-=ZP=- Reshaping Myself: Emperor/Heartsong/Spartan

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#121

2nd day off subs, I will resume tomorrow.

Emperor ZP is great when it comes to sexuality, great performance, enhanced sensitivity and high libido.
It also gives me sex dreams and morning erections.

On the money side of things Im feeling confident in my ability to make money in my new journey. Im more relaxed and have more patience.
Ideas that I had about how to proceed are being integrated into a more solid, complete plan.

Somehow Im being guided to awareness about an inner primordial identity conflict in the last few days and today I had an understanding about this 2 forces I percieved as antagonist… Somehow my focus was on the similarities of both archetypes and couldnt find any differences between them.
It was funny to me to think that someone can strongly believe those are separate things, when they are clearly one and the same.

Im talking about something thats the cause of great pain, war and suffering in the world… that was mirrored inside me.
Forces that fundamentally shape the events through mans history.

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#122

Today as an experiment I did:

:white_check_mark: 1x Emperor ZP
:white_check_mark: 1x Spartan ZP
:white_check_mark: 1x Rebirth ZP

Lets see how that goes… its been 4 hours and Im feeling really good, Im gonna do some excercise in a little while.

#123

:white_check_mark:13 Rounds Practice

10 rounds or rope and 3 boxing with the sack, 51 minutes total. By the end of next week I will reach the 2nd target, which is 10 rounds of rope and 5 of boxing, for a total of 60 minutes.
From now on Im gonna practice every other day to have enough resting time.

I thought todays practice was gonna be hard, since the new years eve dinner and all, but it was the total opposite. I felt in the zone… on a flow state… I didnt even got tired with the 10 rounds of rope… the boxing on the other hand burned me out.

#124

Here comes the recon. :stuck_out_tongue:

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#125

I promess not to cry… too much :roll_eyes:

#126

Well my muscles are soar after yesterday practice and I have some minor mental fog and tiredness after yesterday listening experiment. Attitude is great and my body feels good!

I decided to stack this way

Day 1: Emperor ZP and Spartan ZP
Day 2: Rest
Day 3: Paragon ZP x2
Day 4: Rest

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#127

:white_check_mark: 1x Emperor ZP and 1x Spartan ZP

Getting ready for my excercise routine.

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#128

My experiment from the other day didnt really pleased me. I didnt have recon, but I ended up very overloaded. Not worthy.
Back to the suggested listening pattern.

There are so many titles I want to experience, patience is the key… just work with the ones I chose till the results are big and undeniable.
About results, last night my girlfriend told me many things she percieves different in me… most of those things are things I wanted to change, some are unexpected, but good surprises. All of them I was unaware of… nothing like good feedback.

Many of those changes are deep character and personality treats changes, things I used to describe who I am, or who I though I was, to be more accurate.

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#129

Anyway she says she loves me more because of that and I can tell the effect my changes have on her. She is really making changes in her life too, things I know are not necessarily easy for her.

We are growing together.

#130

:white_check_mark: 14 Rounds Practice
10 Rounds of Rope
4 Rounds of Boxing
55 Minutes Total

Only 1 round more to reach a 60 minutes practice session.

Nothing exudes more Masculinity than Emperor ZP + Spartan ZP and a good Boxing practice, the only thing missing is making love to my girlfriend. Unfortunately I cant do that, because I broke my nail, my hair is all messed up and I have nothing to wear :rofl: :rofl: :joy: :joy:

#131

Im already 18 days in with Spartan ZP, next friday is day 21, after that Im doing a 5 days washout.

#132

Reminder for when ZP customs are available

Custom Idea #1 (rebuild).

1. Heartsong
2. Sex Mastery
3. Diamond
4. Temptation
5. Sexual Manifestation
6. Sexiness Unbound.
7. Entranced
8. Panther
9. Long-Range Seduction
10. Instant Spark
11. Focused Arousal
12. Ethereal Presence
13. StoryTeller
14. The Wonder
15. Chosen of Venus
16. Love Without Attachment
17. Depths of Love
18. Aura of Craving
19. Soul Connection
20. Transcendental Connection.

Custom Idea #2

1. Paragon
2. Elixir
3. Stress Displacement
4. Immune System
5. Lymphatic System
6. SPS Organs
7. Nervous System
8. Renal System
9. Respiratory System
10. Endocrine System
11. Cardiovascular System
12. Digestive System
13. Health Codex
14. Harmonic Singularity
15. Fusion Optimized
16. Eye of the Storm
17. Asclepius
18. Apollon

Custom Idea #3

1. Minds Eye
2. Limitless
3. Eagle Eye
4. Eventide
5. Polyglot
6. Song of Joy
7. The Lines
8. The Single Point
9. The Streams
10. Dream Traveler
11. Submodel Alpha
12. All-Seeing
13. Awakened Perception
14. Intuition Enhancer
15. The Merger of Worlds
16. Gratitude Embodiment
17. The Wonder

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#133

:white_check_mark: Emperor ZP and Spartan ZP

Im just back from a 50 minutes walk and Im gonna do my boxing routine later in the afternoon, theres just too much heat at the moment.

#134

Well Emperor ZP is clearly doing its thing… today I woke up at 6am and listened to my stack, just to fall asleep again. I love listening in that state of consciousness, not really awake and not really asleep, but at the gate of that other realm.

Then I took my headphones off half asleep and let myself go deeper. I had a dream in which it was clear that I was afraid of poverty, of not having anything, of loosing it all.

I was standing in the streets with my girlfriend and this guy I know came walking towards us with a homeless guy, I felt terrified of the homeless guy, so we went inside the house to hide. The house was a very poor house in ruins and I was very afraid to go through the dark hallway, all the way in.
Then a voice said I was under the control of dark entities and 2 black spheres appeared floating around me.

Somehow I made the decision of freeing myself of the entities, grab one of the dark spheres in my hands and began to move it in different directions until it changed its color and vibration into a much pleasant one… then did the same with the second and woke up.

Today I was walking the streets coming back from some chores and saw a homeless guy about my age eating some bread and though of a guy I used to know from highschool that went schizophrenic and ended up living on the streets… I thought for a while that could have been me and then realized Ive been very lucky.

#135

Once I got home I felt like listening to this song, this live version in particular, not really a fan of Phill Collins, but this song has something… Today it hit me deep, very emotional… I was vibrating all over.

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#136

:white_check_mark: 15 Rounds Practice
10 Rounds Rope
5 Rounds Boxing
60 Minutes Total
2nd goal accomplished!!

Now the 3rd goal is to keep this routine exactly like this for 3 months, before making any changes to it. The idea is to build a strong base.

Today when I began the practice I started feeling very angst with a pressure in my chest… memories of my childhood and teenage years flooded my mind. Memories of sucking at sports and feeling unworthy… I keep hearing “You are a loser” in my head.
At some point I just thought this are just feelings pouring out of me… better outside than inside. After 3 rounds I realized that Ive forgotten about the angst and it was gone.

Spartan is delivering more and more results, today I felt pretty good physically and mentally. Solid practice!

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#137

:white_check_mark:1x Emperor ZP, 1x Spartan ZP

Today is day 21, so starting tomorrow I’ll do a washout.
Im slightly overloaded anyway… maybe excercising and a cold shower will deal with that.

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#138

:white_check_mark:60 minutes Boxing practice.

I was really tired, lazy and feeling overloaded by the subs and I didnt want to get out of bed, but I began to feel a void inside and began thinking I cant miss my practice, I just cant. So I got out of bed got dressed and went to the space I used as a gym.
1st round I felt sleepy, unfocused… by the 2nd round I was fully in a flow state, no tiredness, no muscle soreness, totally focused. The full practice felt like that from that moment on.
The rounds quickly flew by, the minutes felt like were getting shorter and shorter.

A feeling of happiness and satisfaction grew in me during the practice and is still here while I write. While taking a cold shower I realized that Im already feeling excercising is an integral part of my life, of who I am.

Also the feeling of overload is gone.

#139

2nd day of washout.

A lot of processing going on, in form of dreams, tiredness and some mental fog.

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#140

:white_check_mark:60 Minutes Boxing Practice

I continue to feel improvements… The explosive force in the boxing rounds today got me pretty amazed. In the past I took me months to achieve that kind of power… pretty impressive.