It’s almost 4pm…
Feeling a lot better.
Just read law 8 from the book.
Thinking of organizing the subs I’m gonna stack into my mind in different compartments… organized to be accessed whenever I need them… according to my goals…
I want to be really purposeful this time around according to actually taking bigger leaps… more action stretching me further ahead… not orbiting around the same poop…
Just had a weird sensation thinking of this 
New stack journey DAY 1
RM + Stark + HoT
I’m going to try the following listening schedule:
Day 1~ HoT + Stark
Day 2 ~ Rest
Day 3 ~ RM
& repeat.
After listening today, full loops ~ I started thinking about screenwriting and my artistic side. I felt a surge of excitement.
Questioning if I need more schooling or just go after the idea in a different way. I’ll contemplate more on this.
Felt like I had to do some exercise.
At the beach, improvise …. Leaning against the picnic table doing glute & thigh exercise.
Dancing without any embarrassment… so liberating 
Day 2 ~ Rest day
Woke up to my lawyer telling me she won’t go forward with what I am asking for with regards to my youngest starting school in September.
She said I either go ahead with her or find a new lawyer. I’m running out of time before school starts. Our court system is whacko here.
She is concerned that I will lose time with my daughter if I go forward asking for what I want.
I feel what I am asking is not unreasonable and makes the most logical sense. I also feel it would be good for my daughter too.
I am available all week and live down the road from the school in my town. My ex works full time and lives 25 minutes from me.
He already registered her for school without including my name on the registration. I wasn’t even informed by him & We have joint custody. I feel like I’m jumping through hoops trying to resolve this mess.
His mom is so heavily involved and acts like she’s my daughters mom and thinks she knows what’s best. She is heavily medicated and drinks everyday. They are rich and own a big property on the lake and look down on me.
He last minute informed me of the open house today but didn’t tell me the time, so I called the school and showed up!
What is wrong with the legal system? I wish there was something more I could do to get my point across. What I have experienced over the last 2 years has been disgusting and created pain and suffering for my family.
Something’s gotta give here.
I don’t want to submit to something I don’t feel is the best course of action for my little girl.
I want all 3 of my babies under one roof for school and see their dads whenever.
I don’t like to feel defeated. I’m not one who gives up easily.
Maybe I have no choice anymore and just surrender.
I took a lot of actions irregardless of what I shared above.
Realizing some of my hidden beliefs that were manifesting through various scenarios, all of my doing.
if you keep getting what you always got and keep doing what you always did… insanity ….
I’m giving little me lots of love & putting her in the back seat… she isn’t in charge of the wheel anymore … she thought she was protecting me… that I was still small… but I’m not.
This post was flagged by the community and is temporarily hidden.
Copy it before it’s deleted by the moderators so you can read it.
This post was flagged by the community and is temporarily hidden.
deleted
Wrong thread. This is someone else’s journal.
Not sure about any of this but I just wanted to say… let the breath guide you 
Ypu mean meditation?
Day 3 ~ my first time listening to RM & I went for a full loop.
I almost instantly wanted to jump on my keyboard to play & I basically did just that. I even hopped on a live Facebook stream to play and talk about some ideas I have for the future… I notice that when I go to film or record myself playing, that I almost freeze and forget everything. I’m going to work on this.
Im thinking I want to create a course on grief.
Combining my different modalities but mostly yoga. Yoga is more than just the physical practice. This has been a beautiful unfolding for me during my teacher training.
I see how this sub will be very useful for the ideas I have.
I hear the voice in my head telling me I am not able to create a course… why the heck not? I had to create programs and workshops in my college program, in my profession as a Child and Youth Worker and all that. I am able & fully capable. Some part of me thinks they are protecting me by not expanding or changing my ways…. I’m giving that part of me extra love and reassurance today.
Also knowing how I created and allowed those parts of me to even exist at all, makes it that much easier to uncreate it too. The behaviours were useful at one point where I thought I was in danger needing protection. I’m not in danger anymore.
“Nothing has ever happened to you that you did not set in motion in your imagination. I tell you: you can be anything you want to be, but when you voice your request, your desire must be genuine. You must so want it that you are willing to remain faithful to your change in position. You cannot assume you have your desire for one little moment and then return to your former state, for if you do you are a double~minded man and will not receive anything from the Lord (as told in the book of James).
If you want to be successful in business, you can. I don’t care how many creditors you owe, or what the bank says you have; if you assume success and persist in that assumption you cannot fail. This is the law by which everyone lives. “
The Creator ~ Neville Goddard
Often times I see how people will read what Neville is saying, and feel confused or that they don’t get it or it’s too hard or he doesn’t give examples of how to imagine…. I did this and sometimes slip back into that state.
We are always imagining. We are always giving life to something. We are always persisting on something. Is it something that you enjoy and want to keep experiencing? If not, stop it.
Take these subs and their objectives and consciously guide yourself to that feeling of being accomplished and satisfied.
My yoga teacher taught me to let the breath guide me through everything in life.
From the moment I wake to the moment I fall asleep.
Not a fan of yoga actually.
I prefer a more rigid approach to life which is backed up by inner power.
What don’t you like about yoga?
Everyone’s experience is different.
I make it my own 
I think it brings out feminine qualities in men(maybe I am wrong).
I don’t like meditation since it’s about beijg feminine. I think focused meditation can be a masculine one rather than watching and dissecting the thoughts.
I let the unwanted thoughts pass like clouds in the sky and concentrate on the ideal ones instead.
Yoga helps me focus and shift my consciousness.
It helps me to release cleanse and purify my energy. I bring in other elements to my practice though.
I don’t feel men that do yoga become more feminine. IMO. I find it to be super attractive.
Combined with other things like martial arts. Not just a solo practice.
I like this one better.
I combine both
I love ninja yoga lol