William’s Winning Wayfare

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#1832

I’m slowly losing grip of the stories & narratives that hinder me from being neutral, more relaxed and being able to release tension.

I think I’m ready for 15m of LBFH just fine?
By the time I start the next cycle, there won’t be much load from EE & DRR4 anymore.
There hasn’t been much recon from the sub itself too.

But I’ll still progress from the bottom as usual.
There’s nothing to rush.

+10s until 1m, +20s until 3m, +40s until 7m, then straight to 15m.
I’m confident, but it wasn’t completely recon free, so I won’t use +15s.

Update 1:

This is undoubtedly recon.
But not a normal one, this is clear & not overwhelming.

This is just LBFH working on the tensions, with the memories & emotions attached to them. They simply bubble up trying to defend the “normal” state of tension. I’m finding ways to just observe them. To let go.

I’m also noticing the tensions i had when talking to people are disappearing. Ones that I thought were just simply how my body works. LBFH is deconstructing them and letting me relax.

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#1833

LBFH 10s WB 6s HeO 15m

I might solo LBFH for a while.

I need it really badly right now.
Maybe DRR3 too when LBFH is stable.

Update 1:

The schedule has been decided for this cycle

LBFH + DRR3 + WB

I need them now, really badly, more than extra productivity.
DRR3 instead of DRR4. I need DRR3’s more “transcending” focused results than the more holistic DRR4.

LBFH for the new tech.
WB because it’s working on something I need to figure out inside. I might drop this later on.

I might take an early washout this cycle when I’ve deemed that I’m done with these, so I can get back to productivity subs. Thought I might stick with them for the entire 2 months too. We’ll see.

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#1834

The LBFH+HS component of my stack has definitely been impactful so far. It’s hard to separate them somewhat. I reckon its more than just the new tech.

This morning I had a full on energetic clearing and a feeling of connection with someone I was tuning in to that was pretty full on. Feels like it’s been working on parts of my being I’d set to the side for the last several years. Now that I’ve set something in motion this morning I’m sure the experiences are only going to intensify. I’m finding its a lot more powerful than the old LBFH.

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#1835

Me too, it feels like a completely new sub.
I’m excited to discover more about it.

I have LBFH + WB going on, not as “pure” as HS, but i’m starting to understand more about the parts that HS is focused on through WB.

To be honest, the sudden flood of emotion is overwhelming me, but this is also a good way to grow & find out more about myself.

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#1836

After reassessing the recon from LBFH, yeah, stacking it with DRR3 is not wise.

The recon is subtle, but it’s going directly for my stability.
I can not add DRR3 on top of that, it’s just asking for trouble.

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For productivity, I’ve been liking HeO more than EE so far, i know that maybe EE is blooming, but the distinct drive & fulfilment from HeO is just too good.

I can’t wait to use HeO + EE again. I need the break from EE and I need to figure out what WB is doing inside before switching it back to EE.

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Next cycle I’ll make an LBFH + WB name embedded if WB has been updated. They said it was gonna be updated around last december-january. That didn’t happen but it showed that WB might be just around the corner.

If it’s not updated yet, then I’ll just do LBFH + EE.

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#1837

HeO 15m LBFH 50s WB 10s

I’ve been slowly building up the exposure.
LBFH +10s/lday
WB +1s/lday

So far no major recon, but I’m still noticing subtle recon from LBFH.
It’s prioritising myself before others, which feels a bit different from the original LBFH.

The new LBFH feels more about making sure I fully love myself first before spreading it around.
The old one is more about building an overflowing love that spreads.

Similar, but more thorough, more priority towards myself.
The old LBFH feels more open, the new one prioritises oneself first and foremost.

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#1838

HeO 15m LBFH 1m20s WB 12s

I reread LBFH’s description again.
It’s so beautiful. To cultivate myself to the point where my mere existence brings love to others.
The best part is, it’s not a distant dream. I’m starting to live it right now.

It feels similar to DRR3, but its approach & depth are different.

WB is working as usual.
HeO is HeO.

The moment HeO gets updated, I will rush straight into making an HeO + EE custom.
There’s something in HeO that just hits well with my productivity. Yet EE is another beast altogether.
Both of them together will be amazing.

LBFH + DRR4 sounds good too. I’ll wait for DRR4 to be updated again with the new tech first.

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#1839

could you describe it a bit more? Like how it shows, how your behavior changed, etc

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#1840

You can see it in others, or sometimes they’d just outright say it to you.

When I’m around them, they start to loosen up. They’re more willing to open up and process their inner struggles, and I’m able to help them with that from many aspects.

This is different from when I was just using WB alone; the feeling is different, the results are different.
I feel like I’m just scratching the surface of what’s possible with the new LBFH.

Internally,

It’s similar to DRR3 but different.
I need more time before I can explain it well, since LBFH is building on top of the foundation I laid out with DRR. But so far, it acts kinda like a bit shallower DRR3, with more nervous system regulation.

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#1841

Thanks!

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#1842

HeO 15m LBFH 1m45s WB 13s

DRR out

I have many subs I’m trying to juggle now

DRR, LBFH, HeO, EE, WB.

I think It’s time to cut DRR completely.
1 year 9 months. It’s more than enough.

LBFH is building on what DRR has laid out. The results are also similar enough in practice to fit the “booster” slot in my stack. Not to mention the newer tech in LBFH.

I’ll look back at DRR again when it gets updated.

New rotation

That leaves me with 4 subs.
LBFH, HeO, EE, WB.

This is perfect since i need to take a scheduled long break for each sub once every 4-6 months.

I might as well put them on a rotation.

This cycle now is LBFH HeO WB.
The next is LBFH EE WB.
Then HeO EE WB.
Etc.

Though it will change once the update for UA is out.
I want to make a custom or a name embedded one with UA + WDB/E:D.

I think they fit me more than WB, but I’m not in a rush to swap WB with anything else either.
I barely scratched the 20s mark with it.
UA can wait, there’s a lot to explore still.

Update 1: The foundation

I’m increasingly able to build a more relaxed foundation.
When things get hectic, I’m able to refer back to it.
It feels like a more practically integrated version of the “just observe” I do when meditating.

The new tech is amazing.
I didn’t expect LBFH to take this direction, but I’m very satisfied with it.

No significant recon so far, I think I’m able to continue with this pace just fine.

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#1843

HeO 15m LBFH 2m WB 14s

Every day I feel more regulated inside.
Even if the outside is hectic, I can feel a stable foundation to stand on inside.

This is the “foundation” I was expecting to get from stages 1 & 2 in DRR4.
I moved from DRR3 to DRR4 because I felt I needed a better foundation to stand on to help me progress further with it.

I’m getting that from LBFH instead.

DR needs the insights mined from DRReg, Summertime & LBFH.
This is absolutely the way.

Update 1:

Cats are approaching me
Best sub ever
Lol

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#1844

HeO 15m LBFH 2m20s WB 15s

I can feel my brain not being as fluid/easy to move as when I was actively using EE.
It has been almost a month since the last time I used the sub.

I’ll monitor the situation, then decide when to bring back EE to the stack.

Liberation of the “invisible self imposed obligations” that I thought were crucial for love.

That’s the theme I see LBFH help me explore.

It felt weird at first, sometimes it still does, but I’m able to catch on pretty quickly.

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#1845

HeO 15m LBFH 2m40s WB 16s

It’s time to move to EE.

+15s/listening day

HeO hits something EE couldn’t, but the sheer boost & optimization from EE is just as important.
I need it more than HeO now.

Update 1:

I’m glad I didn’t choose DRR4 this cycle.
LBFH does the job just fine, building on top of the foundation that DRR has laid out.

I built the foundation for DRR using the old LBFH for around a year total.
Then I built the foundation for the new LBFH using DRR for 1y9m.

I’d have a hard time using DRR if I didn’t use LBFH first, but LBFH is building up on top of DRR.
This is a virtuous cycle of healing subs.
I’m very satisfied.

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#1846

There’s still a lot to discover from LBFH, so I can’t say much for sure.
But there’s one result that sticks out.

LBFH is helping me build a stable foundation of regulation that I can fall back on whenever I need.
I can always find relaxation inside. It’s always there, ready to support me whenever life gets hectic.

The rest of the effects build on it.

There were DRRed & WB in my stack, and there are HeO & EE active, so I’m not quite sure which effect is from which sub yet. It’s not clear yet how to deduct them. Notably because LBFH is clearly building on the foundation DRRed has laid out. WB’s social scripting also helps LBFH immensely.

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#1847

HeO 15m LBFH 3m40s EE 24s

This is the almost perfect productivity stack.

EE has been working well as usual.
It needs the calmness from LBFH.

LBFH is lighter than DRRed, and it has better regulation scripting with the new tech.

WB will be back next cycle, just in time for when I need to take the scheduled break from HeO.

HeO has been amazing, I was planning to switch it out early, but i decided to get WB out instead. This stack fits my current situation better.

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#1848

HeO 15m LBFH 5m40s EE 2m15s

I reset them all a while ago.

Finally I reached 15m again with HeO, now it’s time to get LBFH to 15m, then EE next.

3 at once is viable so far, but I wonder how it will be when I finally reach 15m for all of them.

I’ve used each one of the subs for a considerable amount of time, and they also align well with what I do, so there’s a high chance that this will go just fine.

WB’s results have degraded, but I’ve been able to retain a lot even without it.

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#1850

HeO 15m LBFH 15m EE 3m50s

I thought the effects from WB would degrade even further, but a lot of it is still strong.

I feel like this is the new normal now.

LBFH might have a big role in maintaining it.

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#1851

HeO 15m LBFH 15m Exe 4m20s

I doubt I’ll use WB again anytime soon.
HeO & Exe is such a good combination, it fixes my complaints with HeO back then.
LBFH is also filling the role of WB & DRR well.

I had planned to make a custom in the near future, but I see that it’s not as necessary anymore.
LBFH fixed the balance well enough.

Ideally, I could fit all of them in one stack, which I could with customs, but 2 artisan titles + a multistager + 2 other normal ones feels like pushing it a bit too much.
If 3 can get the job done, then 3 is enough.

8 months of Exe.
I just realized that now.

Not including the 6 months of LE which has the old Exe in it.

It has been pretty good so far. I can’t see myself switching anytime soon, unless LE gets an update.

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#1852

I forgot I have to use it anyway to fill a slot next cycle for a month. I need to have it be in place of HeO for the scheduled long break.

And then the next for LBFH, then Exe, etc.

I don’t want to repeat the mistake i did when i first ran HeO and stuck with it for almost a year with no long break in between.

I could run UWX or Mogul instead, but I see no need to jump out of my sub rotation yet. It will add unnecessary load.

Exe is better with longer loops for me.

Trying to use lower exposure like I did with WB & DRR3 was unnecessary after all. My sweet spot is just high with it.

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