Did not like Khan with Inner Circle… perhaps it was just me but Khan really repels people rather than drawing them in.
Inner Circle seems to work way better on Stark as you’re approachable, but really depends though.
I take that back actually because it is rather a misconception – you will only attract those who are on your level. (on Khan).
@Hermit it’s funny because I just read pacman’s thread where you were raving about your khan IC custom.
Feeling bad. Like I want to end it all. Running Sanguine now.
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That helped only for an hour. Gotta take a walk. Feels like everything is collapsing
Are you okay?
You have had so many releases of old stuff lately that’s been supressed, I know that feeling. That usually leaves a feeling of emptiness or a void. It will pass. The walk sounds like a good idea. Stay safe.
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Could be better. Walk helped, then got a call to let me do my dentist appointment a bit early.
At the dentist right now. Feeling a bit better after talking to one of the assistants who just so happens to like the product I work on (work). Nice change in pace.
Yes. I feel like a lot of BS is coming out. Milk tea after the dentist appointment planned!
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Hang in there man. There are lots of people who are cheering you on. More rest days? Fewer loops?
If I told you the shit DR has dragged up for me… you might believe me but it’s weird. Maybe I’ll post about it some time.
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Let’s cheer on this fellow Dragon! Please see the above 5 posts.
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Please read above 6 posts and cheer on our fellow Dragon!
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Hey dude.
I completely understand this feeling. I get it.
But it’s really not worth it. Please don’t do that.
I’m here to talk to if you want to reach out, I understand if not.
However, I can relate more than you know.
Whilst your world might feel like it’s collapsing, it isn’t. It’s just a feeling.
You are an incredible guy, and you’ve got so much to accomplish and you’ve come so so far. Keep going my man.
I’m proud of you, and we are all proud of you too.
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Thanks for the words B!
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Hey man, this will pass. Sometimes your mind makes you feel like everything is falling apart because it’s re arranging itself. You will get through this.
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Wow, @SubliminalUser, EMDR. I was using it more when I came here 2 years back, but I’ve not done so in quite a while. It pulls up stuff quickly and clearly, and de-escalating the awarenesses was not really successful for me. I was doing it alone, but in years prior I’d been with therapists and it was common for them to back down when strange emotional awarenesses would surface. I discounted it at first, but when a memory unfolds, I’d often wonder…WTF!? EMDR is no joke. It works, and works quickly.
Pairing it with DR is mighty courageous, imo. You’ve got two powerful, precise scalpels doing work on you simultaneously. That’s a major move. I have yet to read your larger story of why and how you’re using EMDR, so I’ll take some time and read. You’re one in a million doing this.
You’re not alone.
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I think this is a perfect place to add an encouragement.
I bought an EMDR book years ago by one of the major therapists using EMDR to heal inner trauma. It was mentioned that walking, of all things, is healing since it mirrors the left/right movements in the brain. It is roughly equivalent to a good, focused EMDR session. Plus, you expel the tensions coming up too.
And I second this belief. I used to walk a good half-mile stretch near my house when in college. It was mostly vacant at the time, so I could be in my head and, essentially, just calm down internally. A good walk stays with me for hours.
And my mom, who was a lifelong alcoholic (with a lot of unprocessed trauma), told me she used to walk for miles when under stress.
So, I’m here reminding myself too–go take a walk. It does the brain and body good.
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Reading your post this card appeared in my head instantly
- Personality annihilation, reconstruction of the person via Soul “I” sight and even the deeper occult meanings of: Universal deconstruction as the dream of the sleeping God is abolished by the Awakened God.
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Thanks again man!
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@SubliminalUser I think @anon2351792 has an interesting point. I’ve gone through times on DR when I feel emotionally disoriented. As in the meanings that I had for things have changed or just are gone. My sense of self has been altered. Things are either gone or redefined. I don’t know how else to explain it.
Thanks @anon2351792 for posting this!
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