It’s been some days since the last post. Things are going pretty well in life at the moment. Confidence seems flowing more freely from me and self-esteem has improved. Funny, sometimes is just about pushing yourself out in the open, to se changes happen.
Not going to say that this is the end, not at all. This is just the beginning of something and what that something will turn out to be, that’s the interesting thing. That’s the thing I don’t know yet, but somehow a thought keeps popping up telling it will be for the better.
What’s else is new? Books! Yes, books are a great source to gain more information, learn more and be more knowledgable. The Rational Male by Rollo Tomassi is great to read and the same goes for Mark Mansons Models and The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck.
Although aimed at the point of understanding women, gaining attraction from women, learning the game, I personally think that much of this also apply in other contexts. Besides this, they are heavily focused on personal development. For instance, how can you expect to hook up with girls if you don’t put and effort into developing yourself?
Another thing going on is my fitness training. I eat more healthy, and combining these together, I’ve managed to shed a few kilos. It takes time and I’m prepared for that. This is a long-term project of mine.
I was at a private party last week. It was with some friends and a few unfamiliar faces, but nothing wrong with that. I like to meet new people and learn about them. Anyways, as the evening progressed and I got entangled in different conversations with both girls and guys, I felt more that I was becomming the center of the party. At one point, I was explaining some random stuff and paused for just a brief moment - at that point everyone was focused on me, I could see them simply just sitting there sucking it all up. This hasn’t happened to me before, well on a very rare occasion it might have without me noticing or paying attention to it.
Anyways, this party came at a welcome point, i had some things I wanted to try out when we hit the bars, especially with girls. I’m not out there to hook up with someone, I have a girl at home, but it gives me satisfaction to talk with girls and other people, and trying out things I’m learning. So I see it all as an experience, a way to learn more about myself in a way I haven’t really done before. I did not really expect anything to happen that night, bar a few random chats with random people.
However, I noticed that one girl from the earlier party was giving a lot of IOI. I wasn’t really interested in her, but I was interested in finding out just how far I could get with her without escalating, which turned out to be very far.
So in a way a fun night out.
So where does this include the subliminals? Well, I do not know. But I’ve been listening to Emperor and Ascend Mogul averaging around 7-8 hours per day.
Together with the books I read, and the focus on developing myself, the subliminals helps me in achieving this. I feel more at ease when talking to people, not really giving a fuck about what happens - not in a way that it hurts me physically. But let me say, that if someone would reject me or friends turns me down, before this would hurt. Now, I don’t really care. If they don’t want to spend time with me, it’s their loss not mine. It’s my gain to go and actually do anything else that caught my interest.
I guess I really should try to make this post a bit smaller, but when I first began, I couldn’t stop. Words were just flowing out and my mind is working faster than ever.
Just noticed now.
life.
