Just in case don’t pressure yourself too much if you need one day “doing nothing”, the new tech is very tiring because it works so well, plus the subs that you’ve chosen recquire each a lot of energy, so it’s absolutely normal to need more rest !
Keep it up !
Yes… Im hanging in there pretty well, with some exceptions because, Im with all my family for christmas and I would rather be all alone in bed, so my temper and patience are less than optimal.
2x Wanted
Im gonna rework one of my customs, since I won the christmas contest.
The plan is to add some of the new modules and change the core.
This is my custom:
I Want to remove Stark, RICH, The Spotlight and Direct Influencing, since I wont be working with people anymore.
Instead RICH Crypto, Mogul and some of the new modules will take their places.
Changed my mind… Why not doing something totally new for a custom
Im loving this idea… still a work in progress
2x Spartan ZP
10 rounds practice
Im tired all the time… not only from the subs, but from all the excercises and being at the beach, all that silence and fresh air.
Tomorrow we will travel back to the city and Im taking a couple of days off from excercise, to allow my body to rest.
2x Wanted ZP
Yesterday I took a day off from subs and excercise. Today Im not sure if I want a 2nd rest day or to excercise in the afternoon.
Im getting a little frustrated with Wanted… its hard for me to notice changes.
Ive been feeling very emotional the last week with lots of ups and downs, but the downs have been longer and more intense.
Sometimes I get flooded by rage and resentment and an overall feeling of dislike of how the world works.
About todays practice on a scale from 1 to 10 (10 being the strongest)
Desire to practice: 3
Desire to quit: 8
Mentality: 2 at the beginning, 6 nearing the end
Will: 10
10 Rounds. 3 minutes each with 1 minute rest in between, 39 minutes total.
This is my base training, since tomorrow I will start adding boxing rounds, punching the sack.
When I began my practice I started feeling awful… a feeling of unworthyness filled me up inside. At first I thought it was about Wanted that Ive listen early this morning… then I though maybe is Spartan, but cant really be sure.
The thing is Im feeling increasingly more distant with wanted and pushed towards Emperor ZP. At first it was a good idea to change those, its in my plan, but now its a visceral thing.
In my humble opinion:
Wanted and Spartan are two clashing archetypes.
Not saying that over time they could not blend into a new improved archetype.
I’m saying that the respective recons could make the changes slow and painful.
I do feel my previous choices in subs were based on the Wanted kind of archetype… more social, more extroverted.
At this point in my life I dont care for that too much, my focus is inwards… building my body, my health, my income, my life in general, without caring how that can affect others or my social life.
It was through Wanted that I realized that, which is funny.
The shifting to Emperor is inevitable and probably will happen with the start of the new year.
My ideal stack is Emperor ZP, Spartan ZP and Im undecided if my third title will be Limitless ZP or Rebirth ZP.
I will decide that later since its more important for me to have the Emperor/Spartan core going on.
I see that not as a clash, but as a necessary step for me… I used to think that I needed validation from others to feel good about myself and always felt moved towards using subs that helped achieve that.
Wanted helped me feel validated by others and realized that that didnt made a change on the deeper level, until it became obvious that I only need validation from myself.
That was the natural course of events for me… I had to prove myself at a deep level that being validated by others wasnt the answer, before I could really focus on whats really important… Me.
And that insight resolved the recon I was having, by allowing me to look deeper into the process.
Thanks @Theacrobat for giving your opinion, it was really helpful.
I’m glad that my opinion helped you in some way!
From now on my stack is:
Emperor ZP
Spartan ZP
I might occasionally add a loop or two of Paragon ZP or Rebirth ZP.
This is the operating metaphor for this part of the journey.
Yesterday I did 1 loop of Emperor ZP and it made me feel very grounded, still does.
Today:
12 Rounds Practice
10 rounds Rope
2 Rounds Boxing with the Sack.
47 minutes total… getting really close to the 60 minutes mark.
Im gonna take a 2 days rest from excercise on the 31 and 1st. So tomorrow Im listening to just Emperor ZP and maybe throw a little Paragon in to see how it helps recovery.
2x Emperor ZP
1x Diamond ZP
Im taking the weekend off to integrate and process.
Emperor brought back morming erections and it boosted my libido. I even had a sex dream last night, after maybe months of not having any.
How do you appreciate emperor right now? 
Its funny because I was thinking about that a couple of minutes ago…
Emperor feels like when you buy new clothes and they fit just right and looks good on you.
Its a very peaceful inner confidence.
Theres a feeling of being at home with Emperor ZP… I think Ive found the right stack for me.
Today I feel calm, relaxed, grounded and very sexual… very nonchalant.