ABC333 Khan Black

Day 1: 15 mins KB 1.

I didn’t get the feel good tinglies until I got close to the 15 min mark. I don’t know if that means anything but I also haven’t been meditating and so will have to get back into it. I use my listening time as a meditation. Just the relax and clear the mind variety.

I’m still not over my ex, at least in terms of the thoughts playing themselves out. The intense emotions are moved through I think. So I’ve been thinking that Heartsong would be good to meet someone so I can forget about her.

But I’m also planning to run Sanguine: The Elixir after 4 cycles of regular Sanguine. So as far as getting over a breakup, I don’t think LB gets it done at least for me. I’m 3 years out now and have done LBFH/Limit Destroyer, regular LB, Wanted, new Primal, KB, Chosen Way of Nature, Regular Chosen. I guess I should’ve just got with one of the healing titles such as Regeneration and The Elixir and paired it with Love Bomb.

But I wanted the results of the bigger titles and after all that I do feel like I jumped ahead. Thus my return to a basic stack to start from the ground up.

Evening Update:

I had lots of dreams. I listened this morning and went back to sleep. I would say healing dreams of some sort. I’ve also already head long lost memories come up, nothing major. Just things coming to mind. I wouldn’t have said they have anything to do with sexual healing, but since that could be like a basic thing with survial, sex and survival, everything else could get mucked up in it. It could be maybe just a theory that it could be where some of the stuff starts. But because it’s so basic that we think it’s something else. I know it’s like what does a baby know about sex? Nothing. I’d agree. I’m speaking more to the basic fundamental energies, and that energy is just a part of the system. I’m just noticing that whatever is coming up for me isn’t directly sex related yet it’s definitely healing type stuff. Pulling up memories not having anything at least consciously to do with sex. I guess what I’m trying to say is that the sex energy may very well be the same as that fundamental creative energy.

The first stage of The Crucible is an intense and transformative healing process. This stage delves deep into your psyche, targeting and repairing any traumas, insecurities, or limiting beliefs surrounding your sexual energy and sexuality. As you immerse yourself in this healing stage, you will feel the shackles that once bound you to mediocrity shatter, and a newfound sense of freedom will surge through your being.

Day 2: No listening.

Definitely feel like things are getting worked on already from my first loop of KB 1 this cycle. I think I will be very happy to be tag teaming Love Bomb and Sanguine.

Seems to have stirred up some old negative thought patterns. They are greatly diminished from what they were when they used to come up.

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Day 3: 15 mins New Love Bomb, 15 mins Sanguine.

I’ve been kind of shifting gears in terms of how I’m thinking of future titles. Now it’s more like healing/deleting the old patterns and then maybe rewiring with Quantum Limitless or Limitless. And I’m also more open to Genesis and Daredevil now. I also would sooner than later like to get started on something with wealth too, definitely EOG but I’d try Genesis. So far I’m not feeling like I need an alpha title.

I just saw a controversial take someone had. They said the biggest mindf**** is finding out that rich people are some of the kindest most empathetic people you can meet. I used to not think so but I’ve never met like rich rich people I met what I thought was rich, just higher up middle class. Those people never tip and think they’re doing you a favor by not giving you a tip.

It’s one of those things that I think is why I had so many problems working all these entry level jobs. Nobody was happy. They all wanted to tear you down if you were happy, even if you were just doing your job minding your own business. It’s one of those angles on that once you reach a certain status you kind of got to get away from the masses. Not because you’re better than them but because you don’t want those problems anymore.

So I’d read all these books on success and sales and whatever. And it threw me for a tailspin because nobody around me was like that. They didn’t have those values. They only had the victim card and wanted to play the oppressed card. They weren’t willing to do any work to improve their situation.

Kind of what I’ve settled on, staying away from the masses as much as I can. But I’m not rich, but that’s what the rich do. Not the ones with all this power but those who figured out the game and did their inner work and took action and got things to work for themselves. It also reminds me of those stories that pop up of people trying to give people a helping hand and they end up getting hurt or worse somehow. I was always willing to help people and have heard too many stories nowadays of people getting sued for saving someone’s life or something like that. So I really learned to mind my own business and new Primal has been a big help for me in this regard. If only it there was a wealth focus or a version without the seduction focus. I kind of don’t want to date because it’s kind of one of those things where everybody’s got their own BS. I guess on that note Heartsong is still gonna be the best seduction title for me, even though it’s more about relationship. Finding the right people instead of the many.

Day 4: No listening.

I had some intense dreams. I’d call them nightmares but I guess not powerless fear types. But being in control of myself in seeming frightful situations. I even woke up after 3-4 hours after a dream. I ended up staying up for about 2 hours. I theorize that it was due to the raised cortisol from the dreams. I was able to get back to sleep.

I think it was yesterday I did have this sensation in my solar plexus area, that I knew this was probably some Sanguine effect. I’ve noticed more of the familiar Love Bomb goodness since my first loop in this cycle. Still some background anxiety at times but nothing that’s going to stop me.

I’m really motivated to read the sales copy of my stack again. I tend to go back over the copy from time to time on the titles I’m listening to. Keeps me motivated and focused.

Day 5: 15 mins KB 1.

I have been sticking to my workout. Just the last couple weeks it turns into working out as late as 5am. Before I go to bed. I don’t have to be awake so early so it works usually. Last night was the latest I worked out til about 5am. So I was a little tired today.

I went to the store and saw a local insta poster. She’s this fitness chick. I been following her for years. Maybe a year ago there were a few people I decided to mute, I just wasn’t vibing with them. Coincidentally I found out that that’s also the time they stopped posting, so it kind of didn’t matter if I put them on mute, they stopped posting. Well this chick just posts stories now and after I saw her I took her off mute, that’s how I found out she was one of the ones who hadn’t even posted anything besides stories for like a year.

She had a bf so I wasn’t trying to chat her up or anything. I was feeling a little off anyway. I was just in the store to grab some things and go home and hopefully take a nap. I’d been following her on insta for a few years, never seen her in person. She was looking at me but I wasn’t vibing or anything so I won’t even speculate on anything in terms of vibes or anything.

I haven’t been seeing any women I’m attracted too lately. So maybe this is a sign that that could be changing again.

I saw another interesting local on insta stories and followed her and she followed me back. So that was nice. I haven’t tried messaging and probably won’t, but it’s just kind of a nice change of pace. Like for all the follows to finally get one real person to follow back. So maybe there are some cool people around.

I have noticed an instance of the Love Bomb kicking in. Like that thing I had when I was I dunno LB or must’ve been LBFH when I was driving and other instances where I just felt the love from other people. Like just being more sensitive or aware of those who are vibrating on the love vibration. So I’m also thinking positive treatment of me will be picking up soon for sure. It’s affecting me too but I probably don’t notice it as much I think I’m just being me, and so I may notice it more from others.

Day 6: No listening.

Stopped in at the drug store to grab a couple things since I was in the area. Again, tired haven’t gotten the full 9-10 hour sleep in for awhile yet. If I need less sleep at some point on KB I’m fine with that.

I was in the drug store kind of oblivious to everyone else. And then I saw this pretty cute woman vibing me. As soon as she noticed though she went back to her business giving me no open to talking signals. So I’d guess she has a husband or bf, yet she was vibing me. I’d say some LB and KB vibes in play maybe.


It’s just a reminder that when I’m not looking for things but just showing up in life, life surprises me with cool things. It’s the need nothing and be given everything in practice. I’m not trying to need or not need anything and that’s the trick. But it can be tricky though, like say I want the woman, well it hasn’t gone well for me in that case. I still think I have some programs to delete and/or overwrite in regards to the whole thing. But I think Wanted and more New Primal would help for sure. WB and PS would probably also be next level.


My current plan is after 12 cycles of Love Bomb, I’ll finally try out Genesis. Since it includes some parts of LB I read somewhere. My follow up to Sanguine is planned to be Daredevil, or Sanguine: The Elixir. So that means my time with the new Dragon Reborns could be bumped back a year. I feel like I’ll also want to be on a wealth title, but I think Genesis has some of that. I’d look at it as wealth 101 in there, just a touch to get the ball rolling.

Day 7: 15 mins of both Love Bomb and Sanguine.

Been a quick 7 days perceptively. Week 2 is historically when I might get into first signs of recon. But it’s my 6th cycle with LB and 3rd cycle of KB 1. So I’m not expecting too much recon until I get back to stage 4 KB.

I’m just ready to get the full effects of LB and Sanguine already. But all I can do is take it day by day.

I was reading the genesis thread. Someone said something about it was like maybe the Libertine element in Genesis had them hyper aware of the sexuality around them or something.

I forgot about my first run through with KB. In the early stages I had moments of that as well. Like it was like I was starting to see and yet can’t describe what exactly I was seeing, just like my eyes were getting opened thanks to whatever KB does.

I think that’s also kind of LB, like I got hints that it was going to start putting people vibrating in Love on my radar more.


So what still seems to be my main issue is getting over this bad breakup. I’m not in the low feelings that I’d let control my actions but that’s still the main story that’s coming up for me. So now I’m really thinking I’ve got to find a way to get Heartsong in my stack for a test run. LBFH and LB and even a run of KB haven’t been able to do it for me on this issue. Why I’m thinking Heartsong would be best because at least instead of me focusing on something that’s never gonna happen. I’d never take her back for anything. It would be better to at least be focused on what I like and want instead of on someone I’ll never be with again. Perhaps I need something with some extra punch, and I think Genesis would fit that bill. At least I’d be channeling feelings and energy into getting things done.


Now I’m feeling anything but tranquil. Kinda angry crabby now. But if I recall after my first listen of LB and Sanguine in this cycle, I had a night of intense dreams. So I could probably assume that the combo is actually hitting deep. So maybe I will have a little recon from Sanguine after all, during the adjustment period.

A few mins later it subsided and i do feel a little lighter and more at ease, even a little bit of peaceful.

End of night update: I was still a lil cranky after but it went away too. Did my work and that always seems to help any recon or low moods.

I forgot to mention that I was also getting vibed earlier. It was different than when I was at the drugstore the other day. This chick I know it was like well I don’t know but it was almost like she was trying to vibe me with the sexual energy. It’s not someone I’m interested in so I just let it pass.

that reminds me, back I think it was when the original Love Bomb came out, there was this chick at work who I wasn’t interested in. I would just talk to her and this other chick, just because they were people I could talk to and not have to worry about the craziness with everybody else. Anyway one time she was blasting me with love, sending it to me, and I could feel it but I just let go instead of resisting it. And that’s what she said to herself, he let it go. lol. I didn’t try and talk about it because to me even though I’ve had plenty of experiences of out there stuff, I’m just interested in being left alone and having a boring life especially at work sometimes especially when I was dealing with people craziness.

Day 8: No listening.

I made a quick store run. I noticed in myself that I was standing with confidence and pride. So I’ve gotta chalk that up to Sanguine influence.

It seems that since I’ve added Sanguine I’ve actually seen a couple of the what you think is alpha. I don’t know if it’s legit alpha, to me legit alpha doesn’t have anything to prove and he’s not looking to take from others and put people down and that kind of thing, a bully.

Driving to work last night I saw this guy who he was definitely looking at me, it was after dark he was with another guy. But he was one of those muscle dudes, lol I forgot about that too from the past, anyway he was like staring me down. But I met his gaze and remained unaffected. I was even less affected than when I was on Chosen, so I’ve had some inner growth for sure. I stayed centered and I was driving by so I really didn’t give it a second though.

Then today, I was walking in the grocery store and I see this kinda big dude with his nose in the air. I saw him and I was just being me. I was almost in a playful attitude and sometimes I’m liable to make jokes. But I was by myself so kinda smiled to myself and forgot about it.

I do think Sanguine is having an influence already. In my early observations, I really don’t think I’ll need an alpha during my time on this stack.

This morning I woke up early from a dream. It was another intense dream. I wasn’t scared in the dream or anything but it was like good things happening. Yet I woke up and my heart was beating and I was trying to remember the dream and I don’t remember any physical danger or anything like that in the dream. I guess it was just a new situation good things happening and also being around people. It seems that Sanguine is working things out and rebalancing me in terms of fight or flight. Like I dealt with anxiety and getting anxiety in mundane situations, yet when I’ve had close calls driving, could even say brushes with death or serious injury, I avoided them but I was also fully present and calm in those situations.

So I think this stack is hitting all the right things. I’m actually really looking forward to when I get back to Stage 3 of Khan Black. At that point I’m also planning to add Ascension Chamber back in.


I had to go back over the Sanguine copy again to see what insights I could comb out. It seems that the confront, eradicate, and triumph over negativity is coming on. That’s why I’ve seen the kinds of people I haven’t seen in a long time. To me it almost seems like exposure therapy. Though I couldn’t plan it that way. I’ve gone out so much and just don’t run into these kinds of negative types at all. Until I started on Sanguine, now they’re suddenly popping up again. So far I’m feeling pretty immune to it, so once that’s firmly established as my reality I would guess that I’d go back to just not encountering them in my life, or even if I do, this time around I’ll be able to handle it and deal with it without having to be the odd man out.


I have been staying consistent with my workout. Thus progressing. Not too fast but even then it seems like when I start progressing by adding more weight then I need an extra day off for a few weeks. So I may only get my workout in twice a week. I progress and my body can still change pretty quickly from what I see in the mirror. So I’d still absolutely love to have some help on board in terms of physical healing/regeneration. So maybe my unconscious will put some of that Khan Black energy towards that because it’s important to me.


I’d really like to fit Genesis in my stack and also not have to remove anything else. But I’ll be patient and be content for now. Genesis is definitely the next title I will bring on board.

Day 9: 15 mins KB 1.

Day 10: No listening.

The new chick who followed me on insta, instantly unfollowed me. Lol maybe a mistake. So I unfollowed her, I’m unphased.

Today I was walking into the store again and there was another gorgeous woman walking in. She was looking at me but I remained in my vehicle to do some releasing. I was having some anxiety and rather than push through it I just decided to relax, I was done with work and no hard deadlines to meet. I did notice as she left, before I went in, she had the same energy as this other chick I used to like, who ghosted me. But this chick seemed receptive to me, so possibly picking up on my vibes as well. Though I was feeling anxiety so I was unaware of any vibes I was putting out.

I wasn’t disappointed I didn’t get to talk to her, I actually feel confidence about it. Like it’s alright, when I won’t always be having these anxiety moments, there’ll be plenty of opportunities to meet people in the future. It was my longest day at work and it’s physical work. Normally I go straight home for the rest of the night. But recently I’ve not been caring about that and if I wanna get something or go somewhere I do.

I was also at another store and women seem more open to me lately. I’m off Primal and KB, LB, and Sanguine are my stack. I’m seeing more attraction after dropping Primal so possible blooming.

Also had some more heart healing. Like energy releasing from my body. You know how you may have heard the issues are in the tissues? like a massage therapist might say that. Well that’s what I’m talking about. Just releasing the stuck energy from the body. For me it seems to be heart hurts, nothing from the butt as of yet. Bad joke, sorry. It just always was a pet peeve, when people say butt hurt, like as opposed to it’s opposite? But it’s more of a saying to make one feel superior to someone else. We all have feelings and that saying is just some stupid human trickery in my book. Now on the chart of emotions, anger is higher than say hurt. But they’re not transcending the anger, they’re just making more of a mess. Instead of dealing with their own feelings they shame or try to hurt someone else even more because they had feelings they didn’t like. Anyway. Tomorrow is Love Bomb, Sanguine. 15 mins.

Oh and I did see a car of these gangster types getting out of their car. A whole carload. The guy driving was looking at me. So I’m still drawing more attention since starting Sanguine. Normally I might have looked away or felt uneasy, and for a second I did because I’m not used to another reaction yet. But I remained steadfast and just kept driving. Sanguine seems to working on that kind of fight or flight reaction in certain situations around certain types of people yet.

I wonder if Safety Net or its equivalent is in Sanguine? Definitely a module I wish I could spend more time with. That and You Are Not Alone. But my plans don’t have a custom in the foreseeable future.

I was scrolling on my phone and saw a video where somebody did use the “butt hurt” to describe someone. It was different than the way people I used to be around who used it. They were using it while talking about someone who is kind of known as a “bad guy” in a particular setting. The user did not have that ego annoyed holier than thou attitude, so that was different and not long after I posted my thoughts the term here. I still don’t appreciate it because it’s not helping to transcend it, and if an influencer is using the term it’s still not what I’d like to say is “right” influence. But I guess a lot of mainstream influence has always been geared towards the negative and that just perpetuates throughout our culture.

Day 11: 15 mins LB, 15 mins Sanguine.

Before listening I was feeling really great. I would say it’s my stack in this new cycle. Also have been picking up my meditation and releasing practices again, because things are getting stirred up. So freeing myself from the old junk raises the vibrations and it just works together.

I also feel like my libido has definitely risen since starting this new cycle.

I’ve also noted an uptick in synchronicities or meaningful coincidences. I’ll have a title thread open, the one I’m going through right now is Genesis top to bottom. And I’ll have an experience or realization or something along those lines and I’ll come back and a few posts later will be talking about the same thing or something really similar to what I experience in my life. I’m not even using Genesis.

When I woke up today I woke up laughing. I stopped by the time I regained consciousness. In the dream I was having I was laughing at something. When I was still able to recall what it was it wasn’t something I’d find funny in real life. But already the intensity of fight or flight dreams seems to be passed now.

I still remember things from years and years ago and it’s still fresh in my mind. That’s why I always have healing on my mind. But at the same time I can also get on board with the concept of my mind and memory is great, it’s great at what it does. I just would be better off if I could at least get it directed on to things that support and uplift me. Like all the people problems that I had for so long. I stuck it out for too long thinking they’ll see I’m not the problem, if I don’t react and just keep doing my job they’ll get it. They never did. I paid the price for that. But also the feelings are and have been dropping away and just getting quieted down. But a lot of that stuff still comes to mind, and we’re talking in some instances like 5-7 years ago when it was at it’s worst for me. I haven’t seen any of those people and may never see them again. So remembering that now makes me feel a little better.

Day 12: No listening.

Again woke up from a dream where there was laughter. This time I was at somebody’s house and one or two of the prank guys from social media were there. I could almost say maybe this is bloom on New Primal, some of that fun scripting that was in there that while running it wasn’t showing up in obvious ways.

Just noticed that I’m experiencing more positive energy. Like I just have more positive energy and wanted to make note.

Past the halfway mark for this cycle. I had the one day of recon. Some slight rumblings and things coming up, just the normal type standard recon. I think I say this every cycle but it seems lighter yet so far. 15 min listens is going just fine. Next listen is 15 mins Khan Black stage 1.

Day 13: 15 mins, KB 1.

I had a few more nightmare type dreams. Though I can’t remember what. So maybe we’re going back to low tide again. Waxing and waning.

Day 14: No Listening.

Still have some brief bouts of wanting to be on Hearstong, it seems like it would make things easier in terms of not having to figure out which woman is the best and then wondering do I even want to date. I think it would help sort some of that out for sure.

Today I can feel a little frustration, just wishing it would all come together already. Money, relationships, etc. I even am kind of planning to run Emperor Fitness whenever the new version comes down the pipeline.

I really like this Sanguine process. Whenever stuff comes up for me it was some frustration, and now maybe 15 mins later its just replaced with positive feeling.

I’m also glad I chose Sanguine over Ascension. With Sanguine I can see how I’m not always drawn into arguments because I can see and realize that most of the time we’re all stuck in our own programming and beliefs. Like how most people dont know that their communications are contributing to what we might call negative feelings. It’d be noce to see more of people checking and going well do i want my input or advice or do you just want me to listen? With Ascension I can see that I’d probably get drawn into arguments more and having to say my piece. So I’m definitely happy I chose Sanguine. I could still use some social artistry and look forward to being back with Primal. I also will have to try out Darevil. It seems Genesis may really fit the bill so it’s my next logical step at some point.

Day 15: 15 mins LB, 15 mins Sanguine.

Today it’s come to my awareness that there seems to be some slight sense of being in a rut lately. I think with each cycle things will change of course. I also know Genesis will be the next title I bring to my stack, so I’m sure that will be just what I need.

Was out and about for awhile today. I definitely felt more at ease about being around people. Still feeling a certain confidence is what I might call it, about talking to women if I wanted to, or if the situation is right. Still seem to have some good attraction from the opposite sex. I did see one of the criminal element variety persons today while driving. I definitely got a bit uneasy. I would put it like this it’s like going from a dark room to a light room, a quiet silence to a sudden loud noise-some might even call it discernment. It’s just such a contrast and if you’re sensitive to vibes/energies whatever, it’s just really apparent sometimes. So I’m looking for Sanguine to really help with the oversensitivities like that.

Day 16: No listening.

Day 17: 15 mins KB 1.

Processing a lot of fear today. The root of all wanting, approval,control,security is the fear of death. But in Sedona Method you don’t go right after it, that’s why they have the other wants besides security. The guy who started the method said you should work on letting go of wanting approval and control first then when you’ve let go of alot of that you can work on the fear of death.

I just take whatever comes up. So for me it processes through my heart. That’s why I think it’s maybe heart/emotional/psychological trauma. When someone has a heart attack they use electricity to kind of boost the heart like a battery. So for whatever reason that seems to be how my traumas/energy/clocks whatever are processing. I do have a clean bill of health. This is one of the reasons I didn’t stick with my LBFH/Limit Destroyer custom. I had all the heart/love focused healing modules. So it was basically the same kind of thing. One of the things with fear is that one of the symptoms is a sped up heartbeat, and then you can have a racing mind. So for me the energy seems to channel through my heart and then it gets expelled and my body will actually shake it off. Even eckart tolle talks about this kind of thing that your body might shake when you’re releasing resistance.

I’m also not saying it’s the subliminal doing it. It’s just how the fear has been processing for me. KB is supposed to help release fears related to sexual energy, and since that’s basically also the creative force it’s kind of one of the most basic things. I didn’t listen to my loop of KB1 until later in the afternoon. I normally listen first thing in the am.


Got a 2 hour nap and feeling much better now.

Day 18: no listening

I woke up from a nightmare maybe an hour after going to sleep. I didn’t have any increased heart rate or signs of stress. The nightmare was me and a woman i dont know who and what the relationship was. But we were both calm I’d say. We were walking into an airport and there was a man arguing and fighting with two women. So them we went to the next door and were walking and it was like eveynody was under the influence of some chaos program. We also knew there were horse running loose nearby and didnt see them. Then we were walking to the other door and three little kids walked by. Didn’t see their parents or anybody with them. Then we turned back and one fell and I woke up because it was disturbing. Like we maybe needed to do something but it was as if all the people were all on the chaos frequency and so I woke up. No rapid heartbeat or anything like the nightmares from when I first started this cycle. Seems this stack is going deep and hitting on fears and working out that fight or flight yet.

I’m really tired the past few days. I’m going to start doing Trauma Release Exercises again (TRE) to help move things along. Feels like my body could use a little help moving things on and resetting and adjusting. Also I’m restarting the keto diet.

Today seems more like some shadow work going on for me.

End of night update: I’ve only been getting like 7 hours of sleep lately. Sometimes I get a nap in but doesn’t always happen. I feel great when I’m resting but had to take the day off working out. My stack seems to have been hitting pretty deep so there’s definitely an adjustment period for my body. But I remembered that at some point I’ll get one of those peaks again. So I know I have something to look forward to. Kinda looking forward to that 5 days off. I think I’ll stick to 15 mins to finish out the cycle, 2 more listening days to go.

Day 19: 15 mins LB, 15 mins Sanguine.

Day 20: No Listening

Mostly bounced back now. It seems like I had to catch up on my sleep. Also had to take a couple days off working out. Like my body had a hard reset. That’s one of the things about fast change, it can have side effect and you may need to adjust, especially if it goes deep and the body releases old energy blockages programs etc. I still haven’t had a peak yet. I’d say this cycle started great got to the end of it a bit rough just in terms of needing rest. Yet it gave me a gift because all I had was my practices, and they weren’t helping so I changed the mentality to do them just to do them, for the sake of them. Eventually I felt way lighter and really if it weren’t for the rough patch where body said just rest, then I wouldn’t have approached my practices with such resolve.


Now I’m finally having some feelings come through again. A little bit of sadness, maybe missing out type of stuff, missed past opportunities. Nothing major at all in terms of feelings. Still feeling my body may be in rest mode for a couple more days at most.

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A little bit of sad type feeling coming up around situations in the past where people were just shitty to me, from their own bs they were blind to and probably still are. Once again I can remind myself that it’s so nice to not have any of those people in my life anymore. One place I go has a younger guy who just looks at me in a way i dont like and of course when there’s one they bring more people on board. So I just wont go there anymore, it’s a food place. I’ll just drive to another one for like a year and check back. I also had to do that with another place.

Other than that the old problem doesnt really happen. It’s this thing that had me buying all these books on spiritual/psychic protection but what helped most is not giving it my energy/attention.

When I know it’s happening I just move on and don’t go there anymore. Best solution so far. I just take it day by day and when I can be more present thats when I’m in a good place. I know that it may be a long haul situation in terms of working with the titles. But I have made great progress and I mist remember that. Now to what it was is a big change, not yet where I want to be but on the way.