I’ve had my warmup, time to take the crucible.
I’ve had a few months intro to subs, working with Ascension, GLM, Emperor, Regeneration and LBFH. Previous journal here:
The rest of 2023, and entirety of 2024, is going to be centered around working with Khan and Khan Black.
I was going to hold off to 2024, but my spirit is calling for Khan. Seeing signs everywhere.
For now, I am shedding layers of traumatic junk that no longer serve me.
I’m seeking emotional and sexual healing.
I’m seeking overall growth as a man.
I’m seeking to let go of illusions and step more and more into my true self who waits beyond the trauma and stories.
In terms of goals:
- The ever-ongoing, nebulous healing.
- Cure ED, sexual fear, shame, hangups etc,
- Build a $10k/month online business
- Build a strong, athletic, healthy body.
- Develop positive and masculine characteristics - self-belief, inner strength
- Enjoy dating, sex and romance
- Transformation, maturation, becoming my best self.
In terms of actions:
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Khan Black’s goals of sexual healing and energy mastery are being complemented by pranayama and meditation. I’ve also had the great fortune (since starting KB 4 weeks ago) to manifest a woman who needs a case study for her tantric massage course. Had my first session today and WOW. At a more mechanical level for sexual health I’m practicing pelvic floor toning/relaxation, and the angion method, three times a week to help with EQ etc.
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For finances and my online business, I pay for a mentor. I have regular group calls, DMs, etc. I have a pretty open schedule atm and try and work at least 20 hours a week on this.
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For fitness, I’m going to the gym and have two intense full-body workouts a week, and Muay Thai once a week (will up this to two when finances improve).
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For mental/spiritual development, I’m practicing meditation twice a day.
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Dating and meeting women will come a bit later once I’ve gotten some good healing done with the earlier stages of the Khan programs, and feel it would be ‘possible, even if confronting’ rather than simply ‘my inner landscape is objectively not ready for that’
I’m in the first stage of this year-long plan, with an emphasis on healing. I have time, I’m in no rush. I’ve already accepted I’ll be on stage 1 of these programs for the next 4-6 months. Slow is steady.