A ZP journey, from Melior

Journals - Major Programs
#101

Here I am the night after my 17th loops :

I’m quite bewildered/baffled by this cycle of diamonds W ME
Like I’m my dong is slightly bigger than it used to be but it’s still way way way less big than it used to be toward the end of my 1st cycle (I swear I was giglling at how ridiculous it got bigger, I’m sure by reading my posts before the washout you could have easily guess)

Wich is embarrassing for my ego honestly, like how can it get so big and yet after a washout so hard to get back to ? it’s the only thing that seems to somewhat revert and get a harder time coming back to light…

It’s quite frustrating too tbh…

Else the recent dreams seems to put in light a sort of “libertine” life-style even tho I used it only one as a booster, and weirdly I wouldn’t attribute those dreams to libertine but still wanted and diamond, I have the inner conviction/intuition that those dreams are fuelled by the subs I’m currently using and by my desires to bring those dreams to life

Also wanted is starting to bring me “unwanted” attraction from girls I really do not feel atracted to at all, I had a couple of them staring at me and discussing giggling like : “look he looked at me” “who who ?”“there!”
I was seatting like : “please nooo it was a mistake…” “Shit I looked at the other one mooving her head”
“keep ignoring them they’ll stop eventually”

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#102

Hahaha that last part is funny

Wanted being a little too effective?

I’m sure it will go back to the same size as before the washout – just give it time and try not to worry about it. It will grow! Also try to eat more in case you are trying to “grow” your body e.g. your dong or muscles or height. The dong will need the fat cells to grow.

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#103

Am already forcing myself to eat ahaha even more than in my first cycle

Well in my case I’m not sure it would be fat cells lol, it was solid gains, hence why I felt weird about not them staying (by solid I mean a Visible increment in vascularisation size)

Like I won’t count on fat cell for my body ahaha I’d loose ‘em, I’ m a fast burner

Thank you for your encouragement tho, appreciated

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#104

Did you take measurements to confirm this?

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#105

Yesss brooo
And it wasn’t even needed

Like the difference between the end of the first cycle and currently is more than obvious, I’m not exaggerating, like I still gained a bit compared to before any ZP but the drawback is huge
Like I previously said I was laughing at how big it got in such a short amount of time, and now it’s normal with a slight plus.

Let’s just say that my body chooses to grow in wingspan instead of giving me back my Kong Dong, but I’m still somewhat sad about it, and angry, I think it’s understandable lol

Like attraction from wanted + other physical shifting was still on point in the washout and are still happening now, but this one, this only one is tricky for some obscur reasons

Also please everyone stop asking if I measured ahahahaha I’ve done PE for a long time I know how to gauge progress for the love of God & my dong

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#106

If it happened once, it can happen again.

Your posts are entertaining and interesting, by the way. I put on alerts for your journal.

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#107

Yes, It must be a short setback as I experienced already before… I hope

Because if not I’m going to bother the hell out of Saint to boost even more the ME of diamond :joy: :rofl: :joy:

And I’m glad that my Journaling style is happealing to you! My journey entertain or inspire you
(not sure how it would be inspiring tho ahahahah but we never know lol)

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#108

Also I forgot to mention but every now and then I dream of working out at the gym (especially this last year even if I stopped my membership 2-3 years back)

And this time when I dreamt of once again training well I was big af, muscle popping of every where lol
probably a bit more than I would go for irl

After that “dream” session I also had another part of the dream where I was doing some trainee military program, wich is weird because it felt really close to what a real training program could be along the fellowship one can expect and I’ve never went into any military program or never attempted any(and never thought about coming into one), I did go through some scout organisation for a few years wich is the closest thing that I lived to any type of some sort of masculine “program” lol (yes only men in my section of scout)

But still that was weird but I did not dislike it also I don’t know what to think of it…
So that’s an entry quite personnal, to remember myself that I had this never done before dream (wich is super rare for me to experience such original aspect)

Imma observe myself and see where all those smuggling thoughts are going

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#109

Just a quick note to myself to keep count of my loops
Did my 18th last night

And I’m frustrated to be in such hermit stage of life with all of those exams
I cant even enjoy properly my cycle I’m going to cry ahahah

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#110

Exams suck.

School sucks.

Stress sucks.

I absolutely hated all of it.

I hope you can find some time to relax and enjoy what you like doing despite all the stress!

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#111

As I’m currently listening to my 19th loops of both Dzp + Wzp

I’m recalling that I had the luck of having an exam today (yeah finally an excuse to go out of the house lol) and could take the bus (my favourite place to gauge Wzp)

And the cute girl I sat next was already super nice to remove naturally her bag to let me sit, but during many instence she just outright turned her head toward me and just stayed there staring for half a minute at me, well I first thought that she wanted to get off the buss but couldn’t bring herself to ask me to get up, but it really wasn’t that because whatever stop she needed to be was further than mine

Ahhhh nice effect, I missed bus trips :heart_eyes:
If it continues to go that way, well if we mix every response I had in one “hypotetical person” well in the next cycle they just come right at me and cuddle lol ahahahahaha
AHAHAHAHAHA evil laugh of yes that’s what I want

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#112

Hahahaha I love your posts
Keep it up

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#113

I’m on the same shit as you, did exercises for a year cuz porn star dreams never die, did you measure any gains? I stay away from the ruler while I use subs

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#115

Ahahahha don’t worry bro, same dream, Well like I foretold in my posts I had a huge increment, toward the last week of the first cycle
And since the end of the washout some part of those huge gains just decided to hide somewhere lol

So I still have a little plus but it’s currently not so ‘’ in your face’’ like it used to be (at least for the moment)

Under exercices I did mesure gains at that time(did them for more than 2 years and gained quite a lot) but also as I stated I stopped all exercice before ZP because I wanted to see how well I could win some through only the subs in general and also because it seems that by using both subs and exercices, that my manhood was in perpetual ‘’ overtraining’’ and looked tired all the time lol

But like you I stay away from the ruler except when I finally see after some time ‘’ big fluctuation’’

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#116

I’ve had 3 “big fluctuations” and still stayed away from the ruler

I have visions of waking up a year or so from now with my dream long term goal which I didn’t think I’d reach a few years ago

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#117

Ahahah me I got those sexy dreams where at some point I see what I’m packing and it’s so so so pleasing (whoever is with me in them love it too :joy:)

And you seem to be quite lucky down there I only had one so far even with my qustom qv2 biggus dickus lol

I don’t care about what someone could say about bigD My self just find that more aesthetic when it’s bigger, I always had this urge even before Prn and I still have it after years off of it.
It’s just a part of me, I might be part-priapus in my reincarnation lol

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#118

I had what is called a recon dream I think, but man If I could get this one every night I’d still press the button even if at the end it was quite scary

I’m curious about them @SaintSovereign you seem to tell that they’re sign of breaking plateau isn’t it ?
Because that dream was wild, it was the perfect expression of both subs I’m currently using plus the fear at the end
So if I get just one of those dream every cycle could I assume that I’m doing it correctly ?
Like I felt groggy in the morning but no other signs of recon apparts from the dream in itself.

I still am only on 1Wzp+1Dzp
I’d like to understand those dreams better and how they’re related to zp progression

Does one should aim for a listening patern that’s on the edge of recon ? because it looks like the more cycles I do the further along those 21 days the heavy dream come (first time a the 3rd loop)><(now toward the end of the cycle)

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#119

ive been on male enchancement for AGES, its existed in every single custom ive ever made

also height one

we are kindred spirit it appears we have the same demons.

also i too don’t care what others thing about it, apart from this forum im secretive about it and pair it with nofap, ive realized the benefits to the sex life and confidence along with the increased pleasure of adding size is enough to make me happy without caring if the women im with know it’s big, theyll find out eventually yknow what i mean

for instance ive never had an urgency to make money, cant wrap my brain around it, but i can see WHY the guys who go after the big bucks do it and why it’s very alpha in it’s own right.

its for that reason i dont debate about “why do u even care arent u happy down there” cuz all those nights in my bathroom doing the exercises taught me much about the true power of sex

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#120

I’ve had enough sex to know that the more it increase the better it becomes, it’s just win-win both members are more stimulated and the feeling of “omfg I need to perform so hard” is just slowly becoming a ghost

Yeah it seems that we share that demon I’ve had it for as long as I can remember
Honestly I won’t even call it a demon because I enjoy the process of gaining and won’t hide it even if it’s in a more or less taboo area I just wish I’d reach my end target faster tho ahahahaha

Yeah I defintly get it, I don’t need to brag either, it’s just good intimacy in the end, if she and I are having a great time that’s it I’m happy

Bathroom struggle team ahahahaha

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#121

20th loops in !

Let’s see how sleep is after that precedent “recon” dream

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