Ah that was the latest I’d taken.
Alright itching to re-test now, I’ll do it this week once i find some string LOL
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Dude, this convo is getting better by the minute.
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Classic.
I don’t doubt him, I’m super jealous haha
Stay tuned for the conclusion of this lore arc. Give me a day or two. 
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Without feeding my ‘old story’ too much, I’ve had lifelong sexual difficulties and your jealousy would likely, quickly evaporate if you experienced what I have in this arena. So that may be some consolation lol.
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Fair enough haha. That’s kind of why I keep my goal on the more realistic 7 x 6.2, still in that 0.1 if not 0.01 rarity, but can definitely still can work with it.
7 x 7 though is crazy.
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OK, retest results are in.
BPEL - 18cm / 7"
Girth - 17cm at base / 6.7" - 16cm mid/upper shaft - 6.3"
Took several retests for accuracy and dem’s the numbers. Did get one outlier measurement at 18.3cm base somehow (first attempt), but then 3 measurements at 17cm so lets go with that. I’ll assume the higher reading was human error, excess skin or somesuch unknown.
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Still insanely thick, congrats dude.
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Last week was:
Monday - KB1, K1 - 7 min each
Wednesday - KB1, LB - 7 min each
Friday - LB, K1 - 7 min each.
Decided to take this entire week as an extended washout.
Today I’ll be taking some actions to overcome some blocks I’ve held onto for too long.
I feel, in waves, my strength and sanity returning to me.
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Cycle 7 (First Cycle of Stage 2!), Week 1
Monday - KB2, LB - 3 mins each
Wednesday - LB, K2 - 3 mins each
Some interesting dreams.
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Just wanted to say that I throughly enjoyed reading through your journal and I appreciate your candidness and desire for change 
It’s amazing how I also find myself resonating with your goals and desires in life, despite us being complete strangers and such different people—it’s a testament to how we’re all just human and interconnected in some way, shape, and form!
From reading your first post to your last, the change is apparent and really incredible—keep going friend, you’ve got this and I wish you the best of luck!
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Thanks so much for the message, and it is good to meet you!
Last week was:
Friday: KB2, LB - 3 mins each
Sunday: LB, K2 - 3 mins each
This week has been:
Tuesday: KB2, LB - 5 mins each
Thursday: LB, K2 - 5 mins each
The subs seem to bring in thoughts of the nature, “I love myself”, “I’m awesome”, “I’m an adult”.
Very aware of stress/painful emotion in the belly.
Mantra is “I love myself. Welcome (the feelings).” and zen out with it all.
Have sporadic moments of experiencing this invicibility, sufused with love. Total “alpha” zen state, filled with loving energy. Nice.
Recon is taking forms of extremes of emotion, dense webs of resistant and negative thoughts, etc.
Also I had my first therapy session this week, look forward to continuing.
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I sometimes wonder if Khan is correct for me at this time.
Just noticing my #backtoascension thoughts, for now.
Saturday was Khan Black 2 and Love Bomb for 5 minutes each.
I keep absorbing back into the mantras of “I love myself” and “I forgive myself”.
When I think of certain people in my life, I absorb into mantras of “We forgive one another. We love one another.”
I do not need to always feel safe, because I -am- safe.
It is emotionally turbulent, but I’m finally saturating the hurt, lost, abandoned, scared parts inside with what they deep down needed all along.
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Had the rest of last week as a washout.
Cycle 8, Week 1
Monday - Love Bomb 5 mins, Khan 2 5 mins.
So I noticed more assertive communication a couple times over the past two days.
Like, slightly confrontational encounters with other men where I just spoke up for myself reflexively. Like little fucks given how I came across.
Like, all very measured/relatively chill scenarios, but interesting to reflect back on.
And likewise made a fun comment to a girl in the supermarket today, again without really thinking.
Adjusting my stack.
Love Bomb stays, that is essential for self-love, forgiveness, nurturing the wholesome within me.
Khan Black stays, but I will keep at Stage 1 for a while, at least for a few more months while I go through therapy. This is prime time for digging through the soil and pulling weeds.
Khan, I will adjust for Ascension for now. Basic discipline, strength, and good lifestyle first. Walk before run before fly.
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Monday - KB1 3 min, Love Bomb 7 min
Wednesday - Love Bomb 7 min, Ascension 7 min
Friday - KB1 3 min, Love Bomb 7 min
Sunday - Love Bomb 7 min, Ascension 3 min
Hit most of my goals on the weekly planner.
Gym 4 times, PE 3 times, did 13 of my 14 planned meditation sessions.
An hour a day affirming too.
Couple of social events.
Working on my art.
Canned my blog, it got rekt by Google.
But I manifested an SEO course, purchased for me by my mentor.
And we are working on a new site together.
New Cycle, back to Khan St1.
So KB1/K1/LB.
Ran KB/LB on Monday, K and LB just now.
Strong sexual drive.
New thoughts and affirmations come to mind.
Cycle 9, Week 1
Monday - Khan Black 1, Love Bomb
Wednesday - Love Bomb, Khan TB
Friday - Khan Black 1, Love Bomb
This week has been a challenging one, but I’ve come out mostly on top.
I was dealing with some deep shame and intrusive thoughts at the beginning of this week, and had to summon courage to put voice to this stuff in therapy on Tuesday. I was able to move through a chunk of it.
Had some logisitical fuckup that could have lead to a family breakdown and big financial struggle, but I manifested a better outcome. I am powerful.
Going Khan/Khan Black stage 1 this month while I’m still in therapy, get some digging done while the therapy is in place (I have eight more weeks of this therapy).
Honestly I feel best on Ascension, even if it is older tech it feels like my ideal self without reaching too deep into uncomfortable waters. I’ll get a cycle or two of the Khan stage 1s done while going through therapy and then reassess.