Lots of observations about myself. I failed a emperor test, few moments ago. I ordered something at 7 /11 and the dude charged me for BBQ sauce and didn’t give me my change. Now it’s not about the change I’m upset about it’s a dollar and something, I’m upset about not speaking up. I didn’t say anything because I was afraid of judgment, because there was people around. So I walked back to my job then started getting really pissed off not so much at him but more so at myself, for being a bitch and not being assertive and mentioning how I got charged for BBQ and didn’t get my change. So I walked back and told him, it was obvious I was upset and I ended walking out the store, it doesn’t matter what our conversation exchange was, I wasn’t upset at him even though it appeared that way, I was upset at myself for not speaking up and telling him my issue when it first took place.
other unrelated news, I’m really desiring and craving to find a men’s group, where we can push each other to grow and take action. I’ve lacked masculine mentors, friends etc to push me to live up to my potential. I I’ve been researching how to find a men’s group, a legit no bull shit men’s group who gives blunt, tough love advice like I give to others from time to time.
I can care less about women right now and give a damn about what she thinks about me based On my job. I’ve reached a IDGAF mentality about what girls think of me, though I don’t know how long this will last.
I’ve realized what I truly need is masculine mentors, role models, friends, a group etc
I need men in my life not women.
I don’t want to reach my potential because I want women in my life I want to reach my potential because I want to be the Best MAN I can be.
My goals
- Nofap , 2. Fitness 3 Money/ purpose/ career 4 girls
For years it was girls, girls And … girls For once in my life they are not a priority,