Day 15
3:45 min Wanted. Was super moody/needy/angry/sad/frustrated and all that good stuff yesterday, probably recon + bad sleep /: got good sleep last night but still did a short loop today because it felt right. Going much longer and I feel I would get pretty bad recon.
edit: went to the gym and was kind of chill at first, then started to feel frustrated/needy/etc. but it was empowering, like it was a feeling that I can talk to any girl and I’m going to f*cking make it work no matter what, even if she responds negatively, I’ll do my damnnest to get a good response/make a good impression/charm her in SOME way. So I walked up to one girl who was working out and asked how many sets she had left, she lifted her finger “1”, then I asked how many reps she had, so she took out her ear bud and I asked again and she said 10, then I asked if she could do 30 more (literally made no sense but I didn’t care), she was confused and I said “just kidding” and she laughed and I walked downstairs, where I approached another girl and abruptly just walked up and asked what her name was (keep in mind I have this fire burning inside me where I HAVE to approach a girl or two or else I’ll remain pissed and in a bad mood, similar to my first ever cycle of WB + OG SS), we talked for a while and for the first 10 seconds or so I think she wanted to be left alone, but I kept talking asking questions, found out she was Persian, and that she was 17, and I was about to leave at that point as I kinda laughed and said “oh you’re a baby” (she easily could’ve passed for early 20s though), but then she started asking ME questions and was smiling and being flirty etc., and at one point in the convo she said she turns 18 in December, which I didn’t really think about till later, there was a slight language barrier but it was still pleasant. I tried to leave the convo twice but she pulled me back in lol, and eventually I shook her hand twice and we parted ways. Anyway, that released pretty much all of that weird pent up energy and as for the Persian girl, perhaps I’ll see her again at the gym in the future.