A ZP journey, from Melior

Journals - Major Programs
#363

Today is the day I start subs back again :sunglasses:

Yes brothers and sisters

Despite a sort of apprehension since I’m doing a lot better, I feared that anxiety might fire back up

And low and behold, it almost did
BUT this time I was much more rested and my body was fueled like it rarely had the opportunity

So I faced that rise in anxiety and decided ‘’ why does it start even, after all there is no… Yes there is a reason! ‘’ It’s because I’m freaking scared of change deep down

I was scared of the same thing I worked so badly my whole life on

‘’ But Melior if it was always that bad how did you get your precedent results? ‘’

Idk

I just know that once I understood why I had that confusion rising was because deep down a small part of me just really didn’t want to change… I observed it and brought it closer to me and took care of it gently telling it/me ‘’ maybe I deserve it, I deserve that change, I searched that type of tool and results so badly for so many years’’

All of it while bettering myself on many other areas
I, for sure should accept that gift I’ m making myself

And sure enough all anxiety vanished and slowly I felt one by one many modules of my custom being brought to the surface and it was wonderfull & intense

For a short period of time I truly felt what I could become

My real journey begins now

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#364

Funny thing

Was I the only one who recently learned that when someone mentioned lOl from women it meant indicator of interest rather than a symbolic woman rising her arms to attract more attention lmaoo

The more you live
You learn cool things
Although I preferred my version

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#365

Since I played my first loop of Heartsong I don’t know why but I’m feeling a lot more grounded 8 hours later

And honestly I haven’t felt this type of grounding for quite some months

Simple yet so perfect

I didn’t expect this from that sub, but I’ll take it!

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#366

I’ve got the intuition that I could be processing the Void of creation module before even integrating it to my current custom

The themes that I’m currently trying to reconciliate with my understanding of reality are about infinites and the Void

Wich sounds just like the module description

So of it’s not the case (me having recon from a theorical module) let’s just say that I’m preparing myself to let those themes be just what they are without having judgment over them and being able to utilise VoC later at it’s best capacity with only positives impact

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#367

Man I’m really a beast at manifesting food

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#368

Observation :

I’ve noticed that the effects of Cordyceps militaris are wildly exaggerated when I’m on a cycle of sub

I’ve tried on and off for 2 week and it’s not obvious, it’s enormous

Without subs it used to have effects and give me more sexual energy and energy in general

But subs it’s a total blast, night and day
I’ve got so much sexual energy that I can’t sleep or think about something else than sex, my brain becomes hacked seriously

Also it seems to supercharge all types of energy and what subs are working on (energy releasing into the chest area - Heartsong ~ energy releasing into abdomen - Custom)

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#369

I’m starting to get back some staring actions going on

I missed this

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#370

LOLLL this is some funny shit, never thought of it like that

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#371

Day 13

First wild sexual dream

While playing Heartsong I started to feel really anxious and bothering feelings toward the chest area

After a few minutes, I understood that it’s the sum of heartaches I experienced so far and that I am releasing some of it or in a process of transmutation.

I guess that pain crippled my ability to feel love more than I thought

Also I just feel hyper confident and just sexy in general 24/7
Relaxed enough that I’m not crippling my voice into high pitch anymore
Fell good to talk normally

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#372

I don’t know what it has to do with subs

But of all animals I seem to dream that I can transform into a bird from time to time

Once into a big bird of prey, and today as a more gracious one

If you do too tell me more about it because even if I really like it I’m curious as about the potential meaning, I already looked on internet of course, but more personal opinion are welcomed as well :grin:

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#373

Observation of the day :

The subs on Wich I had the most sexual dreams is… Is… L… Liii… Liove Bomb!
I don’t know why but love has more a sexual edge in my mind that sex itself

When I used to listen to LB I had sx dreams 1/2 of the time

But on other title such as wanted in complement with some other sexual sub I tend to rather dream of being a magnetic person to Women and from time to time some ‘’ action ‘’

Once again I can affirm that for myself, love is more sexual than raw sex

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#374

Like always in my case, or at least so far until now, it seems like in the first 2 week of using a sub I get reconed.

This time Thanks to v2 it’s really manageable but still present

I first get a really good taste of what’s to come
And now close to the end of the cycle, sh*t start to really pay off

I get stared at by people I find attractive like I’m some kind of never seen before creature (positively) and I get more and more opportunities of interactions or obvious signs

Bare in mind this time around that I’m following the basic listening recommendation of my custom in ZP standart and HS one loop both every other day

Except that I already had 3 month of wanted last year around the same time period, Wich seems to pay off by restarting the whole benefits faster than last time

Plus I’m much more open to change and willing to act on them, Wich seems to really snowball

Feels great

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#375

My intuition tells me that your Subconcious is accepting the belief that you as a bird are above the worries of the world. You as a bird of prey, don’t have to worry about being destroyed but have the power to influence the life of others. Your graciousness instead will make other people’s lives better through the power given to you by the subliminals and your mind. People will look at you from below and marvel at your majesty.

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#376

Ayyy pretty cool, thanks Lion
I’ll take that :sunglasses:

On a more funny note
The time that I was a bird of prey, I could feel being a bird, the bone structure, muscle, everything so moving my wings was really cool until I started to wake up and then to feel my real body and how I was moving my arms chicken mode :joy::joy::joy::chicken:

Less stylish

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#377

Hahaha! I should try going to sleep in that chicken mode. Might get some eagle dreams. Or chicken dreams.

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#378

Last day of this first new cycle

I’ve been seing more people that I find attractive, even tho I don’t have much opportunities to see such people

I also seem to just have good vibes with everyone, I feel like I’ve got an easier time to smile and just make some small talk

Guud vibes going on
I also really don’t feel like making updates lol
I’m forcing myself a bit just to take some notes

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#379

Just a few words

Into 2nd cycle

Reconnection with someone that I lost contact with over 15 years ago when I was a child

Heartsong? The deal.

A few other words

I really don’t feel like posting a lot
I don’t feel really much anything anymore at all from the subs, but I observe change or things just being different

Still only one loop of both every other day or sometimes 1 day on and 2-3 days rest, and a washout every 11 loops for 7 up to 10 days

Just going with the flow :ocean:

Don’t expect updates from this journal, just appreciate your own journey with or without subs, step into actions and change your life for the better, do what’s needed, sometimes(often) think later (especially for overthinkers like me)

Again much love to you guys! :heart:
Keep on improving
Keep on choosing happiness for yourself

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#380

A while but not too long

Had the nudge to get Khan going on
Had the dream to play it twice

The unbothering, probably coming from Wanted in my custom makes me feel what you could say ‘’ alien ‘’ at times, so much that people getting triggered left and right don’t feel ‘’ normal’’ to me anymore, I’ m able to understand where their emotions comes from but to me their incapacity to use that energy for the best and just let it be controlled by emotions or carried away by the force of things a’d situations, feels childish

Like if they were making the choice to not have at hands that parts of their life

I’ve grow’ used to it and it doesn’t feel as weird as it used to, that evolution also allowed me to relax into that state and also stay humble, like ‘’ it could happen to me still, and I wouldn’t be childish ‘’

I feel a lot of peace

Also I know that I’ve somehow mentioned this in precedent posts, but I’ve got this syndrome of wanting to write a post, writing it, feeling good about it annnnd delete.
I know that I’m really not the only one :joy:

Sometimes I know why, others I don’t
Smetimes it’s just guts, can’t explain

I’ve seen seen something that I liked
Someone used a simple idea the scale to 1/10 to measure some letters on some subs

I’ll try to use it from time to time and matmybe who knows create a graphic after a while if I made enough inputs in due time

  • So unbotheringness 8/10,just perfect a lot but not too much that I’m an uncaring dude so in my mind it’s 10/10

  • Eyed by women 4/10 some action going on but I’m not outside enough to say if it’s more or less

  • social skills in general 5/10 Wich is a ton more than my base level

  • women going going toward me and initiating stuff 2/10,happened a few times indirectly but not open enough that I can really make anything out of it so still an area to progress

  • having ‘’ le bagou’’ The talk to charm people 2 or 3 /10 need to practice more

  • being the center of attention 5/10 I could use some more, but I can observe it happening

  • body changing 3/10 seing some change, still early to say more

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#381

After observing that I kept being in recon after a few days I tried to go 7 mons for both of my every other day loops

The recon went away

Didn’t felt that results really came back
Weirdly I felt more result when in recon

So didn’t care and decided to go even lower yesterday by going for 5/5 for both loops

Had dreams related to the subs Wich didn’t happen in a week or more

Could be the way

It looks like after 3-4 days of full loops so around 7-10 days in a cycle I needed to town down my listening time, it’s okay at first but it seems to accumulate too much the more I advance into the cycle

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#382

Just dreamt that I was singing like a god
(from the dreamcyclopedias that I go to it’s apparently a dream you make when you’re sad af, I can attest this now :upside_down_face:)

I wake up I see ‘’ singing mastery x’’ going into consideration

I swear if it gets available I buy it straight away and hoppety whoopety in ma stack

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