Weir's Seducing Money While Healing Himself [Regen, Emperor, P.S]

Journals - Major Programs
#1

27th December 2021
Day 1 Wanted, Primal Seduction

Right now there is a beautiful calmness. last time I felt calm like this without sub when I ate medicinal marijuana that too after all panic attack at night for some time which was not worth it anyway or shape

Maybe I am feeling calm because I have been diagnosed with depression a few years ago…where there was mind chatter…constant thinking…worrying…procrastinating(it is still here)

I have explained a few incidents in short on another thread

other than that…I talk to other girls especially the girl at the counter showed her my video & ask her opinion…
talk a trainer made him smile with my witty talks

talk to another guy in the gym about how he bulked…one thing I noticed was people smile at me & come talk to me…

except for a few hatemonger trainers which are still Lil off…but as sub goes deep…I hope they can also follow my lead lol

I feel fearless, WHile I was in another metro city…I without any fear shooting from my phone…while before I would become so worried that what people think…what if they think bad about me…all that bullshit

Yesterday I went to one food festival & also participate in a little competition…Previously I won’t even stand there & think it’s too boring & go home watching porn…instead of real things…which is the actual world…meeting real people…talking to them…

I have a wife which is average but she takes care of me…
I am not running PS wanted chosen emperor to have an affair or sex…but I just need attention…which i lacks my whole life

my own family didn’t love me…there was always partiality, no one loved me in past…i was always alone…but not anymore…in past, I blamed people but now by shooting my own video…I just want at least an influencer…if gods will I would even become a celebrity… let’s see what day 2 which is rest day brings…

My brain definitely needs lots of processing…

mistakes I have done today…didn’t drink enough water 3 ltr max i drank
didn’t take multivitamins seriously
still didn’t drink protein powder lol
didn’t pray yet
not sleeping here now 1 am
didn’t do any productive work

The most awesome feeling of the day
today I lifted after 10 days gap…and wanted to go slow…but the weight felt very light like It was nothing… the same thing happened last time.if you go to my last journal

I don’t know how even I haven’t listen to spartan today, but there was an abundance of energy…still with me as of now I am writing

another thing I had an awesome call with my co-worker…I talked to her about things other than work…she also messaged me

people are now adding me on Snapchat…I am also getting requests :slight_smile:

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#2

I understand this completely. Married also. Wife acts like sex is an occasional chore she has to do to keep me happy.

It wasn’t until I got to the point I was willing to step out to satisfy that part of my life that she started wanting it more…which even though it’s still infrequent, is a nice change.

Not saying you’re like me or I’m like you. Just putting this out there since it’s amazing to me how “average” becomes “above average” when I decided to take action. Even though I didn’t end up needing to take action in that way. Just had to acknowledge it as a possible choice.

I’m running my M1, M2, M3 stacks from the same mindset now, too. I WILL be the wealthiest person I know, I WILL have a great sex life, regardless of who it’s with!

I’m worth it.

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#3

here this part is Lil different in my life…My wife demands sex from me all the time…But I was suffering from PE and low libido because of anti-depression medicine
I know diamond will help me…but I want to heal old scars first

Running Regen to heal old deep seated trauma…I was a very aggressive guy like a crazy person…I shout on my family fight with them…crying crying crying all my adolescent wasted in this shit…

My family took me to a doctor to heal if I am possessed by jinn or satan…but it’s all because I fall in love with a girl but rejection is a very bad thing my ego got hurt every time I fall for a girl in my college days…

I never purposed a girl I just daydream…lots of imagination…at that time I have constantly had dreams of snakes too…I tried to heal myself various unless until 3 years ago I stick with one doctor started consuming anti-depression till today
I know I am writing too much & going off-topic but I think it’s because of sub …

In my last journal I hope I will be a changed person Yes I am a changed person in a very short period lol

allow me to write one incidence…A few weeks ago in home, there is a lil fight between my bros…but I am calm sitting in the corner enjoying food…just like a monk…

after that incident, I felt like and even other family members told me…I was looking a bigger person with intelligence who didn’t went into an ugly nasty fights…I was in another world…f I am in now in differnt world

just a month ago I didn’t miss any call or text message…I was thinking behind…hey, I should a pick call what if another person felt bad…I even go attend call while I was shitting or bathing that much loser person I was

now people calling to text me but I have become calm not giving any f person…I just don’t care

If anybody read my last journal there I had mentioned about a girl which i was obsessed with for over a 6 months…continuously checking her profile…she blocked me 3 times one with my original id

I had an obsession of her ehy I didnt even know hey…but yesterday I wrote to her after keep dominating her with a fake id for the last 2 weeks…that I am done,…You will never get to know who I am :slight_smile:
I know lots of my writing here doesn’t make any sense to you all…I know i am making mistakes while i writing where my mind is having conversion but my hand can’t write that fast

so in last coming to the original reply

after finishing this stack after 26 days I will add paragon regeneration (again) & diamond…to satisfy my wife needs…she deserves it…though I bullied her for the last 8 years with my craziness

P.S I wrote all of this at night 2:30 am I still need lots of proof reading my mind is running very fast but not my hand…If you are interested & want to ask something from any of my posts which you don’t understand…feel free to quote… I just want to let it out

#4

28th December 2021
Day 2 Rest Day/ Libertine ZP

I read in another thread yesterday that we can use libertine ZP whenever we want. So today I was going to a friend’s marriage that’s why I listened to it despite my rest day…

Is this the correct way to do it?

Back to journal

Yesterday I slept at 7 30 am & got the lowest of sleep

Today I also 5 am now I have not slept yet…I know its not right

Okay I will sleep now…will continue to write journal after I woke up

#5

29th December 2021
Day 3 Emperor

Since I reported early morning today I have slept very late.
& woke up early & unable to sleep again.
I listen, emperor, & like yesterday I am able to complete a small task

I even press my own gym clothes the first time.
There’s a little headache because of little sleep
I have taken clonazepam & paroxetine for last 2 days without much sleep
the energy from ZP is so intense that I can’t explain.
It’s Like I have taken some pre-workout with much caffeine
I introduce a new 5 min rule in my life…Where I start completing the small tasks as fast as possible
I was even ready for gym much earlier not like all time

Washed my own clothes
I haven’t eaten anything except 6 boiled eggs…without any salt pepper
my hunger seems suppressed unlike the last few weeks
I make my dad listen regen zp while standing in front of him till he finishes at all

Adult chat with the woman & sent her nude gif nudes…she initially hesitated but I told her that I don’t care if you block me…right away…she submitted herself to me…
I feel like a more dominating personality

despite eating very less I am confident I will now do good in the gym…
I am planning to sleep early today by finishing the all-night task as soon as possible

I also felt I am taking more interest in my work even being overly friendly with my coworker
also being dominated & pointing out her mistake etc…

Before I download anything & never watch it everything looked bored to me but not today

Did I tell you that I am listening to old songs from my childhood…which was very unlikely me… it’s like I am connecting to my childhood

I have now given dedicated time to write my journal on this forum…not like the last few days…where I all-time read read read…its time to use my time as a productive

I am only writing those things which I never did before…in real my personality is changing for good

how can I say that?

because I never care about my dad before…not this much :slight_smile:

See you at night

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#6

30th December 2021
Day 4 Rest day

yesterday I got attention from girls again…had sex chat with a woman but I don’t know why I am actually not interested in her out of sudden…sub is very strange :slight_smile:

I was a very dominant person yesterday… & also did fairly good in the gym too
Since I was not sleeping well for a few days I am thinking of running paragon & regen together on every sub day

I am having frequent bowel issues in the morning…this is not a medical issue since every doctor I met from the last few years just told me…I am thinking too much now anti depressant isn’t that helpful since my body is used to it…

I hope & actually very confident on ALLAH that I will get relief from subs…because all my disease is in my brain only

since I tried every medicine possible but subs are working incredibly with me on other areas of life then it must work on my small little digestion bowel issues.

Today I won’t run libertine I want to treat rest day as pure rest day…no sub for complete 24 hours…I want to give my brain time to process

Today I am having headache…no euphoria & feeling a little down…but slept well for like 8 hours…I wanted to sleep more & wants to compensate for the loss of sleep but it didn’t happen because of bowel issues

yesterday water intake was above 9 litres but today not even drink 1 liter till now

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#7

Day 5

Yesterday Night I again slept late because there was sharp throbbing pain on the right side of the back of my head…I tried a lot of medication. but it is not going away…in past, it comes and goes in 10 minutes but now it is still with me for more than 26 hours

is it recon or what I don’t know

Yesterday I night I tried paragon for pain but it didn’t work

in the morning I tried regen again for pain but this is also not working

now applied some heating pad on my head & felt some relief

I also ran rich zp in the afternoon with no noticeable result but noticed I bought some processed food…I am craving food but also didn’t invest more money just to get some silly discount…I made some conscious decisions right there

I know its not a big deal but it’s unusual for me

finally, I open my laptop & did a few activities

I have also decided to go to the gym while completing some regular usual task

I am right now starting 5 mins rule to get me started on things which I have been delayed

I forgot to write last night while in pain i watch porn literally edge & did masturbate it to it

I broke my nofap streak…bad I know

Water drank till now 2.5 ltrs
didnt bought MCT oil yet for overexposure

#8

I forgot to add I am snapping left-right at my wife…is it recon or just I have a headache that’s why?..in past i also snaped at my wife but not after starting sub…after starting sub i have been clam lately but sometimes I become very aggressive

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#9

Day 6
Rest Day

Good day Recon/Exposure gone after having restful sleep
Vivid Dreams are there
Felt Calm Relax
Full Energy in gym fun talking with girls
One thing I noticed I stop before validating someone unnecessary
lil no fucks given attitude developing
obsession with a girl is finally faded away…I dont want to give her anymore attention

Day 5 leftover important detail
had my salary before 6 days RICH is working his magic

today on day 6 talked about the manager about appraisal …in past, I was always shy about talking to salary increment

I am still making my own video without any shyness
the girls who are not responding I am also not giving any attention to them

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#10

If this is a recon headache, drink lots of water. Zero Point uses a lot of energy to process, which can dehydrate you a bit, and considering the brain is about 80% water, you HAVE to stay hydrated on it. I have a jug of water I keep nearby that I’m drinking from most of the day.

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#11

This is recon. Careful not to overexpose yourself. Also, drop down in loops a bit if it gets too bad.

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#12

I have downloaded app to measure my daily water intake…i am aiming for 5-6 litres daily

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#13

Yep today was my rest day and despite not listening anything i felt very calm and relaxed as if i listen to regeneration zp

I won’t overexpose anymore…but don’t know why i am very tempting to try new sub despite clear warning

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#14

Day 7 : Sub Day

I havent listen to any sub till now becuase still not drink 2 ltrs of water :slight_smile:
Actually wanted to take it slow

Dream
had lots of dream last night

celebrity in my dream
old crush staying in my home dream
our old home dream
etc

Health
not taken my anti-depression medicine for last 2 days
but still had Lil headache back of my head its throbbing pain…
bowel issues are still here

Productivity
No productivity at all
slept late last night (as usual now)
woke up in the afternoon
taking dedicated time to write a journal

Personality
still, Lil is concerned about not getting desired attention from a few girls…wanted to develop no f given attitude
one 35 y old woman is still all over me crazy about me…wants to talk dirty things on Snapchat but fear talking in the gym…I want to avoid her since she is also married

in-home attitude is becoming better…letting go of things from my family instead of snapping back

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#15

Day 8 Rest Day

Last night I had again vivid dreams especially I am in Dubai with my manager lol
I also got some realistic dreams like visualizing in my dream what I thought in the conscious world…So mind eye is a very powerful sub

I felt very energetic after sub which shows I need to listen to sub at day time because at night the energy was too much to handle & finally I edge to my fav fetish porn & released my load…which is not good

I felt guilty after masturbation to porn

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#16

The very energetic day it was despite rest day despite masturbation
Done much household work which I usually don’t do by myself

Started looking after my diet…It wasn’t perfect but at least I started

Calmness Relaxation Energy Full Of There

The gym was excellent despite not listening to spartan zp…I wonder what happens if I start Spartan

got gazing from girls but not that much response but hey I am more focused on the healing aspect of my life & not included major title except emperor this time

Become very social laughing a lot no stress meet with old friends too much praise for my weight loss

had a good time with family after long time

#17

Day 9 Sub Day

  • Yesterday night did too much household work
  • slept around 6+ hours
  • woke up around 11 am better than 12 & 1 PM
  • 3.5 ltrs water drank till now
  • Quickly doing works
  • Office work is going good
#18
  • The gym was good too but felt a little tired and didn’t perform well
  • Confidence is in full swing…another good video recorded
  • glances from women noticed…talked to a few too
  • No fear no anxiety full fun calm relaxed day
  • wasted much time at night but yeah overall day is good
#19

Day 10 Rest Day

  • woke up 5 times during sleep…indicates I need to focus on paragon
  • IBS issue still there, I will focus more on healing…till it gets completely finished
  • vivid dreams…dreams are more realistic
  • woke up again late
  • very tired very very tired
  • no productivity till now
  • Calm Relaxation & happiness is there for no reason :slight_smile:
  • everyone was astonished by seeing me this much happy
  • they never saw me happy…even a few felt I am a very serious guy :wink:
  • one woman is dying to talk to me…I feel harassed now…she is stalking me lol
  • I wont let my other half day waste…lets go to work now
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#20
  • I did well today except for productivity for work & money
  • Subs work well for me on the rest day, I can feel it by the results I experience
  • Lots of well f**** attractions from girls…You can call it huge
  • full on motivation in gym
  • confidence, Super Confidence
  • Leading All girls & boys in gym during CrossFit
  • one girl overtook me on the bike after the gym…When girls are dying for my attention lol never ever
  • One girl I was visualsing me today even talk me…I caught her looking at me helplessly…it looks like she is dying to talk to me
  • She even block me 2- 3 times while I was on my way lol
  • Conversion during family was intense I was out loud and clear…making fun of everyone…surprisingly everyone took it in positive…not like other days…It shows my body language wasn’t showing I mean anything different like it showed in past
  • had long conversion with old friend who lives in other country…I tried to explain him about subcncious mind…but poor me he instead started his lecture on training mind etc…
  • Here I am training mine only after listening water & small whistle sound while doing anything :slight_smile:
  • I need money with lots of chicks…Super Duper ZP’s while restricted hands…
  • I am change…I will change further…I am not stagnant like before & moving forward…Thats just beauty
  • GN
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