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#161

Day 14 rest

Lol so I caught myself thinking “maybe this stack isn’t that good, I kinda wanna switch back to WB” then realized ah this is recon. Maybe I switch up stacks a lot due to recon and if I just stuck to one I’d actually see way more improvement. I’m gonna stick to this one for real for at least one more cycle.

Had weird wacky dreams last night, also the night before. Night before, a weird dream where Martin Lawrence (the actor) was abusing a lady in front of me, then the next night, I was being abusive in some way… don’t remember the details though. They were just weird abusive dreams o.0

Edit: today has gone well so far. I’ve been watching a youtuber who gets me in a good mood, that has helped a lot. Also Uber Eats was good during lunch. Was chill, patient, and feeling good the whole time. Perhaps the recon has worn off.

Edit 2: Uber was good today, but aside from that, just feel good, like my first day of this cycle, more relaxed and in the moment, like I can smell better and my senses are sharpened. Feel more at peace :v: :relieved:

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#162

Day 15

3 min LB. Good day, Uber was decent for lunch and at the gym felt positive attention/energy from pretty girls around me and in general.

#163

Day 16 rest

Had wet dreams two nights in a row :sweat_smile:

Edit: good day, Uber eats was good, and had good/positive interactions with people. A group of girls in a car next to me rolled down the window and were smiling/waving at me and stuff, I felt shy as hell and waved back, gave them the peace sign and they were all laughing and giddy and gave a peace sign back as their Uber driver pulled away o.0 after that I was feeling good/turned on and received quite a few looks as I walked into a mall to pick up an order. Things calmed down but still in a good/chill mood despite not having eaten in like 6 hours

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#164

Day 18

3 min Primal, 3 min Sanguine

Am taking a sort of “vacation” from work, so did nothing yesterday, just stayed home, and boy was it needed :kissing_smiling_eyes: :dash: (I feel it has to do with LB “self love”) today went to a yoga class which was more intense than I was expecting… was good, lots of friendliness, nice people, pretty girls, then went to the gym and worked out and felt looks/interest from some of the ladies in there… didn’t do any approaches or anything though. So I noticed I have little to no recon right now, which is a awesome because usually I’m a crazy needy/irritated wreck at this point in the cycle (at least with the last couple stacks), but I took more rest days this cycle and then reduced the listening time, and it’s awesome :+1: anyway it was a good day, I’m happy :slight_smile:

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#165

Day 20

3 min LB

#166

Day 21 rest

Yesterday was good, no recon. Went to two yoga classes and the instructors were very nice and the 2nd one was especially nice, maybe flirty, but I like her as an instructor and wouldn’t do anything cuz of that. But yeah in my head I was thinking “I love you” while talking to her, just as an experiment honestly, and yeah that seemed to do something o.0 anyway, feeling like 100% less needy and good. For sure going to do this stack again after the washout :love_you_gesture: forgot to mention though, I had a weird dream last night where I was walking in a neighborhood, either alone or with someone, and this guy was throwing oranges at us or something, and I was super angry at it was yelling at him and stuff lol. Really random, kinda felt like a sub/recon type dream.

#167

Day 22 washout

Yesterday I woke up feeling wiped out, not sure why. Maybe because I ate late. But yeah I felt irritable for a lot of it and felt weird and needy at the gym, but that may be because I “fapped” the night before (/:), or because I went like 8 hours without eating and was in traffic for much of the day. AKA, it may have not been recon but just a crappy day. Also I drove for Uber Eats and it was trash /: (almost 0 orders). Or maybe there WAS some recon, not sure.

#168

Day 24 washout

Yesterday was good, overall way calmer and not getting annoyed nearly as much, let things go faster/much more often. Almost all interactions with girls feel good. Had a weird dream last night of me being really annoyed/pissed with my brother, felt like a recon type dream. Excited to run this stack again.

#169

Day 27 washout

So I notice I feel more needy when I’m hungry, with or without subs, but with recon it’s usually x10, but it has been reduced from like an 8 to a 3 or 4. With this stack there was WAY less neediness than previous stacks. Anyway, may take more washout days or may just start the next cycle today :man_shrugging:

#170

Cycle 2

Day 1

30 sec Primal, 30 sec Sanguine

Edit: Lol damn so I went to a yoga class kinda far from where I live, and thought the teacher was really interesting, and I ended up staying and hanging out with them for like 4 and a half hours, all were girls, but none really my type, but it was cool and yeah very interesting people, one had lots of knowledge on herbs and was making tea for us and towards the end I gave them some weed I had etc.

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#171

Day 2 rest

Woke up early, didn’t get a full night sleep. Feel needy honestly, and annoyed. However, I discovered a way to fix it: before going and doing whatever else you’re gonna do, just go somewhere peaceful and nice, outside preferably, and just sit in the sun (or outside in general) relax, look at the trees, take in the stimuli, and cool off. Then proceed.

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#172

Day 3

30 sec LB.

Edit: Lol yep, I know LB gives a lot of people a lot of recon here but for me it’s been magic. Actually seems to reduce recon. This is the one I might have as a “main”.

Edit: yeah today was good. Didn’t do much except went to a yoga class and worked a bit. LB seems to reduce/eradicate feelings of jealousy and neediness and replace it with empathy/compassion. Again, for me it’s been magic.

#173

Day 4 rest

Didn’t do much except stay home and hung out with my mom and sister, was a good chill day, went shopping with them and felt some female attention at a Korean market we were at :wink: but had a nasty headache at night due to poor sleep the night before.

#174

Day 5

1 min Primal, 1 min Sanguine. Got a good night sleep and feel good again.

Edit: so just went to the gym and then two yoga classes today. Was very chatty. Literally talked to the guy behind the desk for like an hour after the 2nd yoga class and basically made a friend. Is this Primal?

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#175

Day 6 rest

Was an okay day, took two yoga classes (reason for so much lately is it’s bundle thing and I’m using up the classes before the deadline), Felt decent for the first half of the day, then recon (?) kicked in and I felt needy and irritable. I didn’t do any approaches today and I was very annoyed/frustrated that I didn’t. Also I woke up early so didn’t get a full 8 hr sleep, and usually that makes me more moody. Not sure if it’s that or recon (or both), but yeah. Later at night, relaxed a bit and slowly felt better. But yeah, I wonder if this recon is from Primal? Not sure.

#176

Day 7

1 min LB

Edit: good day, went to gym, ran into an old friend whom I haven’t seen since before covid, good and positive interactions, was patient and non-needy, almost has me thinking I should just run LB by itself…

#177

This is the second time on this journal so far I’ve seen you mention Persian girls. Do you live in an area where Persian women are common?

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#178

If you don’t mind and still remember, can you share some of what that experience was?

#179

Lol that’s funny, yeah they’re relatively common around here.

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#180

Oh I think that was literally it, I was thinking like “it’d be nice to meet a pretty Persian girl” either that day or the night before :man_shrugging:

It should read something more like “…I think I manifested this but it almost scared me because it’s such a specific scenario” but I guess I derped at the time of writing that.

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