It sucks, own those emotions. It’s part of life. I would focus on abundance. Meet more people, more woman.
If you liked her and she had a crush on you in the past, what happened? Did you not make a move back then?
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So at the time I didn’t really like her enough to make a move. I was kind of going with the flow and had no expectations whatsoever. I think it was when she started calling me a lot, telling me her stories, stuff like that is when I started to get drawn to her because I felt a connection. I did blow it though and missed out on the opportunity. I kind of self sabotage and started caring way too much. Looking back now, I wish I had the same assertiveness to say hey lets blah blah when the attraction was high
Back then my confidence was in the gutter too…so I didn’t think it was possible for her to like me
there were a lot of factors but ultimately it was my fault, I wasn’t ready at all
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I feel you brother. See, she maybe felt the same at the time like you do now. Sometimes shi happens like this.
you got this
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When emotions hit, they hit hard for me. It might be an emotional regulation thing where emotions(especially negative ones) just seem to stick to me like glue even after the fact
Something I’m working on right now
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Thanks. Yea it’s possible, I believe that…it is what it is…it’s a learning experience I guess. I know one day I’m going to look back at this and laugh but I just have to move on and stay strong
Appreciate it
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You accept it, move on and full your life with meaning pursuits.Someone i slept with recently confessed to me only to message the next day to call things off. I shrugged, moved on and now I have several partners.
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Yeah, for sure
I’ve been following your journal for a while
Yeah I get what you mean
It sucks when that happens
It’s afterwards when it clears you start to reflect and notice the changes
Probably why I’m noticing it and you’re not
Are you on GLM?
It has this really cool effect that lets you observe what comes up
It helps with reconciliation too
The trick is to observe it coming up without judgment
When it hits, don’t fight it and don’t push it down
Just let it sit there, let it pass through you, then get back to what you were doing
Replaying it after the fact is what makes it stick, so try not to go back over it in your head
Throw the energy into something with actual output, gym, work, whatever moves the needle for you
Not to prove anything, just cause it burns through it faster than sitting with it does
Give it time and stop feeding it and it’ll bother you less and less
Yep
GLM name embed with become the prize essence
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Awesome
I think regeneration has the same, I could be wrong, but I have experienced what you are talking about
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Funny thing is for awhile I thought I was getting worse because I was being way more needier then when I started sub club, being more jealous, being just a loser…obsessing over women etc., then realized…and it hit pretty hard…its not that the sub did this but it uncovered something that had been there since I was in middle school, I just never really noticed it because I was acting out of instinct and now that I’m aware of it
Damn
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Awesome, I’m glad. I honestly think thats the most helpful thing because sometimes your brain tries to convince you that there’s no change has occurred at all so hearing you say I’ve changed a lot gives me a lot of hope and confidence
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Yeah, you’ll be fine
Really love reading this, really powerful insights you’re going through
Yeah for sure, really glad you’re posting this all online
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The other day I had a friend literally give me free stuff without me asking, he went out of his way to give me free stuff. I was suspicious because in the past, usually my mom, would do nice things just for me only to use it against me later, so I had that in mind, but no…he did it because he wanted to do it. There was no obligation and it felt weird at first because I’m not used to being treated nice. It’s actually a weird feeling low key, for me. Whenever someone treats me nice, I just feel weird. I hope I can learn to accept love more easily and readily
Also still no porn or masturbation since starting this stack…must be GLM for sure.
I also think the combination of emperor and GLM is powerful…Emperor/PS is like go go go…and sometimes it can be good for productivity but when it comes to seduction, I tend to come off as too aggressive instead of laid back and relaxed
but GLM adds that strong unfazed I’m here and existing powerful strong feeling. I still get anxious and fearful when facing my fears but now it almost feels like I have a little emotional support…like I can actually do that
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I added wdb store title in my stack 2 days ago, so my stack right now is
QTKS PS/Emepror
GLM name embed (become the prize)
and WDB store title
What I noticed so far:
There are things in my life that I should be able to do that everyone does but terrifies me…one of them is doing like uber and delivering food to people
I used to be afraid to do that because the way my mind works is I think of the worst case scenario, like what if this and what if that but today I was on a role. I just kept going and going and going. I was taking multiple orders and not getting burnt out mentally.
I just felt in control, like I could just do it. I even had a restaurant staff try to flirt with me when I was getting food but was very distracted.
GLM gave me strength and WDB made me more sociable
It’s like today I’ve accepted the whatever happens, happens mentality. I used to be scared of taking risks because I was overthinking(my weaknesses) of the worst possible outcomes(learnt behavior from avoidant parenting style and paranoid mom) but now I’m like whatever, who cares.
IN THE GRAND SCHEME OF EVERYTHING, THIS PROBLEM IS NOT EVEN A SPECK OF DUST IN THIS VAST UNIVERSE
I literally feel it, it’s hard to explain it. Its like I feel the feeling and then act just like the feature on GLM sales page and I’m not saying that just to say that, I literally didn’t even look it up, it just came to mind after reading the sales page long time ago
I’ve found myself challenging my limits and what is possible. I also relapsed on porn and masturbation. after getting turned down by a woman I was supposed see. But then felt like I betrayed myself and usually I loathe over it and get into a bad habit of continuing the habit for months, but today I had no urge, just motivation that kept me going forward and pushing myself to do more for the betterment of my current financial situation.
Theres no more sitting around, just full on motivation to keep pushing forward which was never a thing before
Lastly, I just feel like a man…a strong man stable man
GLM is a gem for sure
If taking action is the momentum to accomplish your dreams then GLM is the slope that helps you push the boulder, once you push the ball, things tarts rolling easily.
I’m not a going out type of guy but this week I’ve been out and feeling like just being out…instead of in the house bored. Mainly going and doing deliveries, and stuff, and getting food
I finally feel like my financial goals are possible and nothing seems to be deterring me from doing so
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These past couple of days have been tough. I just feel depressed, anxious and doubting my life and “mistakes” I’ve made. Everything just seems blurry right now. I feel like I’ve been living in a deception or a lie my whole life and then someone finally opened the veil and the light was too blinding. I don’t know if I would categorize this as recon.
My brain feels slow and it only happened after binge watching a lot of porn and masturbating twice the past couple of days.
It’s like trying to cope with this deep sadness within me that is swallowing me up and consuming me like fire
I feel like I’m getting broken down to get rebuilt again…I don’t know. Maybe I need more rest days or maybe I need more food because I haven’t been eating that much these past couple of days…when I did eat a calorie fat dense food, the heaviness and worry went away fast…so it could be that unintentionally not eating really messed me up big time
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That’s recon dude. You’re spiraling.
Have you considered scaling back your stack? Your QTKS putting enough strain on your processing power and you keep adding alpha and seduction stuff when the QTKS has that covered.
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Damn, I just thought that I was going crazy…I guess it’s a relief. If recon then this is some brutal recon. Not as bad as when I ran terminus a couple of years ago, that fucked me upppppp big time.
I know I have shiny object syndrome. I keep thinking oh maybe this will fix this or that or whatever. When in recon I noticed I add more to my stack instead of dropping the main sub that is causing the recon
During recon, is it normal to feel like your whole world is falling apart, question a lot of things, being paranoid, being emotionally volatile…like small things feel like they are overwhelming. Finding things to worry about that you shouldn’t really worry about.
Having a fight or flight reaction to stuff
It feels like you’re trying to speed run your problems by throwing more subs at them. Without the foundation to keep shit form toppling over. You’re running a hybrid seduction QTKS, (with seduction modules) a seduction major title and a identity title with seduction infusion (Be the Prize is just distilled Wanted). You don’t need that much seduction scripting.
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