2nd day of washout
I could go for a whole week, or not, I’ll see
No peticular reasons for it
Meditation today was liberating and emotional
I had a great sense of self
Taking back some power I gave out, I don’t know where,why or any reasons it wasn’t mine
So naturally I acquired it
At least it felt like it, so let’s call that a start
A thought I had was that the Mind is a sense
The sharper it gets, the more divine, the less being to a classical human perspective
Rocks knew it all along… those smartass
I still have to not make sense of it and understand how I can use it for an never ending expansion of my self
As Budhism in my understanding tend to negate things and dilude itself into the divine wich to me feels nihilistic approach (in the grand lines, I know it’s not that simple)*
I’d like to go in the opposite direction without the demarch to be “egoic”
It is after all just a matter of choice
To reach infinite/divine there is either the endless negation or the eternal expansion
After all it’s all about chosing either one the result should theorically end up vastly different in term of experience yet be strictly the same in term of form/objective results
I wrote what I wanted to remember, so I’m good for now I guess
*edit : I know it’s about finding balance and many more things, but when looked at from above and at the end of the path, it recquires to deny many things in order to feel peace, to have balance you have to be above the swings of feelings, and while it’s an important thing, I crave exploration of those, and creations of new feelings, not overing the creation but partaking in it
I want to enjoy life and the creation so, while I love Budhism and it’s tool; I’ll use it my way
