William’s Winning Wayfare

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#1648

It clicked.

Microlooping these subs unlocked something in me.
It’s as if my mindfulness ability is being significantly levelled up in a snap.

I can see everything clearly. Every thought, every emotion, every reaction I can see how they work and just observe. My awareness is taken to another height.

Equanimity.
While i’m not at that stage yet, i can’t describe this any other way.
It’s as if i’m getting significantly closer to it.

This is, by definition, DRR3’s effect. but I can’t help but to notice a huge part of the fundamentals are heavily related to EE too.

I haven’t reached 10s with DRR3 yet, but it seems microlooping works exceptionally well with it too.
But this time, there are so many factors at play that could be the reason.
It could be the “second wave of effects” that comes after 4-6 months (I often get this in this time frame, could be different for others), the subs helping my meditation to suddenly progress that leads to this result, etc.

I feel like I can face anything from my past. And I did. Every thought pattern, every surge of emotion, every physical reaction, I can see it clearly. It’s as if i have a strong root that helps me weather the storm. I don’t need to fight the storm, my roots and trunk are strong enough. I just let it sway my branches and be at peace at the same time. I don’t need to worry about it, it doesn’t matter. All I need to do is to just observe.

… That’s the best I can describe it. It sounds like what I wrote years ago, but the depth & span are just hard to put into words. All I can say is that it’s increasing significantly, enough that I feel the healing part for the core & foundation is mostly done. The rest of it is easier to face, as i’ve been experimenting lately.

This has been happening for the past weeks. I’ve been holding on to this until I have a better understanding of what it is. It is that profound.

Microlooping works. That’s all I’m gonna say. I can take both DRR3 & EE for full loops with no recon. Heck, I did how many cycles with 30m of DRR3. I can say with confidence that microlooping doesn’t make it any weaker. This is just as strong in its own way.

Well, microloop? quantumloop? whatever <30s is called.

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#1650

Did you notice this with every title, or is it just those you’ve run extensively before?
Like when someone shouts “Ey Macarena” your brain, or at least mine" starts the whole song including the dance? And that’s despite me still being a little kid when then song was released.

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#1651

Surprisingly no.

EE is new to my stack. I’ve only run full loops of it a few times, other than that, only aggressive microloops for the majority of the 2 months i’ve had it in my stack. So definitely not just the ones i’ve extensively run before.

Many of these effects are still new to me. Especially this blend of mindfulness from how each sub influence me in their own way. I’ve been thinking about how to convey it, but i find it hard to truly impart the magnitude of it. I feel i’m ready to go against anything, fully confident with my ability to just observe. It’s as if I’ve reached a new level of freedom within myself that i wasn’t even aware was possible.

All from microloops. Shorter than it even.

A part of me feels like i’ve had it since long ago, but i can ascertain that this did not exist a month ago. It’s the classic natural ZP feeling.

I ended up rambling, lol. But that’s just how excited i’m with what i got. The me from back then would pay stupid money to get this freedom to open any casket from the past within myself like this.

I’ve been spending the past few days actively trying to open old scars in my mind, going through parts of my memories where i wasn’t comfortable with. My body, mind, emotions reacted badly (as is typical with bad memories), but now my ability to just observe and be mindful has become so absurd that i feel full freedom in exploring them.

I don’t even know the lyrics and my brain immediately started singing it, rofl.

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#1652

At first i wanted to speed up the increment of DRR3’s listening length next cycle so i can switch to DRR4. But i want whatever synergy that’s going on with my stack to stick as long as possible. This is THE result i want the most out of everything.

I’ll keep going with +1s every listening day. If i end up with more than a year of DRR3, so be it. I’m beyond satisfied with what i have now.

I wonder what will happen if i aggressively microloop HeO like this. Once I’m done with this stack, or when i need to take the scheduled break, that is the first thing i’m gonna do.

#1653

My mindset is becoming more present.

It’s not just how i am now, but also my thought patterns.

I’m getting less connected with the shiny object in the future and more able to enjoy what’s happening now.

I’m more able to see what “goals” other people/the society foisted on me, and what truly matters to me. I can let go of those external pushes and just enjoy the great things i have now.

These seems obvious, but as always, the depth & variety is different with subs. In this particular case, the difference is overwhelming. I never thought i could ever reached this state in my life.

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#1654

EE 21s WB 8s DRR3 8s

I’ll reset WB & DRR3 to 3s again.
I want to do +1s every 2 listening days instead, just like what I did with WB a month ago.
Since I already reached 8s, I’ll start with +1s/1day, then +1s/2days once I reach 9s.

Maybe I’ll reset EE too just to have them at the same exposure?

Eh, why not? I’m not in a rush anyway.
None of these subs have anti-recon yet. It’s even more reason to take things slowly.

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#1655

That’s cool how much the micro loops work for you. Do you think you need to run a full loop at least once to get these effects from the micro loops?

I’m starting a 3 sub micro looping stack soon, I was planning to start at 30s and work up, but now I wonder if I should run full loops on day 1 and then start the micro loop listening schedule from 30s on day 3 onwards.

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#1656

Perhaps? I need to try it with a fresh new sub.
One thing I’m sure of, I get many new & deeper effects from microloops alone. So I’m sure to a certain degree, microloops alone are enough.

I did that too at the start of this cycle

I’m gonna start with 15m first as a point of reference to how I react to a full loop of EE solo.

It’s not recommended, but I mean, how bad can one 15m loop at the start of the cycle affect the rest of the 2 months anyway. So I gave it a shot.

After I played it for 15m, I immediately went down to 3s.
I’m doing well now, a month after that. But I went down way lower than 30s with just 1 sub solo for more than half a month after. So your mileage may vary.

I’d say, why not? You want to know what will happen, and if it feels too much, you can always take an early washout anyway.

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#1657

Yeah sweet, I’ll try it out. I didn’t read back far enough to realise you did the same thing with EE. I can imagine the subconscious remembering the script and processing it again by hearing only the first part of the audio, a bit like the Macarena song mentioned.

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#1658

Erm… So I finally did the math and it apparently will take me ~2.5 years to finish the plan I made?
Yeah, I gotta expedite it ROFLMAO

I don’t mind staying with this stack for long, but not that long :rofl:
This is already more than 5 months of DRR3 & WB anyway. That means I’ll do 3 years by the end of it.
Yeah it’s too long.

I’ll go back to the original +1s/1day instead of 2 days. It’s still long but I want to make the switch to DRR4 at some point. I also don’t need to microloop EE that much, but I’ll still lower it to match DRR3, then switch to LE once I start DRR4.

WB is staying at +1s/2days though.
I don’t have a progression in mind for it nor do I care how long will it take me to reach the full loop. It’s good enough as is.

Update 1:

Many things I thought were healed showed up again, but now I notice that they aren’t “healed”, they’re just patched up. It’s like slapping 2 strips of duct tape in an X pattern on each of them, patting them twice and saying “that ain’t goin’ anywhere”.

I think it’s a good thing because now I’m ready to face them. The changes inside of me lately with mindfulness & equanimity have been providing me with strong roots, a sturdy trunk and a stable ground to stand on.

We’ll see how this goes.

Update 2:

It’s become easier for me to see the beauty in women, and I also manifest more beautiful women into my life. I realize how “haughty” I was compared to my views now.

Being able to see the beauty in people is not only good for them, but it also gives more color to my life.

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#1659

It’s like opening a flood gate.
I feel them full force.

Yet i’m able to just observe and be mindful. This facilitates the healing process. It’s like i’m suddenly able to heal many things at the same time.

There’s no sluggishness or lethargy either. I guess EE being in the stack is the final piece i need to let myself heal more thoroughly.

Update 1:

I think this is the most healing i’ve ever undertaken from subs.
DRR3 had always been a “booster” sub for me. It boosts everything in my life with no drawbacks.
Even with multiple cycles using 30m. This had always been the case.

Now it’s suddenly acting as a healing sub, which I’m happy with as i’ve written many times, but it’s still somewhat of a surprise.

My theory is that, DRR has security checks before going deeper.
It won’t go too deep if you’re not ready for such intense healing yet.
Even with 2 full loops back to back for cycles on end, this check is still in place while preparing the user to be able to dive deeper.

Now that I’m ready, the gate is let loose. It’s potent even with the absurdly short length I’m using now.

I might need to restart DRR1 & 2 after I finish DRR4.
This is gonna take longer than I expected.

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Also, I just noticed that I’ve reached 1.5 years of DRR now. They aren’t kidding when they say multistagers are really for the long term. Even now I’m still discovering massive results.

Update 2:

I ate dry chicken with cold rice.

That sounds weird, but sometimes it happens.
Usually it’s a dreadful experience, but this time, it’s different.
I’m able to just observe the “taste” and the feeling of dread, yet I didn’t suffer from it.
The bland chicken, the stiff rice, the cold, they don’t make me suffer like they used to.

This is a first.

My ability to just observe & be mindful has grown to such a degree that even something like this got affected too. This stack is absurd. Whatever synergy the three of them made, it is working well.

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