hovering. I stopped a couple times to just adjust somethings and I noticed she was stopped nearby too. Then I’d go back to walking and she’d walk too. Like she was doing that hovering thing they sometimes do where they want you to talk to them. But I wasn’t interested.
Went to the drug store today to grab some halloween candy. I got to the checkout and one tall woman was checking me out. Then I got to self checkout line and another woman at the checkout was giving me all the indications that she really wanted to get to interact with me. I didn’t give them any signs that I was looking for any interactions though. Whereas if they hadn’t been checking me out and hadn’t even noticed me I would have probably taken a glance at them to check them out. I am going to be really interested to see what a few more cycles of Sanguine will bring, I still could use some work there.
So my 5 day washout is over. I had to double check because I wasn’t counting days and it went by so fast.
So tomorrow is 15 mins KB3.
More of the ex/bad breakup junk is washing through today. I haven’t done any focused work on it like letting it go. Just letting it runs its course. I gotta workout and get to work, and that usually puts me in a better state of mind if I’ve been in a lower mood.
Well just as I made note of what was washing through it seems to be done for now. Now I’m feeling almost this vibrational hum in my lips and some in my body. My first run through of KB I chalked it up to possibly some energy work, freeing up blockages. So this is still my theory based on this experience again.
Tomorrow, Monday is actually day 1 of my next cycle with KB3.
Day 1 of 21: 15 mins KB 3.
This will be my second round of Khan Black (1st round did 2 cycles per stage, this cycle -1)
This will be cycle 8 of Love Bomb
This will be cycle 3 of Sanguine, I’m most interested in seeing how good things get the longer I use this one.
I do have at times the wanting to switch titles recon occasionally. But I’m able to stick with it as I notice changes in my experience. Sometimes it’s been a bit subtle but there are definitely changes and so I think sticking with titles longer is the way to go. Especially this stack since I consider it more fundamental stuff. Maybe the boring foundational kind of stuff so we can do all the fun exciting stuff later and benefit more.
I had one moment today. Somebody who was quick to point out how they thought I didn’t have any patience, in the past. Today I was doing something for them that I’d never done before either, but I wasn’t bothered and was calm and patient without trying. So I could see how that person was getting frustrated and impatient. I didn’t need to point it out. I don’t know if they saw something new either. Patience is not something I consciously have worked on, so I’d say it’s some Sanguine influence. I would say I still have feelings too, so sometimes I might get frustrated and impatient it’s just with awareness of myself it’s manageable and not a problem. I also don’t feel bad about such moments because generally it’s my experience that I’d still say a majority of people would never be aware of their own moments, yet they’re quick to point out what they see as someone elses shortcomings.
Day 2: No Listening.
Last night I felt like more space within, like this emptiness but a good emptiness, and kind of experienced some effortlessness. A taste of no resistance, I would guess. So I was thinking that maybe stage 1 and 2 of KB had gotten washed through and this was a taste of stage 3, and it was only my first listen to stage 3 in this cycle. So that was an interesting experience.
My first run through of KB I didn’t notice anything major. After going through the stages a second time I feel like I’m a bit more attuned to the subtleties at times of whatever is going on. But I would say my experience last night was the highlight so far. After typing out this journal entry that could be some Sanguine/Khan Black combo work going on.
I don’t know if it’s that I’m notice it more since my loop of KB3- but I feel like my sex drive/libido/sexual energy is definitely turned up. I was thinking back and feel like I’ve always had a high level of sexual energy naturally. I was just held back by my own anxieties and fears I suppose. I was considering how they say successful men have a high sex energy, and I think I’ve always had that but I got in my own way so it didn’t translate into material success, but at the same time due to the many “failures” that has turned me towards spiritual success and have had some extraordinary experiences in that realm. Yet of course, it’s not about special abilities and stuff, at least not for me. It’s just realizing that ‘I am’ thing.
So just to remind myself when I get those urges to switch titles, this is the good stuff. Working on those self love issues with LB, working on those fears and calming the nervous system with Sanguine and unleashing and mastering the sexual energy with Khan Black.
Day 3: 15 mins LB, 15 mins Sanguine.
So far LB and Sanguine haven’t been the feel good combo that I would have originally assumed. Surprisingly they have gone deep and done some healing. I still can’t put my finger on LB even though I’ve used it for 7 cycles. To me it seems subtle but that doesn’t mean there haven’t been deep changes, things I probably haven’t noticed in myself.
I kind of thought I’d always be blissed out or something maybe. But no it’s more of an every day level that is more practical for daily life I’d say. I definitely get healing at times and the healing goes deeper than I am consciously aware of any “highs.” An increase in my daily mood a few notches for sure and not punishing myself with as much worry and fear or anxiety. So those are pretty big things on a practical level.
Definitely having more encounters with this person, a family member. They just come across as a know it all and intentional or not they have zero awareness that they tend towards replying, no matter what it is, in a manner that somehow makes me out to be wrong or would make me feel that way. For awhile when I was going through lots of social healing I started to notice that pattern and would get involved in argument. Their pattern is still there and now I’m just seeing that well is it really their communication style, because they’re not gonna change why would they? Or is it my reaction? Because those times I don’t have a reaction, I always have that awareness but to me it’s never anything even worth arguing about. Almost a kind of the person just has a need to feel superior because they’ve long forgotten that they probably feel inferior, and that’s what it did for me. Before I was aware I got that program that had me feeling inferior and really crippled my social development.
Day 4: No listening.
Noticing some more attention. It’s a mixed bag. Some people don’t notice me at all, which is fine. Some women definitely are looking, but their body language sometimes isn’t an invitation, so maybe taken. Today I was at the store and there was an old couple at the self check out beside me. The woman was scanning the groceries and the husband seemed to be just staring at me. I wasn’t sure why so I kept checking myself out. Then I left and the guy makes sure to adjust his cart so it’s not in my way.
After I left I was reminded of my time with Chosen and LBFH. At times it was like I could tell who was really “good” or vibing high. I haven’t had much of that but in the past few days I just noticed some things. Like there’s some who I get friendly vibes from and then there’s the I’m invisible to them vibes. Nothing as wild as Chosen LBFH, but seems to have picked up since starting stage 3 KB.
I was also reminded of something- As I was walking around today I happened to notice that some people didn’t seem to have any life energy in them. Like zero vitality/vibrance, so I would probably say their vital force sexual/energy was depleted and they were possible depressed, lethargic, lifeless kind of vibe. Not that they were actually dead but just in terms of their energy or you might say aura and just their whole demeanor.
Day 5: 15 mins KB 3.
It just occurred to me that I have a more relaxed attitude about subliminals. It’s not a big deal for me to try and push harder and make the changes happen really fast. What I really am after is to get more to my personal zero point, rather than add more on.
So I think Sanguine influence is a great thing. When my life works best is not when I’m forcing things, it’s more of that relaxed attitude and for whatever reason things just working out. Being in a flow or harmony with life rather than bending it to what I think it should be or forcing it to be other than it is.
Still kind of uncovering my own reactions to how people communicate with me sometimes. It just comes from my programming or resistance to programming of parents or so called authorities. In my view of things everybody has their own inner compass, or guidance system. But we all get trained out of that by people who’ve been trained out of theirs. So naturally there will be a clash between those who are more in touch with their inner guidance and those who are out of touch. That programming creates the disharmony because it’s out of touch with whatever the source is, the source whatever name you want to call it, the intelligence of all things.
I also wanted to make note of some more Sanguine type stuff. When I don’t have resistance and I’m not forcing, I’m more in touch with my own inner guidance, thus I act when necessary and am fine if I don’t need to take action. One thing I really saw a few years ago was that if it’s not necessary, we humans tend to be really good at it. lol. I don’t mean that as an insult because I’m sure I’ve done it too, just an observation. For me if I’m in resistance or feeling like I have to do something, I tend to go into procrastination. When I’m not in that need to, must, efforting state then I tend to act more from effortlessness and doing whatever is needed is just way easier.
I think out of necessity I’m going to have to drop Love Bomb at this time. I’m going to get on Paragon. I had a tweaked back to start the month along with a pair of strained knees. Haven’t been back to my normal work out routine but found something that works great for my back. I also have I don’t know if it’s tennis elbow or what but it doesn’t bother me much, and now I may have some nerve pain in one of my shins. Can’t be splints because I’ve basically been resting this whole month and haven’t done any impact besides walking for practical reasons. So yea, Paragon is going into my stack starting Sunday from here forward.
I haven’t gotten a chiropractic adjustment as it’s been so long. I’d have to pay extra to be treated as a new patient again and pay the initial charges again. I don’t have the extra money for that, right now. I was laid off from one of my jobs for this month also.
Actually I’m going to listen to a loop right now because I’m feeling a bit anxious and concerned with my physical body situation.
I didn’t want to overdo it so I did 3 mins of Paragon. I’ll do 30 seconds on my next listen on Sunday. We’ll see how the dreams go tonight.
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Day 6: No listening.
Had lots of dreams as usual last night. I kinda wish maybe one line from the dream custom module was in all titles. Since I don’t have much of a real life, I have a very active dream life. I’m still tempted to learn lucid dreaming, if it doesn’t make me tired in my real life.
My fluke pain in my shin area did not return. Somebody said maybe it was just a broken blood vessel or something. They said it really hurts but doesn’t leave a sign though. I’m going to stick with Paragon though just because of all the physical pain and tweaks I’ve been dealing with this month. I still think it was possibly a nerve pain or some kind of strain or pull, top of the shin and foot muscles.
Since I’m on Paragon, I must just pull the breaks on Khan Black stage 4 and just ride out the rest of the year on Stage 3. So I’d just potentially keep my stack the exact same as it is now, for the remainder of the calendar year. New KB I guess is anticipated for early next year I think? That’s fine with me. I’m happy to stick with this stack I think it’ll be great for me.
Day 7: 3 mins Paragon, 15 mins Sanguine.
I’m keeping paragon at 3 mins and going to listen every listening day this cycle.
I want to keep the recon potential low and I’m hoping I don’t get more hungry. This week I finally got into deeper ketosis after having an easy first month back on. Then I had like two weeks where I was hungry again, then I finished this week deeper into ketosis where I wasn’t even looking forward to my refeed high calorie carb day.
Last two nights I have ended the night kind of on the verge of a headache.
Might be having some love bomb bloom going on during the day also. So I might notice more from LB now that I’ve taken it out of my stack.
I haven’t slept more yet but I got 8 hours last night and was already napping when I got home from work. I feel like I could be in bed sleeping for the night and like 3-4 hours earlier than my normal bed time.
Day 8: no listening.
I woke up after 8 hours, thinking and feeling like I was up for the day. But I was able to go back to sleep for a full 10 hours.
I’m currently experience heightened mood- like I would say this has to be some kind of LB bloom already. It also is right in line with Sanguine starting to kick in also. I’m feeling really good in my feels. My shin/ankle area is ever so slightly sore, so that has me thinking it must’ve been some kind of strain/pull that I experienced a few days ago, it was so painful for just a few moments though.
I can’t wait until my physical body catches up with this feeling good stuff and gets on the same level again. I was doing some jumping rope and had no problems until I tweaked my back and had to stop my normal workout routine. I’m still coming back. Doing a 6 week program that’s focused on the core and relieving back pain. It’ll stay in my routine from here on out probably as a warmup. I’m on week 5 and was feeling good again. Knees weren’t sore, back was feeling okay. So then I got a strain quickly going up stairs and two days later when I got up fast out of bed. That’s when I decided it’s Paragon time.
For whatever reason my body doesn’t seem to be happy if I take more than a week off, it’s like I used to get sore from not working out. So I’m looking to find that proper balance in training, like I gotta get it fine tuned to where I know I can work out with like jumping athletic for so long before I need to ease off and switch to the core training baseline stuff. I was always kind of going off intuition and would take a week off working out every now and then, but just found that my body didn’t seem to be as resilient as it once was. I also ended up pushing off a physical title for a few years, like paragon or Spartan Apex because I wanted to really get through a lot of the inner healing work first.
I’m thinking that removing from LB from my stack has been actually a good thing so far. At least in terms of the load. I never felt like I was overloaded but it seems like 3 subs at 15 mins might not be ideal. So 2 at 15 with Paragon at 3 mins every listening day seems to help processing speed up a bit more. Could also be why I never seemed to notice big things from LB.
When i get back to normal workouts in a month or so, my plan is to do what I used to think was the easy warm up stuff. That’s gonna be more of my main workout. I found that doing this core program, my stamina when I work my job has increased and I haven’t even been able to do any cardio or walking. I do want to start training as thought I’m a hiker. I can hopefully do that for many years to come. Not only that but walking on inclines and sometimes unpredictable conditions means I’d have to have balance, coordination, strength, stamina/endurance, cardio, agility, all things that will carry over into every day life better than just trying to get as strong as possible with the basic weightlifting/bodybuilding exercises.
Paragon is a title I kept putting off and I think it’s pretty necessary. Which got me thinking that another title I’ve been putting off for so long is Heartsong.
I do feel like Sanguine was the right title for me above Love Bomb. I’ve only been on Sanguine for 2 cycles, currently on my 3rd cycle ( I gotta double check that) with it. If anything Sanguine was the title for me to run before Love Bomb, probably.
So for now it seems Sanguine is still my number 1 title of all time, that’s like the title I’d never remove from my stack. Khan Black seems like another title I just won’t ever get off of either. So that leaves me with one slot that is my whatever seems to fit my most immediate goals. Right now it became pain relief, physical healing, physical recovery. So I think my stack might be set for certainly the next 4 cycles.
The Heartsong report that has me most intrigued is someone who doesn’t appear to be using to find their partner. It sounds like it’s working wonders in ways that I would’ve expected from Love Bomb. I held off because I am not looking for my soulmate or anything, but from that latest report it has me thinking that I was ignoring my inner guide and doing what I thought intellectually was best, Love Bomb. I’m sure it benefited me, but I think Heartsong will click better than LB. Sanguine seems to be the title clicking for me. I’m definitely staying put on this stack for the rest of the year though.
I just looked over the Love Bomb copy. What I’d say most came through for me with my time on Love Bomb was maybe the internal strength. In my self assessment I wouldn’t say that I was able to bring to life the objectives. From my short time on the new Sanguine, it seems that Sanguine is one of the true foundational titles for me personally. After spending sufficient time on Sanguine I think my next go around with Love Bomb would go much better, but I plan to test out Heartsong before I’d give Love Bomb another spin. I also feel like I gained more from Primal as well and any internal strength was aided and brought out by that title. Could be that I have some unseen block, or LB just doesn’t gel with my makeup the way I thought it would.
When I was on LBFH there was a neighbor lady who was moving out. I’d never spoken to her but as she was moving out and I was just leaving or something. She commented to someone that was helping she said to the guy, can you feel love coming from him? something like that, the guy stopped and looked at me and said yea. So I don’t think I could spend that much time with Love Bomb and have no real results, I just think maybe to me they’re more subtle changes and maybe I’ll get more of that bloom effect.
Day 9: 15 mins KB 3, 3 mins Paragon.
I’m not sure where I got all the introspection from lately. Perhaps it is an initial benefit of Sanguine kicking in. If I added Limitless Executive maybe I’d edit it all and have a book, lol.
My sexual energy is still high, but it’s the new normal. In the past couple weeks I was saying it seem to have risen, but now it’s like the normal thing. I was doing some driving today and I passed a few women, not women I’d be interested in but I was aware of my sexual energy, it wasn’t in a creepy way and I’m sure it’ll normalize/stabilize but it’s still kind of new. More of a that’s interesting and I was laughing about it when I noticed in, not taking it too seriously. These women didn’t seem to notice me at all or if they did they certainly didn’t give any indications that they noticed me. They were probably older than me up to 10 years maybe. But people do think I’m a lot younger than I look.
I got myself one of those old cardio rider machines. Kind of like a rower motion but sort of like a combo leg press back row thing for cardio. I was able to get it for a steal of a deal and at the very least I can hop on it every day for however long I like, whenever I like. No impact, very little if any chance of injury and will help my body maintain and maybe increase some baseline level of conditioning- that carries over into daily activity.
I could also see that this level of openess and willingness to look at myself and journal, self explore, could be a side effect of my 7 cycles with Love Bomb.
I still have to listen to my loops. I got up and started my day and been a bit more active today, not getting anything important done but just kind of staying in motion.
I was reading through the Daredevil thread last night. It still intrigues me, that title does. At my very best I think I really can be a daredevil. I’ve had some of my peak moments in the past when I would say I was in full on daredevil mode, not risky per se just that whole kind of vibe. I don’t have many moments of that, I was usually reserved and unkowingly suppressed emotionally, so my focus has been healing a majority of the time. Daredevil or Genesis seems to fit the bill of tapping me back into what I might call the best version of myself.
15 mins of KB 3 followed by about 1 minute 40 seconds of Paragon. I just got this sensation that got me to stop before the planned 3 minutes. I don’t want to really push it with Paragon and am just kind of feeling it out this first cycle with it. I’m also listening every listening day to Paragon. Been an hour or two and no ill effects. I feel like at times I may be getting more sensitive to noticing some energy with the KB 3.