Leaning towards yeeting this altogether, maybe add Facial Morphing instead. It’s not in line with the goals of the subliminal after all.
Edit: Nothing will part me with Charisma & Flirting Automatic Mentor/Improver, though a couple of people are suggesting S&S instead as a core…I like the idea but I don’t like it because it changes the entire custom’s dynamic.
I’d like to find a way to add Eye of the Storm to this custom as well. Need to reflect further.
Dragon is painful. The recon is significant. This is not a sub to mess with.
I’m really getting fucked by Dragon today.
This is good.
I am becoming more and more aware of all of the aspects I’ve fucked up on, or dropped the ball with. My mental health is something that I assumed I conquered but I stopped sharpening my blade, and now my brain is blunt.
I feel many negative things, and this is by Dragon’s design. I have to be forged in the fire before I can be bathed in blood.
I have to be broken apart before I am remade anew. This is all part of the process.
I don’t want to run Dragon Fire anymore. So I turned to the sales page, in the hopes that I’m finally ready to heal.
"Crushing all your deepest fears, emotions, traumas, beliefs and energies is the prerogative of ST1: Dragon Fire. Similar in function to Khan’s ST1, Dragon Fire doesn’t have the limit of removing only that which is standing in overall execution of Khan. No, Dragon Fire will breakdown every single part of your being, from the physical all the way to the deepest levels of your spiritual being.
Every single part of your being will be cleansed by the flames of the dragon. This includes energetic blocks, negative emotions that you are holding on to, tensions in your body, conditioning, traumas, as well as any harmful subliminal influences you might have picked up on during your subliminal journey.
This is a profoundly wide effect. You will experience changes throughout your whole being, and you need to be prepared to go through the challenges that this entails. It is not an easy path – be ready.
Dragon Fire will also help you become immune to future conditioning from your environment and others, while helping you increase your sensitivity to positive subliminal influence.
If you are sensitive to energy, you will likely notice the powerful purifying flames of Dragon Fire coursing through your body.
Feel the breakdown, let yourself be cleansed in the fire and then continue to…
STAGE 2 – DRAGON BLOOD
After purifying yourself with Dragon Fire, you will now heal and recover yourself from all that plagues you."
I think this is important to include here. I have definitely been feeling the ‘crushing of all my deepest fears, emotions, traumas, beliefs and energies’, but I feel like there may be more left to go through. The crushing is happening, but it may need to sit in my consciousness longer in order to spur further action on my part.
Whether it’s one more week, or 1 more cycle, there’s still work to be done with Dragon Fire.
My circuit breaker blew out in the end of September. That’s very clear to me now.
This is normal in life, just gotta refocus, recalibrate, and recommence.
My tentative schedule suggests that this should actually be my last cycle with Dragon stage 1. This suggests that this week is going to be quite the week for change and growth, as per Dragon’s standards.
With loops scheduled for today and Tuesday, I’m leaning towards 2 consecutive listening days of DF and QL3 and putting LBFH to the side until the next cycle.
These 2 consecutive days of DF and QL3 allow me to integrate both of their scripts as much as possible, in time for my washout. January 15/16 will be the start of the next cycle, and where DB and QL4 commence.
QL4 will be integrated within the Emperor custom I have planned out, and this allows me to build an LBFH custom as well on the side. 2 of those subs every listening day, with 1 listening day per week dedicated towards Dragon seems like the optimal play in my eyes.
It’s also a long-term play with Emp/QL and depending on how this Emp/QL custom unfolds, there will probably be revisions in the future because of how important of a component of my stack this custom will be (similar to last year’s Muay Thai customs Lerdsila ZP, Boyka ZP and Super ZP). I expect to see experiments with HOM and EB instead of vanilla Emperor, along with other possible modifications.
Naming this custom is crucial, as it will be key to objectifying it in my day-to-day. Currently leaning towards ‘The Genius’ right now. An HOM version of this custom will be called ‘Black Tie’, I know that for a fact. That custom will be distinctly more career focused. The EB version is more for my own pleasure, because of how freaking amazing EB is, so we’ll see what I’ll name that sub.
Cores:
Must Modules:
Social/Seduction:
Charisma & Flirting Automatic Mentor/Improver
Gorgeous Manifestor
QL4:
The Lines
Index Gate
Paragon:
Serum X
Deep Sleep
Emperor :
Emperor’s Voice
Lion IV
Where to include Eye of the Storm…also leaning towards adding Natural Winner as well, but not too sure about that one.
Maybe I can replace Gorgeous Manifestor and Charisma/Flirting with Natural Winner and Eye of the Storm, and then in the 2nd custom we’ll do it like this:
Cores:
Spartan
LBFH
EOG ST1
AsC
Modules:
Inner Voice
Gorgeous Manifestor
Spiritual Freedom
The Wonder
Gratitude Embodiment
Starfilled Night
Cosmic Wealth
Yggdrasil
Joie de Vivre
Jupiter
Instant Spark
The Flow
Harmonic Singularity
Everpresent
Physicality Shifter - Sexiness
Void of Creation
Man I can’t figure out what needs to be taken out of this. Leaning towards The Wonder or The Flow, but they’re both incredible modules within this custom. I think I need to categorize this further to really figure out the balance.
Wealth-related healing:
(Core) EOG1
Cosmic Wealth
Manifestation:
(Core) AsC
Gorgeous Manifestor
Yggdrasil
Jupiter
Void of Creation
Positivity:
(Core) LBFH
Inner Voice
Joie de Vivre
Mindset healing:
Spiritual Freedom
The Wonder
Gratitude Embodiment
Starfilled Night
Everpresent
The Flow
Physical shifting:
(Core) Spartan
Harmonic Singularity
Physicality Shifter - Sexiness
The Outliers:
The Wonder
Instant Spark
Instant Spark is a cool addition, I’ve included it simply because I want to try it and see if it actually works - I have such little experience on seduction subs, because I have little experience with seduction in general (I’ve been single for maybe 1 year total cumulatively in my entire adult life). But ultimately, it does not fit the custom the way The Wonder does, which appeals to me because of a nostalgic and sympathetic view I have of children, and of my childhood specifically. I felt robbed of my childhood, so The Wonder appeals to one of my biggest mental and emotional voids.
My decision was torn between The Flow and The Wonder. It’s clear that The Flow is necessary, and The Wonder is unfortunately expendable and thus the decision is made: Charisma/Flirting will replace The Wonder.
Ultimately, this 2nd custom is a luxury that I’m not even sure I’ll get. Just a good place-holder to use in terms of balance, when juxtaposed beside ‘Genius’.
Dragon Fire is crazy. I feel like I need to run another cycle, because of what it offers to my life.
I am continuously broken down every time I run a loop. It is something to behold.
Dragon Fire literally has a negative effect on one’s ability to think clearly. For the sake of school, I don’t think I can run another cycle of Dragon Fire, as beneficial and eye-opening as it has been.
I want to run healing subs someday, I need to be ready. If you have many obligations and need to perform right now it might not be a good time to run it. Can’t imagine the recon you’re going through man.
Thank you for your sympathy.
If I wasn’t running LBFH I have no idea how this cycle would have gone, because the recon has been devastating and it gets worse by the day unfortunately; and that’s with LBFH.
But I’m sacrificing now for a better tomorrow, no doubt about that.
Just so you know I’ve heard from saint that LBfH, although it has a different healing, it still has healing, and therefor can cause recon. I can look up the post for you somewhere in my journal later. But basically since my goal is to perform in videogames, I got advised to drop LBfH as recon can affect performance.
So you’re running two healing subs, and DR alone is super strong.
This information might help you to decide what to do. 
Thanks. I added LBFH to 1) reduce the negative effects of recon from DR1 and 2) create a buffer/cooldown period from my 2 cycle run with Emperor Black.
That cycle genuinely had me on the top of the world, and led me to so many discoveries and ideas. I am very tempted to go back to it, it is a truly special sub.
Maybe I should avoid a custom for now, since I am in recon at the moment.
I’ve started to journal offline because of the need for me to express myself in as genuine of a way as possible.
The greatest thing that Subliminal Club have done for me is get me into the habit of journaling, it is key. I will continue to post obviously, but in a personal offline journal I can truly speak in.
The desire for Muay Thai is strong, I miss it deeply. Not being able to practice Muay Thai genuinely affects my quality of life, and my happiness to a degree.
I stopped it because I couldn’t figure out how to blend weight-lifting with Muay Thai in the safest way possible, without relying on gear and maintaining good energy levels while not hurting the progress in both. It was too difficult and coupled with personal events in life and school, I decided to stop Muay Thai and focus solely on weight-lifting.
Weight-lifting allows me to work on building the physique that I can use to leverage power in social scenarios, whether they be business, casual or romantic.
Muay Thai brings me genuine happiness, and genuine confidence. Sure I can look better with weight-lifting and with time, my self-confidence can grow through it. But Muay Thai is different, there is a certain groundedness and strength that you acquire when you enter any interaction and you know that you have the capacity to defend yourself. It literally calms you in so many different social scenarios.
I need to figure out how to integrate both, with an emphasis on weightlifting.
My biggest issue with integrating the two is that one always suffers from lack of consistency, namely because of the recovery demands that the other poses.
I need to focus my bulk of my effort on weightlifting, making new PRs, maintaining as much consistency as possible. I do a 4 day Upper/Lower split, but I absolutely need to have 1 of each done every week, at the very minimum.
Muay Thai isn’t a source of exercise for me anymore and in that regard, it’s almost borderline detrimental for me; I want to maintain +16% body fat, and it’s hard to maintain a mostly clean diet with Muay Thai and not drop under 16.
Muay Thai for me, has become a source of peace and happiness. It’s a refuge from the world, from the obligations, responsibilities, desires, and troubles. Doing it twice a week I feel is a fine amount of times to do it, for the time being. We’ll see what happens.
New stack begins tomorrow.
QL4.
DR2.
And the return of the mack.
Cert.
Gym.
Fighting.
Only 3 things to focus on, nothing else.
Well, part of me thinks it’s time to wrap up this journal.
The other part of me says that I’ve barely begun what I set out on with regard to this journal.
This journal must come to a logical conclusion, and I haven’t arrived at that. What is the purpose of this journal after all?
Did I do that? I’d say so. I took steps back in certain places, but I took steps forward in others. I faced adversity and I continue to face adversity, but that is expected when your standards continue to increase. The first year is easy, when you’re at rock bottom the only direction is up. When you have things to lose however, the risk/reward ratio behind every action drastically changes.
I have made major improvements, but I’ve also taken steps back. Marijuana has entrenched itself back into my life, and that is a major problem that I need to address. Clearly, there is deep-rooted trauma behind my return to its use as a coping mechanism, especially when I am aware that I enjoy my life significantly more without it.
My perfectionist mindset wants to dismiss the good and fixate on the negative, but that wouldn’t do justice to my overall growth. I have changed a lot of things in my life, I have gained significant insights, I am a better person overall. But I must cut my ties with the past that haunts me.
I must embrace my namesake.
No, my real name isn’t Bombay Duck.
Lies.