I’ve been listening to Hands On Healing by Bengston, only available as audioboook. It’s about using image cycling as a healing technique, you can even use it as a manifestation technique. Basically you have to be selfish and have no attachment to the outcome. You get a list of at least 10 things and you create an image in your mind, an image that represents that thing you want as already done. You can’t do it for others unless they give you permission. So like say you want money, well you have to go further and go well what would I buy with the money? And the car, vacation whatever. That’s the image you create, already having it. He uses an example to fix your knees, well you don’t know how, that’s not your business, you go to the end, an image of you already having healthy knees would be you skiing, or some activity. That’s the image. So you get 10 of those and you cycle through them rapidly in your mind with feeling, you learn to cycle faster so you can’t even see them.
Well I’ve been on a kick of listening to the book at least 10 times. I guess the first few times I had so much resistance so I never learned the technique. Just getting 10 things I want seemed too daunting. Well it’s a few years later and I’m really hearing the book new. It’s like a new book, I’m hearing things I never heard the first time around.
So today at work I was just playing with baby steps. I just was playing with the idea of shifting my own thinking as training wheels. So I kept asking myself what is something I’d like to have be or do? And I kept bringing it back to that, almost like a meditation while I was working. If I found my mind wandering I’d just ask the question to keep bringing it back. I was also letting go of course. It was fine. Then after work I started to get anxiety, almost like a panic attack. I did some box breathing and more releasing. So I kind of think the anxiety came about because of that new mental stimuli of bringing up what I want. For most people that’s probably not the norm, people can always tell you what’s wrong, but get them to give you a list of 10 things they want that’s hard. 10 things they want to change or don’t like that’s really easy.
End of night: Once again, I’m wanting to start up the new cycle. 11 days to go.