My experience with this stack is like undulating waves of ego-identified torture, and then just great peace, with no movement at all.
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KB1, K1, LBFH - 5 min each.
Also a 1:30 of WB before going out.
Forced myself to go out, felt so tired.
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Cycle 5, Week 2, Day 1
KB1 15 min, K1 15 min
Respect from those around me.
Some eyes from a couple girls at the gym.
Thoughts after listening to this stack this morning… while half-asleep.
I am the man.
The past does not matter.
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IDK why I feel so little motivation to write in this journal, lately.
I will bullet-point some things I’ve noticed.
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After the Saturday overexposure with KB, K, LBFH and WB microlooops… heh… I notice my entire communication style is more naturally seductive, witty… feel more in my masculine, more acutely aware of the feminine in others. I even started stroking my lady housemate’s hand (it was not creepy, it was a natural progression of conversation).
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I become acutely aware of my blocks when out in social settings. I experience anxiety around people knowing more about me, with thoughts around erectile dysfunction and having owned a doll in the past during a breakdown, this tends to come up as a repeating pattern of thought. Like I have shameful secrets, so can’t let anyone close, project that others will judge me, so avoidant away. I remind myself that I am not the past, the past does not define me, I’m not that old man anymore, I am the new man.
-I get more inappropriate guilt/fear as if I have insulted someone I know, someone I must see to progress in a certain part of my life, keep avoiding it.
-My mentor reached out and offered to start a joint online business with me, splitting the investment and energy, and also splitting profit. This is a boss opportunity for me.
-Matched with an actually attractive woman on Tinder, sent a warm greeting straight away. Notice a 7/10 anxiety feeling even at that.
I do not wish to entertain these things anymore…
Thought and imagination creates reality.
But I am having early engrained trauma bought up.
It literally feels like trying to help an emotional infant, who is distressed, etc.
I do not wish to identify as that.
I am learning law of assumption, and having my brain stretched on the regular.
Despite some low mood, I can see that things are shiting in my favour.
I am defining some core pillars of my identity.
Ones that are strong, and honest, and positive.
Feeling those Love Bomb vibes.
I’m definitely including the new Love Bomb next cycle.
Some genuine Love may be just the ticket to forgive myself and break these old shackles for good, and step into the man I know myself to be, deep down.
Cycle 5, Week 2, Day 3
KB1 15 min, LBFH 15 min
Another attractive woman matched on a dating app.
Topic of day is “I forgive myself”
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Cycle 5, Week 2, Day 5
Khan 1 - 10 min, LBFH 10 min.
Cycle 5, Week 3
Monday - KB1 15 min, K1 15 min
Wednesday - LBFH 12 min, K1 5 min
Washout now until next cycle on Monday.
Finally get paid and picking up Love Bomb and/or Sanguine.
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Purchased Love Bomb, gave it a cheeky 3 minute listen before walking to a friend’s for dinner tonight.
A young lady smiled at me on the street… we were walking opposite ways, passing each other, she was looking at her phone but clearly a little distracted by me. I just gazed her way with a little smile, she looked up and beamed. 
Some sense of sweetness massaging its way through the jagged edges of recon brain.
And the thought that “Nope the Khans are my stack, see it through, Love will help lead the way”.
Woke at 4am today, went on Discord and ended up having a productive chat with someone on the topics of forgiveness and manifestation.
Felt quite sagely of me.
Might be some LoveBomb influence.
I feel Love.
Warmth in my chest.
Not felt this in so long.
Love Bomb be Love Bombing.
Cycle 6, Week 1
Monday - Khan Black 1 - 10 minutes, Khan Total Breakdown - 10 minutes
Wednesday - Khan Black 1 - 10 minutes, Love Bomb - 10 minutes
KB brings up the things I need to get past. LB helps me take the forgiving attitude.
Still, think therapy would be helpful here in untangling these knots, and I start some in 3 weeks. <3
Time to read your journal, but also bro, u got 6.9 x 6.9 measurements? that’s crazy. How does your girl even survive that?
Length is bone-pressed (BPEL), which is about a cm difference iirc.
Girth was measured towards base, I’ll try another measurement mid-shaft and check back lol.
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dude… I know what bpel is haha, but still, that girth ks actually mind boggling. I’m 5.7 aiming for around 6.2 - 6.7 and even at 5.7 that girth is INCREDIBLY rare.
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Hmm, I’m either an outlier, or I’ve measured wrong.
I mean, I’m fairly girthy, and had compliments, but never complaints of pain. Maybe a problem with my measurement technique lol. Wrapping a piece of piece around and marking on it where it begins to overlap, around the base, hardly feels super-accurate. I’ll check that again sometime.
You gotta. we’re talking one in a Mill here if not even more rare, and for women to never complain? even with incredible foreplay that’s at the very least 20 minutes long, and a LOT of lube, I had trouble with 5.7 girth
Yeah, I doubt I’m one-in-a-million in that regard.
So I checked the recommendations, and measuring any point for girth is fine (recommendation is to just find the thickest part), so that’s good. But it is also recommended to use a flexible tape measure or string, and I have neither, so I tore a strip of paper instead last time, wrapped around and marked the overlap. That’s likely the source of probably error.
Thanks for the headsup and I’ll check again next time I’m in the mood lol. 
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