William’s Winning Wayfare

[Viktor]

I did an introspection.

It seems self forgiveness has a part to do with the “possibility” theme I got from EE.
DRR3 is the perfect sub to elevate this. I’m very cautious with this cycle since i’m using the new 2 month one, but maybe if i keep DRR3 under 10s it won’t give me any significant adverse effect.

I’ll try it.

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Women have cycles every month, many say it affect them differently throughout.

Do men have it too? Just because we don’t bleed doesn’t mean it’s conclusive that we don’t have any. If we do, how can i use it to further my productivity? What about yearly cycles through seasons?

The things my brain does when it’s supposed to meditate instead, lol. Maybe there’s something to this though, i’m gonna keep it at the back of my mind.

[Parsifal]

@Viktor

Do men have it too? Just because we don’t bleed doesn’t mean it’s conclusive that we don’t have any. If we do, how can i use it to further my productivity? What about yearly cycles through seasons?

According to my fiancee, men’s cycles last 24h instead of 28 days. There seems to be a scientific consensus about this, although I never did my own research on this topic.

[SoulFire]

She might be right.

If women cycle is connected to the lunar cycle of 28 days, the moon being considered a feminine energy being, then the masculine counterpart is the sun which has a 24h cycle.

Another small piece that confirms this idea of 24h men cycle is the fact that feminine archetype is considered slow(and soft) moving as opposed to the masculine which is fast (and hard).

[Haru]

The 24 hour cycle is called circadian rhythm and affects males as well as females.

If you want something comparable to the female menstrual cycle in males it would be spermatogenesis, where one cycle is between 72-74 days (tritium-labelled biopsies) and 120 days (DNA clock measurements).

[Viktor]

@Haru

If you want something comparable to the female menstrual cycle in males it would be spermatogenesis, where one cycle is between 72-74 days (tritium-labelled biopsies) and 120 days (DNA clock measurements).

Very interesting. I’ll keep the tabs open so I can read them when I’m free.

@SoulFire

feminine archetype is considered slow(and soft) moving as opposed to the masculine which is fast (and hard).

Unrelated to the cycles, but i’ve been noticing that i’ve been embracing the feminine side more often lately. I think the subs are teaching me to use broader perspectives so I can use them to further my goals.

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@Parsifal

The thing about loss and abundance is that they’re closely connected. What does abundance mean if you can’t loose it? If it’s gone without you feeling the loss it’s not real abundance. Not when it’s about persons.
It’s only painless when you don’t really care.
When you loose someone close to your heart, it’s supposed to hurt. I’ve lost a lot of good friends over the decades. And it was always a painfully process at the time. Now, looking back, I can cherish the memories. But at the time it was like loosing a limb.

I’ve been thinking about this.
While I believe my problem with full loop of WB was different than this, i don’t want to throw this away just yet. i’m still curious if there’s a part of me that subconsciously blocks me from noticing this.

I might have found something.
When I get busy, i often cut out connection with people. This is natural, but the more i think about it, the more i think that there could be time where i cut out because of this and use “busyness” as a cover.

Not conclusive yet, but I’m still keeping an eye on this. The break I take from WB + the focus from EE is bringing the contrast & clarity forward. I might gonna find something useful that I’m not aware of yet.

[Viktor]

Yeah, WB is going back into the stack, at least for now.

The temptation is just too strong. Seeing what life is like with and without it once you’ve tasted the sub is… WB is just too appealing.

Unless I lock myself in a room without any connection outside and just be productive, WB will work.
It doesn’t matter if it’s just a simple stroll to the local bakery or to a cafe, it will work.

I guess I just can’t lie to the sub.
I want the focus and fulfilment of working, but deep down I also want this part in my life.

As for possibly overloading myself because I’m using the 2 month cycle without a sub that has the antirecon scripting, we’ll cross the bridge when we get to it, lol.

I’ll be sensible and keep everything below 30s though. I’m taking enough risk as is.

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I’ve been experimenting with a new skincare routine too.

I looked at the ingredients of almost every skincare product in the aisle, and one ingredient stands out as it’s almost always included: aloe vera.

Now I’m experimenting with using only that. Aloe vera. The raw plant.
I found out that store bought aloe vera stinks and stings, so I got the real plant, cut it fresh and apply it to my skin after a shower, wait for 10 minutes, then rinse it off.

So far, it has been better than the normal routine I do.

My skin is reacting well to it. it feels smoother, more supple, and not as dry.
My theory is that, because it’s dirt cheap, I’m less reserved in applying it to my body.
Maybe the volume is the key and I should have used more of the products I did back then, or maybe using aloe vera alone is the key for my skin in particular.

It hasn’t been long since I started this though, I’ll keep an eye on how it’s going.

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My view started to switch from “I only have 16 hours in a day” to “I know I can manage to do this”.
EE’s results is helping me with that too. This is truly the “possibility” sub. The self forgiveness part is helping me adapt to it too.

[Viktor]

WB’s social guidance is back at almost full force.
I’m gonna sound like a broken record, but I gotta say, seeing the difference between when I had it vs when I didn’t have it as strongly in my break from WB really gave me better clarity on what to do.

I’m not sure about others, but this “break from a sub after a few cycles” has proven itself useful again and again for me. Getting the contrast between when I have and when I don’t is really valuable in gaining clarity.

That being said, I don’t think it’s necessary for every sub. A break from DRR didn’t give me the same clarity because I already have a good understanding of what to do under the sub. It’s more useful for subs that are still kind of a mystery in one way or another.

In the last break, I used it to solo EE. In the next one, I’ll be able to sneak in HeO.

Also, 4s is sufficient. Maybe my long experience with WB & LBFH makes it enough for me to just have a small nudge to get everything rolling again.

[Viktor]

I noticed that my stress level has lowered quite a lot.

EE soothes while allowing me to do more through its various effects.

I didn’t expect much yet, but <15s of EE is powerful enough to give me such results.

I know i can use more, but I’m not losing much by microlooping either. Looks like being vigilant to not overexpose with the 2 month schedule won’t leave me short of results.

[Viktor]

Using EE, I keep finding how I can pick up things I’ve been putting aside for the sake of productivity.
It’s as if the sub is saying, “Here, I give you ways to be more efficient, use the freed up time to pursue other things you want”.

But I know it’s not just the sub.
It’s me. I want these in my life.
I can’t lie to ZP. I can’t lie to myself.

This is the “possibility” sub.
It’s shifting my mindset from being limited by time, resources, feasibility etc, to being able to see things as opportunities. I haven’t ascended over time or human limitations, but I’m starting to view them less as limitations and more as just factors in the various possibilities I can achieve in life.

Shouldn’t this be in DRLD? Well, I did want EE to be like it. DRLD was the sub that pushed my productivity forward the most out of everything else. EE surpassed it easily. I guess my wish with EE is fulfilled.

[Viktor]

Aloe Vera update:

My skin is getting less dry. Isn’t this too quick? This is even better than using moisturizers like i did back then.

My 2 theories are still standing.
It could be that my skin is reacting better to aloe from the plant itself than store bought products that contains it, or the sheer volume alone is enough to give me this result.
It’s dirtcheap, so i’m not reserved at all when applying it.

Fresh young aloe vera from the pot is by far the best. The big ones is firmer, harder to break, and too big to cut for just using it once. Store bought ones stink & sting. Freshness has got to do with it.

It’s going well, maybe i’ll use cucumbers on my eyes too like the stereotypical skincare routine, lol. As long as i’m having fun then it’s good.

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I can say that the physical shifting is working well then. It’s not directly from the sub, but it’s guiding me to get to the result. It’s a success as far as i’m concerned.

[Viktor]

Inner circle: brotherhood is getting close.
After I finish DRR3, maybe it’s time to get a custom.

I can’t use HeO yet or it might kitchensink with WB at some point. HLB is also too early with DRR still in the stack.
DRR4 + EE seems like a good option to make a custom as. DRR is a great booster, combined with EE, the productivity is gonna take a center stage.

Then I’ll have a free spot for UA or ICB.

But I won’t plan this any further yet. I’m gonna wait for the updates first.

[Viktor]

It clicked.

Microlooping these subs unlocked something in me.
It’s as if my mindfulness ability is being significantly levelled up in a snap.

I can see everything clearly. Every thought, every emotion, every reaction I can see how they work and just observe. My awareness is taken to another height.

Equanimity.
While i’m not at that stage yet, i can’t describe this any other way.
It’s as if i’m getting significantly closer to it.

This is, by definition, DRR3’s effect. but I can’t help but to notice a huge part of the fundamentals are heavily related to EE too.

I haven’t reached 10s with DRR3 yet, but it seems microlooping works exceptionally well with it too.
But this time, there are so many factors at play that could be the reason.
It could be the “second wave of effects” that comes after 4-6 months (I often get this in this time frame, could be different for others), the subs helping my meditation to suddenly progress that leads to this result, etc.

I feel like I can face anything from my past. And I did. Every thought pattern, every surge of emotion, every physical reaction, I can see it clearly. It’s as if i have a strong root that helps me weather the storm. I don’t need to fight the storm, my roots and trunk are strong enough. I just let it sway my branches and be at peace at the same time. I don’t need to worry about it, it doesn’t matter. All I need to do is to just observe.

… That’s the best I can describe it. It sounds like what I wrote years ago, but the depth & span are just hard to put into words. All I can say is that it’s increasing significantly, enough that I feel the healing part for the core & foundation is mostly done. The rest of it is easier to face, as i’ve been experimenting lately.

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This has been happening for the past weeks. I’ve been holding on to this until I have a better understanding of what it is. It is that profound.

Microlooping works. That’s all I’m gonna say. I can take both DRR3 & EE for full loops with no recon. Heck, I did how many cycles with 30m of DRR3. I can say with confidence that microlooping doesn’t make it any weaker. This is just as strong in its own way.

Well, microloop? quantumloop? whatever <30s is called.

[Parsifal]

Did you notice this with every title, or is it just those you’ve run extensively before?
Like when someone shouts “Ey Macarena” your brain, or at least mine" starts the whole song including the dance? And that’s despite me still being a little kid when then song was released.

[Viktor]

@Parsifal

Did you notice this with every title, or is it just those you’ve run extensively before?

Surprisingly no.

EE is new to my stack. I’ve only run full loops of it a few times, other than that, only aggressive microloops for the majority of the 2 months i’ve had it in my stack. So definitely not just the ones i’ve extensively run before.

Many of these effects are still new to me. Especially this blend of mindfulness from how each sub influence me in their own way. I’ve been thinking about how to convey it, but i find it hard to truly impart the magnitude of it. I feel i’m ready to go against anything, fully confident with my ability to just observe. It’s as if I’ve reached a new level of freedom within myself that i wasn’t even aware was possible.

All from microloops. Shorter than it even.

A part of me feels like i’ve had it since long ago, but i can ascertain that this did not exist a month ago. It’s the classic natural ZP feeling.

I ended up rambling, lol. But that’s just how excited i’m with what i got. The me from back then would pay stupid money to get this freedom to open any casket from the past within myself like this.

I’ve been spending the past few days actively trying to open old scars in my mind, going through parts of my memories where i wasn’t comfortable with. My body, mind, emotions reacted badly (as is typical with bad memories), but now my ability to just observe and be mindful has become so absurd that i feel full freedom in exploring them.

@Parsifal

Ey Macarena

I don’t even know the lyrics and my brain immediately started singing it, rofl.

[Viktor]

@Viktor

Something great is happening with this stack.

I don’t want to disturb whatever synergy the subs have created. I can’t change any subs in this stack yet until the changes this synergy brings have stuck and become natural.

At first i wanted to speed up the increment of DRR3’s listening length next cycle so i can switch to DRR4. But i want whatever synergy that’s going on with my stack to stick as long as possible. This is THE result i want the most out of everything.

I’ll keep going with +1s every listening day. If i end up with more than a year of DRR3, so be it. I’m beyond satisfied with what i have now.

I wonder what will happen if i aggressively microloop HeO like this. Once I’m done with this stack, or when i need to take the scheduled break, that is the first thing i’m gonna do.

[Viktor]

My mindset is becoming more present.

It’s not just how i am now, but also my thought patterns.

I’m getting less connected with the shiny object in the future and more able to enjoy what’s happening now.

I’m more able to see what “goals” other people/the society foisted on me, and what truly matters to me. I can let go of those external pushes and just enjoy the great things i have now.

These seems obvious, but as always, the depth & variety is different with subs. In this particular case, the difference is overwhelming. I never thought i could ever reached this state in my life.

[Viktor]

EE 21s WB 8s DRR3 8s

I’ll reset WB & DRR3 to 3s again.
I want to do +1s every 2 listening days instead, just like what I did with WB a month ago.
Since I already reached 8s, I’ll start with +1s/1day, then +1s/2days once I reach 9s.

Maybe I’ll reset EE too just to have them at the same exposure?

Eh, why not? I’m not in a rush anyway.
None of these subs have anti-recon yet. It’s even more reason to take things slowly.

[Resolute]

That’s cool how much the micro loops work for you. Do you think you need to run a full loop at least once to get these effects from the micro loops?

I’m starting a 3 sub micro looping stack soon, I was planning to start at 30s and work up, but now I wonder if I should run full loops on day 1 and then start the micro loop listening schedule from 30s on day 3 onwards.

[Viktor]

@Resolute

That’s cool how much the micro loops work for you. Do you think you need to run a full loop at least once to get these effects from the micro loops?

Perhaps? I need to try it with a fresh new sub.
One thing I’m sure of, I get many new & deeper effects from microloops alone. So I’m sure to a certain degree, microloops alone are enough.

@Resolute

I’m starting a 3 sub micro looping stack soon, I was planning to start at 30s and work up, but now I wonder if I should run full loops on day 1 and then start the micro loop listening schedule from 30s on day 3 onwards.

I did that too at the start of this cycle

I’m gonna start with 15m first as a point of reference to how I react to a full loop of EE solo.

It’s not recommended, but I mean, how bad can one 15m loop at the start of the cycle affect the rest of the 2 months anyway. So I gave it a shot.

After I played it for 15m, I immediately went down to 3s.
I’m doing well now, a month after that. But I went down way lower than 30s with just 1 sub solo for more than half a month after. So your mileage may vary.

I’d say, why not? You want to know what will happen, and if it feels too much, you can always take an early washout anyway.

[Resolute]

Yeah sweet, I’ll try it out. I didn’t read back far enough to realise you did the same thing with EE. I can imagine the subconscious remembering the script and processing it again by hearing only the first part of the audio, a bit like the Macarena song mentioned.