What is love? - Custom Journal

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#1

Inspired by the Sacred Heart custom of @Tobyone, I created my custom around Heartsong with some changes.
I preferred not to put Love Bomb into the QV2 custom because I experienced it needing a lot of energy to work, and I feel it would be better not to listen to it every day.

Eventually, I want to stack it with my Primal Seduction custom, but first a few weeks solo.

This is an overview:

  • Heartsong Q Core
  • Joie de Vivre
  • Elegance
  • Depths of Love
  • Chosen of Venus
  • Love Without Attachment
  • Transcendental Connection
  • Harmonic Singularity
  • Blue Skies
  • Gratitude Embodiment
  • Way of Understanding
  • Mercy Protocol
  • The Wonder
  • The Flow
  • Path of Forgiveness
  • Pride Unbroken
  • Emotions Unfettered
  • Deus
  • Yggdrasil
  • The Architect
Detailed descriptions of the modules

Heartsong Q Core

The core of Heartsong Q, a subliminal for those seeking to find their ideal partner and relationship, in any way that might be, while also strengthening any current romantic relationship/s and making them into a thrilling experience of love, trust, attraction and joy. Ideal for both those looking for their ideal partner/s and those already in relationships that desire to improve them and create incredible, profound unions.

Joie de Vivre

Enjoying life, loving your ambitions, having fun working towards your goals, walking your journey with joy. It is a great gift in life. Joie de Vivre helps you achieve this gift.

Elegance

There are some individuals who seem like they are floating while walking and who exude gracefulness with every single movement. Elegance is the module to develop such otherworldly grace of the body, making your movements fluid, relaxed and incredibly pleasing to the eye in a way that fits you perfectly.

Depths of Love

An excellent complement to Love Without Attachment, Depths of Love will help you deepen your ability to love to unimaginable depths and make it all the more sweeter, while also removing traumas that stop you from loving others fully. Depths of Love is also an excellent complement to spirituality based customs if your practices include the heart area, allowing you to connect more deeply to the feelings of the heart and its functions, as well as relaxing it. Finally, Depths of Love can be added to a custom containing Chosen of Venus. Chosen of Venus contains an aura of love and helps develop your wisdom, while Depths of Love will plunge you into the currents of love. Combine the two to explore love on all fronts, levels and depths of being.

Chosen of Venus

Love is a powerful and complex emotion. So much of our life revolves around it. Science has tried to study it again and again, and sages of old talked tirelessly about it. Some make it their life goal to unlock the mysteries of love. Chosen of Venus is here to assist you in personally experiencing the secrets love holds. You will let go of your limits in love, of your previous trauma, while learning to love more freely, more deeply, more widely. You will grow your wisdom through the power of love while unlocking the insight that each layer and type of love holds. You will experience how it is to be filled with love and radiate it – yes, Chosen of Venus contains aura manifestation as well. You can now truly become… the Chosen of Venus.

Love Without Attachment

Love can get boggled down by numerous beliefs, attachments, emotions. Use this if you desire a pure love, where you can easily let go if needed. Loving freely, without attachment, is the greatest gift you can give someone. It will also help you in seduction and in letting go of people, such as when a break up occurs.

Transcendental Connection

Creating deep, meaningful relationships is one of life’s delights. Use Transcendental Connection to create such a relationship, be it short term or, especially so, long term. A relationship of any type that both of you will benefit from and be filled with positivity in, or simply use Transcendental Connection to take your relationship to the next level.

Harmonic Singularity

We all hold incredible tensions in our body which ripple through our whole being, affecting not only the body, but the mind and spirit as well. Harmonic Singularity is specifically focused on removing these tensions and making your whole body relax and release more and more. Every bone, muscle, ligament and nerve will progressively become more and more deeply relaxed, helping you excel in any area – physical, mental or spiritual.

Blue Skies

Originally not intended for release, Blue Skies is a profound module allowing the user to glimpse the hidden depths of reality, the secrets about himself he might have been hiding, develop his concept of “Love” – any kind of love, such as unconditional or romantic, and any type, be it internal or external (such as self love), as well as using such seeing beyond the physical veil to take the user’s cognitive, artistic/creative and spiritual abilities to the next level. Now available and useable for the public, Blue Skies can give your subliminal a distinct take that will push your growth continuously.

Gratitude Embodiment

Gratitude for the things in your life can make you appreciate the gifts you have been given and the possibilities you are provided with. Furthermore, gratitude is a powerful emotion that can help open wider the ways for manifestation in your life, be it in regards to business, love, sports, or simply living. With this module, you will become a powerful beacon of gratitude and appreciation.

Way of Understanding

Grow your ability to understand others and their lives – Way of Understanding will help you see clearer the motivations, beliefs, emotions, thoughts and desires of the people around you, and help you be understanding of it. Furthermore, Way of Understanding will help you understand your own motivations, beliefs, emotions, thoughts and desires as well as the why’s behind each one of them.

Mercy Protocol

Becoming able to empathize with others on a deep, soul level is an advantage you can make incredible use of. Mercy Protocol will help you tap into your deepest, innermost levels of kindness and empathy whenever needed, and you will become able to comfort those dear to you better and better.

The Wonder

Some forget that the world is a magical place filled with wonder and possibility. The Wonder is a module to bring back that feeling that you felt when you were a child – endless curiosity, fascination and seeing the grand tapestry of life unfolding before your eyes.

The Flow

If you ever believed you were part of something more, The Flow will help you truly understand this. The Flow will help reveal to you the interconnectedness of the universe and the secret of inner peace. You will develop your sense of tranquility, becoming a walking beacon of serenity.

Path of Forgiveness

Past mistakes and regrets can often haunt us for years to come. Have the courage to forgive yourself for all that you did. Call of Forgiveness will also develop your capacity for forgiveness and mercy, helping you to forgive both yourself and others for the injustices they have committed, in a way that leaves you feeling stronger than ever.

Pride Unbroken

People leave. They can make you feel insignificant, as if you never mattered. They can prioritize others or their goals over you. They can disappear, or never even give you a chance. They can ignore you while giving others the world. It is something incredibly complex, and the feelings this causes can be with you for life. Worthlessness, powerlessness, indignation… Pride Unbroken is here to make you realize that your worth is much more than the way others might have treated you. You will realize your limitless, true worthiness, you will learn of your positive pride, while letting go of the negative feelings and beliefs holding you back. You might have been beaten down, but your Pride is… Unbroken.

Emotions Unfettered

Feel the full depth of your emotions by adding this module to your custom. Emotions Unfettered will help you feel the whole spectrum of your emotions and intensify each of them, allowing you to use them for your purposes. While Emotions Unfettered will make your emotions stronger, it will also make them more useable by giving you a clearer lucidity and awareness of them in the moment, as well as helping you develop greater emotional control. Furthermore, Emotions Unfettered will help you be more open with them to others, in a way that makes you more respected and admired. Ultimately, with Emotions Unfettered and enough practice, you’ll be fully in control of your emotions while enjoying them to the fullest.

Deus

An immense module designed to make any subliminal self-developing and to push it ever onwards in increasing power and efficiency. It will push to the limit all avenues of subliminal input, processing and output, and then continuously develop, pushing the limit further and further. It will also make use of any smaller details needed to do so, such as brainwaves, hormones, energetic systems, etc.

Yggdrasil

Yggdrasil is a module designed to speed and open up the pathways to manifestation. Similar to the roots of a mighty tree, the pathways will become numerous and wide. You will notice the most unlikely positive circumstances and opportunities manifesting to help you with your goals.

The Architect

The Architect is a module that will imbue, develop and help you use the energetic structures of your body. If you are spiritual, be prepared for your practices to be taken to the next level. If you aren’t spiritual, you can expect a gradual development of your energy levels – you won’t feel as tired, you will get more things done, you will feel and actually be healthier.

Journal:
Friday, September 17, 2021

  • Before listening, I already felt well because I woke up early this morning. Plus some excitement for receiving the custom in the early morning.
  • Listened to the first loop today
  • 10-15 minutes after the first loop, I notice a smile in my face. I first noticed it in the eyes. They felt different, relaxed and somewhat happy.
  • First social interaction was buying something for breakfast at the bakery. On my way there, a woman smiled while walking by. On the way back, I noticed curiosity about the world around me, and what the day will bring. No negative thoughts noticeable, but just enjoying the moment.
  • I am starting to work now. I work from home, so there will be no face-to-face interactions. Later, I meet with two female friends.

Thinking about running Love Bomb Ultima as a booster later today, but probably not because I want to see the effects of the custom solo first.

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#2

Baby, don’t hurt me

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#3

Don’t hurt me,

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#4

No more… (I broke the window again)

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#5

lol … thanks for the comments :smiley: :heart_eyes:

I remember that song.

#6

Exactly what popped up for me too when I saw the name :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

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#7

Damn this one looks amazing. I like that you only went with one core.

I had one of these moments with a girl in a store after my first loop of my custom. I just smiled, and she smiled and started blushing. I said nothing else but hi :slight_smile:

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#8

This looks like a awesome fluffy custom.

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#9

Journal

  • Friday I listened to one loop of Love Bomb a few hours after the first loop of the custom. I was very tired afterwards. I met with two female friends in the evening. The only thing I remember is that we had a lot of fun. Laughing about some silly joke I made which became a running gag. One of the two mentioned that she had not laughed so much in a long time.
  • As love Bomb seems to make me very tired I am not planning on using it again soon.
  • Today (Sunday) I am listening to one loop of the custom.
  • Before playing the loop I felt in an okay mood. 30 minutes in I felt blissful.
  • I am still listening, so I will update this journal when I notice something interesting. Later I will meet with a female friend in a video conference online.
  • Also I will go outside in the evening - maybe there will be something to report.

Thinking about adding my Sanguine Good Habit Ultima later this day.

At the moment I just enjoy myself doing nothing and listening to the sub.

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#10

Journal

  • Watching a recorded concert I seem to feel more. Maybe emotions unfettered at work?
  • Talking to my female friend was fun. I felt love for her and tried to understand her perspective. The talk inspired me for a writing project. The friend was sexually interested in me while I was running Khan Stage 1, but I didn’t take advantage of the opportunity because she has a boyfriend.
  • When I was outside mood was good, but nothing fabulous to report.
  • I am more focused on the heart area. This might be a good sign because in the past I had problems feeling emotions.

I am now listening to my Ultima custom with:

  1. Sanguine
  2. Foundation
  3. Stronger
  4. Eye of the Storm
  5. Stop porn and masturbation
  6. Inner gasoline

So far this Ultima was a hit and miss. I think I am masturbating less than before, but I probably have to run it for a longer time period to see results.

Overall mood is better since running the Heartsong QV2 custom. I am curious to see how it will develop and when I will see more effects in social interactions. Sadly I have a cold at the moment and will have to wait for it to get better to stop social distancing.

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#11

That should help.

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#12

Today I ran one loop of the Love custom.
Felt good, but was lazy at work.
In the past being lazy at work would have caused negative thoughts or feelings.
Today it didn’t.

I listened to one loop of Limitless executive. It helped to get a bit of work done. Probably will use the normal executive Ultima next time and compare results.

Currently I am listening to one loop of Sage immortal. I added it because I like the inner calmness it causes. But I am conflicted about already adding another sub to my stack.
I will see how it turns out afterwards and tomorrow.

Haven’t been outside today yet as I work from home. I am finished with work for today and will probably go outside later. So far I can only feel the self effects (good mood).

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#13

Today I listened to the Love custom and to the PS custom for each one loop.
The mood today was good, and I got some work done, which is also good.

Some modules of the new Love custom are also in the PS custom. I will see if they are more pronounced through that.

This morning I journaled a lot, which was a good way to start the day. Probably will privately journal after work. The main topic of the journal pages was accepting what is. Accepting myself and my circumstances as at the moment they are. Instead of fighting against it and losing energy that way.

Stats

  • Heartsong Custom - Listening day 4
  • Primal Seduction Custom - Listening day 1
    (one loop per day each)
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#14

I stopped listening to the custom September 27. After reconciliation created probably by two loops of Limit destroyer on on the same day.

Wanted to do a washout. This lasted for 3 days then I started listening to wanted on September 30. Too much good news about the title in the ZP thread. Added Ultimate Artist to the stack on October 2.

I got great results like signs of attraction and overall good mood.

I guess it is too early to have gotten those from Wanted. Perhaps these were executions from the two customs.

Also I noticed signs of an up phase after some bad weeks of depression. This was probably caused by some medical self therapy.

The up phase shows by me being a bit restless and talking too much. Will watch it and talk to my doctor if it continues.

Spend some time reading my old journals and found out that although in my depressive mood s I don’t register it, I got great results from subs in the past.

Dragon reborn did a lot for me. I noticed this when I filled out a questionnaire for my therapist. A few years ago during depression I would remember many regrets connected to feelings of shame. I hadn’t have that since running the healing titles.

The only thing that was left of my depression was oversleeping and feeling depressed because of it plus lack of motivation. The oversleeping could be caused by my sleep apnoea.

My social phobia also seemed to vanish after subliminal use. The only thing that was left was that I didn’t have social skills because I never could learn them because of the phobia.

Okay, now at the moment I have the problem that I am talking too much and jumping around a lot. That seems to make me not very pleasant to be around. But I also notice that. I am aware of the problem. In the past I didn’t notice it.

Next step would be to gain control over that behaviour. Trying to saying less and listening more.

Now about the question of this topic: what is love? Being loveable although I have all these flaws. My friends overlook these flaws in me.

I tell them about my flaws and they care about me. I guess this is a form of love.

Being seen in a good light although having odd behaviour.

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#15

So, started the day with listening to one loop of my Heartsong custom. Back on track. :slight_smile:

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#16

I can share some of my experiences I’ve had regarding love and being vulnerable last couple of years.

This I see as a big growth signal. You are becoming more and more aware.

I can relate to this a lot from my own life. I used to very controlling, and I had a heart of ice in my teens. I tried to control every aspect of my life and trying to assert more of it from the outside/in. I developed a lot of tics in my youth as a way to cope with all the stress from this need for control. Due to this I noticed that a lot of my friends gowing up were the exact opposite, very carefree and chill. I don’t know if you can relate to this as well?

During my first couple of years after starting doing self-development, this controlling behavior became painfully neurotic, meaning I tried to control everything about myself to look the way I wanted it towards other people. This eventually turned me suicidal, and is what got me propelled into the next stage.

A turning point for me was when I took a dive into vulnerability, and to actually instead of trying to assert more control, I started doing the exact opposite. An example could be to notice my internal state and body, and then going up to a girl and expressing what I felt without trying to cover anything up.

This was very eye opening in the beginning. But the mind is very cunning, and after a while I started to use it as a technique and thus removing all authenticity. Just imagine you feel alright and are in a good mode, but as you approach that same girl and start only talking about things that bothers you to get attraction… not very sexy or attractive (PUA conditioning hmm). It’s a set of training wheels in the beginning, but if misused, it loses all effectiveness. So the same theme here is more awareness.

From the module Love Without Attachment:
Love can get boggled down by numerous beliefs, attachments, emotions. Use this if you desire a pure love, where you can easily let go if needed. Loving freely, without attachment, is the greatest gift you can give someone. It will also help you in seduction and in letting go of people, such as when a break up occurs.

I’m seeing a recurring theme here, trying to manipulate one’s behavior to get love and acceptance from others. Self-love is a concept that is being thrown around a lot these day, but the basis of it is very simple, love yourself first period. You are the zero point as in the new technology, your world starts from that point, 0,0.

And if all people have their flaws, isn’t acceptance of all no matter what a pure form of love? And where does it start from, from you. By becoming more aware one becomes more accepting, and by becoming more accepting one becomes more aware :slight_smile: This is something I’ve learned a lot from Dragon Reborn and also my Love customs, to just accept all people the way they are.

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#17

Yes, I can see myself trying to control myself too much.
Yesterday I wrote in my private journal about some ideas of authenticity and honesty.
I think that is connected with what you write about vulnerability.

I was trying to hide myself in the past a lot. But there were moments when I was opening up and still got accepted. This was really better than hiding behind a social front. When I am myself and get accepted for who I am, it is much better than being accepted for the manipulative social front.

Intimacy can’t happen, in my opinion, when you cannot show what you feel, who you really are.

I like your input about me being too self-controlling. That might be a major problem which also came with self-development. Self-development, which happened because I felt I was not good enough. I always wanted to be extremely confident. But when I was extremely confident on the outside, I couldn’t accept it when girls were attracted to me. I felt manipulative and like they didn’t like me for whom I truly am. I pushed them away and rejected them.

Now I think getting really into vulnerability, honesty and authenticity can be a longer process for me. It’s like peeling of layers of an onion. Like when you made being vulnerable into a technique. This was probably another layer to peel of.

I feel like I am rambling now. But bear with me or don’t :wink:

I am grateful for your insights.

The last part of your post about accepting of all, no matter what, is something I wrote in my journal yesterday, too. I wrote about accepting people as they are. And I considered this to be useful because I have some ideas of not seeing people directly, but only representations of them. And these representations are based on “things” you know. Like yourself or important influences from childhood (idea of projection). So, the idea is to love other people unconditionally to love yourself unconditionally too.
But I guess you meant acceptance of all in a broader sense. Like one of my teachers said that “meditation for him is to accept everything as it is”. A sentence I still don’t understand fully, but I guess it is about not fighting with what is, with reality and wanting it to be different.

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Okay, now some thoughts from my private journaling from yesterday:

  • Being humble is important to me. If I am not humble, I can overlook my errors (blind spots) and become arrogant or even megalomaniac. I like the Hindu concept of not-identifying oneself with one’s character/personality/body etc. but with awareness. I am that is aware of what is and not identified with the thoughts and ideas that arise in what is.
  • My psychiatric diagnosis seems to be a self-fullfilling prophecy. And not a good one. It could be important to overcome that fortune-telling and see me as a whole and not just as a diagnosis.
  • One of the ideas that come up is that I need a girlfriend. That’s just a box to put the desires behind that into it. These desires could be fullfilled by different persons or even myself.
  • Socialising can be fun if you don’t have a goal in mind. If you are just socialising to “get sex” you might be needy. That’s a different vibe than when you socialise just to have fun and take the chances that you get. Being able to socialise itself can be an attractive quality. And when you talk with others just for fun and without agenda you are opening yourself up first (concept by 60yearsofchallenge). I once got a girl interested in me just by talking to guys and she was watching my behavior. When I met her again at another party we dated for a while.
  • Showing yourself as you are seems to me better than having confidence as pure mechanism of being able to talk to everyone. It’s about not hiding your true self. It’s a form of self-esteem and self awareness.
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#18

Yes, and that all starts by you accepting yourself. Sometimes it can be hard to consistently be that open because of all the different circumstances that life presents us with. I think that is why I quit my job last year, I just felt that I had for the sake of the company put up a certain front, a kind of fake persona that I brought with me going into that job.

Not real meaningful intimacy at least. What tends to happen is we get into all kinds of toxic and codependent realtionships to cover up our wounds from childhood. That might be one of the reasons for our problem with love, because we are constantly being bombarded with the Hollywood fairytale version of it, and also songs about “I can’t breath without you!”

Handling this is all that is part of growing up, and as you said with the onion methaphor, one peels off one layer after another. In the end all that we truly want IMO is a feeling of peace and contentment, which is a natural occurance as soon as all the internal civil wars cease to exist. That’s what I like so much about Dragon Reborn, it’s just like passive shadow work and re-parenting.

That’s why awareness and acceptance is so important. For so many years I just kept on pushing and pushing with zero awareness, until finally I got to a point of total despair and something has to change.

I can relate to the part of feeling manipulative and false, and rejecting all kinds of intimacy except short sexual romps filled with anxiety. And this got even worse when I discovered PUA :stuck_out_tongue:

That sounds like a great idea, there’s so much to learn from it. Especially to us who became so masterful at hiding, supressing, and bullshitting ourselves.

I was the one who came in here trampling in the first place, so… :wink:

Look into forgiveness. It’s such a powerful practice to have in your arsenal. When I started delving deeper and practicing forgiveness, I soon realized by forgiving others, what I really was doing was forgiving myself for having believed that about them in the first place. So I was in fact just forgiving myself because that’s where it all starts.

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#19

Getting out of bed was not easy today, but manageable.

Today, just a short update.
The up phase seems to be gone again.
Words stopped flowing out of me :smiley:
Maybe that output was part of Ultimate Artist doing its job.

Today is my first rest day. Perhaps I will take another one tomorrow.
Or I will reduce my stack to the “What is love”-custom and later add Ultimate Artist.

I am not feeling so well. It’s not yet a fully depressed mood. From Sunday to Monday I only slept 3 hours. From Monday to Tuesday I slept about 12 hours. Hope it will get better when I am back on 8 hours sleep.

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#20

Sleeping was good today, didn’t wake up tired in the morning.

I started using my Light & Sound machine again. I researched the support articles if there is one about using it. Not using it at the same time with the subliminals. Didn’t find a support article about it. It helps me to get to sleep at night, getting more awake in the morning and for my afternoon meditation.
The three programs are:

  • Morning - 20 minutes - 20 Hz
  • Afternoon - 22 minutes - 7.8 Hz (Schumann Resonance)
  • Night - 45 minutes - 8-3Hz

I hope it is okay to post about it. I can delete it if not. Didn’t write the name of the device, so it is not advertising for the product of another company.

Today I want to listen to the Love custom of this topic and to Ultimate Artist. I read in the support article that 3 major titles are the max. My listening plan is as follows:

  • Day 1: Love Custom, PS Custom
  • Day 2: Rest day
  • Day 3: Love Custom, Ultimate Artist
  • Day 4: Rest day
  • repeat

Let’s see when the magic of Ultimate Artist begins again. Currently, my creative mind is empty, so I can’t ramble now about some models or theories. Which is okay also, as I have to work in few minutes.