Dragon Emperor 2, Year of the Phoenix

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#133

  • I was REALLY not feeling it when I got up this morning. Normally that would mean that I’d either miss my workout or have a major struggle getting myself in there to do it.
    Not today. I got in there, and even though I was feeling pretty low energy compared to my usual, I did the workout. I even increased the weight on everything that it was appropriate to do that on.
    Didn’t feel good, but I damn well showed up and did it.

  • Here’s my plan for a LOTS Beast unleashed combo that’ll not only do the physical shifting bit, but help me crush the workouts.

  1. LOTS Core
  2. Beast Unleashed Core
  3. Alpha Body Language
  4. Anvil of Hephaestus
  5. Berserker
  6. Blink
  7. Deep Sleep
  8. Equilibrium
  9. Heracles
  10. Inehhustable
  11. Masters coordination
    12.Serum X
  12. SPS Endocrine
  13. SPS fat burn
  14. The Aligner
  15. Thunder
  16. Mosaic
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#134 
                 **1/29/24 CYCLE 2 WEEK 2**
  • I’ve been getting some recon this weekend.
    More or less its surfacing as anxiety about our financial condition and pessimism about ever being able to dig out of the hole that I have let myself get into,
    There are a lot of problems that could blow up on me at any moment, and I don’t have the resources to solve a lot of them.
    Long and short, I feel that I’m in a lot of trouble unless I find a way to come up with a very impressive amount of money in pretty short order here.
    It was especially bad when I snapped awake in the middle of my sleep cycle last night. Despair, catastrophising, pretty bad.
    All right, I’ve hit recon. This is where the real progress begins.
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#135

  • I woke up pretty stressed and anxious this morning, but I pushed myself to get to the gym.
    Usually, if I’m stressed out, nothing really helps unless it directly affects the situation I’m stressed about.
    Today though, I was able to just focus on what I was doing and enjoy it and had a great workout.
    I felt better afterwards.

  • My wife has been having severe pain in her arm, hand, and wrist. It may or may not be related to her MS, but she is able to do less, so I have to do more.
    So far though I’m bearing up under it and still managing to do what I need to.

  • I saw one of the older members here say that they thought that a good way to make progress is to switch out one sub for another, related one monthly to alleviate subconscious boredom.
    I’m considering switching out DE2 for a GM/RICH custom for a cycle to see if that works as a plan.
    I don’t know if AM has been upgraded with NWE yet. Or if Ascension itself is due for an awesome upgrade in the near future, so I’ll hold off for a while on that. Just something I’m considering.

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#136
  • OH, DUH. It doesn’t matter. I can throw NWE core in there anyway.
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#137

  • I woke up stressed out again today. This time though I spent some time in the twilight state, and got some impression of thought voices. Not sure what they said, but there is definitely something going on under the surface that is causing this to happen.
    And once again it dissipated as soon as I started working out.
    I was able to focus on my workout and exclude anything that was worrying me.
    I was also able to push myself considerably harder during the cardio at the end than I think I could have before.
    I have always had a habit of quitting cardio or just not doing it.

  • I am starting to look very different. Especially noticeable in the arms, but my shoulders are broader too.
    My weight has remained steady despite looking different and my clothes fitting differently. That means that I have definitely put on some muscle.

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#138
  • My body is definitely changing. And quickly.
    I was not feeling it for my workout today. And yet I dragged my ass in and did it anyway, plus I added weight and completed all of my reps.
    I’ve been feeling more sore and lower energy this week. I think maybe I’m not eating enough or something.
    Or maybe it was the weather change or something. Or just that I’ve been putting my forty six year old body through a lot more strain more consistently than it’s used to. When I make up my workout tomorrow, that’ll make four weeks with all five workouts completed.
    After I was done I looked in the mirror in lower light as I went into the bathroom, and I noticed that that groove in the center of my abs was back. It was a lot more distinct, and it goes most of the way down.
    I felt, and sure enough, my gut is noticeably smaller.
    I still have a fair amount of slop at the very bottom, but that seems to be just where my body likes to store fat.
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#139 
       **2/5/24 CYCLE 2 WEEK 3**

  • I’ve been feeling pretty stressed today about finances. Maybe it’s a little recon, or maybe it’s the program and my mind directing me to the next thing that I’m going to need to really focus on.
    The goal this year is to get my life under control and that is definitely the main aspect of it that I need to focus on to do that.
    It’s also the one that causes me the most dread to really look at.
    There are a lot of problems that we have to solve that are going to cost a lot of money, and we only have so much.
    We’re behind on a number of bills, and frankly we’re kind of just hanging on by a thread at the moment.
    This has to change.
    I really have no idea how that’s going to happen. It’s going to take me getting a much better job or an immense stroke of luck.

  • To that end, I’m going to be whipping up a GM RICH custom tonight.
    I’ve proven to myself that I have some control over the cleanliness Of the house if I work at it. I’ve proven that I have control over my physical condition and the discipline to get my ass into the gym daily.
    Now it’s time for the bard part to begin.

  • I will say that I have been somewhat disappointed by the ZP version of RICH.
    The old Ultima version worked like gangbusters. I’d start playing it, and money would start rolling in from this that and the other unexpected source.
    None of the ZP versions of RICH have done that for me, but maybe with NWE in there things will be different. I’m going to work on expecting it to work because I think that is an important part of making these things work.

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#140
  • I think that my strategy, maybe for the rest of the year is going to be to alternate my second custom between that and a physical shifting one while keeping DE2 as my main program.
    That means that I will probably be putting any sedation focus off until next year, but that’s OK, the focus of this year is getting my shit together, and that would be a distraction.
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#141
  • OK, I ordered the wealth focused custom that I’m going to alternate with a physical custom for the foreseeable future.

TITLE: Financial Phoenix 2. (Named after the RICH custom Ultima I ran to great effect during the first Year of the Dragon Emperor)

Module #1Genesis: Mogul Core
Module #2R.I.C.H. Core **
Module #3Cashflow Catalyst **
Module #4Debt Annihilator **
Module #5Financial Success Reality Shifter**
Module #6Job Seeker **
Module #7Wayfinder **
Module #8Mastermind **
Module #9Void of Creation **
Module #10Fortune’s Favorite **
Module #11Immortal’s Blade **
Module #12Safety Net **
Module #13Secret Source **
Module #14Wealth Limit Destroyer **
Module #15Mosaic **

I’m expecting big results from this one.

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#142

  • I had what was maybe a, call it, pre manifestation, or half manifestation today.
    A friend of mine posted on social media that his brother’s company was offering a job. It’s not at all in my field, but I thought maybe it was something dropping into my lap, so I contacted him.
    It turns out that it would be too much of a pay cut for me to take at this point, but I think that it’s one of those near miss manifestations from Job seeker, and I’m taking it as a very positive sign.

  • We had some financial shortcomings this month. The wife got pissed about it, and she started to go after the expense of my gym membership, which isn’t much.
    That was expected. She does things like that a lot.
    I don’t think that it’s actually the money so much as it is that she can see that I’m starting to make good progress, and that scares her.
    It may make her think that it’s going to be easier for me to find another partner, and despite us being open, and her having an FWB until recently, this makes her feel insecure still.
    I think that she liked it when she had an occasional playmate and I didn’t because, frankly, I didn’t have the time to devote to getting out there and finding one. It made her feel secure, and possibly that she was the one with the power.
    I’m not saying that this was conscious on her part, but there is always that subconscious driver. At least I suspect.
    It doesn’t help that she’s in pain because she just added carpel tunnel on top of her MS.
    It is kind of normal that I get some back pull from her when I start to make real progress on a sub, especially an Alpha title. I don’t know, she just seems to kind of feel threatened and try’s to put me back to how I was.

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#143 
       **2/12/24 CYCLE 2 WEEK 4**
       **WASHOUT WEEK #2**

  • I haven’t posted much lately because nothing much is happening. Not blatantly anyway.
    I’ve still been having some fairly low grade anxiety about financial issues that could become a problem, but it’s nothing too bad.
    This morning something changed. That was still there on, call it, a lower level of my conscious mind. However the top of my mind was taken over by the surety that I would be getting enough money that we can breathe easy for a while in the very near future.
    Not something I did deliberately or had to force either.

  • Last week marks the fifth week in a row that I hit all of my workouts.

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#144

  • I felt that high energy nervous feeling when I woke up again.
    I’ve dealt with this before and realized what it is. It’s my energetic system running at a higher level than I’m used to.
    That gives me the physical sensation of nervousness and anxiety. Like the butterflies in the stomach and kind of a jumpy, jittery feeling.
    If I don’t catch it, my mind will find some problem or impending problem to focus on to make the feeling make sense.
    This is actually a good thing.

  • Our roommate spontaneously said I was looking slimmer today.

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#145

  • FP2 has arrived so I’ll be starting that as my second program on Sunday when I break my washout.
    I’d like to continue with LOTS, but it’s time that I made some appreciable progress on the financial front, and I have no idea how to do that at this point.
    LOTS should continue giving me results for a month, so all is good here. I’m still thinking about switching FP2 and an LOTS/Beast unleashed custom each cycle for the rest of the year.
    I think that seduction goals are probably sidelined until next year when I’ve got a more stable foundation in the more important things.

  • I think DRP dug something out. I was thinking about the phrase “in the world but not of it” for some reason, and then I thought that I’ve always been, or at least felt like I was “in the world but excluded from it”.
    I’ll expand on this later tonight. I wanted to enter this to remind me to do that.

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#146

  • There wasn’t that much nervous energy when I woke up this morning. I’m feeling much less anxious.

  • What I meant by feeling that I was in the world but excluded from it is hard to put into words.
    It’s more than just feeling excluded from any kind of in crowd, but I always have been and that is part of it.
    It often seems to me that I’m kind of separate from the world around me, and it stops me from fully engaging.
    There are a lot of ways this shows itself. Socially, I usually have difficulty engaging. It often seems like there’s like, a thin cellophane barrier between me and at least most other people that prevents them from really noticing me.
    I mean they talk to me if it makes sense to do so? But other than that, I’m just not there, and forgotten the second I’m out of sight.
    There’s more to it than the social. I’ll get to that when I’ve thought about it more.

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#147
  • I felt a lot more calm and relaxed today. No jitters and stress, I wasn’t thinking about things that might go wrong. I was thinking about things that could go right as if they were a granted, and I was in a much better mood.
    I guess I was getting more recon off of this one than I realized.
    It’s nothing unmanageable though, and it does mean that it’s working.
    I think that if I could find some effective action I could take on the financial front, I would get through a lot of it.
    I am counting of FP2 to get some manifestations going enough that I am actually able to make some changes and get an upward spiral going with that.
    I believe that that will happen, which is one important aspect of these things working.
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#148
  • I noticed something while I was working out today.
    I caught a view of myself in the mirror along with everyone else in the gym and I realized that at that time I was one of the most, if not the most jacked looking guy in the gym. At least at that moment.
    This is a really new experience. Before, all of my life actually, I always thought I was like one of the weaker looking dudes in whatever gym I was in.
    Not this time. I really noticed that my arms looked bloody huge, and while I’ve still got a bit of a gut, it isn’t as prominent.
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#149
  • I think I’m back to an equilibrium, and just in time to start a new cycle tomorrow.
    So far I love the increase in discipline and drive that New Emperor is bringing.
    I am making regular improvements in those aspects of my life that I feel I have control over.
    The phrase that started going through my head when I started was “Focus on what you have direct control of. Gain momentum. Upward spiral” and it’s holding true.
    I think that the recon is coming from the financial side of things.
    I’m being driven to do something to improve the situation, but the problem is I am not having any ideas about exactly what I can do to get us out of the survival mode that we’ve been in for a long time.
    I am hoping that FP2 does a couple of things.
    First off, manifests enough money so that I can make some moves. Like pay off some of the debts that I’m making payments on so that I can actually dedicate more money to getting rid of the others.
    Second give me ideas and opportunities to increase my regular income so that we have even more.
    Looking forward to tomorrow.
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#150 
        **2/19/24 CYCLE 3 WEEK 1**

  • I ran seven and a half minutes of DE2 and five minutes of FP2 last night.
    I haven’t felt any real need to increase exposure on DE2 so I didn’t.
    I woke up with a tiny bit of that energetic feeling that I sometimes interpret as stress and anxiety.
    It dissipated seconds after waking up.
    Maybe this means that there is something going on under the hood while I sleep. Like my subconscious is analyzing the issues and searching for solutions, so there may be a positive spin on this feeling after all.

  • Now it’s time for me to really start looking into what I can start DOING about my financial situation. We have enough monthly obligations that in order to get out of survival mode I’m going to have to lay hands of a sizable chunk of money and or increase my monthly income by a considerable amount before I can actually make much of a difference.
    It’s ok, my manifestation system is on that in the background.
    What I need to do is figure out what actions I can start taking right now to improve the situation in the meantime.
    I think that the first answer is going to be to start studying personal finance.
    If anyone has some suggestions for books on improving financial conditions, I’d appreciate it.

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#151

I’m reading “The Millionaire Fastlane” right now finally. It’s good so far.

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#152

I’m currently focused on getting out of trouble rather than like becoming a millionaire or anything like that. That’s later if it’s even a goal I choose at all.
Does it have anything about that stage of things?

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