Day 11 Sub Day
- The energy was too much I ended up Watching P & Masturbated to it
- Slept good & just woke up 2 times
- No Bowel Issues So far today
- Started NoFap Journey On another forum
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- I didn’t write much about yesterday…I am afraid I overexpose myself or what I don’t know
- No productivity
- Perform average in gym
- attention from girls is as usual…Now I need to learn seduction
- felt tired because of leg day or what I don’t know
- didn’t perform normal routine
- Since started nofap…I started watching movies…which is very unproductive
- slept very late last night
- had to take sleep medicine & paroxetine at 5 am
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Day 12 Rest day
- Woke up only 1 time in the morning while sleeping
- slept good (taken pills)
- No productivity
- groggy feelings (pills)
- slept again in the afternoon
- went to gym perform only Cross Fit
- No Strength Training
- didn’t interact with anyone
- crazy hungry…eating too much & anything
- again started watching movies
- Nofap is still there today will complete 2 days No P & M
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Day 13 Sub Day
- Sleep very good (pill)
- Woke up 1 time only
- Slept very late
- Watched Movie again
- Nofap (2 days 12 hr) clean
- No Productivity (decided to ban movies tv series downloading
- Still didn’t listen to any sub
- Office productivity (very Lil)
- New Sheet for Daily questions to ask for self (productivity fix)
- Lil homework done
- gym was average
- but the attention I am getting is above average
- talk to the new girl in the gym
- talking to girls is becoming so natural to me it’s becoming very easy
- girls are saying bye good evening
- the older woman seems so horny always wants my attention & want to talk to me all time
- new men come & talk to me as if they know me from long time
- social media is so easy… it’s like I am not understanding girls nature (it’s very different what I thought about women before sub)
- drank 4+ water today
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Day 14 Rest Day
- NoFap 3+ days complete, Also No movies
- YouTube comedy took place of Porn & Movies
- I will also ban from today YouTube Entertainment
- Slept slight early than usual despite weekend
- had wonderful 8+ hours sleep with 3 times woken up in the middle
- strange vivid dreams with people I rarely know
- in the end, few boys jump of building & did suicide…very strange
- chatting with too many girls are going on
- Watched a movie…It was intensely loaded with full masculinity traits
- Done a work of a girl who is my friend
- Added many things to my to-do list
- Went to meet my maternal grandfather…I can see how I was so much chatty talked openly with everyone…unlike others time…Where I was just into my phone
- My appetite increases tremendously…The way I am eating I am afraid I won’t get a six-pack…So this week I will follow a strict diet
- Done a few homework
- got money very quickly from a shopkeeper…I am amazed
- Online food ordered…& food was too much for 1 person…even we eat 3 people & still it’s in fridge
Solution for my problem
- Will banned movies from today again till next week
- add new course of masculinity instead of watching movies daily for a few minutes daily
- won’t take the stress of sleep but do a course on self-discipline & follow the guideline seriously
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Day 15 Sub Day
- VIvid dreams of prostitution & thieves etc
- slept good (pill)
- just woke up 3 times
- Completed 4 days of Nofap
I have lots of work at home today…mostly cleaning & pressing… let’s see how I can complete with gym
- Went to a venue…got the utmost respect
- talking with girls are now new normal
- spent 3 hours in the gym & my left hand is now Lil hurting
- made a new video…
- some clash with mother about injustice happening with me…but the new thing is I was very calm relax & talking in manners…where my mother keeps shouting
- even my dad didn’t take my side…this is not new for me
- I am the third child of my parents…I always raised my voice break glasses…throw things cry loudly like a baby…but this time I was calm & own them with my words
- they didn’t come to me or make me understand…maybe they are thinking like in past I will just do this stuff & forget everything the next morning
- little do they know I am becoming a man…a real fucking man…who knows about respect & dignity…I won’t bow in front of anyone…I won’t cross my border look like a psychopath or maniac just to get little affection & love from my parents
- I am also not one who can easily let anyone walk all over me & think I am just emotional fool who would just cry & sit in corner
- I am fucking man treat me well please
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You sure are. I think all of the men in this forum are. And that’s pretty damn cool! Let’s see how far we can push it, my friend. Thanks for your update, I enabled alerts on your journal.
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Do you happen to know the name of the sleep pill?
It’s prescription medications given by my doctor to treat my depression
Day 16 Rest Day
- Woke Up Early
- On my sleep phobia…thought come of masculinity in my mind…If ancient one can fight & get the victory if I develop masculinity I will easily defeat my phobia of sleep
- if I sleep 2 hours or no sleep at all I can easily conquer my day
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Is it sleeo phobia or is it fall-asleep phobia?
I also got no sleep whatsoever.
I tend to have a fall-asleep phobia, but I love to sleep.
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it is sleep phobia…I can sleep easily but woke up many times between in…
If I didn’t sleep then I have phobia I wont perform good in every aspect of life that day
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Would it be correct to call it “sleep deprivation phobia”?
I also am scared of sleep deprivation, because it affects me to an insane extent… It’s like I become a walking zombie where all colors feel intimidating and every sound is unpleasant. Do you experience this also?
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yep that term is correct
nope not that extreme
I just felt heat extreme heat in my body …irritate…no motivation…face swollen & bowel issues etc
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Well, we both suffer from sleep deprivation phobia then at least. Glad I’m not the only one…
I wonder what causes it. Genetics, nutritional deficiency, calorie deficit, lack of hydration, extreme cortisol levels? I notice I get more oily skin also when sleep deprived which might be a sign of too high cortisol. The nausea and the bowel issues you mention could also be that. Maybe in the future there will be a subliminal program to help us need less sleep!
same here
right now I am using paragon on every sub day…till we get sleep specific based sub
I increased my water intake… it really helped me… especially in reducing waking up in middle of sleep
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Pretty good day
but now little exhausted will write tomorrow