A ZP journey, from Melior

Journals - Major Programs
#323

Don’t ask me okay just don’t ask me why I changed again
But here’s why

Went from DEUS to Divine will
I’ll consider that my mind was trained enough with my curent custom that has both Tyrant and DEUS gotta do what I preach and just throw myself in those waters

And went from Steadfast to Fenrir
Because even tho I choosed steadfast from some bad precedent experiences I know that if I want to change that really I need to form more myself to those possible situations more and just train myself so that everything is smooth no need to think I’ll just act

The rest of the courage will be brought by other modules, the whole reason why I first chosed steadfast is something I’d like to achieve without a subliminal input, I believe that no theorical will replace practice in those conditions…

Instead Fenrir will really work on me and give me that edge for certain people not to enter my life and so no need to exit them in the first place

Sounds good…
I’ll say nothing more I’ve changed that custom so many times that even Invictus looks like a decisive person in term of custom making lul

So far I’m almost 2 month into that process, can’t imagine how different it would’ve ended up without that time to think about it…

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#324

6th loops in

Just to keep the count

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#325

Brah I really needed this. Watched it yesterday as I was loosing my footing and I remembered as I watched it to the end that… I AM is the operant power, and I simply said to myself… “Be still and know, that I AM that I AM.” And all worries subsided and I again assumed responsibility for myself. So thank you for sharing this! :pray:

And it sounds like things are going well for you! Makes me happy to hear that. :blush:

Also, note to self: Don’t get on Melior’s bad side :joy:

:rofl: :rofl: :rofl:

But that only means that you’ve really given it proper and deep consideration, no? :slight_smile:

And lastly…

Just remember, that with big PP powers comes big PP responsibilities! :rofl:

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#326

I’m setting the foot a bit off the accelerator on the break
I’m coming slowly at a state of overdoing things, I had event that forces me to slow down a bit

Also I had quite an intense dream and manifestation as I woke up
Today full on rest day, wich I haven’t offered myself in something like 3 month ? I think
I’ll just do my whole meditation training stuff over an hour at max insted of the 2-3 usual and no work

The rest of today will be about getting some laugh and hapiness
Depending on how I’ll feel tomorrow I might go for a premature washout

#327

Gravemind have a whole videos series on that genre if you wish so, they’ve really helped me keep that fire on while I started making moves the last few months

Thank you brother :pray:t2:
Today things are shaky shaky and rocky but I’ll go through it as usual
Last year I’ve learned how to go through such period I’ll repeat every grounding technique I know until the ship is right back out the storm

YES ! I’m glad I’m doing it even if it does make one smash his head on a wall :joy:

:eyes: :ok_hand:t2:

And thank you a lot for your support along my journey @Athanaxos
It’s not much but every little positive thoughts or energy helps a lot especially in days like today

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#328

Yeah, I’m gonna take a look around at the other Gravemind videos :slight_smile:

Same back at ya! :blush:

How are you doing today? Still shaky?

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#329

Pretty good today it looks like I did right and the storm seems to be mostly behind!

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#330

I feel great today compared to yesterday but I think I’m going to take it as a rest day nonetheless
I’m not saying it’s the washout but I’m definitly taking it as another day of nothing, the only mission is getting in good mood

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#331

Also I’m considering switching Mind’s eye core to Joie de vivre
Since I’m feeling like I’m training it quite a lot in my current custom and perhaps quite a lot within my own everyday practice too

Also I think it could really help my custom acheive that all around profound, powerfull yet sweet trinity synergy, also who wouldn’t want to find a bit more joy in their everyday life

Even if I consider myself quite a general entousiast guy

I’d only be sad since I’d go from a three core to a normal Duo wich would really kill my joke and meme I made last week once and for all

So that’s in my thought process, I’ll give it more time to germinate as an idea
please don’t be mad at me for thinking about it fellas :joy: :pray:t2:

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#332

Loop 7 of both custom and AC done
I think I’ll listen to a 8th loops of only my custom then big washout time

Ma bhren telling me I wanna breathe I’ll let it breath

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#333

Took the decision to take an extended washout

I feel too much in my head, I’ve definitly over done it

I’m going to breaaaathe that good prana

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#334

Good call brah. Let that bhreen breathe :laughing:

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#335

I’m going to take a break from the forum and subs, I already feel better but I need to work more on my grounding before pursuing my journey

If there is one thing I’m currently learning is that I need more grounding

I keep wanting higher things and barely working on the lowers

So my current plan WWW
Walk - workout - wash

Walking in the forest for anchoring who I am and clear myself of bad energy

Workout until it’s a daily practice to consolidate my spirit within it’s body

Wash, doing some salt bath from time to time to balance my energies out

I’ll come back better ready to pursue my goals with a steadier pace and a healthier one

Peace everyone, I might answer if anyone post something into my topic but I won’t guarantee a reponse within the day or week

May all of you grow into ever greater beings until then! :pray:t2:

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#336
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#337

Small update
Still being off subs

At Mark 10 days off I had some typical unconfortable dreams

Same for day 13

I seem to restructure a lot my thinking in my everyday life a bit like you would do defragmentation on a older computer

I’ve already started back to do some workouts and it feel really great
As a matter of fact any physical activity or actions in general feels great

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#338

A lot of what I previously thought I wanted seemed to have come from the ego, a really sneaky one

So yeah my journey in sub will drastically change when I restart it

I don’t know when but it definitely won’t be what I first thought at all

I’ve learned that I went too much into only one aspect that life has to offer and sacrificed too easily other aspect that are important for a healthy life

So I’m slowly coming back to balance
Slowly but surely

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#339

One of the aspect that will change is my view on spirituality

It will definitely change to a healthier one
I’m glad I’m making that change now rather than later in my life

It’s really hard to admit but I was too much focusing myself into mental and conceptual aspect of it

So now time to live rather than think

I think a good metaphor would be the one when Buddha got illuminated and decided to break his fast and rule not to make something to eat and just told his little following of monks ‘’ let’s just make something good to eat shall we? ‘’

I won’t pretend to be illuminated, I don’t think I am
But I’ve definitely come to the conclusion that eating and enjoying life for what it is, is the best spirituality for me

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#340

Hi to all,

I’ve just started to use back subs 2 days ago ending that one month and a half of “washout”
this time it’s a healing journey, a much needed one

So my stack currently is simply elixir, wich has been wonderfull for the only loop I played so far, his main goal is to help me get rid off that anxiety that I’ve let grown for some time now and need to go away
I’ll add paragon to heal a problem that has decided to stick for too long with me too, hopefully the issue won’t be anymore a bother in the coming months then

I’ve got my hand on the fresh new love bomb for later use and spartan to make sure I stay motivated, also for a later use

All of this is really new for me, I’ve never come to give proper time to healing anything really
A shame

Time to be more responsible
Now I’ll be gone reading about those fancy new products for distraction purpose or maybe later use who knows

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#341

Love to you everyone

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#342

Welcome back, my friend. Here’s to your healing!

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