That’s probably DR mate! I’m also glad you’ve been productive on DR too.
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First day of DR ST3!!
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Right on mate! Congratulations on your dedication!
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Goddamn ST3 is something else. Immediatly after my first loop on monday i got extreme stiffness in my neck and my neck kept cracking everytime i moved it. This went on for 3 days but today it seems to have gotten a bit better. I assume this is a manifestation of ST3 because the timing just seems to perfect to be a coincidence. Aside from that this stage also brought back all the selfdoubt from stage 1 but now a lot heavier. Im constantly doubting what im doing “why am i doing this?” “Is this really what i want to do?” Etc etc etc. Its really damn annoying and caused my productivity to go to shit again. It definitely feels like each stage of DR gets progressively harder, and im already kind of fearing how tough ST4 is gonna be.
I feel somewhat sick and have trouble doing stuff and getting out of bed due to how awfull i currently feel. This has probs been enough DR for the week and im taking the next 4 days off
I just took 5+ days off from DR.
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Did it get a lot better for you after a break?
There is one bright light at the end of the tunnel on this stage though. I felt a few glimpses of this, but i think i got a pretty good idea of how its gonna feel ones the script is fully integrated. Its basically the opposite of how i feel now. Right now it feels like everything is really hard, life is extremely tough and doing stuff requires a lot of willpower and just pushing through the awfull feelings.
But there were a few glimpses of how i assume its gonna feel later, and i can tell you, its freaking amazing. Some brief moments i felt the complete opposite, like life is a breeze, going through life is the easiest thing in the world and doing stuff goes almost automaticly. Ive heard such a state be described as “flow consciousness”. If my assumption is correct and this is what this stage, and DR as a whole is working towards, than i can tell you it was 100% worth all the trials. These feelings are genuienly amazing, and living life that way sounds like absolute heaven. If that is the case than i might just keep DR in my stack indefinitely.
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Yes! Less physical discomfort. My mind felt more clear.
I find it gets to be more and more this way. Very liberating!
This is my plan.
Congratulate yourself man!
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The sickness and awfullness that i felt previously seems to be completely gone now after a few rest days. If i had to guess whats going on id say its the “integrating of all the previous stages” that caused all this reconciliation. Ive really noticed this already, even though the previous stages helped me a lot, it sometimes felt like that at the end of the day my demeanor in general didnt change to much. Now after only 3 days of ST3 im already noticing my entire personality changing very heavily in a very good way. The anxiety i talked about previously that i get when doing something outside my confortzone seems to be getting so much better. Besides this i just feel like i can be myself more if that makes sense. Usually i kind of have a tendency to put on a different face when talking to different people and in different situations and all that. This all stemmed from some sort of fear of otherwise not fitting in. This has also dissappeared to a very large extend and that has made it far easier to just relax.
In general i feel like ive changed sooo much and i cant wait to see what more DR has in store for me.
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Now that’s what I’m talking about!
The above post is a concrete example of why I sound like an audio loop about rest days.
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Some profound changes are happening. I wont go much into detail since itd take far to long to explain everything, but what it comes down to is, i realised that what i was currently spending my time is kind of a waste of time at this point. Ive learned it to a decent extend and can practicly use it, but going much deeper in the rabbithole has barely led to much progress and it really had become mental masturbation at this point. Its now time to start getting into something else. Something i can get more out of.
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Ill be switching to listening every other day for a bit since the recon seems really heavy in this stage.
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Congratulations on your above insights!
Also I think that’s a wise idea to experiment with a different listening schedule in light of reconciliation.
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My reconcilation is taking form as me constantly thinking about switching subs and using other subs. Its getting pretty hard to convince myself to keep going on DR, especcially with all the posts lately that ive been seeing about people saying that Healing subs arent that neccessairy and that it might be better to tackle some problems directly rather than getting in a “healing loop”. Also considering that DR is my first sub ive seriously been running, and it is soo tough. This all said though, ive came so far already so i at the very least want to finish ST3 and get a few months in on the final stage before i switch subs. Theres no backing out now, i committed to this at the start of the year and i dont wanna back out now, so im just gonna be pushing through for now, the benefits have felt so extremely promising too.
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This is very wise.
Run it to its completetion, then you can do st4 a couple of month every year as maintenance.
I´m already planning to run it next winter for 2-3 month.
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That is very smart! Not to mention that when you run it in the winter there is quite a chance (i assume) that Q+ is released and youll be able to get additional things out of it due to that upgrade.
Yes, it will only get better!
It’s not a sexy sub to run, like Khan or Stark, but it’s pure gold.
Keep at it!
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I feel the need to complain a bit. I seriously despise DR so much rn. I run it so little and yet still so much recon. Ive lost all positive benefits again and all my problems right now feel far worse than they ever were. Im constantly even getting recon manifest in physical problems and im feeling so extremely negative again. I reallyy hate this shit rn.
I sympathize. How about taking a break?
As for losing progress, how are you measuring your progress?
I measured mine by noticing my negative beliefs got less intense, less intrusive, and less frequent.