Well I had a normal night, no signs of any recon like I thought
I didn’t had much luck today tho my busses we’re quite empty and I did not had much hopportunity in general to get the “feel good you’re being stared at” effect of wanted.
This next washout incoming might yeild unexpected results, way more than I first thought it could bring
it’s in the air “bloom”
also I’ve been able to eat more since starting to train once again (really small workouts but damn the pump)
I don’t know if it’s from subs but my voice pitch has been lower for about a week
Not incredibly lower, but more in a natural way
I’m saying I’m not sure because of obvious personnal reasons and it may affect my voice box obviously lol I’ll wrote about that “lower” voice effect in next few months (if that stay I’ll assume it’s the sub)
Also I’ll check when my results come but I feel like I’m passing my exams really easily even if I don’t have the highest grade, like teachers are super easy on me and each exams feels more like a little check if I’m still doing good more than a real “test” to verify my capacity & skills
Wanted pushing me above the others ? We’ll see
Also after I had my fair share of fun with wanted
I’m definitly go back to raging hermit mode and dive deep in my spiritual practice once again
I don’t know wich one I’ll choose as a main between the Alchemist or Sage immortal by then…
That’ll probably won’t be actuality for quite a few months if not this whole 2022 year tho
I’ve noticed that before sleeping and getting that recon dream
I had this some sort of vision skills were I’d just would be able to see through my eyelids and form anything I focused on look as real as it could be and almost forgot that I had my eyes close
It could be whatever, really anything, even non-logical stuff or abstract stuff, it would still appear before my eyes as if it was real and just right in front of me
this sole fact makes me wanna seek after recon lmao, because it’s really a skills that I don’t trully have otherwise (I tried a few times before writing this post)
Just to reassure anyone reading my journal, yes I’m still on recomended patern
Ok me
Next cycle plan :
Day 1 : Wzp + diamond w me
D2 : Rest
Day 3 : Wzp + LBzp
D4 : rest
Day 5 : Wzp + LBzp
D6 : rest
Annnnnd repeat, maybe I’m overloading myself with male enhancement scripts and this weekly use of diamond w me to “boost the growth” might be sufficient… I dunnooooo I just want my Zp Kong dong back alreadyyyy
Will I try this patern hummm probably
Imma go pray to the new ZP egregore god for giving me a supra Kong dong, 'c ya !
Hummm is there some scripts for veins in forearms in wanted?
21 loops done 2 days ago I forgot to write it
Only one more and then a nice deserved washout
So you get 11 days of loops so the possibility of 22 loops every cycle, the new one I’d like to try would be 11 of wanted 4 diamond and 7 of LB
If I’m not mistaken if that’s still too much Imma do 3 diamond and 8 of another sub or LB still
I listened to my 22 loops quite a little while ago and did my 5 day washout on the go
I can’t tell why but I feel like it’s really starting to fire other things I’m not yet able to discern
The more the time pass the eager I am to see APzp in broad day light.
I see that a few people seem to loose a bit hope on that tech, especially for the physical shifting, to be honest I can understand as I am myself on that quest especially for the Male enhancement part, but I can say that for sure, it works you’d have to see it to believe it ofc, but it works so well…
You just need to find that perfect pattern and stick to it a bit more, if eventually after 3 month so approx 3 cycle it still doesn’t show itself at all then maybe yes you might have some difficulty to gain with those subs (it’s alright)
Honestly the subs only geared toward inner change / aura especially in ZP works horribly well, I can tell you for living their effect without even trying, so you can guess why I want so bad that sub for AP, it seems that skills are like soft changes for zp
Now back on track with the journal and I did my 23 rd ZP day (Wzp + Dzp)
The more the time pass on ZP the more everything in my life feels like going smoothly
A bit like if my life chooses to take the best turn everytime and it’s always getting better and choosing even greater options.
A small sense of everything is OK and going to be all right is really becoming more and more part of my point of view
Can’t wait to be after tomorrow and try a loop of that wonder that is LB (everyone was so cool on it you can’t even imagine I’m glad I’ve got an excuse to add it to my stack)
Also little weirdness
I dunno why but for about a week whenever I look at a car number I always see triple numbers on them (its max 3 number in my country)
I swear every time I turn my head it has to be on a 111,222,333,…,999
All of this at an intense recurrence, and almost all of this only on cars
This night was a bit weird but I’m not sure how to explain it, it felt like I was buzzing in my own body similarly to APx but way stronger, it only end up into some vivid dream tho
I’m a bit sick since yesterday so I thought that I would have a fever dream…
I had the second if not even first most vivid/realistic dream that I can remember, this one is going to stay in printed in my memory for ever.
It was so real that even if it happened in my home city and that it was much different from the actual real one, I wouldn’t be able to tell that it wasn’t.
You know how the people you interact to in your dreams tend to change or totally morph into someone else? It did not happen at all in this one, even if I stayed for multiple minutes in the same location, nothing would change, even personnal stuff like clothes of mine were represented with a fantastic precision.
This felt like some form of singularity, since yesterday were I had some kind of ‘’ buzzing ‘’ before starting to actual dream that felt somewhat real and with bits of wanted scripts showing, but this time it was definitly a wanted dream without being overwhelming and stupidly being WANTED like, I could sense and decipher attraction easily, act easily, touch people like if there were real, even talking to them a’d keep an actual discussion!!! (which is something big for me because I never talk in my dreams)
ZP transforming my dreaming life into an actual life, I felt like I stayed for quite some time in there
To people sad that they don’t get cool dreams, I’m pretty far into my spiritual journey without even knowing where I’m really am fr, like there is no night were I don’t remember all of my dreams anyway and I’m always sort of lucid in them. In short I think my precedent spiritual practice for multiple years and ZP are skyrocketing whatever is happening in inner engineering because I can observe it and take note of it through my dreams.
Tonight Imma try my first loop of LB instead of diamond as it looks like diamond is doing fine for everyone just once a week (so my stack is still the same Wanted + diamond, and I think love bomb will ease whatever struggle I might still have unaware)
Because as people might have notice, I have high demands on diamonds shifting and that might get in the way of results, so lessening the time under it will ease the pressure for sure, as my mind will have more breathing time about that matter that is so dear to me
Plus Love Bomb is the title I’ve used for the longest time along my custom and APzp
I’m exited to see how it’ll bloom with me
As it is the first title that I’ve listened in qv2 before using it in zp
Also I can’t stop seeing people I haven’t seen for long, irl or in dream
Ofc the irl part is the most impressing manifestation lol
It’s adding to the triple number mania that I’m going through with car plates (111,222,etc)
24th exposition on loops (wanted + LB)
I’ve became very ‘’ touchy’’ in my dreams, like litteraly, every time I see someone I think I like I touch them, and it seems to please them so much.
I used to be more or less to distant in general, let’ s see how it goes in further dreams or irl! I’ll be back in class soon so I’ll be able to gauge everything better
I won’t be back in class as soon as I thought
Too sick
I can’t take it anymoooore I need to be able to see the effects of the sub for God sake ahahaha
Fr tho
I don’t wanna shock everyone to death when I come back and they fall to their knee in awe (or maybe I do hehe he)
25th exposition to ZP last night (wanted + LB)
Not much happening so far as I’m staying at home and my subconscious is learning the new sub
The manhood seems to finally start to go back slowly but surely to a bigger size (not yet back to Kong song tho)
So that’s a great news already! The washout plis the new pattern seem to be better fitting
Plus I’m getting so excited about Astral projection x going ZP soon 
Can’t waiiiit to go to the next level of that f’ing skill lmao, I’m getting so worked up because I’ve been trying so hard for more than a year now lmao
Love Bomb is making me in love with life whenever I listen to music
It’s been a long time since I felt that way
How could’ve I forgot that feeling and how good it felt
I can feel that sweet warm blanket over my soul
Like a first love, damn this is so refreshing, love is nowhere as good as when it comes from inside like this…
The need to be ‘’ wanted’’ is fading since I started that cycle with LB, it’ s probably going to help a lot with the sub, as expected LB ease ‘’ the need’’ with in return will probably skyrocket result in the future
Next probable cycle is going to be something like :
Day 1 Wanted + Love bomb
Day 2 rest
Day 3 Astral projection x ZP (+ Love Bomb?)
Day 4 rest
Day 5 Astral projection x ZP
Day 6 rest
And repeat ofc
Wanted is going to pass on the second hand sub instead of main and when I’ll get a good hand on projecting I’ll put some more LB
And diamond will be going to the forget zone as wanted has that Male e. Thing that I want anyway. Less is way more in that matter of exposition, especially for me, my brain is less stressing it and results come in their due time at their own rate instead of just ‘’ where is that big d already omg’’
Can’t stress how good I’m currently feeling
Like seeping some drink in the sun and enjoying it as the best thing in life (gladly there is a bit of sun today after 2 week of Grey & cold weather everywhere)
Also a short note to myself for future me readi g and thinking :
(addressing this to me) Please remember that love feel more sexual to yourself than just pure sexual energy so stop wanting to be like everyone you forgot that what feels the best for you is love and that love to you is your source of sexual energy