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Journals - Major Programs
#181

Day 8 rest

Was good and bad. Mostly it was bad from frustration with Uber sucking. But yeah I think I get recon until I get into a conversation with any girl, then it’s smooth and enjoyable. I think this is Primal doing this :confused: kinda a burden, but also fun. Maybe running Sanguine and LB alone would be better because you don’t need to do anything with those titles, they’re just pure feel good (in my experience at least). Earlier in the day was at Sephora trying some colognes since Uber was slow, and talked to one girl and asked if she could even smell the fragrance I sprayed since it was very faint, and she said no. We talked for a few seconds then I went and tried some others. She came up to me and said it smells different if you spray it on your skin. Probably could’ve gotten her number or took the interaction further, but I wasn’t in that mode/feeling at all at the moment.

Later did Uber for dinner and it was slow for the first hour and a half or so, which honestly got me in a bad mood, having to wait all that time doing nothing in my car basically. Finally started getting some orders, and struck up a convo with a girl (wasn’t attracted to) at one of the restaurants I was picking up from, and almost had that PS bubble effect, like we were talking and everything else around us disappeared, after a few minutes she got back to work but spent a surprisingly long time talking to me despite there being a lot of customers lol. Then later a girl at that restaurant was looking at me and getting close to me while I waited for an order, but she wasn’t “objectively” that attractive, though I thought she was kinda cute. Didn’t do anything though as the frustration from Uber sucking got me in a weird mood.

So yeah was a good day with a significant amount of positive female attention but had a lot of frustration from my job, and maybe some of it was recon, not sure.

Also, forgot to mention, have been having wet dreams very often lately :sweat_drops: :sweat_drops:, like almost every other night. I think I had one last night as well, but also had a recon type dream later where I was angry/arguing/fighting with a guy or something (don’t remember the details).

#182

Day 9

1 min Sanguine, 1 min Primal (changed the usual order to see if that makes a difference). Gonna see if I get recon, if I do, will roll back to 30 seconds.

Edit: has been a good day so far. Went to the gym, started a conversation with the best looking late 30s girl I think I’ve ever seen (I thought she was 21). Then went for a short shop afterwards where I was getting a lot of female attention, one lady was like inches from me, didn’t realize she was there till I turned to my right and was like whoa hey sorry, and yeah some stares and stuff. I think switching the titles (playing Sanguine before Primal) made a positive difference. Time will tell though, sometimes it’s like one day, lots of female attention, next day, zero, nada + recon maybe. Fingers crossed that it stays cool though lol.

#183

Day 10 rest

Had ANOTHER wet dream last night o.o

#184

Sometimes I’d wish for that happening again :joy:

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#185

Hey man, you could try running Primal :man_shrugging: I think that’s what’s causing it but I’m not sure.

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#186

Lol. Another Primal synchronicity.

I’m planning to do so. Probably in about 50 days.

It’s just that it’s the 5th time I’m getting confronted with running Primal.

I’m seriously convicted, that subs have the effect of showing you which other subs are important for your development and your goals.
As long as you can differentiate it from sos.

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#187

Dude lots synchronicities have been happening the past 2 weeks or so, not just with me but people I interact with o.0

For sure, that’s happened to me. Like I’ll run WB or something and I realize I really need inner work/game first.

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#188

Day 11

LB 1:30 min

#189

Day 12

Didn’t do much this day, just did a bit of Uber Eats (which was pretty lousy) but it was a beautiful day so that helped. Interactions with girls these past couple days have been nice, and I feel 90-95% less needy than I usually would at this point in the cycle, and in certain situations I think it’s because of LB.

Forgot to mention, I do get into road rage sometimes, particularly in situations where I’m already kind of irritated or annoyed and I’m just trying to get somewhere or home, and there’s cars driving slow next to each other not letting me pass. Maybe I should just decide that no matter what, I’ll keep my cool and not be aggressive no matter how much I feel like it or want to.

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#190

Day 13

1:30 min Sanguine, 1:30 Primal.

Went to the gym, and that was basically it I believe lol (don’t remember).

#191

Day 14 rest

Hmm just did Uber Eats and smoked cannabis :stuck_out_tongue: relatively uneventful day. Was a bit annoyed with myself later that I wasn’t as productive as I could’ve been and didn’t talk to girls when I could’ve/should’ve. But again, neediness and irritability is significantly reduced.

#192

Day 15

2 min LB

#193

Day 16 rest

Didn’t do much, tried Uber Eats earlier in day, was lousy, just went home and engaged in cannabis off and on during the day :man_shrugging:

#194

Day 17

2 min Sanguine, 2 min Primal

#195

Day 18 rest

Took day off and went to a yoga place kinda far away, it was all good and there’s this 18 year old who’s still in high school who I think likes me/has a crush on me (not even sure if she’s 18 yet but I assume she is). But eh w/e I’m kinda indifferent about it. Aside from that I’ve been smoking cannabis almost daily during this cycle, but not large amounts, just like 1 or two small bowls per day. Doesn’t seem to be affecting it negatively as far as I can tell, the only negative is maybe it’s made me a bit more lazy/complacent and less willing to go out if I smoke early in the day. Anyway, aside from that, everything is good, and I’m either going to run this stack again or make a custom :slight_smile:

Edit: ah, I should mention, I do want/need wealth, so I may switch out Primal or Sanguine for Ascension, RICH, or another wealth title (or just wait till after next cycle).

#196

Day 19

2:30 min LB.

Had a dream last night that for school (I don’t even go to school right now), maybe college, me and a guy had to sing/dance/rap for two songs that I didn’t know, and I didn’t prepare and only had like 30 min - an hour to practice. I was flipping out the whole time and never even got to hear the songs, and pretty much told the guy I’m screwed and can’t do it, or I’m just gonna go up on stage and ruin it for both of us. It was stressful, but wow it felt so real and visceral… random huh.

#197

Day 20 rest

Did Uber Eats which was crappy, then went to gym. Starting conversations with girls/approaching certainly feels much easier and more natural. Like I can just do it. Sometimes I still get unsure whether I should, but I wouldn’t call it approach anxiety, more just unsure, like hmm do I really want to/feel like it? Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t, and I still haven’t actually been direct with my intentions, usually I just start conversations.

#198

Day 21

2:30 min Sanguine, 2:30 Primal

#199

Day 22 washout day 1

Lol, looking back on my journal entries from previous cycles, I think most of my recon was due to overloading. I was running the full 15 minutes in many cases. Also, with the custom I usually ran 3 minutes or more, which was probably crazy dense. This cycle has been pretty much recon free as far as I can tell. MUCH smoother.

Edit: lol I’m sitting here looking at modules for a custom, and I saw Discordia Deliverance. Before these last two cycles I was sure I needed that in the custom, but now I look at it, thought about it, and realized I’m like not jealous anymore o.0 like idk if it’s 100% gone but it feels like it :grinning:

Note: Next cycle, do run subs for 2:30 min for first loop, then add 30 seconds from there.

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#200

Day 27 washout day 5

Have been pretty good the past few days, a bit lazy honestly, and some road rage here and there sadly. I encountered this one girl who works at a store, who I approached a year ago or so (when I was just doing approaches). I saw her on mother’s day, and she wasn’t very nice, she was kinda quiet and standoffish. She was working/stacking things, so I ended the convo and let her go. Then a day or two later I saw her at the checkout line. She wasn’t there originally, it was another girl, but she came in to help I guess, so I interacted with her again, and she was still being weird and standoffish, which was annoying because I’m really not even interested in her anymore but she acts like I am. Like bro, I said you were cute and asked you out like 2 years ago, get tf over yourself. Like I was being friendly/platonic. And this was annoying because it made the OTHER girl there also kinda quiet and awkward (where when I first walked up she was nicer/chattier) and weird/low energy. So I’m there, and the girl I asked out two years ago, I made cocky joke that was obviously a joke, and instead of laughing/anything positive she just looked down and made it awkward, like WOOOOW not cool. Again, this annoys me because it makes me look bad/weird in front of this other girl you know? Anyway, I was able to smooth it out and just interacted with the other girl instead (I was interacting with both of them at first), so I just ignored the mean girl who thinks I still like her and continued the now slightly awkward convo with the other girl, and said bye only to her.

Anyway, yeah I honestly think the subs helped a bit here with socializing etc., like me being able to smooth it out the way I did and end on a good note would’ve probably not happened without the subs or been significantly more awkward. So I’m grateful for that :slight_smile: anyway, I may start the next cycle either today or tomorrow (most likely tomorrow).