Inspired by the book Not Nice by Dr Aziz Gazipura
Starting again with a Sanguine/Elixir Ascension stack.
Iām going to give this stack at least until the end of the year. Iāve been switching subs in the hope that something will click and build. My previous journal hinted at the direction of travel, which was:
- Sanguine Elixir does the healing, calming and self love
- Ascension gives the core.
The book Not Nice essentially said that the opposite to Nice is Power.
Iāve given my life away to others in the hope that others will like me and not criticise, hurt and scar me too deeply. That strategy was successful for a short time. But now I have physical aches which doesnāt chime for a 40 year old.
Ascension is the sub I have the most experience with, even though other things got in the way - life changes. I also was full of trauma and didnāt have a roadmap to get out of it. Trauma healing worked in getting rid of a lot of the PTSD anxiety. But Ascension got me moved to another city, improve my work prospects, have a live in partner. So things are looking up.
Now this journal will help in keeping me focused on developing power.
But why not just use Khan again?
I need a solid foundation. Add to the Not Nice book I need power. Not over others, over self. To infuse myself with as much self-power as possible.
Letās go.