A ZP journey, from Melior

Journals - Major Programs
#61

Forgotten update :

3 days ago my hairs got thicker, just like that overnight (I check everyday in the mirror because the precedent thinning I went through was quite heavy and one could somewhat see my skin through my hair on the front, I hated that, but pfiouuu, it’s no more ! Yessssss !), plus they seem a lot more healthy, they used to feel really fragile.
Also my beard is growing fast and thick and still has that nice shining on it

I’ll have to shave more often lmao, I prefer to keep it really short and well cut

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#62

3rd day of “Bloom” (washout) :

Today I had another super vivid dream, it was a cute one this time
I was discretly trying to hold hands with a girl (who tried to do it with me too), I could feel her hand and warmth along her soft skin, wich is quite impressive because in most dreams I don’t feel anything per say, I could’ve sworn it was an actual memory or even better an actual thing that happened

Was awesome - Said with an heavy and obscur brittish accent
I’m curious if that person had the same dream
Since then I can’t stop but thinking about her

2nd thing I went to some shop the female vendor, acted all cute and a bit lost with me, also taking cute positions, as it was almost the only girl I saw today appart from my dream, it felt good.

#63

I just noticed that my nose is more straight than ever
It used to have a really slight bump that I mostly got rid of through mewing
and what was left of it because of my natural predisposition disapeared probably during this cycle of wanted.

there is now only a very little quite inexistant curve but you’d reaaly would have to touch my nose in a weird manner to feel it lmao

Also I Gained like 4-5 kilos the last 6 months (almost only fat, maybe only 2 kg of muscle) and I lost all of them with wanted zp, I kept only my muscles beneath it, even tho I don’t workout at all for the moment (I even stopped sports last week because too much work :frowning: ) so I still look athletic and somewhat muscular, especially in the abs area, but I’m less impressive than I was in summer when I was training and doing my muscle up

I gotta go find that discipline once again

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#64

Maybe it’s also due to my spiritual work that I don’t want to workout as much to have that “omg that guy is muscular”, hum did I eliminate my best motivation that was external validation ?
I don’t feel anymore this urge to have the best physic ever or being a guy with that much bumps on his body lol

Probably because I feel way more secure about myself too and wanted may goes this way too
It’s been this way since last october, but it’s really in this moment of “bloom” that I’m looking into it

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#65

I think my feet grew a bit longer and larger lol

not what I expected

I can feel the end of my shoe now
not thanks subclub ahahahaha
If that doesn’t stop I might need to buy many other set of pairs :disappointed_relieved:

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#66

Day 4 of “Bloom” :

Today my libido was +++++ level
A bit hard to study but I’m getting used to it fast

That’s what I wanted anyway
I’m ready for even more
Let me transcand with raw sexual energy lmao

I got wy own natural “gasoline” module if you will

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#67

Day 5th of “Bloom” :

At the level of libido that I’m experiencing I might ignite in fire
So if I desapear you’ll know

I’ve ascended amongst the union of the universe called love and creation

Just in case don’t worry I know I’m saying even weirder things than ever but I swear I’m mentally sane, still … lol
It’s becoming quite a challenge but I won’t back down

also quite not related to what I was talking until now
But it seems that the more raw sexual energy I stock and try to transform the more I experience a clearer view on what I want my life to be in the next few years

what was a fog seems to dissipate super fast
Paradoxally my body is parasited with desires but my mind is getting more focussed
And I get many more ideas to devellop on the long run

I feel happier, more in touch with life and less lost in space
I think that overloading of my lowers chakra are really helping me ground myself
Like I haven’t been for quite some time

#68

Still within this 5th day of “Bloom” :

I usually can’t satnd to see myself in pictures and suck at taking some of me
This skills or my face is somewhat becoming wayyy more photgenic

Like I’m finally taking pictures of me that I’d be proud to share
Where I’d usually try hard and never post anything because of the sheer disgust of me looking at what I have produced

Yeh I’ve always found that I looked horrible in pictures, people used to tell me : you look so much better irl lol I thought you were “lowkey slightly ugly”, ahemmm … thanks I guess ? (I didn’t know why but phone pictures used to flatten every face feature I had, making ma face looks like just a basic shape with 0 dimension :frowning: )

But now hehe no mooooore ! I’ll triumph, good in pictures, even better in reality ah ah !
Let me dance tango with your heartbeats !

PS : (maybe both my face has upgraded itself and my skills at selfies leveled up times infinite lol)
PS2 : I don’t know I’m just so glad :relaxed:

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#69

after some thinking :

I thought as I am a natural empath, that the anxiety I must have felt that day when I went outside and was being bombard of stares, well it could’ve been me feeling the sums of “desires” the girls had.

Wich is managable for one or two, but, with such a wave of hidden feeling all focused at me, It could’ve explained why I felt so overwhelming and didn’t know what to do.

Also today is 1st day into a new cycle !!!
Yesssssssss youhouuuu

I have other excitings news but Imma keep’em to me until I feel it’s enough to make a post about it :wink:

Can’t wait to play once again this sweet zp in my ears

Edit : oho ? Post 69 ? tasty !

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#70

I went just a bit out today to breath a bit and walk because, walking is life
I still had a few stares or body posture changing to turn toward me.

But I’m feeling a bit down tonight, guess I can’t always be 100%
I probably should go out a bit more to observe more the effect of wanted and making sure my conscious self is observing it’s new reality

For my manhood it seems it seems that he lost a tiny bit of overall size in the blooming process but still has retained the majority
That observation has probably downed my overall mood too

It’s hard to stay super good when you went through overdrive mod and are letting yourself and your body breath a bit to catch up before the next rocket launch lmao

It’s better to seee it that way, I’m sure of it, at the end of the day positivity will win
And I’ll be amazed at how far I’ve came in 2 months and even more further down along the road

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#71

Started my new cycle last night !
So in total that’s my 12th loops

I sleep better when I’m using zp actually wayyy better
It’s like it tires me enough that I don’t feel the overdrive min & energy kicking like I used so much in the washout

Who would have thought ?
1 hour out of the bed and still yawning like there was no tomorrow tho

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#72

I’m starting to get that vibe that I rode about

like when I see myself in the mirror I know it’s me but at the same time it’s more beautifull than me
It’s another me, a close one because I don’t feel separate from it but still not quite me

did I lost anyone on that one ? :joy:
anyway I dig what I’m seing

I guess when your face goes through those micro change it’s to be expected
An observation that I’ll need to get more in touch with in the following cycle

Also those camomille tea are making my dreams feels suuuper long and close to reality (less extravagant and super weird, more an actual possibility in a way ?)

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#73

try to find a trigger in your dream that can help you make it lucid, like your phone or watch (time doesn’t change in dreams on watches), its a fun experience.

or you can try to talk to yourself while drinking it before bed, then see if it leads to a conversation with you subconscious or “higher self” :wink:

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#74

Awesome idea !
I’m on
Let’s discuss with higher me :heart_eyes:

I’m usually more or less aware that I’m dreaming I just enjoy the experience and loose myself & focus having fun, so I kinda go back to a “unlucid state” but it’s really more a middle ground
Last time I tried those stuff (communication) it was a freaky spiritual experience no joke

But now that I’m more ready it should be an incredible experience
Thanks a thousand times for the idea !

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#75

Hesitation is striking me
Libertine, not Libertine
Noodles, don’t noodles…

A part of me is like :
“Yeah libertine ! 100% it’ll definitly carry the effect that I want to propose”

another part of me :
“Hum I should be satisfied with wanted and try with wanted only at first”

Then I dialog back to myself :
“Yes in normal condition it is true, but I wanna try something with Libertine, because I’m not doing the usual stuff”

So it seems that I “might” very well show once again my aprciation to Subclub by emptying my wallet further for a short boost subs XD

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#76

Don’t be like me and end up buying subs on an impulse man :rofl:

Something tells me that WZP is responsible for this :rofl: because I just bought another case :stuck_out_tongue:

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#77

I…Ca…n…T…Imp…ul…se…Too…Stro…ng…Tech…Wo…rkin…g…so…well

I think it’s just because those subs are so strong, like bruh you can permute yourself however you want, in no time you just need to have the sub…Sounds like an utopia, but it’s now a reality

And anyway it’s money well invested (what the crackhead said)
Plus I think to get myself later chosen, Paragon (maybe, if yes in a few month or less), and Sage immortal in some looong time

Libertine is more like “The boost, my preciouss boost insert golum face”

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#78

Too many subs, too many options, too much time.

You wanna know something? I said yesterday that I won’t buy any subs until HERO is out, but now all the reviews of emperor is making me feel like buying it :rofl:

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#79

Day after 13th loops :

I don’t know if it’s because It’s a new cycle but it feels like It’s becoming hard to sleep once again
Too much energy ? Partially yes, must be.

I think I’m going to crack for Libertine as a short booster :joy:

I’ve got like that little permanent excitation, that just doesn’t goes away, all day/night long
Must be Diamond and all it’s energy I’ve stored X), like I’m almost not mooving all day round (I just walk for 1-2 hours everyday to keep the brain well functionning)

#80

I cracked :skull: