And yesterday I took my first gardasil vaccine I will take second one 2 months later. I don’t when I will take the 3rd one because it is expensive.
I have lots of things to do but I don’t wanna do anything
I was going to work out today but still there is pain on my shoulder probably because of vaccine its like some sticking a needle.
And i have problem with the shoe ive just bought newly, i bought airforce for the first time and its very uncomfortable for my right foot. I will try to return it or i will sell it. And i dont know what kinda shoe i should buy. Its just a fucking shoe but still i couldnt give a decision. And still ihave shoe i should get rid off
I’m fed up with living same things over and over.
I’m planning to attend dance club this week. And tomorrow there’s sailing club’s occasion. I would have wanted to be active in this club but I don’t kno how to swim yet. i looked for some places but the transportation is problem it will take my 1.30hours I don’t think I can do it now. But I have to learn it somehow.
And I think to get free from pmo I need a sexual partner. Without it looks very hard.
Sounds like your right foot is bigger. Thats common. Get a clerk to help you measure, you’ll likely need to go up a half size.
And I want more muscle more masculine body yes I have decent body but I need size. And I couldn’t work out because of the pain.
But I increased my weight 1.5kg since I started school
i really feel like a shit. I just wanna disappear from this life.
I don’t want to do anything
I was feeling very bad in the school actually im feeling low for a few days, but especially when i saw the girl in the classrom i lost my focus like for 15 minues i couldnt focus the lesson.
but later i went to tango club and it changed my mood like 180degrees it was really good. I look forward for the next lesson, it was better than i expected
Im feeling good today, good music, school is mostly empty beacuse today friday, etc.
But still i have digestion porrblem, i should consume more fiber. Probably i have sensitive body. Actually if i eat oatmeal etc i would be fine but i cant find time for this. When i get the dorm i have dinner and then there is no room for it. Maybe avocado but i dont like it. And still there is shoe problem i need to solve and i have to buy a trouser but my exams are closing.
And if i come to why do i feel good. I have to be honest i was daydreaming about this girl when i think about her it puts smile on me but when i see her again probably it will backfire. Because we dont talk anymore. In my mind she is my girlfriend, but in reality she is not, and this situation put me in hard position sometimes it creates bad feelings it throws me off balance.
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I need to read more books, i think im kinda boring person. I should read more book, maybe travel more. More hobbies.
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@qOS rn I’m running Khan ST1, GLM and Heartsong ST1. But I want to try new Khan Black, can I run it as 4th sub, would it diminish my results.
And I’m not sure whether I should run Khan’s each stage for one cycle or two cycles. Before the end of the school this year I want to run all of the stages of khan but if i run every stage for 2 cycles I cannot do this. But if run the stages only for one cycle can I get good results. I’m confused.
i don’t want to feel weak because of this girl. I don’t want to feel hopeless.
I looked for some finance basics but I haven’t yet started to investment.
And I have lessons to work. Exams are closing, and I want 4.0 GPA in this period.
I need things to keep me busy, but I’m talking about things like studying.
Also I want to develop my self intellectualy but still I don’t read books regularly. I don’t want to feel empty, because I feel. I feel my self like an idiot. I want to realize myself. But right I don’t know how, even if I know I’m not aware or even if I’m aware Im not doing it, I don’t know. i feel like im stucked for a long time.
And I want say something in general I don’t feel safe. I always feel like there is hole in my heart.
And I say I want to do master at abroad but what I’m gonna when I get there, in socially? I don’t have religious beliefs but especially if I compared to myself I’m more like traditional (conservative) guy. And I’m not sure can I find a girlfriend / wife at there. Maybe I will be more alone at there.
And about shoes I looked at shopping malls but still I’m undecided, my right foot bigger than the other and it creates problem for me. I found some but im not sure about them
And I should improve my English. I almost have no experience about speaking.
I have to be honest that this girl problem for me, actually im problem for myself.
Like there is a guy around her in the class and i dont like it. Classical ‘‘male friend’’. maybe i should have done this too, maybe.
This is hard situation for me im not gonna lie. And i talked this situation with gemini but lol this ai like disaster especially about human relaitonships he is like red pill ‘guru’.
Maybe i can buy chatgpt plus for this.
And the problem i see with myself, i look to her i analyze her and think about her while she focuses on her life and dont give shit about me, maybe in her there is a other guy. But afaik she doenst have bf, and this is kinda interesting for me beacuse even not attractive girls(for me) have bfs, while she dont and she has very focused on her lessons maybe because of this, and one of my friend told me similar thing about her, he said if you have relationship with her you would be her first bf or second etc, and this made me more interested, obsessed about her unfortunately
Tango excites me now.
But i want to say it makes totally 2 hours for me to get to school and then return to dorm. I dont know man if my dorm were closer to my school, i would have more energy and more time to myself, i could have use for my intellectual endevaours for example.
But i dont want to make this a excuse, but this situation restricts me like i should leave library more early because of this and usually when i get the dorm i feel myself tired
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I’ve seen posts about this girl months back. My friend you’re in college. Don’t spend your college years struggling somewhere alone because one girl doesn’t want you. Go talk to guys to girls make friends kiss someone… make small talk with everyone… go to parties or pubs with people from your school, go to groups. The world is too full of people who are interesting and who want you to be there with them and have fun and that you would love to be around thousands of times more. Say hi to other girls start short convos with them even if it’s just stupid weather. Even if you’re not interested in them, take it as a cute practice that you’re doing to sharpen your charisma and social skills with every person for yourself. You’re on this school to make memories and to be happy. Being gloomy doesn’t have to be your experience here. If a girl doesn’t want you she just won’t want you later. She won’t. I’m telling you this as a girl. If you want to daydream and imagine having a gf you’re better off making one up in your head or something hell maybe you’ll even manifest it but not this girl man… you deserve so much better. You deserve a girl far more fun and loving and interesting that will want you the same amount as you want her. And they are out there right now they wish they could meet you. Take this message as a manifestation result of your new heartsong trying to guide you finally to some lovers you would enjoy.
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